Author's Notes:
Well, this has DEFINITELY been a long time coming!!!!!!!!!! After careful consideration and a wonderful email I received (thanx Jhenya), I decided to continue posting this on FF.net. Even if people don't review as much as they used to, that shouldn't matter. Now after having that little rant off my chest, I just want to say thanx to all of you that have reviewed or emailed. It makes me feel all warm and tingly inside to know that people are actually enjoying this. Before I go on, I just want to apologize for the lateness/crappiness of this chapter, but that will all be explained below.
Disclaimer: Digimon is in no way, shape or form owned by me. If it was, you best believe it wouldn't be aired as a children's program. ^_~ {{ anna-chan*covers mouth childishly*: heeheehee... }}
"blah"-dialogue
~blah~-thoughts
***character***-POV
++blah++-annoucement
Contradictions-Chapter 6
Author: Dream-chan
Rating: R
Editor: ^_^anna-chan^_^
Email:dream_chan@hotmail.com
***Takeru***
I can't believe that it had been almost year already in Miami. I must say that the experience has been truly worth it. My host family, the Wyatts, have been a blessing in disguise, especially their son, Bryan. His constant good mood was just what I needed after all the sadness I left behind in Japan.
One day, I remember that I was looking at the photo album that 'Kari-chan had given me before I left, and he walked into the room. I was so engrossed in the old times that I didn't notice that he was there until he asked me what I was looking at.
Smiling, I told him that it was an album of all my friends back in Japan. As I turned the pages, I came across a whole page dedicated to Daisuke...Instant Smile Remover. Seeing my reaction, Bryan asked me what was wrong. So, I basically told him that the boy on the page was my ex-best friend, which was sort of true. I really didn't want to reveal the true nature of our relationship, because of what his reaction might be. Shortly after, I learned that my fears were unfounded when I was introduced to his boyfriend, Garret. That was a relief since now I seemed that I had someone to confide in.
Even though I got along great with his group of friends, it still pained me every time I would get a letter from home. Yamato and Hikari wrote the most, keeping in contact with daily emails and monthly packages. The hardest part was when I would have to reply, trying to repress the need to ask about a certain maroon-haired gogglehead, but I have a feeling that even if I did ask, they would either ignore it or give me a vague answer.
However, I wouldn't have to worry about that anymore, because I was on my way back home, and I could see how things were for myself...see if anything changed. I know that I have. Not just on the inside, but in physical appearance as well.
Anna, one of the girls I met through Bryan, decided I needed a "drastic" makeover. Now I have a pierced ear, platinum blond streaks, and clothes that made me look like a walking ad for Eddie Bauer.
++Ladies and Gentlemen. We will be landing at Narita International Airport within the next ten minutes. At this time we ask that you secure all trays in their upright positions, turn off all electronic devices, return chairs to their upright positions and buckle your seat belts, and have your passport ready for customs. Thank you for flying Japan Air.++
Looking out the little porthole, I start to see the shape of buildings and the criss-cross of streets that represent Tokyo. Ten minutes later, we touched down and taxied to our gate. Grabbing my carry-on, I jumped out my seat and my way to the exit as quickly as possible, anxious to see
my family.
Going through Customs, I was becoming quite agitated at the slow process of the security officers, as I began to tap my foot impatiently. Didn't they know I had people waiting for me? After what seemed a small eternity, I was cleared to pass. When I walked through those double glass doors, I was not disappointed, when I heard a voice that I had only heard twice during this past year.
"OTOUTO-CHAN!!!!"
Looking around, I immediately spotted what seemed to be an older version of myself. Recognition was instant.
"YAMATO!" I yelled just as loudly, dropping my things in the mad dash to get to my brother.
Soon, I was gripped in a fierce bear hug that threatened to cut of my air supply, but I didn't mind. I had missed him just as much. After few more moments, and took a good look at me. The smile that was on his face disappered in an instant when he looked at my head.
"What the HELL happened to your hair?!?" he practically screamed, looking at me as if I committed the biggest crime on Earth.
"Hello and I missed you too," I said sarcastically, knowing that I was in for a long lecture about the importance of the tampering with the perfection of the 'Ishida mane'.
"And what is that in your ear?" he asked, leaning in to get a closer look.
