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Summary: This is basically just about how Ran is swallowed by his dreams and feels like no one cares about him. He felt that he needed to be loved so he takes a walk. Oh yea the characters are all 1 year older except for Nagi who is about 10 years old which will appear in later chapters.
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"AYA" I was sleeping on my bed still having the same nightmares over and over. When were they going to disappear? Did the devil have fun taking the pleasure in making me cry? "AYA DON'T LEAVE ME!!" I woke up by a familiar voice. I woke and was covered in sweat. I looked up and saw Omi rubbing my forehead with a damp cloth. Stroking it softly he whispered. "Are you alright Ran?" I just stared at him not giving him an answer. I kept on thinking of my sister. I felt miserable inside. I felt sick, so many emotions kept wandering in my head. "Ran? You look pale? Do you want something to drink?" I got up from my bed and ran as fast as I could to the bathroom were I gagged. Omi came behind me and stood against the frame. "You had that dream again, huh?" I continued to vomit even harder and I was feeling worse off than before. "Ran are you alright? Would you like something to drink?" as usual Omi was being courteous and stared at me again. "Hn" was all I gave him. That's usually the only answer that I ever gave him or anybody. They always tried to bud in with my life, but I wouldn't let them. What could they do? They can't do anything to help me. I am alone in this world. I have no one to love, no one to love me. All I knew was how to kill. "Ran?" Omi interrupted my thoughts. "Water would be fine" I said blankly. Omi smiled and headed towards the door "Alrighty then, one glass of water coming up!" Why was Omi trying to be so nice to me? It doesn't matter anymore. I collapsed on my bed staring out of my window. Again I was in the darkest place in the world.my mind. It seemed to play tricks on me and it made me cry. Taking my pillow I rolled on my stomach and began crying. Being away from my sister was the only thing that stayed in my head. It wouldn't leave. I needed her.
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"I'm sorry Ran. I am sorry for making you come to me every day, and making you constantly worry over me." Aya coughed and tears were appearing into Ran's eyes. "No.No!!! That isn't true. You .you never wasted my time.but what am I to do now?" Ran still hearing her sister breathe her last few breathes he stared away trying to fight his tears. he had to stay strong for her. He couldn't wait to see his sister smile when he brought her home to her party that old friends were going to be at. "Ran?" she spoke softly in a peaceful voice also with tears in her eyes. "Ran"- she was interrupted when Ran took her hand and kissed it gently. -"Ran.I love you," Hearing those dear words made Ran fail completely at hiding his tears. "I love you Aya.but I"- she placed her finger tip on his warm moist lips. She opened my hand and dropped something in it. I gasped "Your.your earring?" Why was she giving this to me? I was completely bewildered and shocked. "Do you want me to keep it?" I looked back at her and more tears filled my violet eyes. "These moments I will treasure." I finally spoke under my breath. "Good Ran, can you do something for me.please?" Aya stroked her finger tip along my wet cheeks. I couldn't say no this was her last request. "What do you need little sister?" Aya smiled them spoke with a calm tone "Can you put my earring in my left ear?" My eyes grew wide and I looked at the window and saw the moon again. "Sure.here you go" as I scooted over to her and put her earring in. She leaned over to me and mumbled a few words to me. They were not clear but I could understand. "Can you go to my side drawer and get my mirror, it should be on the left" she said as her voice was growing weaker. I didn't hesitate for a bit. I got up from her bed and opened her little drawer which sat a lovely old mirror. I wanted to give her a new mirror that looked just like it at her 'Welcome Home' party. ....... I couldn't wait to see the smile on your face......
