Swear On My Life
By: silver_star ^_^
Disclaimer: No, I'm not J.K.
Rowling (Though I knoe how u could easily confuse the two of us ^_^_^ j/k!) and
I don't own Harry Potter so don't sue!!
A/N: Hi everyone! I'm back!! Well, I
read all your reviews (THANKYOUTHANKYOU!!!! I LOVE YOU ALLLL!!!!) and now that
my piano test is all over with and SATs aren't 4 a while, I decided 2 update
again…^_^ hope you like how this chappie turns out, and I promise it won't be
dreadfully long b4 I review again…CHAMBER OF SECRETS IS FINALLY OUT ON DVD!!!!
HEHE!! ^_^_^_^_^ this week is my spring break though so I'll be updating this
fic then and launching a new one that takes place during the Hogwarts years
^_^…ok enough yappering, here we go!
Chapter 7: Love to Hate You
"FOCUS!" Dumbledore yelled as Lily took yet another shot at the charmed robe. It was putting up quite a fight and James, Sirius and Tracy were all laughing as they watched Lily's face get more and more deadly. Her eyes flashed dangerously and her muscles were tense. Strands of hair were escaping from her pony tail and the back of her sports top was soaked through with perspiration. The robe twirled her wand with it's charmed sleeve and its hood and body shook with what could only be silent laughter as it dodged yet another one of Lily's attacks.
Sirius laughed along wth Tracy and James who was laughing so hard that tears were coming out of his eyes, something that hadn't happened for a while now. Lily paused and closed her eyes, hunching her shoulders forward in defeat. Well, mock defeat apparently. As the robe approached her; wand outstretched, Lily spun into a flying backwards kick, hit the hood of the robe, then grabbed her wand and twisted left and right harshly, but to no avail; the grip that that robe had was phenomenal. Aborting that plan, Lily quickly aimed a high front kick at the hood of the robe, making contact. The robe recoiled and attempted to wrap around her but missed as Lily did a graceful backwards flip over it and grabbed her wand again with her right hand, this time keeping her grip, as she yelled "Immobilus!"
A jet of brilliant white light shot out from her flexed left hand and hit the robe, which promptly froze and gave Lily the perfect opportunity to yank her wand free. James, Tracy and Sirius all jumped up and cheered from their side seats as Lily turned around to face them beaming happily only to meet Professor Dumbledore's stern face.
"Sorry Professor, I know I wasn't supposed to do that, but hey, I got the wand back right?" Lily fixed an innocent look on her face that Dumbledore couldn't help but smile as he recalled the numerous times he had seen it back in their Hogwarts days when she was covering for yet another one of the Marauders' pranks.
"Alright Ms. Evans, I'll let you go this once. But only because it was your first time, you three" Dumbledore continued, giving the others pointed looks, "on the other hand, I expect to finish within the first fifteen minutes, and no games!" Tracy, Sirius and James all smiled and nodded with innocent looks of their own, and Professor Dumbledore started to chuckle as he turned back around to face Lily.
"So Professor, how did I do?" Lily asked while she took a seat next to Tracy and grabbed her towel and water bottle.
"Very good actually Ms. Evans, I'm proud. First hit on the robe within the first minute, caught only once and escaped in two minutes, contact with the wand after ten minutes and finished in a total of twenty-one minutes. You were very quick and have a great stamina, I'm impressed. Most of your hits made contact, though some also didn't; we'll have to work on that, and your focus. In the end though, for the first time, I'd say great job Ms. Evans." Dumbledore finished.
James, Sirius and Tracy all cheered some more, and Lily beamed shyly and happily. God, she's beautiful…she looks so cute when she's all flushed and her hair's like that…and black looks very very nice on her James thought to himself, grinning outwardly like a love sick fool. Tracy noticed, and rolled her eyes as she turned back to Lily with a slight smirk on her face.
"What?" Lily asked.
"Nothing…" Tracy answered.
Lily looked at her suspiciously, but turned her attention back to Dumbledore.
"Well, now that you all have had your turns, I think we can end a bit early for today, give you four some time to catch up. I do want you back here tomorrow though; preferably around noon so that you can join us here for a proper lunch, and then we'll do some more rounds, and talk about possible attacks. Things have been quiet for a while, and I don't like it. I also have another thing to discuss with you, nothing bad, but we'll talk about that tomorrow. Good bye you four, I'll see you tomorrow." Dumbledore said.
"Yes professor," They replied in unison. Grabbing their towels and water bottles, the four headed for the entrance back into the school. They were currently practicing on a patch of grass near the Quidditch pitch that wasn't in use currently since the season was yet to begin. Back inside Dumbledore's office, they all bid the Professor farewell, and used Floo Powder to get back to Godric's Hollow where James, Sirius and Tracy currently lived.
