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"I never thought I could feel so low; oh darkness I feel like letting go." One week. One week and I can't get that stupid fucking line outta my head. And what's worse is that now that I look, I can see all the signs of a cop about to lose it. I mean, he's even beginning to get snarky. Becoming impolite. Yeah I Know, I know, this is Fraser we're talkin' about, but he really is! I'm worried about him.



Oh god, oh, god, not now, not now. Fraser was chasing an insane creep who had murdered a lot of people just because they got on his way. He was armed; Fraser was not. Very bad odds, considering the mood Fraser had been in lately.

Oh, god. A loud shot had just had just echoed through the ally way where Fraser was chasing the guy. I had already called for backup and could just barely hear the distinctive sound of the sirens piercing the night.

I ran to the entrance of the ally and pulled my gun. The guy was already running in the other direction as fast as he could. "Oh, no you don't you little fucker." I aimed my gun at him and fired. And fired. And fired. Until my gun was empty and his back was full of my bullets.

On the ground I could see a red heap of Mountie trying to get up and failing. I ran to him and told him stay there and stay still as fumbled for my cell to call the paramedics with the words no cop ever wants to say: "Officer down"

"Ray?" "Right here buddy." "Ray, how strange is it when you've actually become used to the feel of your own blood leaking out of you?" This very morbid question was accompanied by a pained smile as he tried to lighten the mood. Needless to say, it didn't work. "Yeah, well, if I have anything to say about it, you wont get used to it, because you will never get shot again." "Thank you, Ray" Fraser's breathing became shallow and faint. I could hear the ambulance in the background and begged them to hurry. In my own head the only thing that registered where the words 'officer down' as Welsh came and pulled me away to let the paramedics do their job and rush him to the hospital.

I never thought I could feel so low; oh darkness I feel like letting go.