"Here you go." I handed the mirror to her. "Thank you Ran." She stared into it and smiled. I was still holding her hand and it was getting colder. Her skin was tight and I knew that it was almost time. I wanted to sound as calm as normal for her. She seemed to completely ignore the fact that her heart beat was slowing down. "So how does it look?" She turned to me twirling her braid around her fingers then smiled. "Perfect! Come Closer Ran I want you to see something," I scooted towards her again. "What is it?" I began to see tears forming in her ocean blue eyes. "Look into the mirror, what do you see?" I gazed upon the mirror but I didn't see anything, only a brother and a sister. "I.I don't get it. What is it that you are trying to show me.Aya?" Rubbing my forehead she put her weak arm around my shoulder and streams of tears came rolling down her eyes. "Don't you get it Ran?"- we both paused, I still don't understand where she was getting at "Ran look.we are one" I saw the picture but we were not one./ If we were my heart wouldn't have been so empty./ When I heard her say that we cried into each others arms. I understood what she meant though.in the left was my earring and in the right was hers. "Aya-I" I continued to stumble in the darkness forgetting the words that I was about to say. "Finding herself buried in my arms I stared at the ceiling and then rested my chin on her head. / I have to stay strong. I have to stay strong.for Aya./ I could feel her heart beat against my own.we were that close. "I.I am standing with you now." My tears ran into her silver hair. I felt her. she was cold and frail. She mumbled "Ran.don't.forget.we are.one" her heart was not beating against my own. / Is she dead? / that was my first thought. This couldn't be . she is not dead!!! WE ARE ONE!!! SHE SAID SO HERSELF!!! "AYA, come on.you gotta get up..Aya .we gotta go home" shaking with fear I was staring at her lifeless eyes "HELP!!!! SOMEBODY!!! ANYBODY!!! Help." In my arms was a lifeless girl.and in holding her was a lifeless man. She was supposed to come to the Koneko where we had set up a big party for her but that wasn't going to happen. She's dead. She is never coming back to me.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*Later that Night~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I went home that night at 10:38 and everyone was there.waiting for the party to start.waiting for Aya. "Where is Aya," Omi asked me while he was holding a giant cake. I stood in silence. Tears began to fill my eyes and Ken noticed that I was crying That was alone inside. "Ran? Where is she? Is Aya still at the hospital?" If it were only that way! If she was only still at the hospital.I wouldn't have to be so sad, and overflown with darkness "She.She." more and more tears began to flow down my face, stinging my eyes, my cheeks I finally spoke with a weak whisper. "Aya died," with that no more was said. I went to my room and wept until the sun rose.
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"Ran? Ran? Wake up" I was waken up again to see the same face again that shown the darkness away. "Hn?" I sat up trying to wipe the tears from my eyes. "You were having another nightmare, Ran"- he paused for a second and then stroke his hands through my red bangs "Here is your water," Omi said looking a bit concerned. I completely ignored him and drank the glass of water in one big gulp. "Are you.ok? Do you want to talk about it?" He sat down on my bed and began to pick up my glass. "What could you do that could possibly help me?" I stated before falling back down on my bed and crying in my pillow again. I didn't care if Omi or if anyone else was there, I just wanted to be alone and embrace the darkness that always seemed to follow me as if it were my shadow. "Ran? (sigh) Ran you.cannot alter the past. You must use it to your advantage and make yourself stronger." Omi stood up and heard something coming form me. He couldn't quite make out what I was saying. "Leave my room" Omi paused.then he sat closer to me and took a wet cloth and began to dab my forehead. "I SAID LEAVE MY ROOM!!!" Omi sat up in an instant with a surprising, confused look on his small face. "But.but Ran" I immediately got my desk lamp and aimed it towards the caramel haired boy getting ready to throw. "But Ran," I threw it not caring if it hit Omi. He quickly dodged it and it shattered as it hit the door. All those broken pieces on the floor didn't make me mad, I didn't bother to pick it up. I just decided to go get my pillow and lie back down on my bed and cry my heart out. Not knowing what was going on around the house I continued to cry.
I was I the darkest place ever.my mind.it was a disgusting place to be. But it seemed to satisfy my needs. I was the only person that I could talk too. Everyone only pretended to care.I knew that no one really cared about my feelings. No one understood of how I felt. Sure they did have a loved one that died but they still have people who cared about them. I had no one, who ever truly loved me. " I hate myself!!!
I HATE EVERYONE!!! I CANNOT!!! I WILL NOT ACCEPT THIS!!! "AYA .YOU SAID THAT YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME!!!- but you are not" this death was my fault.if I hadn't been in such a hurry to leave the carnival she wouldn't have been ran over. Right as that damn car came.I should've jumped infront of her! "IT SHOULD'VE BEEN ME WHO WAS IN A COMA! NOT HER!!!" I the crimson strands on my head and attempted to pull them all out. The clouds grew darker and my mind became more dangerous. No one cares. I don't care about anyone. What's left for me now? What's this life for? I rolled over to my right side and I wanted to cry again. The tears wouldn't come to me. Crying seems to calm me down. It soothes my soul. I cried in myself to sleep and I also cried in my sleep. The nightmares were so bad that it was just too much for me to handle.