"Um...an earring?" I replied, a bit worried at the strange expression on his face. If Yamato reacts like this, there is no telling what my mom is going to do.
He stood there and just stared until a small smile broke out on his face, making me feel a little better.
"I can't wait till Mom sees this..." he laughs, slinging an arm across my shoulders. "Let's get your luggage, and we'll be on our way."
"Yama, you didn't tell any of the others that I was coming home early did you?" I asked while we were walking towards the baggage claim area.
"Would I do something like that?" he asked innocently, trying to hide the faint smirk on his face.
"Yama..." I groaned, already knowing the answer to my question. Even though he doesn't act like it, Yamato has a definite sentimental streak.
"Ok Ok, I did but I made them promise not to bother you. Besides, Mom and Dad decided that we should just have a family dinner so you can get some rest." he explained, turning his attention back to the traffic.
"Really?!?" I was kinda shocked to hear this. I think that this will be the first family dinner that we had in years, but I'm not going to complain. "Well, that sounds good. Thanks onii-chan," I replied gratefully, the infamous jet-lag syndrome starting to make itself known as we made our way to his car.
We rode in silence for a few minutes, just enjoying being in each others' presence again. During my stay in the United States I missed times like these. It was just the fact that I was finally back...among family and friends. Something I will never take for granted again.
"It's so good to have you home Takeru," my brother said, as if reading my thoughts.
"It's good to be back." I smile in return. "So, what's new?"
"Hmmm, let's see...Nothing really. The band is doing great. We've go a gig coming up soon...", he begins as we drive up and down the streets of Odaiba. Settling in for a nice catch-up session, I lean back and enjoy the experience of being with my brother again.
"Um, Yamato, where are we going? This isn't the way to Dad's apartment." I interrupted him, taking in the eerily familiar scenery rushing past.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you. I have to stop past Taichi's for a hot minute. You don't mind, do you?" he asked, as he concentrated on the traffic in front of him.
"No, it's alright." I sigh, leaning back into the leather seat.
"Cool," he answers in his trademark nonchalant way. Taking advantage of the comfortable silence that falls between us, I finally get good look at my brother. Even though I can see that he is still content, there is almost an underlying sadness there. I would ask him about it, but it wouldn't make no difference. He'll talk about it when he's ready.
Looking out the window again, I am reminded of all the things that I missed so much during my stay in the States. The stores...the sounds...the crowds...It was so good to be home. As the car sped along the main thoroughfare, I leaned my head back against the seat and sighed as memory upon memory swamped me with each passing site...memories of Daisuke and me.
The arcade where he kicked my ass in Mortal Kombat too many times to count, but always used his prize tickets to get me something at the end of the day.
The ice cream parlor he took me to where we shared our first sundae, feeding each other and getting chocolate sauce and whipped cream all over our faces.
The soccer field where he would try to give me lessons, but we always seemed to end up rolling on the ground in tickle fights and kisses.
The park we used to go just to watch the clouds in the sky.
The bench we sat on, talking all night long so many months ago, which became witness to the beginning of our relationship.
Closing my eyes, I let loose a loud sigh. Shit! I'm supposed to be over this!! Why can't I move on already? Besides, it's his fault that we're not together anymore...him and Ken.
"Hey Teek, are you okay? I don't have to go over to Tai-chan's right now. We can just go home if you want..." Yama said anxiously, sensing my discomfort. I swear he has an 'angst-radar' or something.
"No. It's alright. Besides, I wouldn't mind seeing Tai and Kari right now." I smile, donning the familiar facade I've worn for the past year.
"If you're sure..." he glances over once more, looking for reassurance. It's funny how much Yama is still overprotective of me. I guess that will never change, no matter how old I get.
"I am."
After another ten minutes, we finally arrived at the Yagami's apartment. I hope 'Kari-chan is there as well, cause I don't know if I can take 'niichan and Taichi making out in front of me.
I guess the door is unlocked, because Yamato just walks in without knocking. Walking in behind him, I notice that the blinds are drawn, making the living room a bit dim. So you can imagine the shock I recieved when in the next second, I was blinded by the bright sunshine that flooded the room.