After the four had a fun dinner (they each conjured up what they wanted, nothing formal) in the living room, Tracy and Sirius both left to go take showers (in separate bathrooms people, come on they're still friends!!), and James and Lily remained. As Lily stretched out once more on the comfortable, worn leather couch, James stretched out next to it on the floor with his back on the side of the couch (you get it…he's on the floor, back on the front of the couch…the edge part, she's on the couch). Sighing contentedly, Lily thought for the first time that night about the events that had happened earlier. It had only been a few days, but she had never really thought about any of it. She thought about it now though. About her life. About the kiss. About James. Did he love him? She wasn't even sure she knew him anymore…it had been two years, a whole two years that changed Lily in many ways. As James closed his eyes and rested his the back of his head on the couch cushion that Lily's head was on, she giggled and immediately reached out for his hair. As if on instinct, James' hand immediately shot up and grabbed hers as he opened his eyes, grinning at her.
"You haven't changed a bit, you know that Lil? You always did have a crazy obsession with my hair." James commented, dropping her hand and closing his eyes once more.
Lily sighed and thought about it some more. Why had she kissed him? She promised to herself after her parents died that she would never be emotionally attached to anyone again. Lily knew that she wouldn't be able to live through another loss like that, it would rip her apart even more.
Lily rolled onto her side and unconsciously started playing with his hair, messing it up a bit more and braiding some strands. James didn't appear to mind, only let a small smile spread across his face. After a few minutes of comfortable silence, Lily realized what she was doing and stopped. 'No… I can't fall for him again…I can't!' Lily rolled over, now facing the back of the couch, away from James. 'I can't become emotionally attached…plus either of us could be killed any second now, it's too risky anyways…'
Thinking about the very same subject, James was also pondering the recent events…
'I wonder what Lily's thinking about. What should I tell her? I love her…I know I do. But does she love me? Of course she does…after all she kissed ya right? I'm so glad I found her again. She makes me feel complete…I love her.'
"Hey Lils?"
"Yea…" Lily replied softly.
James got up on one knee, and slowly lifted Lily's chin up with one hand so that he could see her face. Looking directly into her eyes, he felt his heart melt. He loved her so much. Lily of course felt the same way, only, looking into James' intense midnight blue eyes, she noted that it was harder now to avoid her feelings for him, but she had to…James then took a deep breath, and taking her hand into his hand said……….
"I love you, Lily." (HAHA for all of you that thought he was gonna propose…muahaha!!! It's WAY too early for that people!!!!)
Immediately, Lily looked away. 'No I can't lose it now, I can't!!!! Come on Lil, be angry, do it for him, do it for you…' If there was one thing Lily could do, she could act, and that's exactly what she did.
"What are you talking about James?! You LOVE me?? We haven't even spoken to each other in over two years, and just because of one kiss in one of my more vulnerable moments, you decide that you love me?! You're crazy James!! You're acting like a fourth year!!!" Lily yelled as she shot up from her position to face James.
James was now at a definite loss for words. At first he felt hurt…but then…'what the hell is she talking about!!!!' Sub-consciously, James' mind was already putting up walls. 'Does she think I was actually serious?! Yea right!! I was only kidding…hah, me love someone, whatever…'
"What the hell are you talking about?!? I'm crazy?!? What the HELL are you talking about!?!" James retorted, standing up now. Lily was quick to follow.
"What am I talking about? You telling me you love me! How could you even say it James? In fact, what made you think I actually forgave you for what you did to me at the end of seventh year?! I hate you James Potter!!!!!! I dunno what the hell has gotten into me these past few days, I must have gone through some kinda emotional breakdown cuz you know what, I HATE YOU!!!!!" Lily shouted.
" Yea, well, I HATE YOU MORE!!!"
"DO NOT!"
"DO TOO!"
"DO NOT!"
"DO NOT!"
"DO TOO!"
"HAH,
you always fell for that James. You're
so stupid!!!!"
"Shut up!"
"WHY DON'T YOU?!? Stupid prat!!"
"Fireball!!"
"Ass hole!"
"Bitch!"
"Incompetent, egotistical jackass!"
"OH YEA!?!? Carrot Top!"
"GAH!!
Four eyes!!!"
"Oh real original,
LILYKINS!!!"
"JAIME-JAMSEY-POO!!!"
"DON'T CALL ME THAT!!"
"YOU BROUGHT IT UPON YOURSELF!!!"
"I HATE YOU!!!!"
"DITTO!!!!"