Little Omi was running down the hall still frightened and shocked of what Ran did to him. He dashed down the hall hoping that someone could help Ran. Down his arm he noticed that there was a river of blood flowing from where Ran threw the lamp. Omi thought that it missed him completely, but he was wrong, there was a big piece of glass stuck in his arm. He knew that Ran needed help and fast. "YO-TAN" Omi was dashing towards Yohji's apartment. "Yo-tan!" Omi stopped at his door and panted frantically. He pounded at the door waiting for a response from the lanky blonde. 'KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!' "YOHJI ARE YOU THERE? IT'S ME OMI!!!" still no response. Omi decided to take a little peek into Yohji's room to see if he could wake him up. "Huh? Where the heck is he?" looking inside of the messy room Omi came inside and wandered around to see if Yohji was there. "OWW!!!" Omi had apparently tripped on one of Yohji's pairs of leather jeans. "What the freak? Yohji should really clean his room." Omi tripped again and felt something to clean his wound with. He turned the light switch on and looked at what he was holding one of Yohji's leather thongs. "AH! AH! AH! AH! LEATHER THONG! EWW.EWW.EWW!!!" Omi scrambled away trying to get the many thongs and other junk off of him. "GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF!" Omi shrieked still trying to get out of the mess of Yohji's junk. Yohji was on his way upstairs when he heard screaming in his room. Yohji immediately ran into his room seeing Omi in his dirty laundry. "OMI?! WHAT TH HELL ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM!" Yohji ran over to Omi still looking bewildered. "Omi.did you run out of underwear?" Yohji smirked while taking off his sunglasses and held his hand up to Omi. "NO YOHJI!!! WHY WOULD I WANT TO WEAR ONE OF YOUR PLAYBOY LEATHER THONGS!?" Omi hissed back at Yohji who was apparently thinking that Omi had turned into a bad boy. "Are you going to help me or are you going to ridicule me of something that isn't true?" Omi still was trying to get out of the dirty laundry. Yohji decided to help Omi out of the dirty laundry pile before the poor boy would suffocate. After Omi was out of the nasty smelling pile of shit that was Yohji's trash and laundry and other crud Yohji left Omi in his room. "Where are you leaving in such a hurry? Need to finish sleeping with one of your girlfriends?" Omi giggled while watching Yohji leave his room. "Hahahahahaha, Hai! Na I am really just going to take her home. See ya later Omi. Don't get into too much trouble." Yohji winked then left again hurrying downstairs to get his girlfriend.
/ I don't understand why he needs so many girlfriends. / Omi thought while shoving Yohji's thong collection to the side. He figured that Ken would help him that Ken would help him. / Sure Ken would help, is always there for us!!/ Omi ran down the hall strolling towards Kens room and heard crying coming from Ran's room. Hearing Ran cry made Omi concerned and more afraid that Ran would do something stupid. After hearing the cries and moans coming from Ran's room he immediately sprinted to Ken's room.
/ Why her.why me? / I kept thinking to myself./ She never asked for much. Why doesn't anyone else feel like the way I do? I just want to lie here and die. I want to be with my sister. I want to see her smile again. / I looked out the window and screamed at the top of my lungs. "Why did you leave me Aya. I wanted to see the smile on your face when you came back home to the Koneko and see your party and al the decorations. I wanted to see you smile. But.but you didn't .you died right there in my arms.
