I guess I'll start at the beginning, maybe give you a little background of
myself, well at least what I can remember. What I do know is that my name
is Sinead and I'm an average teenager growing up in average America. I go
to school, shop, see movies, pay out teenyboppers and homie's, you know
usual stuff. It's at night when things get weird. That's when I have the
dreams, sometimes nightmares of a world far away, something I've long
forgotten. Dreams about aliens, huge monster aliens with blades all over
them. But the weird thing about these dreams is that I'm the monster, I
can feel myself moving it's arm, whipping its tail, cutting something up
with it's blades. Other nights I'm a monkey type thing, small blind and
clumsy.
The dreams have been happening more frequently lately that I'll be in the
middle of class and I'll get a vision, shooting pain of an animal attacking
me, yet I know it could never have happened. I'm just a normal plain human
girl, yet something doesn't seem right, something deep down inside me keeps
nagging me, a voice, a voice in my head I can hear screaming, "NO!! NO!!"
screaming for help.
It was the very last straw, I couldn't take any of it, no more, I had to
stop these dreams, that were seeming more and more like memories and that
voice, I had to stop that voice screaming in my head, as if it was trying
to take over. I did what I'd been thinking about for a long time, but not
being game enough to try. I went to a shrink, I went to someone I know I
could talk to, someone I could just spill it all out to, and that's why I'm
here, maybe you can help me, maybe you know what's in my head.
The shrink sat still, staring at me. He was shocked at first but then
realization dawned on him. He nodded. "Yes, I know what's wrong, I know
why you've been remem- ... seeing these things. I can help you" I smiled
at him. "Really! You know what's happening to me?" I stopped suddenly,
when I saw him pull something out of his desk draw it looked like a gun,
no, I knew what it was, I remembered holding one long ago, but no it was
impossible how could I have been holding a dracon beam? He looked at me and
smiled as he held the beam to my head.
"I thought you we're all gone, I thought we'd gotten rid of all of you, but
obviously we were mistaken." I stood there with my mouth gaping. He
started to explain but he didn't need to, I remembered. I was a yeerk, a
parasitic slug, but I was different to the others, I was a new breed, a new
breed that didn't need the kandrona. It was marvelous; the council was
thrilled with the new technology. The kandrona was our one true weakness
and we'd defeated it. But it caused problems, especially those of us who
were in human bodies. That voice in my head, that screamed at me.my
host.I'd forgotten I was a yeerk. I got wound up, lost in the human mind I
forgot I was a parasite in a stolen body. I thought I was this human, I
honestly thought I was the human. I felt sick to the stomach, no, this
body felt sick, I quickly withdrew myself, put up a wall between my host,
and me. For how long? For how long had I been lost, not knowing who I
really was. The shrink smiled at me again, but I knew him now Ridnet-eight-
three-four. A yeerk, like me, but not like me, he needed the kandrona, he
need that break every three days to help him remember that he was a yeerk.
The dracon beam was still aimed at my head; "You know it's the only way,"
Ridnet was telling me. No I said, I won't forget anymore. He fired and
the human fell, but I was still alive I quickly escaped the dead girl, but
I stupidly left myself open to Ridnet, my bright purple colour
distinguishing me from his brown colour. He shot again, and everything
turned black.
