Welcome to chapter 2 of 'An Angels Tear'. Do not attempt to skip chapter 1 even if i am going to summarize it for you now.
CHAPTER 1 SUMMARY: Shinji leaves nerv for the day, meets up with Kaoru, they talk about angels, Tokyo-3, and the like, Kaoru hints that he may not be human, and that he is *different* than other angels.
This chapter really starts to get into the 'beef' of the story. I hope you enjoy it, reviews are always appreciated, i dont even mind a well thought out flame every now and then.
Italicized fonts are often the charcters talking to themselves.
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An Angel's Tear - Chapter II
Shinji lies in his bed. He continues to replay his conversation with Kaoru.
"What could Kaoru mean?" Shinji asked himself.
You know what it means, Shinji, Kaoru is an angel.
"No he isn't! He stood right there and talked to me! And... and he said he loved me! Angels hate us! Angels kill us."
Shinji, you don't even know what an angel is.
"You're right. But I do know that angels are the enemy. I will tell someone about him..."
Is that what Kaoru deserves for the trust he bestowed with you?
"He didn't trust me! Angels can't... trust! I know what he's doing... he.. he's just trying to get into my head..."
Shinji, don't lie to yourself. No one else is listening. You know he was sincere.
Shinji is tired of it. He turns up his music to MAX. His mind is too exhausted to think. And, for now, he'll keep Kaoru's true identity a secret.... for now....
***
The rising sun shines through the broken window shades and tattoos a shattered image onto Rei's face. She lies there for several minutes, trying to believe that the sun will just go away if she pretends that she doesn't notice it. But, as every morning, the rays of the sunlight eventually creep between Rei's eyelids and cause her to toss and groan. She rises.
Goddamn the sun...
She turns and sits on her bed causing the top bed sheets to fall off. There is a pear-shaped red stain on the bed. She's bleeding again, her shoulder this time. The bandages never seem to hold.
Rei slaps her feet onto the cold, bare floor. It is routine, the sun wakes her, she finds blood under her covers, and then she drags herself to the shower. She flips on the shower lights... all too bright. They used to make her squint, but she is used to them now, she just keeps her eyes closed in the shower until she can turn them off again. Rei anticipates what comes next, she turns on the water and soon the dialogue begins...
Rei....
"Go away!" She yells at herself inside her head.
...I'm still here Rei...
"..."
Rei...
She clenches her eyes shut.
"What!? Why do you call me that? Why... Why do I have a name? How am I different than this shower?"
"Don't answer, I already know. I'm no different than any machine. Yet, I don't go around naming all of them! I'm no different... I'm nothing... leave me alone..."
Rei gasps for air. Her eyes swell, yet she is not sure if she is crying, it may just be the thin, cold water from the shower spraying onto her face. Yet she may as well be crying, for the sadness inside her overflows like full sponge being twisted.
"What a... pathetic machine I am."
Her eyes still closed, she opens the shower door. She steps out of the shower into a puddle that always forms after she's done. She flips off the lights again and systematically opens her eyes.
Rei...
Rei, you do know why you feel all this pain.
Rei doesn't want to hear it. She pulls on her clothes and runs her nails through her wet hair.
Rei, you are in denial. You feel undefined.
"That's because I am-"
NO Rei. It is because you are incompetent. You choose not to define yourself, so you long for someone else to do it for you.
"Don't say it..." says Rei as she opens the door to leave.
You know who I speak of Rei.
Expecting the sunlight again as she opens the door, she closes her eyes. But, as if in an answer to her thoughts, she doesn't see the light-orange color of the sunlight shining through her eyelids, she doesn't feel the stinging rays of the sun against her fair, pale skin.
"Rei?"
She opens her eyes, startled.
"Rei, are you okay?"
It's Kaoru.
"Yes... Yes, I am very... uh.. okay."
Kaoru smirks.
"Well, that's good to know I guess. I just thought that I'd stop by because yesterday Shinji was looking to give you something, I just wanted to check to make sure you got it."
Rei looks at his face. The way his hair is carried by his eyelashes when he blinks, the way his skin is dark... but not too dark, just tinted enough to bring out his pearl white smile.
"Rei?"
Rei twitches like she was just awoken from a dream.
"Ah, yes? Oh, Shinji, no, I haven't talked to him. I'm sure I'll see him at school though..."
"Well good, Shinji acted like it was quite important..."
Rei opens her mouth to say something but looses her chance.
"Anyway, I better be off."
As he turns, his long, shaggy hair seems to hang in place for a moment. Then, as he begins to walk away, it falls back onto his forehead and he walks away...
"Ah. Kaoru?"
Kaoru stops in his tracks.
"Yes Rei?"
Theres that name again. Even from Kaoru, she hates it.
"Why.. why do you call me by name?" asks Rei.
"Well it is your name, isn't it? It is truly a beautiful name."
"Oh.. well thank you. See you, um, around I guess."
Kaoru nods.
"He likes my name." thinks Rei, "That's enough reason for me to like it."
See Rei, he defines you.
***
Shinji waits outside his school.
"Where's Rei?" he wonders.
The bell for the first class rings. She's late... but she's never late!
Shinji waits a moment then runs to class. He sits at his desk... or, slouches, rather. The teacher's monotone voice makes Shinji's eyelids heavy. His thoughts rotate in a circle: Karou... Angels... The Third Impact... Rei...
The door to the classroom opens. Rei walks in slowly. She looks aloof, dazed.
Shinji looks at her pale face. Her neck is long and slim, her arms look limp, she drags her feet. She looks weak, fragile like a white-crystal doll. Shinji frowns looking at her.
I can't bear to see her like this, so.... vulnerable. She has to know. I... I have to tell her; ...everything... about Kaoru... about me.