Life was complicated.it wasn't supposed to be like this. It would wonderful if I was able to still have her in my arms. What did she mean when she said 'We are one?' that same question also kept repeating itself. My mind is so dark and so is my heart. "AYA!!!! WHY DID YOU LEAVE!!!" I fell onto my bed and cried. Crying satisfied me so much. But this time it wasn't enough. I gazed down at the floor and still found the broken lamp and I got up from my bed and walked over to the broken pieces. /This lamp.we have so much in common, and so much difference. / I picked up one of the pieces and observed it carefully. "We are both shattered and broken.but yet.you can be glued back together and look brand new." I glared at the piece of glass and swiped it across my arm. Soon enough I watched slowly as the blood trickled down my arm. It seemed that this satisfied my even more. This stopped made me cry even more. I enjoyed crying because if I didn't cry then I would stay sad. /I was shattered just like that lamp. It can be put back together.yet I cannot, for I am a forbidden lover and an angel of death. / Staring at the dark sky through my window helped me find out how I can be reunited with Aya. Placing one of the glass objects I my hand stabbed my wrist and the blood dripped on my carpet. I punched the window sending it shattering too. Omi had obviously heard of it since there was pounding on my door. "RAN! RAN! PLEASE LET ME IN!" Omi yelled as loud as possible hoping that I wouldn't do anything stupid. I ignored his care and his concern for it didn't matter. I stepped over the window placing my foot on the frame. / This is.this is the right thing to do. /
Omi ran as fast as his little body allowed him and sprinted infront of Ken's door. Omi knew that it would take every ounce in his body to wake Ken up. He was a very heavy sleeper just like Yohji, only worse. "KEN-KUN!!! KEN-KUN!!! PLEASE WAKE UP!!!" Omi cried out like a little child. A snore was heard after what Omi had said. 'KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!' / man, Ken is worse than Yohji./ Omi thought to himself then continued pounding on Ken's door. Finally he heard a groggy like voice speak out. "WhhhHHHaaaAAAtttTTT!??" Omi panicked and had to hurry because he knew that Ran was going to kill himself. "IT'S AN EMERGENCY!!!" I heard footsteps coming from the room. Ken knew that there was something wrong with Omi. He could hear the worry in his voice. "What is it this time? Did Yohji get drunk again? Did he throw up in Ran's car again?" Ken joked around not sounding to serious. "RAN'S ABOUT TO KILL HIMSELF!" Omi yelled trying to get Ken's attention. "HE IS WHAT!!!" Ken sounded much more alert as his footsteps grew louder and faster. Opening the door as fast as he could he slammed the door into Omi's face (on accident of course ^-^) "OOW!!" Omi fell onto the floor. Ken knelt down to pick up Omi. "Heh, guess I don't know my own strength, sorry Omi." There wasn't much time left before Ran would kill himself, and they would be too late. They had to save their leader from his troubles.from his heart.
Omi and Ken ran as fast as possible and heard noises coming from Ran's apartment. "What's going on in there? Is he breaking windows?" Ken asked while he watched Omi pound on the door. He decided that he would do the talking considering he and Ran talked the most out of all of the WeiB members. "RAN! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" Ken shouted random questions at Ran. "RAN! ARE YOU IN THERE?" still silence. "RAN PLEASE OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!!!" Omi cursed at Ran trying to get him out. They finally heard something from the room and listened to Ran speak.
"I AM GETTING READY TO REUNITE WITH MY SISTER" Ran shouted as tears flowed down his pale cheeks. He really did care about WeiB but he wanted his sister more than anything. Seeing her smile was all that mattered, even it meant killing himself. "Reunite with his sister?" What does he mean by that Ken-kun?" Omi looked at Ken with his big blue eyes. "I dunno know. I thought she was- OH NO!!!" as soon as Ken came into realization he and Omi realized that they had to save him. They tried their hardest to break the door down ,hoping that they would get there int time before Ran killed himself. "ONE.TWO...THREE.!"with no success they didn't break it down so they had to try again to save their leader. "THIS TIME WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT!!! FOR RAN." Ken stated as we were about to do our final push. "Alright for Ran." Omi nodded. With slit wrists still constantly bleed Ran knew that they were about to break the door down so he had to do this fast. /Why am I so scared to do this? Why am I shaking? I have never feared of dying before.why am I now?/ NO I AM NOT AFRAID TO DIE!!!" Ran stood over the frame getting ready to take a leap of faith. /This is the right thing to do/ with that Ran took his other leg and glared down onto the road. (sigh) "I am coming for you.Aya" there he jumped and stared at the Koneko, waiting for his time to die. "ONE...TWO .THREE." Omi and Ken both shouted in unison and broke Ran's door down. "Where is he?" Ken looked around Ran's room to find nothing. "Oh my God..his carpet." Omi pointed to the crimson blood stains that soaked into Ran's floor. "RAN!" Ken sprinted towards the window where Ran had punched and jumped out of. "OH NO.RAN!!! RAN!!!" Omi's voice echoed through the night sky as Omi and Ken stumbled over the window to see an out-cold bleeding lifeless body. They were too late and, Ran stared out at them then at the midnight sky filled with stars seeing Aya's face once more.
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Will Ran get his dream come true or what will fate take him another direction? (well duh) Anyway I hope you enjoyed my story! It took awhile. I KNOW THAT IT SUX but hey that's because this is my first fanfic ever. Oh well PLEASE READ & REVIEW THE ON COMING CHAPTERS!!! I wanted this chapter to be really long but I guess that didn't happen huh? Oh yea I know that Aya really wakes up at the end of the series, but hey I wanted to try something new. So this fic is going to have.hm about two more chapters.hopefully.UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!SAYONARA!!!!