Both fuming and red with fury, they broke apart, and marched away from each other. James pounded off towards his room, and Lily stomped her way to the door to the kitchen and kicked the door open with her foot.
James slammed his door shut, and collapsed on his bed. After he spotted them, James went over and jammed his boxing gloves onto his hands. He then went over to his punching bag which he rarely ever used, and proceeded to punch the hell out of it. He gave it one final punch, and stopped abruptly, causing the bag to bounce back and hit him squarely on the forehead.
"DAMN IT!!!" James swore loudly as he clutched a hand to his forehead and aimed a kick at the bag, but missed and ended up tripping himself.
Lily banged her way into the kitchen, still fuming. She stomped over to the pantry and nearly took the door off its hinges as she flung it open with force. Swinging it back harshly, Lily continued and stalked over to the freezer. (Yes they have one…for when they don't feel like conjuring food) Yanking the door open, the jars started clanging against one another and threatened to break, luckily Lily spotted the carton of ice cream on the side, and didn't have to hurl all the frozen food entrees out of the freezer to find it. Slamming the door shut, Lily stomped over to the cabinet and yanked at a drawer, searching for a spoon. She picked up the first thing her hand came in contact with and when Lily realized it was a fork, she hurled it at the wall, where it stayed; its prongs jutting out from the otherwise pleasant wall. Three forks later (all of which ended up on various spots in the wall), Lily let out a growl and grabbed at yet another fork, then ripped the lid off the ice cream. She hurled it across the room and was about to dig ferociously into the carton when the carton exploded all over her because of her immense anger and frustration at the moment. Dripping in cookie dough ice cream, Lily's face contorted, and she let out a loud, frustrated shriek.
~*LateR ThaT NighT*~
After taking a long hot shower, which Lily only ended due to Tracy's persistent bugging, and her attempting to break down the bathroom door, Lily now lay face down on her bed, mumbling incoherently into her pillow while Tracy sat next to her, trying to understand her best friend. Sighing, and rolling her eyes, Tracy gave up on attempting to make sense of Lily's muffled speech, and instead, assumed what Lily was talking about,
"So, you said you hated him cuz yur afraid of commitment right now, and he got all pissy cuz he is James, and now you two are at it again??" Tracy asked jokingly.
Lily looked up from her pillow.
"I'm sooo stupid…" Lily stated. Then she promptly dropped her face back into the pillow and started mumbling once more. Now a bit more frustrated and a good deal surprised, Tracy let out an aggravated sigh and rolled Lily over rather forcefully,
"Lily snap out of it! How about we have a regular conversation, you and me, minus the pillow so I can figure out what's actually going on between the two of you crazy love birds." Tracy said.
"LOVE BIRDS?!?!?! HaH! I HATE James Potter!"
"Lily!!! You know you don't!! Come on! Explain."
Sighing, Lily grudgingly pulled herself into a sitting position, though she was slouching against the headboard of the bed.
"Trace I can't. I can't love him. You…you wouldn't understand." Lily whispered, clutching a pillow to her chest.
"Lily! I've known you since we were 11, since the day we first came to Hogwarts. I know you better than you know yourself I'll have YOU know! Lily, really, there's no excuse this time. I know you were hurt and I know you feel as if you can't love again…it hurts too much to lose people. But Lils, come on, I lost my parents too. You have to get outta this rut, you can't let it control your life. Fear is normal, it's perfectly normal human reaction." Tracy said knowingly.
"Tracy, I am NOT afraid!!!" Lily lied. Not good enough.
"Like hell you aren't!!! It's okay Lil, that doesn't make you any weaker,"
"I'm NOT! I just haven't forgiven him for what he did yet. That's what hurt Trace. But to hell with him! I HATE HIM!!!!!" Lily finished. This time, it seemed to have worked. Tracy was still looking a bit suspicious, but she put the subject off.
"OK fine then, well, I'm gonna go get some sleep…remember meeting with Dumbledore's tomorrow early, and it's already almost 2 am now, so you should catch some Zs too…Good night Lils."
"Nitey nite."
Once Tracy left, shutting and locking the door behind her, Lily let all her emotions out. Crying softly, she turned off the lights with a wave of her hand, and stretched out on the bed. Lily curled up into a little ball, and reached up to wipe away some of the tears. As she started to lower her hand though, Lily's fingers found the star locket that still hung around her neck. She stopped crying immediately as the warmth spread through her body. A faint smile adorned her face, and as she started to fall into a peaceful sleep, Lily frowned suddenly. Eyes still closed, her fingers released the locket, and it fell back onto the pillow with a soft thud. Hesitantly, Lily's hands reached up to find the clasp on the fine chain. As Lily started to fall asleep again, tears once again rewetted her cheeks while the star locket continued to glimmer in a beam of moonlight, from its spot on the edge of the windowsill closest to Lily's bed.
