Title: Remember me Wholly
Author: Silver-Winged-Angel
Disclaimer: I don't own YNM's characters; I'm just borrowing them for the sake of entertainment...
Rating: PG-13 and soon it will be R
Summery: You can never forget the past but don't let it control you...
Chapter 8 Don't you care about me?
Hijiri who had awoken went unnoticed by the two lovebirds. He had heard everything. Heard everything and saw everything. Tears welled up in his eyes and he suppressed a sob. Tsuzuki was the one he had been longing for a long time now. Tsuzuki was the one he had been trying to tell his feelings to. His feelings of love. But now, his hopes were shattered. Hisoka had received his love first and he wouldn't get the chance again.
He started cursing himself, for being such a fool and not telling Tsuzuki of his feelings earlier. Now, Hisoka was the lucky one. Lucky for having Tsuzuki as someone more than a friend. How could he have been so foolish? Another stream of tears fell and he shut his eyes tight. Afraid that the couple would notice. He would have to let go of Tsuzuki, but his heart wouldn't want to. He wouldn't believe that he lost this chance and be loved.
His head was saying that he would do anything to get Tsuzuki back from Hisoka, but his heart was telling him to let go. Hisoka was his friend and he couldn't… wouldn't hurt him. After hearing the self-confession only a while ago, he felt… sad. Sad about Hisoka's past and he almost felt pity, but he knew Hisoka wouldn't want that. Suddenly, he felt a pain coming up in his ribs and he whimpered. The second he involuntarily let out that sound, he regretted it. No, he was confused, whether to regret it or to be relieved, 'cause, Hisoka wasn't kissing Tsuzuki anymore.
Tsuzuki and Hisoka jumped and broke their kiss, glancing towards Hijiri. Hijiri had already shut his eyes and hoped neither of them noticed. Suddenly, Tsuzuki saw the tears, running down Hijiri's face. The couple broke apart and Tsuzuki stood up, and walked towards Hijiri's bedside. He stroked his cheek. "Hijiri-kun," he whispered. Hijiri couldn't help but lean towards the hand. He finally gave in and opened his eyes. The green orbs were watery, filled with tears.
"Hijiri, are you okay? Are you hurting?" concern visible in Tsuzuki's tone. Not wanting to be thought a resistance between the two lovebirds, Hijiri simply shook his head and turned to his side, as much as the tubes would allow him. He turned away from two of his friends, one that he had helplessly fallen in love with. He fell deep and fast in love with no one to catch him but the cold hard ground.
Tsuzuki was stuck between two options. Whether to call the doctor or just tend to Hijiri by himself. As Hisoka's confession came into mind, he chose not to call Dr. Muraki but he can't avoid him as long as Hijiri is in this hospital. He could call other doctors, but where would he find one? He doesn't even know where the staff room is, let alone another doctor's office! He could sense Hijiri was in pain, but he simply couldn't call that doctor. He wouldn't even want that sadistic doctor to go any nearer to any of his friends. But as long as he himself was here, there's nothing to worry about. He would stay in the room to watch out for Hijiri as that doctor do a check up. Yoshi! That would be a great idea.
He was about to press the buzzer when his thought came back to Hisoka. Hisoka would be terrified seeing Muraki sensei. He squeezed his brain again, finding an answer. Hisoka could go take a walk while the check up was done, but he wouldn't want him to go out alone. He just wasn't in a right condition to go anywhere alone. Hisoka seemed like a strong-minded person but inside, Tsuzuki knew how scared and vulnerable he was. He glanced down at Hijiri again and noticed that his shoulders were shaking and his hands were covering his face.
Hijiri was crying. Tsuzuki knew it and he assumed it was the pain. His hand trembled as he pressed the buzzer. A couple of moment later Muraki sensei came in and strides towards the trio.
"Ah, I see he's awake," the doctor commented. His gaze settled on Hisoka for a while making the blonde boy turn away, refusing to meet his eyes. It didn't go unnoticed to Tsuzuki and he tried to keep his expressions cool and calm as he spoke, "Sensei, Hijiri-kun seemed to be in pain, please check what's wrong," the doctor's eyes dropped to the boy on the bed.