Arigato!!!!! ^_~
Summary: This is basically just about how Ran is swallowed by his dreams and feels like no one cares about him. He felt that he needed to be loved so he takes a walk. Oh yea the characters are all 1 year older except for Nagi who is about 10 years old which will appear in later chapters.
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"AYA" I was sleeping on my bed still having the same nightmares over and over. When were they going to disappear? Did the devil have fun taking the pleasure in making me cry? "AYA DON'T LEAVE ME!!" I woke up by a familiar voice. I woke and was covered in sweat. I looked up and saw Omi rubbing my forehead with a damp cloth. Stroking it softly he whispered. "Are you alright Ran?" I just stared at him not giving him an answer. I kept on thinking of my sister. I felt miserable inside. I felt sick, so many emotions kept wandering in my head. "Ran? You look pale? Do you want something to drink?" I got up from my bed and ran as fast as I could to the bathroom were I gagged. Omi came behind me and stood against the frame. "You had that dream again, huh?" I continued to vomit even harder and I was feeling worse off than before. "Ran are you alright? Would you like something to drink?" as usual Omi was being courteous and stared at me again. "Hn" was all I gave him. That's usually the only answer that I ever gave him or anybody. They always tried to bud in with my life, but I wouldn't let them. What could they do? They can't do anything to help me. I am alone in this world. I have no one to love, no one to love me. All I knew was how to kill. "Ran?" Omi interrupted my thoughts. "Water would be fine" I said blankly. Omi smiled and headed towards the door "Alrighty then, one glass of water coming up!" Why was Omi trying to be so nice to me? It doesn't matter anymore. I collapsed on my bed staring out of my window. Again I was in the darkest place in the world.my mind. It seemed to play tricks on me and it made me cry. Taking my pillow I rolled on my stomach and began crying. Being away from my sister was the only thing that stayed in my head. It wouldn't leave. I needed her.
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"I'm sorry Ran. I am sorry for making you come to me every day, and making you constantly worry over me." Aya coughed and tears were appearing into Ran's eyes. "No.No!!! That isn't true. You .you never wasted my time.but what am I to do now?" Ran still hearing her sister breathe her last few breathes he stared away trying to fight his tears. he had to stay strong for her. He couldn't wait to see his sister smile when he brought her home to her party that old friends were going to be at. "Ran?" she spoke softly in a peaceful voice also with tears in her eyes. "Ran"- she was interrupted when Ran took her hand and kissed it gently. -"Ran.I love you," Hearing those dear words made Ran fail completely at hiding his tears. "I love you Aya.but I"- she placed her finger tip on his warm moist lips. She opened my hand and dropped something in it. I gasped "Your.your earring?" Why was she giving this to me? I was completely bewildered and shocked. "Do you want me to keep it?" I looked back at her and more tears filled my violet eyes. "These moments I will treasure." I finally spoke under my breath. "Good Ran, can you do something for me.please?" Aya stroked her finger tip along my wet cheeks. I couldn't say no this was her last request. "What do you need little sister?" Aya smiled them spoke with a calm tone "Can you put my earring in my left ear?" My eyes grew wide and I looked at the window and saw the moon again. "Sure.here you go" as I scooted over to her and put her earring in. She leaned over to me and mumbled a few words to me. They were not clear but I could understand. "Can you go to my side drawer and get my mirror, it should be on the left" she said as her voice was growing weaker. I didn't hesitate for a bit. I got up from her bed and opened her little drawer which sat a lovely old mirror. I wanted to give her a new mirror that looked just like it at her 'Welcome Home' party. ....... I couldn't wait to see the smile on your face......
