Hey everyone, sorry for the cliffhanger, but hey it didn't take that long for me to write the next chapter, right? Oh, and when I said something about 3 weeks between an update I was referring about the time between chap. 5 and chap. 6. Oh, and sorry for changing the rating to R but you'll understand why when you read this.
Disclaimer: Invader Zim is Jhonen Vasquez's work of genius, not mine... :sigh:
She began to sweat and tremble at the same time, 'Get a grip! It happened so long ago, why can't you just let it go?' the voices were back. It had happened a long time ago, but everything was engraved in her memory, every second was as vivid as if it had happened yesterday. She dropped slowly to the ground and hugged her knees, pulling herself into a fetal position.
'So you can give advice to other people about letting things go but not take it yourself?' her angry inner voice spoke in her head, taunting her.
"But...it hurt. Hurt so bad." Gaz moaned out loud, not quite loud enough for Zim to hear the words but loud enough for him to hear the anguish that came with it.
'Little Gaz is scared.' The voice continued, 'She's always been scared and helpless.'
"N-no..." Gaz whimpered, trying to defend herself from the voice, "It's not true...not true." She was shaking uncontrollably, and she heard her voice tremble as she spoke. She whimpered softly before she could stop it.
Zim strained his ears, as he heard Gaz talking to herself. It sounded like she was arguing with someone. He nearly gasped when he heard her whimper, Gaz was seriously afraid..., but of the dark? It didn't seem like her at all.
"Are you okay?" He asked uncertainly. Little noises floated from where Gaz was, they sounded like those of a primitive animal that had been separated from its mother. A quiet wailing. Zim was astonished, Gaz wasn't afraid of anything, or so he'd once thought. When she didn't respond he stood up, somewhat hesitantly, and walked to where he figured Gaz was. Trying to sense where she was without running into her, he knelt down to where he heard the noises. He stretched his hand toward her and touched what he thought was her shoulder.
'God! She's shaking!" Zim thought as he came in contact with her, she gave out a strangled sob and shrank away from him.
"Gaz?" Zim asked, "Are you alright?" She didn't reply, he shuffled on his knees closer to her, "C'mon! Tell me what's wrong!" he ordered impatiently. Still no response.
"Dammit Gaz! I'll blast your fucking head off if you don't tell me what's wrong!" Zim threatened loosing his patience. The noises became short and a little frantic sounding, rather then the wailing it was before. It took Zim a couple seconds to realize that she was crying. Uncertainly, he put his hand on her shoulder once again. He opened his mouth to try and get her to start talking, but shut it quickly when Gaz spoke.
"Mommy...and me...w-we were making cookies be-because Dibby and Dad went to see a movie. I was getting the eggs out of the fridge, and then I heard a noise. I shut the fridge and saw Momma lying on the floor, there was a slash on her cheek and b-blood, and a man was there too." Gaz stopped, she was nearly sobbing now. Zim, feeling uncomfortable, moved closer and wrapped a hesitant arm around her shoulders. Gaz wiped tears off of her face and took a deep breath before continuing. "I started screaming, the man h-he didn't know I was there and he looked up and when he saw me he, he grinned. But it wasn't a nice grin, it wasn't nice at all. He kept watching me as he grabbed Momma by the hair and made her look at me. He whispered something to her, I don't know what but it was something scary, 'cause her eyes got big and she started to kick and hit him. B-but he was too strong and he started kicking her, real hard. At first she was screaming real loud, but when he stopped she was only breathing hard. Mommy was trying to yell at me to run, but I couldn't move, I don't know why but I couldn't move. Then the man started walking toward, and I started running to the front door. But, h-he caught me-" Gaz stopped, Zim gave her an encouraging squeeze. He didn't really want to hear this, it wasn't his business, but he couldn't just make her stop.
