Author: Lucinda
rating: pg 13 (a bad word)
pairing: Willow/Oz (QPC 20)
disclaimer: I do not own anyone from Buffy the Vampire Slayer
distribution: WLS, NHA, Bite Me please? Quickie Challenge, anyone else please ask
AU season 4.
QPC Theme for January: New Year, the number 2003, winter time, ice skating, resolutions, champagne/alcohol, hangovers, parties.
You were my New Year's Resolution, you know. Not to get you back, oh no. I could never forget how you left, how I hadn't been enough for you. You hadn't even been willing to consider trying to make things work between us. You just left. You can't imagine how devastated I was. I'd let you become my world, and then you left me.
Well, first, you cheated on me with that skanky bitch, and then you tried to kill me, and THEN you left me. You couldn't even say goodbye, you were just gone. You couldn't even send me a simple card to tell me you weren't coming back, you just had Devon send your things.
Except that you did come back. You came back right when I was starting to put my life back together. Not only that, but you were so horribly upset at the idea that I might be moving on, might be getting over you, that you were convinced I was having an affair with Tara.
You were so furious that I might be moving on, that you might have been replaced in my heart, in my bed, that you tried to eat her. You couldn't stand the idea that I might have got over you.
But you gave up the right to lay claim to my heart when you dumped me. When you got all wolfy and naked with Veruca, and left me behind. You have no right to tell me what I should or shouldn't do with my life.
Why couldn't you accept that? Why did you have to come back and mess everything up again? Why did you have to ruin everything again?
Now, it's winter, and there's a chill in the air. There's still a part of me that wonders if you have a safe place to put yourself when the moon is full, or if that control you said you'd gained actually works.
Of course, I know you can't hear me. I'm here, at the New Year's party for the guys at Riley's fraternity, where Buffy dragged me, claiming I need to move on and get someone new. You're... I have no idea where you are, Oz. But it isn't here, is it?
That's why you're my Resolution. I'm sick and tired of everything between us focusing on you and your needs. YOU needed someone who could deal with your wolfiness. YOU needed to... do Veruca. YOU needed to leave.
Now it's my turn. And I've decided that what I need it to have you gone. Not just from my life, you already took care of that. But gone from my heart, from my soul. I won't let you have this power over me anymore.
Bye Oz, wherever you are. I wish I could say it has been fun knowing you...
But in the end, it wasn't.
end My Resolution.
rating: pg 13 (a bad word)
pairing: Willow/Oz (QPC 20)
disclaimer: I do not own anyone from Buffy the Vampire Slayer
distribution: WLS, NHA, Bite Me please? Quickie Challenge, anyone else please ask
AU season 4.
QPC Theme for January: New Year, the number 2003, winter time, ice skating, resolutions, champagne/alcohol, hangovers, parties.
You were my New Year's Resolution, you know. Not to get you back, oh no. I could never forget how you left, how I hadn't been enough for you. You hadn't even been willing to consider trying to make things work between us. You just left. You can't imagine how devastated I was. I'd let you become my world, and then you left me.
Well, first, you cheated on me with that skanky bitch, and then you tried to kill me, and THEN you left me. You couldn't even say goodbye, you were just gone. You couldn't even send me a simple card to tell me you weren't coming back, you just had Devon send your things.
Except that you did come back. You came back right when I was starting to put my life back together. Not only that, but you were so horribly upset at the idea that I might be moving on, might be getting over you, that you were convinced I was having an affair with Tara.
You were so furious that I might be moving on, that you might have been replaced in my heart, in my bed, that you tried to eat her. You couldn't stand the idea that I might have got over you.
But you gave up the right to lay claim to my heart when you dumped me. When you got all wolfy and naked with Veruca, and left me behind. You have no right to tell me what I should or shouldn't do with my life.
Why couldn't you accept that? Why did you have to come back and mess everything up again? Why did you have to ruin everything again?
Now, it's winter, and there's a chill in the air. There's still a part of me that wonders if you have a safe place to put yourself when the moon is full, or if that control you said you'd gained actually works.
Of course, I know you can't hear me. I'm here, at the New Year's party for the guys at Riley's fraternity, where Buffy dragged me, claiming I need to move on and get someone new. You're... I have no idea where you are, Oz. But it isn't here, is it?
That's why you're my Resolution. I'm sick and tired of everything between us focusing on you and your needs. YOU needed someone who could deal with your wolfiness. YOU needed to... do Veruca. YOU needed to leave.
Now it's my turn. And I've decided that what I need it to have you gone. Not just from my life, you already took care of that. But gone from my heart, from my soul. I won't let you have this power over me anymore.
Bye Oz, wherever you are. I wish I could say it has been fun knowing you...
But in the end, it wasn't.
end My Resolution.