"Hmm, I'll see what's wrong, but I'll have to ask the both of you to wait outside," he explained and Tsuzuki narrowed his eyes before replying, "No, it's okay, we'll stay here," the doctor nodded. "It's fine then," Tsuzuki went to Hisoka's side and sat, watching the doctor's every move.
The doctor did what every doctor would do. He was so engrossed in his job that he didn't notice Tsuzuki's watchful eyes. Something was injected in Hijiri's arms, drawing a soft whimper from the boy and Tsuzuki for once was suspicious of the syringe's content. The doctor finished his job and turned towards Tsuzuki, whom stood up, not wanting him to be any closer to Hisoka.
"Well, he seems to be quite fine right now, I have given him a painkiller which will ease his discomfort for now and-" the doctor's words were cut in mid-sentence. "For now?! What do you mean?" he asked. "Calm yourself, Tsuzuki-san, the pain killer will last for a few hours and we will see his condition later on, a heavy pain killer will only make him sleepy and would make his muscles stiff," the doctor explains. Tsuzuki nodded, he wasn't good in medical stuff so he have to trust this doctor.
"Ja, I'll be leaving and I'll come back to check on him later," Tsuzuki watched as Muraki sensei walked out the door. He glances at Hijiri whom was staring at the ceiling. He wasn't sedated and was wide-awake but his eyes seemed to be hazy. "Hijiri-kun, are you all right now?" he asked. Hijiri nodded and turned away again, on his side. Tsuzuki sighed. Knowing not a single information about Hijiri's mood right now. He assumed he was too tired to speak.
Tsuzuki went back to sit beside Hisoka, his arm around the blonde's shoulder. Hisoka relaxed in the embrace and laid his head on Tsuzuki's chest. "Tsuzuki?" Hisoka whispered, not turning his head from Tsuzuki's chest. "Hmm?" he hesitated for a while, not sure if he should be asking, but he had to make sure. "Tsuzuki… what do you think of me? What do I mean to you, Tsuzuki," he asked, in a soft whisper.
Tsuzuki glanced down. Hisoka is a little curious sometimes but he never expected Hisoka to be asking these questions. Hisoka's heart was always closed and he never allowed himself to be vulnerable in front of people. But not, Hisoka /was/ vulnerable. Innocent and vulnerable.
"Hisoka, I think of you as someone precious to me, someone I would never let go, someone I love, and you mean the world to me, even the universe, nothing can change my heart again, I've been having these feelings for a long time now, and I won't turn back, my love for you is unbreakable, 'soka-chan, I love you," there, he said it. He succeeded in saying those three little words. Hisoka's eyes watered as he heard Tsuzuki's confession.
"Arigatou!! Tsuzuki!!" he snuggled closer in Tsuzuki's arms and began sobbing. Tsuzuki smiled again and pulled Hisoka closer, laying soft kisses on his head, before moving down to his forehead, both of his eyelids, his nose and finally down to his soft lips. Hisoka felt the kiss was sincere, no bluffing, and Hisoka kissed back, wrapping his arms around Tsuzuki's neck. Tsuzuki broke the kiss and whispered in Hisoka's ear, "Ai shite iru, Hisoka," and he leaned down again, taking Hisoka's lips in his for a passionate kiss.
Meanwhile, Hijiri was trying his hard to block out the voices behind him, trying his best to hold his tears. His eyes drifted shut, a silent vow in his heart. "I won't give up on you, Tsuzuki,"
End of Chapter 8
(Author's note: Phew!! Finish that chapter!! So, what do you guys think? Is it nice or is it just crap? hehe,, anyway, R&R please, comments, review, questions, anything, are welcome. And thanks to everyone who had been R&R-ing my fic!! Thanx a million!! You'll never imagine how much you guys mean to me!! Arigatou gozaimasu!!!!!!!!!!!)
