Chapter Ten - Journal
October 16th
I am incapable of expressing the feelings which I have for a particular young man on paper. My stomach is tight, my face feels hot, and I want to throw up every time he's near me. It is by far the most wonderful feeling ever. It is a shame that eventually I shall return to what I actually am, and no longer be allowed to hold these feelings for him. I am just afraid that he may feel the same way, and that means I will end up hurting him when I leave. I cannot do that.
When it comes to Harry, he is still well protected, though the death of a student in his bedroom is frightening. Why did I not foresee this? I had no anticipation of this atrocity occurring. But I know it means I must be more careful about what Harry does and what I must do. I must protect him with tighter spells around him.
It is funny that such a smart boy does not realize what is going on around him. That there are almost seventy spells floating around him at this moment. I find it slightly humorous, actually. But I do feel rather guilty- does he not deserve to know that he is being cared for? He is being protected? According to Headmaster Dumbledore, it is best for him not to know. I do not agree with this judgment, but I will follow the Headmaster's lead on this. He is, after all, the official protector of Harry.
I took my first visit to Hogsmeade today, which is where I found out that I was seriously in love. He is just so great. There is nothing more to be said.
Oh, I must go. Some fourth years brought back some play items from Zonko's and are having a grand time in the common room. Though I do not know whom they are speaking of, Ron and Harry claim that these boys are just like Ron's brothers, Fred and George. If this is true, I have a strong wish to meet those twins.
Good night, Ruby
~~~
October 17th
Albus seems crazy due to Professor Lupin and Mister Black in prison. He is running around like a mad man trying to get everything done in order to release the two innocent men. He seems quite flustered all the time. His colleague, Professor Minerva McGonagall, is trying everything in her power to get him to calm down, but nothing seems to work. I feel terrible that such a good man must go through such hard times.
He has registered a meeting with the new Minister of Magic, Gregory Mysticus. He is highly capable of his job, Albus says, and is a much more efficient and tolerable Minister than Cornelius Fudge was before he committed suicide. Mysticus, Albus said, is not someone who would allow Dementors to fall to Voldemort. I find this exceedingly comforting, although of course, I know that Mysticus will be the most successful Minister since Harold Livingston in fourteen-thirty-five.
On a final note, Harry and his friends seem to be avoiding me. I know no reason why they would do this. You see, since I am now human, I do not know what is going on anymore than Dumbledore, except what I have foreseen before I was human. Unfortunately for yours truly, though, I have a terrible memory.
Good night, Ruby
~~~
October 18th
I am beyond angry! My face is bright red, my breathing is heavy, and I have no wish to make this a long entry.
Virginia Weasley claims that I have murdered young Seamus Finnigan!
The nerve!
Ruby
~~~
October 19th
No wonder Harry and his friends have been eluding me. They wish to have nothing to do with me! Virginia, Ginny to her friends, has convinced them I am a murderer. I have half the mind to go inform Albus about the allegations that face me, but he would probably point out that it is better to have them think I am a murderer than an Oracle in disguise. I must agree. Then again, how am I supposed to protect someone who is staying as far from me as possible? Looking after this boy is becoming more of a hassle then I had hoped for.
I have also overheard that Harry has been threatened through a letter. I must find out exactly what the letter says. I am assuming it is from Voldemort, though I cannot be positive. I know they all believe it is from me, but what do you expect? I will just allow this continue until I can take no more.
Besides, it is enthralling to watch Draco stand up for me.
Good night, Ruby
October 16th
I am incapable of expressing the feelings which I have for a particular young man on paper. My stomach is tight, my face feels hot, and I want to throw up every time he's near me. It is by far the most wonderful feeling ever. It is a shame that eventually I shall return to what I actually am, and no longer be allowed to hold these feelings for him. I am just afraid that he may feel the same way, and that means I will end up hurting him when I leave. I cannot do that.
When it comes to Harry, he is still well protected, though the death of a student in his bedroom is frightening. Why did I not foresee this? I had no anticipation of this atrocity occurring. But I know it means I must be more careful about what Harry does and what I must do. I must protect him with tighter spells around him.
It is funny that such a smart boy does not realize what is going on around him. That there are almost seventy spells floating around him at this moment. I find it slightly humorous, actually. But I do feel rather guilty- does he not deserve to know that he is being cared for? He is being protected? According to Headmaster Dumbledore, it is best for him not to know. I do not agree with this judgment, but I will follow the Headmaster's lead on this. He is, after all, the official protector of Harry.
I took my first visit to Hogsmeade today, which is where I found out that I was seriously in love. He is just so great. There is nothing more to be said.
Oh, I must go. Some fourth years brought back some play items from Zonko's and are having a grand time in the common room. Though I do not know whom they are speaking of, Ron and Harry claim that these boys are just like Ron's brothers, Fred and George. If this is true, I have a strong wish to meet those twins.
Good night, Ruby
~~~
October 17th
Albus seems crazy due to Professor Lupin and Mister Black in prison. He is running around like a mad man trying to get everything done in order to release the two innocent men. He seems quite flustered all the time. His colleague, Professor Minerva McGonagall, is trying everything in her power to get him to calm down, but nothing seems to work. I feel terrible that such a good man must go through such hard times.
He has registered a meeting with the new Minister of Magic, Gregory Mysticus. He is highly capable of his job, Albus says, and is a much more efficient and tolerable Minister than Cornelius Fudge was before he committed suicide. Mysticus, Albus said, is not someone who would allow Dementors to fall to Voldemort. I find this exceedingly comforting, although of course, I know that Mysticus will be the most successful Minister since Harold Livingston in fourteen-thirty-five.
On a final note, Harry and his friends seem to be avoiding me. I know no reason why they would do this. You see, since I am now human, I do not know what is going on anymore than Dumbledore, except what I have foreseen before I was human. Unfortunately for yours truly, though, I have a terrible memory.
Good night, Ruby
~~~
October 18th
I am beyond angry! My face is bright red, my breathing is heavy, and I have no wish to make this a long entry.
Virginia Weasley claims that I have murdered young Seamus Finnigan!
The nerve!
Ruby
~~~
October 19th
No wonder Harry and his friends have been eluding me. They wish to have nothing to do with me! Virginia, Ginny to her friends, has convinced them I am a murderer. I have half the mind to go inform Albus about the allegations that face me, but he would probably point out that it is better to have them think I am a murderer than an Oracle in disguise. I must agree. Then again, how am I supposed to protect someone who is staying as far from me as possible? Looking after this boy is becoming more of a hassle then I had hoped for.
I have also overheard that Harry has been threatened through a letter. I must find out exactly what the letter says. I am assuming it is from Voldemort, though I cannot be positive. I know they all believe it is from me, but what do you expect? I will just allow this continue until I can take no more.
Besides, it is enthralling to watch Draco stand up for me.
Good night, Ruby