"SURPRISE!!!" was all I heard before I was glomped by several people. To say that I was stunned was an understatement. I thought my heart litterally stopped when they yelled. It took awhile but eventually everyone let go and able to take a solid breath.
"It's great seeing you guys too!" I said happily, meanwhile trying to take a discreet look around to see who else was there.
Once the girls let go, I found myself in another strong hug with the smell of lavendar surrounding me, which could only mean one thing.
"Oh my baby! I missed you so much!" my mom cried, pulling away a little bit, before hugging me tighter. I never knew my mom was so strong.
"Natsuko, you gonna strangle the boy...", my dad said laughingly before coming over to ruffle my hair.
Looking over to my father, my mother replied tearily, "Oh hush Masaharu! It's a mother's perogative to do those type of things...." and then she hugs me tighter. Trying to get out of her grip, I begin to look around a little to see who else is there...or more likely who wasn't.
"Teek, who are you looking for?" Yamato asked me, his tone already telling me what I needed to know.
"No one," I replied with a sigh, both of us knowing that I was lying through my teeth. Besides, I would bitch him out later for lying to me.
However, I was not allowed to brood for too long, since I was dragged over to the middle of the living room, pushed on the couch, and ordered to tell my friends about everything that happened during my stay in the States. Even though I didn't expect this, I was glad to be surrounded by friends and family.
Like I said, it was great to be home.
***Daisuke***
Looking back, this has been the longest year in my life. Being 'ostracized' from the Digidestined really hurt me. I knew that when Takeru and I broke up that there would be tension for the whole group, but I didn't expect them to just turn their backs on me. When I tried to approach them, all I would get was the cold shoulder and evil looks, so eventually I just gave up my attempts at friendship with the others. I still remember Ishida banging on my door the day after the breakup. I was barely even awake when upon opening the door, I was hauled off my feet and threatened to never come within sight range of Takeru ever again. Then, after that little episode the others started to distance themselves from me...one by one.
Miyako and Iori barely talked to me unless absolutely necessary and Kari gave me the cold shoulder completely. Sora and Mimi just gave me disapproving glances, while Koushiro and Jyou kept their distance.
Even Taichi, who I thought would be there for me no matter what, turned his back on me. But I guess being friends with the ex-boyfriend of your lover's brother was putting too much pressure on him...especially when I seemed to be Yamato's ' Public Enemy Number One', but I don't really care anymore. It was like I was a criminal that was found guilty without even having a trial. Does that mean they were even my friends in the the first place?
Now for someone who holds the Digimental of Friendship, having friends reject and ignore you really blows, but it was nothing compared to the pain I felt after breaking up with Take-chan. Funny, how I still call him that. After all the heartache that he put me through, there is still something inside that says that he is mine and always will be.
The only thing that really bothers me is his reasons for doing this to me...to us. I mean, I know that we are both young and everything, but it seemed that we really had something special, ya know? The way he just dismissed it like that ripped my fucking heart out.
Stupid selfish bastard.
I still remember those first few weeks. God, I was a walking wreck! I remember that after I cried my eyes out, I began to fill up with anger. Anger at Takeru for his dumb reasons for dumping me, and myself for running out of there like a dog with it's tail between it's legs.
Then to make matters worse, everywhere I turned there was something that reminded me of my Sunshine. That was my secret little name that I had for him. He never knew this, but to me Takeru was sunshine personified, always keeping me warm.
I swear if it wasn't for Chibimon, Ken and Jun, I don't know how I could have made it.
Chibimon. If my soul was taken and created into data, he would be it. He may not know the particulars about what really happened, but his constant happy presence what I needed. He will never really know how he has helped me.
Jun. A lot of people think that Jun and I can't stand to be in the same room with each other, when in fact, that is so far from the truth to be hilarious. Granted, we don't show our affection in the normal ways as siblings do such as the Ishidas and Yagamis, but we will always protect one another. This was proven when Jun pummeled Ishida for even blaming me for the breakup. Never knew my sis had such a powerful right hook. The irony of it is she used to be former president of the local Teenage Wolves fan club.
