Fools Paradise
By: Can (lucyc_23455@yahoo.com)
Spoilers: Up through COD
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own them
Thanks to Neuroscpr for reading
Maybe D'Argo's right. All I'm doing is torturing myself. I'm not learning anything from this frelling tape, but it has Aeryn in it and I can't stop watching her every movement, her every facial expression, her hands, her eyes. her. I feel so empty again yearning to touch her as I reach out to the television only to feel warm glass.
I drop the remote next to me, burying my hands in my face, knowing I just made a deal with the devil. It was the only way I knew to get Scorpius' help. I thought I was above that, but I knew at that moment, standing in his cell, I'd sell my soul to get Aeryn back. Perhaps I just had.
Funny how things come back to bite you in the ass! Me and Scorpius. All I can do is cringe thinking about it.
When did it happen? When did I lose myself? I'm not a scientist anymore. That portion of me died years ago. It must have happened slowly because I sit here now wondering. I'm a product of this universe, my values gone, willing to do anything to bring Aeryn to safety.
I reach for the remote and stare at the set freezing a frame of Aeryn, her eyes staring back as if she sees me, my breath catching in my throat. Her beauty leaves me aching for her touch, while kicking myself for letting her go without me. Since when has anything been simple and easy for us? We never get a frelling break. why did we think it would be different this time?
Katratzi is out there, no matter what Sikozu says. It's just a matter of digging harder for the planet. She's in Scorpy's pocket, only willing to do as he asks. I bet she'll find it now, since I gave into her master, the one person I've fought these past four years. Scorpius. and now he owns me. Did he plan this for his own end? Was I only deluding myself believing I was ever in control?
Just the thought sickens me, but I know I don't have a choice if I ever want to see Aeryn safe again. I'll do what I have to and deal with the fallout later. Isn't that the way it's always been? Action and the throw back later? Why change now, only this time it's for Aeryn. Consequences be damned!
Thanks to Neuroscpr for reading
Maybe D'Argo's right. All I'm doing is torturing myself. I'm not learning anything from this frelling tape, but it has Aeryn in it and I can't stop watching her every movement, her every facial expression, her hands, her eyes. her. I feel so empty again yearning to touch her as I reach out to the television only to feel warm glass.
I drop the remote next to me, burying my hands in my face, knowing I just made a deal with the devil. It was the only way I knew to get Scorpius' help. I thought I was above that, but I knew at that moment, standing in his cell, I'd sell my soul to get Aeryn back. Perhaps I just had.
Funny how things come back to bite you in the ass! Me and Scorpius. All I can do is cringe thinking about it.
When did it happen? When did I lose myself? I'm not a scientist anymore. That portion of me died years ago. It must have happened slowly because I sit here now wondering. I'm a product of this universe, my values gone, willing to do anything to bring Aeryn to safety.
I reach for the remote and stare at the set freezing a frame of Aeryn, her eyes staring back as if she sees me, my breath catching in my throat. Her beauty leaves me aching for her touch, while kicking myself for letting her go without me. Since when has anything been simple and easy for us? We never get a frelling break. why did we think it would be different this time?
Katratzi is out there, no matter what Sikozu says. It's just a matter of digging harder for the planet. She's in Scorpy's pocket, only willing to do as he asks. I bet she'll find it now, since I gave into her master, the one person I've fought these past four years. Scorpius. and now he owns me. Did he plan this for his own end? Was I only deluding myself believing I was ever in control?
Just the thought sickens me, but I know I don't have a choice if I ever want to see Aeryn safe again. I'll do what I have to and deal with the fallout later. Isn't that the way it's always been? Action and the throw back later? Why change now, only this time it's for Aeryn. Consequences be damned!