A/N I'm sorry I haven't posted in so long, but I had a lot of
homework.well, I still do, but yeah I didn't have time. I'm so very sorry.
Anyway here goes...OH WAIT!! Don't forget to check out my other fics,
preferably "My Story" Got it? Get it? GOOOOD! Lol ok read on sistahs (or
brudders) read on..
Lily sighed deeply and walked into the enormous dining hall. Almost instantly she saw James and his fiancée. She forced herself to smile and went over to greet them.
"Hey, Lily! We're so glad you decided to come. This is my bride-to-be, Emma," he said proudly.
"Hello. Congratulations. Thank you for inviting me."
"Oh, no. Thank you for breaking up with him. He's such a great catch."
Lily looked down and tucked her hair behind her rose-colored ear.
"You're welcome, I guess."
Emma looked at Lily then at James then back at Lily. She sensed the awkwardness and tried her best to change the mood.
"Well, why don't you grab a bite to eat, Lily? There's a plethora of food. Go on."
Lily made her way through the crowd to the buffet table. There she met old friends.
"Lily! I'm so glad to see you!" Alexia said. She and Lily had become great friends over the years, despite the Lily-James-drama-scandal.
"Oh, it's good to see you to, Alley. Hey, Sirius! I haven't seen you in the longest time! Come here." She pulled him into a humongous bear hug.
"Wow. We're all here, eh? All of us at James' wedding together. That's..that's.."
"..reassuring? Awesome? Painful?" Alexia tried to finish her sentence. She had seen what Lily had gone through to get to this point. It had taken many nights of tears and angst to get over James. It wasn't a very easy task either. Alexia still thought Lily wasn't over him completely.
"Yes.and no. It's great. I'm really happy for him."
"Okay, Lils. We get it."
The whole night was like this- uncomfortable dialogue and inopportune moments. When all of the guests began to leave, James found the chance to finally be alone with his best familiar.
"So..how was it? It wasn't too fluffy, I hope."
"No, of course not. It was..lovely. Very romantic. I wish I was marrying you."
"What?" James smiled.
"I mean.I...I only meant that you are such a hopeless romantic. You made it so...I don't know.I could just feel the love. You and Emma looked.look..so...in love. I wish I had someone like you have...her. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
"Oddly, yes, I do. I understand completely, Lil."
"I'm delighted..Well, I best be off now..Good night and thank you again."
"Wait. I want to invite you to the wedding."
Lily paused briefly; she didn't know what to say. She thought she was over him, but after tonight.well..she doubted that was true.
"Lils?"
"James, I have to be honest with you. I can't go. I won't go. I just...it's hard to explain. It hurts to be with you. It hurts to see you with her. It hurts to know that I don't have a chance anymore. It hurts to know that I still love you, even after all this time. I'm sorry, but I can't go."
And then there was silence. Tears began to well up in her eyes and soon after, they ran down her cheeks. She looked up at him to say her final words.
"Thank you for the invite, James. I'm really happy for you," she began to cry. "I wish you and Emma a blissful time together.....forever. Goodbye." She kissed him on the cheek and walked out the door.
~*~
As soon as Lily passed through the doorway, she broke into brisk strides. She bumped into Emma, but did not say a word. She didn't want anyone to see her tears. She knew she had done the right thing once more. She loved him, but so did Emma. All she wanted was for James to be happy. Whether that was with her, or the love of his life.
'I knew I should have never come here,' she thought. 'This was such a bad mistake. I am a total idiot.' She fell on the floor, right in front of the exit. She started to bawl hysterically. There was no hope for her anymore. No reason to live. He was the one for her and now he was gone. She had walked out of his life for the second and final time.
She had never regretted that January day. Well, not until now. Now, she wanted to go back in time and relive that all over. She wanted to run after him after he left his ring. She wanted to cry on his shoulder and beg for forgiveness. But..there was nothing she could do. It was all over now..all over.
A/N Ok.so how was that? I was crying when I wrote it. I like sad stories..I think it runs in the family. I don't know if I wrote this story well enough to make you feel the same way I did, but if I was able to do that..I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF. lol Please review and make me happy. I love reviews like I love candy. YAY! lol
OH! And I recommend the BEST FIC EVER! And I'm totally serious about this. It is the most well written fanfiction I have ever read. It's so good. It's like as good as the real book. I am totally serious. I highly, highly recommend it. It's called "We'll Always Have Paris" by Melissa D. I have read it on FictionAlley.org, but I am pretty sure it's on this site too. I know you'll like it.