Ken. The one person who has been there for me through it all. He is also probably the only one that knows the whole truth, since no one else even bothered to listen to what I had to say, which made me feel worse seeing how they were supposed to be my friends. I guess that could only go so far. The funny thing is, at the same time it seemed that Ken was shunned by the group as well. When I realized this, I felt that it was my fault for hanging around me, but he assured me that wasn't the case. The only thing that has changed is Ken and I have begun dating.
I was very hesitant about this, reminded the disaterous result with Takeru, but Jun is the one that pushed me saying that I needed to recover what she calls the 'Ishida Prick Syndrome'.
I love her sense of humor.
{{RING!!!!! RING!!!!!}}
Damn! I really don't feel like talking to anyone right now. Can't a person mope in peace!?
"Moshi Moshi," I answered testily, not in the mood to exchange phone pleasantries.
"Suke-chan?" a warm voice asked, causing my mood to brighten a little.
"Oi! Ken-chan! What's up?" I said, lying back down on my bed.
"Nothing really. I just wanted to know if you felt like going to the soccer field and out to grab something to eat. Sound good?" he asked, sounding a bit hyper.
Ichijouji Ken and hyper should never be in the same sentence.
"What is the real reason that you called?" I asked, knowing that there was a something behind his 'overly' cheerful mood...or rather someone.
He paused momentarily. "I don't know. I just felt that you needed me or something. I guess it has something to do with being Jogress partners and all, ne?" he answered, hoping that the excuse would work but I saw right through it.
"Or you know that Takeru is back from the States..." I said a bit peevishly, a little upset that he would tell me such a flimsy excuse.
It was silent for a couple of moments, before he replied. "Well...I guess that is part of it, but seriously I just felt that you would be having a bad time and it would good for you to get out the house anyway. Jun's told me how you've been moping around lately." he says a bit accusingly, making me wince. I guess he does have the right ot be a bit upset. It's not very flattering to know that your boyfriend is angsting over the ex that broke his heart.
~She would~ I thought, irritated that my sister was running to Ken about me. Sometimes I wish she would just keep her big nose out of my business.
"Don't go all quiet on me Dais. You know that she was just worried about you, so don't snap her head off the next time you see her, alright?" Ken asked...well, more like demanded.
"Fine, but you and Jun don't need to treat me like glass like I'll break at any time. I'll be fine," I said firmly, wanting to let him know that I meant business. I am not the same dopey kid I was a year ago. I've grown up. Takeru had seen to that.
"You might be, but then again you might not, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you ok?"
"I know that Ken. So, what time do you want to meet up?" I asked, knowing that he wouldn't leave me alone until he was assured that I was okay for himself.
"How about in two hours? Usual place?" he asked with a bit of relief evident in his voice.
"Sounds good. See you then, Ken-chan.", I say, knowing that I was in for a long day. He will do just about anything to keep me occupied whether I liked it or not.
"Bye koibito. Aishiteru," he whispers, hanging up before I could reply.
Hearing the dial tone, I hang up the phone on my end. I know that it bothers Ken that I still won't speak the endearments that other couples say to each other. It's just that as much as I hate to admit it, I still can't see myself saying them to anyone other than Takeru...even if he is the biggest asshole in the world.
I'm sorry Ken, but the one thing that I learned, is that in a relationship you have to look out for yourself.
And I refuse to be hurt again.
***Takeru***
This past week has been a roller-coaster ride. It seemed that everyone has made it a point to spend at least a day with me. Sora, Yolei, and Mimi dragged me shopping with them, wanting my advice since I had been exposed to all the latest fashions in America. Koushiro gave me an in-depth update about the Digital World. Joe told me the ins and outs of med school, while Tai and 'niichan dragged me to soccer games and band rehearsals. I thought that I would drop with all the things that they were making me do, but I could sense that all these outings were one big distraction for something...someone else.
Today, I was with Hikari and I can't remember the last time I had such so much fun. We went to the park and just sat on a bench and caught up on each others' lives from the past year. Even though we had kept in close contact with one another, it seemed that we had still missed out on so much with each other. She laughed as I told her stories about Bryan and my friends in the States...It almost made me forget all my troubles.
Especially the most important one.
For the past week, I have been terrified of running into Daisuke. Even though I've been gone for nearly a year, I still feel horrible about what happened between us. The sad thing is we used to be the best of friends. Truthfully, that is what I miss the most. Sure the kissing and intimacy was great, but our friendship was the best part of all. That is what made it so good between us.