"He took me back to the kitchen and he-he turned off all the lights, so it was dark-real dark. Then he tied a cloth around my eyes, so I couldn't see anything, it was all dark, so dark. Then he took off my clothes-" Zim cringed, god he didn't want to hear this, not one bit, "And he-he...stuck himself inside me. I could hear Mommy, she was crying and whispering stuff like, 'I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry." I kept telling her that it wasn't her fault, it wasn't her fault.... Finally, he stopped what he wa-was doing, and took my blindfold off. Then, he turned the light back on. He brought out a knife; he let it flash in the light a couple times. Then, he put it next to Mommy's throat, Mommy looked at me, she was real sad. I told her that it was okay, it wasn't her fault, then I told her that I loved her. The man started laughing, he cut m-my M-mommy's head off," Zim winced, this was disgusting, "There was blood everywhere, everywhere, the man was still laughing as he left. I went to my mommy and cuddled against her, I cried until I fell asleep. Then Dad and Dibby came back, Daddy came in first- he saw everything and made Dib go to his room, so he couldn't see anything. Daddy called the hospital and the police. They came and took Mommy away and made me go to the hospital. They told Daddy that I'd been molested. Daddy was very sad about Mommy, but he got really mad when the doctors told him. At first he said it wasn't true, but he knew that it was. The police asked me questions, like 'what did he look like,' but I didn't tell them. I couldn't, I would start crying and Daddy would get real mad and tell them to leave. They stopped asking questions, Daddy started working lots, and Dib thought that Mommy had been abducted by aliens. I didn't want to tell him the truth, he might've gotten mad at me 'cause it was my fault."
"What!" Zim shouted, he made guttural sound in the back of his throat. He couldn't help it, how could she think it was her fault?
"I could've run away, I could've gotten help, I could've tried to stop him. I had the chance, I could have saved her! She'd be alive if I had only gotten help!" Gaz slipped out of Zim's hold and slumped to the ground where she began sobbing again.
"You were only a little kid, you did what you thought was right." Zim said, he pulled her toward him, with her halfway on his lap. Still crying, she leaned against his chest. Surprised, Zim tensed and then relaxed putting his chin on the top of her head. They sat there until Zim realized she'd stopped crying, he leaned back and saw that she was asleep.
"Couch set up, 16 feet by 14 feet," Zim whispered, a whirring was heard before the floor opened and a couch popped up. Zim stood up and went to go put her on the sofa but when he set her down, she whimpered and clutched his shirt. Sighing, Zim sat down on the couch with her in his lap, and soon found himself getting drowsy and was soon asleep.
Disclaimer: Invader Zim is Jhonen Vasquez's work of genius, not mine... :sigh:
She began to sweat and tremble at the same time, 'Get a grip! It happened so long ago, why can't you just let it go?' the voices were back. It had happened a long time ago, but everything was engraved in her memory, every second was as vivid as if it had happened yesterday. She dropped slowly to the ground and hugged her knees, pulling herself into a fetal position.
'So you can give advice to other people about letting things go but not take it yourself?' her angry inner voice spoke in her head, taunting her.
"But...it hurt. Hurt so bad." Gaz moaned out loud, not quite loud enough for Zim to hear the words but loud enough for him to hear the anguish that came with it.
'Little Gaz is scared.' The voice continued, 'She's always been scared and helpless.'
"N-no..." Gaz whimpered, trying to defend herself from the voice, "It's not true...not true." She was shaking uncontrollably, and she heard her voice tremble as she spoke. She whimpered softly before she could stop it.
Zim strained his ears, as he heard Gaz talking to herself. It sounded like she was arguing with someone. He nearly gasped when he heard her whimper, Gaz was seriously afraid..., but of the dark? It didn't seem like her at all.
"Are you okay?" He asked uncertainly. Little noises floated from where Gaz was, they sounded like those of a primitive animal that had been separated from its mother. A quiet wailing. Zim was astonished, Gaz wasn't afraid of anything, or so he'd once thought. When she didn't respond he stood up, somewhat hesitantly, and walked to where he figured Gaz was. Trying to sense where she was without running into her, he knelt down to where he heard the noises. He stretched his hand toward her and touched what he thought was her shoulder.
'God! She's shaking!" Zim thought as he came in contact with her, she gave out a strangled sob and shrank away from him.
"Gaz?" Zim asked, "Are you alright?" She didn't reply, he shuffled on his knees closer to her, "C'mon! Tell me what's wrong!" he ordered impatiently. Still no response.