Author: Silver-Winged-Angel
Disclaimer: I don't own YNM's characters; I'm just borrowing them for the sake of entertainment...
Rating: PG-13 and soon it will be R
Summery: You can never forget the past but don't let it control you...
Chapter 8 Don't you care about me?
Hijiri who had awoken went unnoticed by the two lovebirds. He had heard everything. Heard everything and saw everything. Tears welled up in his eyes and he suppressed a sob. Tsuzuki was the one he had been longing for a long time now. Tsuzuki was the one he had been trying to tell his feelings to. His feelings of love. But now, his hopes were shattered. Hisoka had received his love first and he wouldn't get the chance again.
He started cursing himself, for being such a fool and not telling Tsuzuki of his feelings earlier. Now, Hisoka was the lucky one. Lucky for having Tsuzuki as someone more than a friend. How could he have been so foolish? Another stream of tears fell and he shut his eyes tight. Afraid that the couple would notice. He would have to let go of Tsuzuki, but his heart wouldn't want to. He wouldn't believe that he lost this chance and be loved.
His head was saying that he would do anything to get Tsuzuki back from Hisoka, but his heart was telling him to let go. Hisoka was his friend and he couldn't… wouldn't hurt him. After hearing the self-confession only a while ago, he felt… sad. Sad about Hisoka's past and he almost felt pity, but he knew Hisoka wouldn't want that. Suddenly, he felt a pain coming up in his ribs and he whimpered. The second he involuntarily let out that sound, he regretted it. No, he was confused, whether to regret it or to be relieved, 'cause, Hisoka wasn't kissing Tsuzuki anymore.
Tsuzuki and Hisoka jumped and broke their kiss, glancing towards Hijiri. Hijiri had already shut his eyes and hoped neither of them noticed. Suddenly, Tsuzuki saw the tears, running down Hijiri's face. The couple broke apart and Tsuzuki stood up, and walked towards Hijiri's bedside. He stroked his cheek. "Hijiri-kun," he whispered. Hijiri couldn't help but lean towards the hand. He finally gave in and opened his eyes. The green orbs were watery, filled with tears.
"Hijiri, are you okay? Are you hurting?" concern visible in Tsuzuki's tone. Not wanting to be thought a resistance between the two lovebirds, Hijiri simply shook his head and turned to his side, as much as the tubes would allow him. He turned away from two of his friends, one that he had helplessly fallen in love with. He fell deep and fast in love with no one to catch him but the cold hard ground.
Tsuzuki was stuck between two options. Whether to call the doctor or just tend to Hijiri by himself. As Hisoka's confession came into mind, he chose not to call Dr. Muraki but he can't avoid him as long as Hijiri is in this hospital. He could call other doctors, but where would he find one? He doesn't even know where the staff room is, let alone another doctor's office! He could sense Hijiri was in pain, but he simply couldn't call that doctor. He wouldn't even want that sadistic doctor to go any nearer to any of his friends. But as long as he himself was here, there's nothing to worry about. He would stay in the room to watch out for Hijiri as that doctor do a check up. Yoshi! That would be a great idea.
He was about to press the buzzer when his thought came back to Hisoka. Hisoka would be terrified seeing Muraki sensei. He squeezed his brain again, finding an answer. Hisoka could go take a walk while the check up was done, but he wouldn't want him to go out alone. He just wasn't in a right condition to go anywhere alone. Hisoka seemed like a strong-minded person but inside, Tsuzuki knew how scared and vulnerable he was. He glanced down at Hijiri again and noticed that his shoulders were shaking and his hands were covering his face.
Hijiri was crying. Tsuzuki knew it and he assumed it was the pain. His hand trembled as he pressed the buzzer. A couple of moment later Muraki sensei came in and strides towards the trio.
"Ah, I see he's awake," the doctor commented. His gaze settled on Hisoka for a while making the blonde boy turn away, refusing to meet his eyes. It didn't go unnoticed to Tsuzuki and he tried to keep his expressions cool and calm as he spoke, "Sensei, Hijiri-kun seemed to be in pain, please check what's wrong," the doctor's eyes dropped to the boy on the bed.