"Here you go." I handed the mirror to her. "Thank you Ran." She stared into it and smiled. I was still holding her hand and it was getting colder. Her skin was tight and I knew that it was almost time. I wanted to sound as calm as normal for her. She seemed to completely ignore the fact that her heart beat was slowing down. "So how does it look?" She turned to me twirling her braid around her fingers then smiled. "Perfect! Come Closer Ran I want you to see something," I scooted towards her again. "What is it?" I began to see tears forming in her ocean blue eyes. "Look into the mirror, what do you see?" I gazed upon the mirror but I didn't see anything, only a brother and a sister. "I.I don't get it. What is it that you are trying to show me.Aya?" Rubbing my forehead she put her weak arm around my shoulder and streams of tears came rolling down her eyes. "Don't you get it Ran?"- we both paused, I still don't understand where she was getting at "Ran look.we are one" I saw the picture but we were not one./ If we were my heart wouldn't have been so empty./ When I heard her say that we cried into each others arms. I understood what she meant though.in the left was my earring and in the right was hers. "Aya-I" I continued to stumble in the darkness forgetting the words that I was about to say. "Finding herself buried in my arms I stared at the ceiling and then rested my chin on her head. / I have to stay strong. I have to stay strong.for Aya./ I could feel her heart beat against my own.we were that close. "I.I am standing with you now." My tears ran into her silver hair. I felt her. she was cold and frail. She mumbled "Ran.don't.forget.we are.one" her heart was not beating against my own. / Is she dead? / that was my first thought. This couldn't be . she is not dead!!! WE ARE ONE!!! SHE SAID SO HERSELF!!! "AYA, come on.you gotta get up..Aya .we gotta go home" shaking with fear I was staring at her lifeless eyes "HELP!!!! SOMEBODY!!! ANYBODY!!! Help." In my arms was a lifeless girl.and in holding her was a lifeless man. She was supposed to come to the Koneko where we had set up a big party for her but that wasn't going to happen. She's dead. She is never coming back to me.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*Later that Night~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I went home that night at 10:38 and everyone was there.waiting for the party to start.waiting for Aya. "Where is Aya," Omi asked me while he was holding a giant cake. I stood in silence. Tears began to fill my eyes and Ken noticed that I was crying That was alone inside. "Ran? Where is she? Is Aya still at the hospital?" If it were only that way! If she was only still at the hospital.I wouldn't have to be so sad, and overflown with darkness "She.She." more and more tears began to flow down my face, stinging my eyes, my cheeks I finally spoke with a weak whisper. "Aya died," with that no more was said. I went to my room and wept until the sun rose.
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"Ran? Ran? Wake up" I was waken up again to see the same face again that shown the darkness away. "Hn?" I sat up trying to wipe the tears from my eyes. "You were having another nightmare, Ran"- he paused for a second and then stroke his hands through my red bangs "Here is your water," Omi said looking a bit concerned. I completely ignored him and drank the glass of water in one big gulp. "Are you.ok? Do you want to talk about it?" He sat down on my bed and began to pick up my glass. "What could you do that could possibly help me?" I stated before falling back down on my bed and crying in my pillow again. I didn't care if Omi or if anyone else was there, I just wanted to be alone and embrace the darkness that always seemed to follow me as if it were my shadow. "Ran? (sigh) Ran you.cannot alter the past. You must use it to your advantage and make yourself stronger." Omi stood up and heard something coming form me. He couldn't quite make out what I was saying. "Leave my room" Omi paused.then he sat closer to me and took a wet cloth and began to dab my forehead. "I SAID LEAVE MY ROOM!!!" Omi sat up in an instant with a surprising, confused look on his small face. "But.but Ran" I immediately got my desk lamp and aimed it towards the caramel haired boy getting ready to throw. "But Ran," I threw it not caring if it hit Omi. He quickly dodged it and it shattered as it hit the door. All those broken pieces on the floor didn't make me mad, I didn't bother to pick it up. I just decided to go get my pillow and lie back down on my bed and cry my heart out. Not knowing what was going on around the house I continued to cry.
I was I the darkest place ever.my mind.it was a disgusting place to be. But it seemed to satisfy my needs. I was the only person that I could talk too. Everyone only pretended to care.I knew that no one really cared about my feelings. No one understood of how I felt. Sure they did have a loved one that died but they still have people who cared about them. I had no one, who ever truly loved me. " I hate myself!!!
I HATE EVERYONE!!! I CANNOT!!! I WILL NOT ACCEPT THIS!!! "AYA .YOU SAID THAT YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME!!!- but you are not" this death was my fault.if I hadn't been in such a hurry to leave the carnival she wouldn't have been ran over. Right as that damn car came.I should've jumped infront of her! "IT SHOULD'VE BEEN ME WHO WAS IN A COMA! NOT HER!!!" I the crimson strands on my head and attempted to pull them all out. The clouds grew darker and my mind became more dangerous. No one cares. I don't care about anyone. What's left for me now? What's this life for? I rolled over to my right side and I wanted to cry again. The tears wouldn't come to me. Crying seems to calm me down. It soothes my soul. I cried in myself to sleep and I also cried in my sleep. The nightmares were so bad that it was just too much for me to handle.
