GONE AWAY
Abhorrent Funeral

Song: Gone Away
Artist: Cold
Anime: Dragon ball Z

Do you pray
In the night
Can you appreciate the wind
And I won't care
I won't fight
I need you close to sing

I looked out my window at the oh so silent night. I watched as a person dies to another person. I've seen the aftermath and watched them be some helpless. It drove me crazy. I won't fight the feeling within me, and I won't be the only around here, being me.. I won't pray for your needs. All I ask.. please...

It's the same beginning
Gone away
It's the same old, same old song
Gone away
It's my whole life
In words

I could write to my past. All It'll be is the same thing over and over. Being afraid, forced to fight, watch the people I love, care for die in front of my eyes. I can write the whole thing and yet all it will be is the same fucking thing, It's a drag..

And I can't breathe
When you cry
But I'll be there to hold you tight
And I would kill

.. I can't seem to understand this fear. I watched you cry, I would cry too. I held you when you would cry. And yet none of it seems real anymore. I heard the insults you said. I heard the jokes you would tell, and it, I would kill just to be there with you...

I would fight
To keep you close
I keep singing the same way
I won't live
If you died
If I can feel you in the wind

I could sometimes still hear you, I can hear you sometimes. I just can't see you anymore.. I wish I could. I fight everyday just to keep those memories with me. I try to keep your voice in my mind, watching you talk to mom and laugh. It kills me to see your things around the house. It hurts to not see you anymore. But I know you're watching over. I can feel you..

And this is me
It's my life
I'll need you close to sing
It's the same beginning
Gone away
It's the same old, same old song
Gone away
It's my whole life



...We'd used to sing together. I remember that. I remember sitting on the couch listing to songs and singing along. We'd used to close. Despise the generation gap. You knew that I couldn't keep my friends. You knew that I had to lose all hopes on a good friend. You knew.. And I knew you knew. But it's the same things... Every year.. It's the same fucking things.. and why? It's my whole life...

In words
Gone away
It's the same old, same old song
Gone away
It's my whole life

My whole life could be written in the three little words.. HELL that's it. I never could keep my life straight. All I used to have a paper, pencil and I used to sketch my thoughts. Color them in and watch a picture form. All my life had been like that. My best buddy I've ever knew lived inside my mind. I wish I could change that...

And I can't say
And I don't know
How far
I'll go
And I can't say
And I don't know
How far
I'll go

...I can't say where I'll go, I can't say when I'll get there but I'll get there. I wish they'd give me more time. I wish they didn't do this to me. But they do.. and they will...

Gone away
It's the same old, same old song
Gone away
It's my whole life
In words

...Death, birth, lost, helpless. Growing, shrinking, bleeding, healing....

Gone away
It's the same old, same old song
Gone away
It's my whole life

"...Can you play with me?" Asked my little brother looking up at me with his puppy dog eyes that I taught him.

"Yeah, hold up." I looked out my window and sighed I miss you, see you soon.