~*ThE MorninG AfteR…*~
James yawned widely and stretched his arms out above him as he woke up from a deep sleep. Slowly, he blinked, and reached to his right for his glasses, only to discover that they weren't there. Groaning in annoyance, James continued to feel around for his glasses, but they weren't there. Then James remembered what had happened the night before. About Lily, and their fight. Sighing, James buried his head deeper into his pillow, and stopped feeling for his glasses. What had gone wrong? One minute they were two people in love, the next they were back to where they started, just two friends…well actually more like two people who happened to have the same friends, who also couldn't stand each other. 'It's all my fault…I shouldn't have pushed her…god, what was I thinking?!'
James let out a groan as the alarm clock started to ring once more. 'What am I talking about? Of course it was her fault…that stubborn little piece of…oh I'll get her back for this.' This time, James found his glasses (they had dropped onto the floor) and managed to pull himself up and out of bed, and into the shower. After James got out of the shower, he finished getting ready, and picked out a pair of dark denim jeans to wear with his favorite black shirt. He attempted once more to get his hair to stay neat, but ended up messing up even more, and so, grumbling all the way, James decided to get downstairs instead after grabbing a fresh robe (black too) and pulling on some shoes.
As James walked into the kitchen, he was greeted by the fresh aroma of coffee and two hellos. Sirius and Tracy were talking about something, while Lily sat at the kitchen counter reading a copy of the Daily Prophet and drinking a cup of hot coffee. After pouring himself a cup, he proceeded to glare at Lily (which Lily kindly returned with an evil look), he went over to Sirius,
"Morning, Sirius, Trace" James said.
"Morning," they replied in unison. Sirius then continued while Tracy set off to find the extra stash of Floo powder.
"Hey, how come you didn't say hi to your girlfriend." Sirius asked innocently.
In less then a second, poor Sirius was answered by a flying newspaper which made contact with his head, and he was also forced to freeze an oncoming doughnut as both James and Lily shouted,
"HE/SHE'S NOT MY BOY/GIRLFRIEND!"
"Geez, touuuuchy!" Sirius said in a mock hurt voice. Then grinning evily, he left to 'go help Tracy' as he put it. He was already filled in about the events of yesterday by Tracy this morning, and he was nice enough to take it upon himself to torture James and Lily about their true feelings until they actually got back together.
Lily and James were now both alone in the kitchen, both drinking coffee, one staring off into nothingness and the other reading a newspaper, both stealing glances at the other at different times ^_^. Lily shuddered inwardly as the familiar scent of James' cologne reached her nose. 'So he still wears the same stuff…god I miss him. I love the way he smells….come on Lily, shake yourself outta this!!! Aiya….'
James, who was stealing glances at Lily every couple of minutes, couldn't help, but let his heart get the better of him. 'She's so beautiful. I love how she looks when she's doing nothing…so calm and serene…and she still tucks her hair behind her ears when she reads…ugh, no, what am I doing!??! Oh god, what am I doing…I hate this!!' James thought harshly to himself.
After a few tense moments, Lily decided to speak first,
"Why does Dumbledore want to see us again?"
"Oh sorry, were you talking to me? I didn't here my name" James replied nonchalantly.
"No shit Potter, who else is in this room?" Lily shot back angrily.
"Well, you never know, knowing you, you could've easily been talking to yourself." James replied, hoping to get Lily riled up. He always thought she looked cutest then, plus when she was angry, she usually let her real feelings slip.
"SHUT UP Potter, I don't feel like yelling right now. Why don't you just be a good little boy and go play with some dolls or something? Too bad we aren't still at Hogwarts, that way you could go snog with one of those blonde bimbos you dated." Lily said. Smiling to herself, Lily went back to her coffee, knowing that she had touched a sensitive spot on James' temper. If there was anything that James Potter hated, it was people calling him a player, and referring to his past girlfriends as stupid blondes. Sure he had gone out with a few girls back in his school years, but they weren't all stupid blondes, in fact, most of them were quite intelligent, just not for him. That and he never played them, so that term was one he NEVER had liked. (As you can tell, I don't like James when he's a player and I don't think it's possible to be as popular as everyone makes the Marauders out to be…especially at Hogwarts, I think it should be a friendlier place…except when it comes to Slytherins ^_^ I don't think it's like a regular high school though, not as much drama, more action and adventure hehe!0
"Atleast I had relationships Evans, you're so immature, why would you bring up something like that? That's SO old! And for the last time, they weren't stupid, and I was NOT a player! I only went out with like four people including you!" James retorted angrily.