He stares at Rei, staring at her eyes, hoping to make contact. But, she walks past.
Shinji sighs.
END OF CHAPTER II
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I hope you enjoyed it.... Chapter III is coming soon. Reviews are always appreciated.
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An Angel's Tear - Chapter II
Shinji lies in his bed. He continues to replay his conversation with Kaoru.
"What could Kaoru mean?" Shinji asked himself.
You know what it means, Shinji, Kaoru is an angel.
"No he isn't! He stood right there and talked to me! And... and he said he loved me! Angels hate us! Angels kill us."
Shinji, you don't even know what an angel is.
"You're right. But I do know that angels are the enemy. I will tell someone about him..."
Is that what Kaoru deserves for the trust he bestowed with you?
"He didn't trust me! Angels can't... trust! I know what he's doing... he.. he's just trying to get into my head..."
Shinji, don't lie to yourself. No one else is listening. You know he was sincere.
Shinji is tired of it. He turns up his music to MAX. His mind is too exhausted to think. And, for now, he'll keep Kaoru's true identity a secret.... for now....
***
The rising sun shines through the broken window shades and tattoos a shattered image onto Rei's face. She lies there for several minutes, trying to believe that the sun will just go away if she pretends that she doesn't notice it. But, as every morning, the rays of the sunlight eventually creep between Rei's eyelids and cause her to toss and groan. She rises.
Goddamn the sun...
She turns and sits on her bed causing the top bed sheets to fall off. There is a pear-shaped red stain on the bed. She's bleeding again, her shoulder this time. The bandages never seem to hold.
Rei slaps her feet onto the cold, bare floor. It is routine, the sun wakes her, she finds blood under her covers, and then she drags herself to the shower. She flips on the shower lights... all too bright. They used to make her squint, but she is used to them now, she just keeps her eyes closed in the shower until she can turn them off again. Rei anticipates what comes next, she turns on the water and soon the dialogue begins...
Rei....
"Go away!" She yells at herself inside her head.
...I'm still here Rei...
"..."
Rei...
She clenches her eyes shut.
"What!? Why do you call me that? Why... Why do I have a name? How am I different than this shower?"
"Don't answer, I already know. I'm no different than any machine. Yet, I don't go around naming all of them! I'm no different... I'm nothing... leave me alone..."
Rei gasps for air. Her eyes swell, yet she is not sure if she is crying, it may just be the thin, cold water from the shower spraying onto her face. Yet she may as well be crying, for the sadness inside her overflows like full sponge being twisted.
"What a... pathetic machine I am."
Her eyes still closed, she opens the shower door. She steps out of the shower into a puddle that always forms after she's done. She flips off the lights again and systematically opens her eyes.
Rei...
Rei, you do know why you feel all this pain.
Rei doesn't want to hear it. She pulls on her clothes and runs her nails through her wet hair.
Rei, you are in denial. You feel undefined.
"That's because I am-"
NO Rei. It is because you are incompetent. You choose not to define yourself, so you long for someone else to do it for you.
"Don't say it..." says Rei as she opens the door to leave.
You know who I speak of Rei.
Expecting the sunlight again as she opens the door, she closes her eyes. But, as if in an answer to her thoughts, she doesn't see the light-orange color of the sunlight shining through her eyelids, she doesn't feel the stinging rays of the sun against her fair, pale skin.
"Rei?"
She opens her eyes, startled.
"Rei, are you okay?"
It's Kaoru.
"Yes... Yes, I am very... uh.. okay."
Kaoru smirks.
"Well, that's good to know I guess. I just thought that I'd stop by because yesterday Shinji was looking to give you something, I just wanted to check to make sure you got it."
Rei looks at his face. The way his hair is carried by his eyelashes when he blinks, the way his skin is dark... but not too dark, just tinted enough to bring out his pearl white smile.
"Rei?"
Rei twitches like she was just awoken from a dream.
"Ah, yes? Oh, Shinji, no, I haven't talked to him. I'm sure I'll see him at school though..."
"Well good, Shinji acted like it was quite important..."
Rei opens her mouth to say something but looses her chance.
"Anyway, I better be off."
As he turns, his long, shaggy hair seems to hang in place for a moment. Then, as he begins to walk away, it falls back onto his forehead and he walks away...
"Ah. Kaoru?"
Kaoru stops in his tracks.
"Yes Rei?"
Theres that name again. Even from Kaoru, she hates it.
"Why.. why do you call me by name?" asks Rei.
"Well it is your name, isn't it? It is truly a beautiful name."
"Oh.. well thank you. See you, um, around I guess."
Kaoru nods.
"He likes my name." thinks Rei, "That's enough reason for me to like it."
See Rei, he defines you.
***
Shinji waits outside his school.
"Where's Rei?" he wonders.
The bell for the first class rings. She's late... but she's never late!
Shinji waits a moment then runs to class. He sits at his desk... or, slouches, rather. The teacher's monotone voice makes Shinji's eyelids heavy. His thoughts rotate in a circle: Karou... Angels... The Third Impact... Rei...
The door to the classroom opens. Rei walks in slowly. She looks aloof, dazed.
Shinji looks at her pale face. Her neck is long and slim, her arms look limp, she drags her feet. She looks weak, fragile like a white-crystal doll. Shinji frowns looking at her.
I can't bear to see her like this, so.... vulnerable. She has to know. I... I have to tell her; ...everything... about Kaoru... about me.
He stares at Rei, staring at her eyes, hoping to make contact. But, she walks past.
Shinji sighs.
END OF CHAPTER II
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I hope you enjoyed it.... Chapter III is coming soon. Reviews are always appreciated.