Lily sighed deeply and walked into the enormous dining hall. Almost instantly she saw James and his fiancée. She forced herself to smile and went over to greet them.
"Hey, Lily! We're so glad you decided to come. This is my bride-to-be, Emma," he said proudly.
"Hello. Congratulations. Thank you for inviting me."
"Oh, no. Thank you for breaking up with him. He's such a great catch."
Lily looked down and tucked her hair behind her rose-colored ear.
"You're welcome, I guess."
Emma looked at Lily then at James then back at Lily. She sensed the awkwardness and tried her best to change the mood.
"Well, why don't you grab a bite to eat, Lily? There's a plethora of food. Go on."
Lily made her way through the crowd to the buffet table. There she met old friends.
"Lily! I'm so glad to see you!" Alexia said. She and Lily had become great friends over the years, despite the Lily-James-drama-scandal.
"Oh, it's good to see you to, Alley. Hey, Sirius! I haven't seen you in the longest time! Come here." She pulled him into a humongous bear hug.
"Wow. We're all here, eh? All of us at James' wedding together. That's..that's.."
"..reassuring? Awesome? Painful?" Alexia tried to finish her sentence. She had seen what Lily had gone through to get to this point. It had taken many nights of tears and angst to get over James. It wasn't a very easy task either. Alexia still thought Lily wasn't over him completely.
"Yes.and no. It's great. I'm really happy for him."
"Okay, Lils. We get it."
The whole night was like this- uncomfortable dialogue and inopportune moments. When all of the guests began to leave, James found the chance to finally be alone with his best familiar.
"So..how was it? It wasn't too fluffy, I hope."
"No, of course not. It was..lovely. Very romantic. I wish I was marrying you."
"What?" James smiled.
"I mean.I...I only meant that you are such a hopeless romantic. You made it so...I don't know.I could just feel the love. You and Emma looked.look..so...in love. I wish I had someone like you have...her. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
"Oddly, yes, I do. I understand completely, Lil."
"I'm delighted..Well, I best be off now..Good night and thank you again."
"Wait. I want to invite you to the wedding."
Lily paused briefly; she didn't know what to say. She thought she was over him, but after tonight.well..she doubted that was true.
"Lils?"
"James, I have to be honest with you. I can't go. I won't go. I just...it's hard to explain. It hurts to be with you. It hurts to see you with her. It hurts to know that I don't have a chance anymore. It hurts to know that I still love you, even after all this time. I'm sorry, but I can't go."
And then there was silence. Tears began to well up in her eyes and soon after, they ran down her cheeks. She looked up at him to say her final words.
"Thank you for the invite, James. I'm really happy for you," she began to cry. "I wish you and Emma a blissful time together.....forever. Goodbye." She kissed him on the cheek and walked out the door.
~*~
As soon as Lily passed through the doorway, she broke into brisk strides. She bumped into Emma, but did not say a word. She didn't want anyone to see her tears. She knew she had done the right thing once more. She loved him, but so did Emma. All she wanted was for James to be happy. Whether that was with her, or the love of his life.
'I knew I should have never come here,' she thought. 'This was such a bad mistake. I am a total idiot.' She fell on the floor, right in front of the exit. She started to bawl hysterically. There was no hope for her anymore. No reason to live. He was the one for her and now he was gone. She had walked out of his life for the second and final time.
She had never regretted that January day. Well, not until now. Now, she wanted to go back in time and relive that all over. She wanted to run after him after he left his ring. She wanted to cry on his shoulder and beg for forgiveness. But..there was nothing she could do. It was all over now..all over.
A/N Ok.so how was that? I was crying when I wrote it. I like sad stories..I think it runs in the family. I don't know if I wrote this story well enough to make you feel the same way I did, but if I was able to do that..I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF. lol Please review and make me happy. I love reviews like I love candy. YAY! lol
OH! And I recommend the BEST FIC EVER! And I'm totally serious about this. It is the most well written fanfiction I have ever read. It's so good. It's like as good as the real book. I am totally serious. I highly, highly recommend it. It's called "We'll Always Have Paris" by Melissa D. I have read it on FictionAlley.org, but I am pretty sure it's on this site too. I know you'll like it.