Title: I Ain't Goin' Down
Author: Alexis
Rating: PG-13 mild language and mature, deep themes
Disclaimer: I don't own anything except the basic story line. Amy Sherman-Palladimo and the WB and other people I don't know own it. And Shania Twain owns the song. (I think). And The Beatles and Stevie Nicks own their songs.
Pairing: No pairing…Lorelai/Rory
Character: Nearly everyone- there may be a few new minor characters (no Mary Sues- I promise)
Spoilers: Contains no spoilers
Summary: This is a song-based fic. The song is by Shania Twain and is called "I Ain't Goin' Down." The story is mostly about Lorelai's past and her discovering herself.
Note: Anything in italics is someone's thought. (It may also be a stressed word- you'll figure it out) Underlined things are usually, stressed words. AND this is my first time writing in this format so please give me tips. The character's thoughts will be right before or after their dialogue unless otherwise noted.
A/N: Lorelai's life is based in this song: She had Rory @ 15…Chris hasn't been around since…She barely ever talks to her parents…she dropped out of school…she had several jobs. Plus she: lives in Stars Hollow…her parents are rich…she was supposed to go to fancy schools (so was Chris & he does)…etc. Here are the lyrics and a quick intro. And the entire past parts of the fic is Lorelai's POV/ Flashback.
Chapter 1: Returning to the Past
I Ain't Goin' Down
Written by: Shania Twain / R. J. Lange
I'm gonna hold on--
'cause what I believe in is so strong
No matter how long, no one
Can tell me I'm wrong--I ain't goin' down
I had a baby at fifteen--
daddy never did forgive me
I never heard from the guy again
I had to drop outta high school--
everybody treated me so cruel
But I didn't give in and giver her away
[Repeat Chorus]
Her smile got me through the day--
and every night I'd pray
I could give her enough
At night I'd lie awake and cry--
hopin' we'd get by
'Cause you can't live on love
I worked night and day to keep us goin'
Through the sweat and tears
without her knowin'
It was worth it just to watch her grow
Oh, oh, at least I was able to hold her
Whenever she needed my shoulder
I'm so glad I never let her go
[Repeat Chorus]
Her smile got me through the years--
dried away the tears
And filled me with hope
At night I'd lie awake and cry--
prayed we would get by
And for the courage to cope
Oh, oh, oh
[Instrumental solo]
Her smile got me through the day--
and every night I'd pray
I could give her enough
[Repeat Chorus (2x)]
No on can tell me I'm wrong
I ain't goin' down
Lorelai Gilmore was siting in Luke's diner and sipping her coffee. Luke had gone upstairs, so she was alone. Then a song began to play on the radio as she listened she felt it was written about her. After 40 seconds into the song she was crying. When the song was over she kept hearing phrases from the song in her head:
I'm gonna hold on--
'cause what I believe in is so strong
No matter how long, no one
Can tell me I'm wrong--I ain't goin' down
~~~~~~`
Her smile got me through the years--
dried away the tears
And filled me with hope
Those words where so true for Lorelai Gilmore. She had to hear that song again. 30 minutes later Lorelai was at a 24-hour K-mart and had purchased the CD.
~*Cut to Gilmore Household…in Lorelai's Room….She's listening to the song quietly*~
As Every phrase was sung a tear rolled down her cheek and she remembered her teenage years…it was all coming back to her now. As the scenes past through her mind she felt like a third person watching her life, yet at the same time she felt like she was living it all over again. She was afraid to face her past…but she knew she had to…it was painful…but joyful…either way she let it happen. As Lorelai moves into her past we hear "In My Life" By The Beatles and "Landslide" By Stevie Nicks.
In My Life
By: The Beatles
THERE ARE PLACES I´LL REMEMBER,
ALL MY LIFE
THOUGH SOME HAVE CHANGED.
SOME FOREVER, NOT FOR BETTER;
SOME HAVE GONE AND SOME REMAIN.
ALL THESE PLACES HAVE THEIR MOMENTS
WITH LOVERS AND FRIENDS I STILL CAN RECALL.
SOME ARE DEAD AND SOME ARE LIVING,
IN MY LIVE I'VE LOVED THEM ALL.
BUT OF ALL THESE FRIENDS AND LOVERS
THERE IS NO ONE COMPARES WITH YOU.
AND THESE MEM´RIES LOSE THEIR MEANING
WHEN I THINK OF LOVE AS SOMETHING NEW.
THO' I KNOW I´LL NEVER LOSE AFFECTION
FOR PEOPLE AND THINGS THAT WENT BEFORE,
I KNOW I´LL OFTEN STOP AND THINK ABOUT THEM.
IN MY LIFE I LOVE YOU MORE.
THO' I KNOW I´LL NEVER LOSE AFFECTION
FOR PEOPLE AND THINGS THAT WENT BEFORE,
I KNOW I´LL OFTEN STOP AND THINK ABOUT THEM.
IN MY LIFE I LOVE YOU MORE.
IN MY LIFE
I LOVE YOU MORE.
Landslide
By: Stevie Nicks
I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
'Till the landslide brought me down
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life
Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older too
Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
A/N: This is short because it is an intro. I am in a sappy mood. I don't have anything to say except REVIEW!!! Please!!!!! More to come!!!!! = )