"HAH only four?! You mean at once right, please James learn to count? Or did you lose track after your five hundredth snog?? Huh?" Lily shouted back at him.
"It was not five hundred, and it doesn't matter because the only one I really cared about was you!" James yelled out. Instantly after though, seeing the smirk on Lily's face, he realized what he had said, and got even madder.
"HAH, so you do love me! I knew it! You are pathetic James Potter. Completely pathetic." Lily replied, sipping her coffee and reading the newspaper once more.
"I
NEVER SAID THAT! I SAID CARED!!"
"SO WHAT!? SAME THING!!!"
"IS NOT!"
"IS TOO!"
"IS NOT!"
"Oh shut up you two we're going to be late to Hogwarts, just grab some powder and go!" In the middle of their little quarrel, Tracy had re entered the kitchen, and was now offering them both a flowerpot filled with a glittery silver and green powder.
"FINE!" James and Lily both shouted at the same time. As they both reached out for the flowerpot at the same time to grab for some powder, their hands brushed for the smallest instant, and they harshly withdrew them, knocking some powder to the ground.
Tracy let out a frustrated noise as she swept up the powder and replaced it, then, after glaring at the two of them and giving them both equally dirty looks, continued out the door, back into the living room, Lily following closely behind, and James right after.
"Come on James, ladies first, go." Lily said seriously.
Tracy and Sirius both laughed, but Sirius' chuckles quickly became harsh fits of coughing when James glared in his direction.
"Just get out of here Evans." He said, gritting his teeth.
"Well, if you're sure." Lily replied casually. Throwing the powder into the fireplace, Lily stepped into the flames and cried out, "Phoenix Hideaway, Lemon Drop." (That's Dumbledore's office…cuz ya knoe all places have a name like the Burrow, so I just made one up, sorry if it's lame, haha) She was gone in an instant. After James followed, the last thing he heard was a comment from both Sirius and Tracy,
"YOU LOVE LILLLLY!!!!!"
Luckily for them, before James could get out of the fireplace he vanished. ^_^
When everyone finally arrived in Dumbledore's office, they all took there regular seats…well, with a minor change, because James and Lily were now avoiding each other at all costs, they sat on the ends, with Sirius and Tracy in the middle.
"Good morning everyone, I trust you had a nice night everyone?" Dumbledore asked his students kindly
"Great." Lily said forcibly, while glaring at James.
"Fantastic." James replied, with the same hard tone, while glaring at Lily.
Dumbledore raised his eyebrows for and looked very confused for a second, before everything clicked, glancing at Tracy and Sirius, their brief nods, told him his assumptions were right. 'Oh this is going to be a long day' He thought to himself. Dumbledore recalled the days, back when they were students in their second year. The pranks, the chaos, the amusement. Smiling faintly now, he turned back to the quartet, and decided to skip the subject for now. He would talk to James about it later; they had gotten close after James' parents had died, and James came to him often for advice.
"Anyways, the reason I called you all here earlier today is because, I have a special visitor in from America. I believe you all know him, although there's no knowing for sure until you meet him again." Dumbledore said with a twinkle in his eye. "He's right over there."
Questioningly, the four looked over to where Dumbledore had nodded. They hadn't realized someone else was in the room with them.
There, in the corner of the office, stood a tall, young man, 20 at most, probably 19. His light brown hair was neat, and he was wearing a black robe that looked pretty new. As he turned around, Tracy gasped while Lily started laughing with surprise and happiness. James and Sirius both let out loud cheers, as all four began running towards the young man with, now with a huge smile on his face also.
It was Remus Lupin. (^_^_^_^_^ I love Remmie!!!!)
A/N: The end of this chapter!!! Wowwie…this is my longest yet I think, 9 pages right now ^_^_^ I knoe, I knoe took me long enough and I haven't yet introduced the big surprise I think you'll all love, but I promise, chapter 8 will be out on Saturday kk? REVIEWREVIEWREVIEW!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!! Make my life a wee bit better kk ^_^_^ and let me know what you think…I know not everyone wanted love/hate but it's in the majority…no worries, they'll be lovey dovey again in 2 chappies, 3 max cuz I don't like it when they're fighting. ^_^_^ REMEMBER TO REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!! Button on the bottom left right down there ^_^_^_^ THANKS!
Next Chapter:
The big surprise that I'm priding myself on thinking up, LoL!!!
Remmie gets a big role in the fic, you'll see ^_^
James and Lily fights ^_^
Another battle! I know, it's been a while, so here ya go ^_^
And much much more that'll I'll think up as I go, haha!!!!
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