Little Omi was running down the hall still frightened and shocked of what Ran did to him. He dashed down the hall hoping that someone could help Ran. Down his arm he noticed that there was a river of blood flowing from where Ran threw the lamp. Omi thought that it missed him completely, but he was wrong, there was a big piece of glass stuck in his arm. He knew that Ran needed help and fast. "YO-TAN" Omi was dashing towards Yohji's apartment. "Yo-tan!" Omi stopped at his door and panted frantically. He pounded at the door waiting for a response from the lanky blonde. 'KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!' "YOHJI ARE YOU THERE? IT'S ME OMI!!!" still no response. Omi decided to take a little peek into Yohji's room to see if he could wake him up. "Huh? Where the heck is he?" looking inside of the messy room Omi came inside and wandered around to see if Yohji was there. "OWW!!!" Omi had apparently tripped on one of Yohji's pairs of leather jeans. "What the freak? Yohji should really clean his room." Omi tripped again and felt something to clean his wound with. He turned the light switch on and looked at what he was holding one of Yohji's leather thongs. "AH! AH! AH! AH! LEATHER THONG! EWW.EWW.EWW!!!" Omi scrambled away trying to get the many thongs and other junk off of him. "GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF! GET IT OFF!" Omi shrieked still trying to get out of the mess of Yohji's junk. Yohji was on his way upstairs when he heard screaming in his room. Yohji immediately ran into his room seeing Omi in his dirty laundry. "OMI?! WHAT TH HELL ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM!" Yohji ran over to Omi still looking bewildered. "Omi.did you run out of underwear?" Yohji smirked while taking off his sunglasses and held his hand up to Omi. "NO YOHJI!!! WHY WOULD I WANT TO WEAR ONE OF YOUR PLAYBOY LEATHER THONGS!?" Omi hissed back at Yohji who was apparently thinking that Omi had turned into a bad boy. "Are you going to help me or are you going to ridicule me of something that isn't true?" Omi still was trying to get out of the dirty laundry. Yohji decided to help Omi out of the dirty laundry pile before the poor boy would suffocate. After Omi was out of the nasty smelling pile of shit that was Yohji's trash and laundry and other crud Yohji left Omi in his room. "Where are you leaving in such a hurry? Need to finish sleeping with one of your girlfriends?" Omi giggled while watching Yohji leave his room. "Hahahahahaha, Hai! Na I am really just going to take her home. See ya later Omi. Don't get into too much trouble." Yohji winked then left again hurrying downstairs to get his girlfriend.
/ I don't understand why he needs so many girlfriends. / Omi thought while shoving Yohji's thong collection to the side. He figured that Ken would help him that Ken would help him. / Sure Ken would help, is always there for us!!/ Omi ran down the hall strolling towards Kens room and heard crying coming from Ran's room. Hearing Ran cry made Omi concerned and more afraid that Ran would do something stupid. After hearing the cries and moans coming from Ran's room he immediately sprinted to Ken's room.
/ Why her.why me? / I kept thinking to myself./ She never asked for much. Why doesn't anyone else feel like the way I do? I just want to lie here and die. I want to be with my sister. I want to see her smile again. / I looked out the window and screamed at the top of my lungs. "Why did you leave me Aya. I wanted to see the smile on your face when you came back home to the Koneko and see your party and al the decorations. I wanted to see you smile. But.but you didn't .you died right there in my arms.