"Dammit Gaz! I'll blast your fucking head off if you don't tell me what's wrong!" Zim threatened loosing his patience. The noises became short and a little frantic sounding, rather then the wailing it was before. It took Zim a couple seconds to realize that she was crying. Uncertainly, he put his hand on her shoulder once again. He opened his mouth to try and get her to start talking, but shut it quickly when Gaz spoke.
"Mommy...and me...w-we were making cookies be-because Dibby and Dad went to see a movie. I was getting the eggs out of the fridge, and then I heard a noise. I shut the fridge and saw Momma lying on the floor, there was a slash on her cheek and b-blood, and a man was there too." Gaz stopped, she was nearly sobbing now. Zim, feeling uncomfortable, moved closer and wrapped a hesitant arm around her shoulders. Gaz wiped tears off of her face and took a deep breath before continuing. "I started screaming, the man h-he didn't know I was there and he looked up and when he saw me he, he grinned. But it wasn't a nice grin, it wasn't nice at all. He kept watching me as he grabbed Momma by the hair and made her look at me. He whispered something to her, I don't know what but it was something scary, 'cause her eyes got big and she started to kick and hit him. B-but he was too strong and he started kicking her, real hard. At first she was screaming real loud, but when he stopped she was only breathing hard. Mommy was trying to yell at me to run, but I couldn't move, I don't know why but I couldn't move. Then the man started walking toward, and I started running to the front door. But, h-he caught me-" Gaz stopped, Zim gave her an encouraging squeeze. He didn't really want to hear this, it wasn't his business, but he couldn't just make her stop.
"He took me back to the kitchen and he-he turned off all the lights, so it was dark-real dark. Then he tied a cloth around my eyes, so I couldn't see anything, it was all dark, so dark. Then he took off my clothes-" Zim cringed, god he didn't want to hear this, not one bit, "And he-he...stuck himself inside me. I could hear Mommy, she was crying and whispering stuff like, 'I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry." I kept telling her that it wasn't her fault, it wasn't her fault.... Finally, he stopped what he wa-was doing, and took my blindfold off. Then, he turned the light back on. He brought out a knife; he let it flash in the light a couple times. Then, he put it next to Mommy's throat, Mommy looked at me, she was real sad. I told her that it was okay, it wasn't her fault, then I told her that I loved her. The man started laughing, he cut m-my M-mommy's head off," Zim winced, this was disgusting, "There was blood everywhere, everywhere, the man was still laughing as he left. I went to my mommy and cuddled against her, I cried until I fell asleep. Then Dad and Dibby came back, Daddy came in first- he saw everything and made Dib go to his room, so he couldn't see anything. Daddy called the hospital and the police. They came and took Mommy away and made me go to the hospital. They told Daddy that I'd been molested. Daddy was very sad about Mommy, but he got really mad when the doctors told him. At first he said it wasn't true, but he knew that it was. The police asked me questions, like 'what did he look like,' but I didn't tell them. I couldn't, I would start crying and Daddy would get real mad and tell them to leave. They stopped asking questions, Daddy started working lots, and Dib thought that Mommy had been abducted by aliens. I didn't want to tell him the truth, he might've gotten mad at me 'cause it was my fault."
"What!" Zim shouted, he made guttural sound in the back of his throat. He couldn't help it, how could she think it was her fault?
"I could've run away, I could've gotten help, I could've tried to stop him. I had the chance, I could have saved her! She'd be alive if I had only gotten help!" Gaz slipped out of Zim's hold and slumped to the ground where she began sobbing again.
"You were only a little kid, you did what you thought was right." Zim said, he pulled her toward him, with her halfway on his lap. Still crying, she leaned against his chest. Surprised, Zim tensed and then relaxed putting his chin on the top of her head. They sat there until Zim realized she'd stopped crying, he leaned back and saw that she was asleep.
"Couch set up, 16 feet by 14 feet," Zim whispered, a whirring was heard before the floor opened and a couch popped up. Zim stood up and went to go put her on the sofa but when he set her down, she whimpered and clutched his shirt. Sighing, Zim sat down on the couch with her in his lap, and soon found himself getting drowsy and was soon asleep.