"Hmm, I'll see what's wrong, but I'll have to ask the both of you to wait outside," he explained and Tsuzuki narrowed his eyes before replying, "No, it's okay, we'll stay here," the doctor nodded. "It's fine then," Tsuzuki went to Hisoka's side and sat, watching the doctor's every move.
The doctor did what every doctor would do. He was so engrossed in his job that he didn't notice Tsuzuki's watchful eyes. Something was injected in Hijiri's arms, drawing a soft whimper from the boy and Tsuzuki for once was suspicious of the syringe's content. The doctor finished his job and turned towards Tsuzuki, whom stood up, not wanting him to be any closer to Hisoka.
"Well, he seems to be quite fine right now, I have given him a painkiller which will ease his discomfort for now and-" the doctor's words were cut in mid-sentence. "For now?! What do you mean?" he asked. "Calm yourself, Tsuzuki-san, the pain killer will last for a few hours and we will see his condition later on, a heavy pain killer will only make him sleepy and would make his muscles stiff," the doctor explains. Tsuzuki nodded, he wasn't good in medical stuff so he have to trust this doctor.
"Ja, I'll be leaving and I'll come back to check on him later," Tsuzuki watched as Muraki sensei walked out the door. He glances at Hijiri whom was staring at the ceiling. He wasn't sedated and was wide-awake but his eyes seemed to be hazy. "Hijiri-kun, are you all right now?" he asked. Hijiri nodded and turned away again, on his side. Tsuzuki sighed. Knowing not a single information about Hijiri's mood right now. He assumed he was too tired to speak.
Tsuzuki went back to sit beside Hisoka, his arm around the blonde's shoulder. Hisoka relaxed in the embrace and laid his head on Tsuzuki's chest. "Tsuzuki?" Hisoka whispered, not turning his head from Tsuzuki's chest. "Hmm?" he hesitated for a while, not sure if he should be asking, but he had to make sure. "Tsuzuki… what do you think of me? What do I mean to you, Tsuzuki," he asked, in a soft whisper.
Tsuzuki glanced down. Hisoka is a little curious sometimes but he never expected Hisoka to be asking these questions. Hisoka's heart was always closed and he never allowed himself to be vulnerable in front of people. But not, Hisoka /was/ vulnerable. Innocent and vulnerable.
"Hisoka, I think of you as someone precious to me, someone I would never let go, someone I love, and you mean the world to me, even the universe, nothing can change my heart again, I've been having these feelings for a long time now, and I won't turn back, my love for you is unbreakable, 'soka-chan, I love you," there, he said it. He succeeded in saying those three little words. Hisoka's eyes watered as he heard Tsuzuki's confession.
"Arigatou!! Tsuzuki!!" he snuggled closer in Tsuzuki's arms and began sobbing. Tsuzuki smiled again and pulled Hisoka closer, laying soft kisses on his head, before moving down to his forehead, both of his eyelids, his nose and finally down to his soft lips. Hisoka felt the kiss was sincere, no bluffing, and Hisoka kissed back, wrapping his arms around Tsuzuki's neck. Tsuzuki broke the kiss and whispered in Hisoka's ear, "Ai shite iru, Hisoka," and he leaned down again, taking Hisoka's lips in his for a passionate kiss.
Meanwhile, Hijiri was trying his hard to block out the voices behind him, trying his best to hold his tears. His eyes drifted shut, a silent vow in his heart. "I won't give up on you, Tsuzuki,"
End of Chapter 8
(Author's note: Phew!! Finish that chapter!! So, what do you guys think? Is it nice or is it just crap? hehe,, anyway, R&R please, comments, review, questions, anything, are welcome. And thanks to everyone who had been R&R-ing my fic!! Thanx a million!! You'll never imagine how much you guys mean to me!! Arigatou gozaimasu!!!!!!!!!!!)