Life was complicated.it wasn't supposed to be like this. It would wonderful if I was able to still have her in my arms. What did she mean when she said 'We are one?' that same question also kept repeating itself. My mind is so dark and so is my heart. "AYA!!!! WHY DID YOU LEAVE!!!" I fell onto my bed and cried. Crying satisfied me so much. But this time it wasn't enough. I gazed down at the floor and still found the broken lamp and I got up from my bed and walked over to the broken pieces. /This lamp.we have so much in common, and so much difference. / I picked up one of the pieces and observed it carefully. "We are both shattered and broken.but yet.you can be glued back together and look brand new." I glared at the piece of glass and swiped it across my arm. Soon enough I watched slowly as the blood trickled down my arm. It seemed that this satisfied my even more. This stopped made me cry even more. I enjoyed crying because if I didn't cry then I would stay sad. /I was shattered just like that lamp. It can be put back together.yet I cannot, for I am a forbidden lover and an angel of death. / Staring at the dark sky through my window helped me find out how I can be reunited with Aya. Placing one of the glass objects I my hand stabbed my wrist and the blood dripped on my carpet. I punched the window sending it shattering too. Omi had obviously heard of it since there was pounding on my door. "RAN! RAN! PLEASE LET ME IN!" Omi yelled as loud as possible hoping that I wouldn't do anything stupid. I ignored his care and his concern for it didn't matter. I stepped over the window placing my foot on the frame. / This is.this is the right thing to do. /
Omi ran as fast as his little body allowed him and sprinted infront of Ken's door. Omi knew that it would take every ounce in his body to wake Ken up. He was a very heavy sleeper just like Yohji, only worse. "KEN-KUN!!! KEN-KUN!!! PLEASE WAKE UP!!!" Omi cried out like a little child. A snore was heard after what Omi had said. 'KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!' / man, Ken is worse than Yohji./ Omi thought to himself then continued pounding on Ken's door. Finally he heard a groggy like voice speak out. "WhhhHHHaaaAAAtttTTT!??" Omi panicked and had to hurry because he knew that Ran was going to kill himself. "IT'S AN EMERGENCY!!!" I heard footsteps coming from the room. Ken knew that there was something wrong with Omi. He could hear the worry in his voice. "What is it this time? Did Yohji get drunk again? Did he throw up in Ran's car again?" Ken joked around not sounding to serious. "RAN'S ABOUT TO KILL HIMSELF!" Omi yelled trying to get Ken's attention. "HE IS WHAT!!!" Ken sounded much more alert as his footsteps grew louder and faster. Opening the door as fast as he could he slammed the door into Omi's face (on accident of course ^-^) "OOW!!" Omi fell onto the floor. Ken knelt down to pick up Omi. "Heh, guess I don't know my own strength, sorry Omi." There wasn't much time left before Ran would kill himself, and they would be too late. They had to save their leader from his troubles.from his heart.
Omi and Ken ran as fast as possible and heard noises coming from Ran's apartment. "What's going on in there? Is he breaking windows?" Ken asked while he watched Omi pound on the door. He decided that he would do the talking considering he and Ran talked the most out of all of the WeiB members. "RAN! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" Ken shouted random questions at Ran. "RAN! ARE YOU IN THERE?" still silence. "RAN PLEASE OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!!!" Omi cursed at Ran trying to get him out. They finally heard something from the room and listened to Ran speak.
"I AM GETTING READY TO REUNITE WITH MY SISTER" Ran shouted as tears flowed down his pale cheeks. He really did care about WeiB but he wanted his sister more than anything. Seeing her smile was all that mattered, even it meant killing himself. "Reunite with his sister?" What does he mean by that Ken-kun?" Omi looked at Ken with his big blue eyes. "I dunno know. I thought she was- OH NO!!!" as soon as Ken came into realization he and Omi realized that they had to save him. They tried their hardest to break the door down ,hoping that they would get there int time before Ran killed himself. "ONE.TWO...THREE.!"with no success they didn't break it down so they had to try again to save their leader. "THIS TIME WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT!!! FOR RAN." Ken stated as we were about to do our final push. "Alright for Ran." Omi nodded. With slit wrists still constantly bleed Ran knew that they were about to break the door down so he had to do this fast. /Why am I so scared to do this? Why am I shaking? I have never feared of dying before.why am I now?/ NO I AM NOT AFRAID TO DIE!!!" Ran stood over the frame getting ready to take a leap of faith. /This is the right thing to do/ with that Ran took his other leg and glared down onto the road. (sigh) "I am coming for you.Aya" there he jumped and stared at the Koneko, waiting for his time to die. "ONE...TWO .THREE." Omi and Ken both shouted in unison and broke Ran's door down. "Where is he?" Ken looked around Ran's room to find nothing. "Oh my God..his carpet." Omi pointed to the crimson blood stains that soaked into Ran's floor. "RAN!" Ken sprinted towards the window where Ran had punched and jumped out of. "OH NO.RAN!!! RAN!!!" Omi's voice echoed through the night sky as Omi and Ken stumbled over the window to see an out-cold bleeding lifeless body. They were too late and, Ran stared out at them then at the midnight sky filled with stars seeing Aya's face once more.
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Will Ran get his dream come true or what will fate take him another direction? (well duh) Anyway I hope you enjoyed my story! It took awhile. I KNOW THAT IT SUX but hey that's because this is my first fanfic ever. Oh well PLEASE READ & REVIEW THE ON COMING CHAPTERS!!! I wanted this chapter to be really long but I guess that didn't happen huh? Oh yea I know that Aya really wakes up at the end of the series, but hey I wanted to try something new. So this fic is going to have.hm about two more chapters.hopefully.UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!SAYONARA!!!!
Arigato!!!!! ^_~