Shaking my head a bit, I look at the brunette sitting beside me and feel somewhat better. Even though I've lost one best friend doesn't mean that I will have to lose another.
"So, what's going on with you now?" I ask her, tilting my face up to catch the warmth of the sun.
"Not much that you already don't know. Just waiting to start University and strike out on my own. Now the real question is how have you been?" she asks, looking at me intently.
"I've been just grea-" I began, before felt a finger on my lips, effectively stopping the fib that had fooled everyone so far.
"Don't lie to me," Hikari told me evenly, with that knowing look that she seems to wear all the time.
~I should have known better.~ It's scary how she can get into my head like that.
I sighed, as I continued to look forward, my body on automatic. Making our way deeper into the park, we sat down on a bench, watching the sakura blossoms swirl about us.
Giving me a small smile, she grabbed my hand and held on to it. We didn't say anything for the next few minutes, just sat there among the serenity of the place. Knowing that this was my best opportunity, I began to talk about everything that I've been holding since I returned home.
"Don't get me wrong. I truly enjoyed myself while in the States, but..."
"But you missed him...?" she finished softly, seeing that I was having a hard time saying the words myself.
"Dammit Hikari! Besides you, he was one of my closest friends. Now, I'm petrified of even seeing him. It's not like I was the one that threw away what we had...", I whimpered, the anger and pain coming back at full speed.
"Take-kun," she said gently, pulling me into a hug. "I know that it hurts, but believe me when I say that things will get better. You still have us behind you and besides, maybe there was a reason this all happened."
I just sighed, not having the heart to tell her that she was wrong.
"Look, I don't know about you, but after this emotionally draining experience, I am famished. How about we get some lunch and take it from there?" she suggested cheerfully, as she stood up and held out her hand to help me up off the bench.
"Great idea." I agreed heartily, feeling somewhat starved myself. After walking for about ten minutes, we stopped at a diner, ready to just kick back and relax. Walking in, we were laughing at a funny story about 'niichan and Taichi, when I looked around the place and found my gaze glued to one spot.
Daisuke and Ken.
Sitting in a booth.
Close together...extremely close. It was by force of will that I didn't rush over there and punch their lights out.
Hikari tugged on my sleeve, trying to get my attention, but I just stood there with wide eyes, my mouth wide open. "We don't have to be here, you know?" she whispered, squeezing my hand. That woke me out of my trance and I narrowed my eyes in determination while trying to keep my stomach calm.
"No," I said glaring at the two people that made my life hell a year ago. Turning to look back at her I replied steadily,"I refuse to leave. We have just as much right to be here as they do, so let's go and order an ice cream, okay?"
"If you're sure..." she peered up at me worriedly, trying to make sure that I was telling the truth.
"I'm sure. Now go snag us a table and I'll be right back," I said evenly trying my best to reassure her and myself at the same time. With a weak smile, she nodded and went to sit in one of the booths that overlooked the sidewalk.
Inside my head, I continued the mantra that I knew from heart.
I can be strong..I can be strong...I can be strong.
Looking back , I see Ken place a kiss on Daisuke's cheek.
I can be strong...I...can't!
Walking quickly, I make it into the bathroom, praying that I would at least be able to be alone while I cried my eyes out. Leaning against the counter, I finally let the first round of tears sneak past my lashes, knowing that this was far from over. Turning on the cold tap, I splash my face, hoping to get rid of the red, puffy eyes I know I have now. I guess that's why I didn't hear the door open and open and close, but after a few moments, I could feel that I wasn't alone anymore. Whipping my head around to see who had interrupted my little break-down, I could do nothing but stare and whisper the one name that I love and hate so much.
"Daisuke..."
tbc....
This was a very difficult chapter to write, because the plot would keep changing, but hopefully the next chapter will be better, since I already have half of that done!! ::dances a little jig of excitement:: All I'm going to say is that Ken finally gets what's coming to him. So if you want to see what happens, stay tuned!! ^_^
{{ anna-chan: now, be good boys and girls and review for d-chan so she'll write us another chapter!!! ^_~ }}
Well, this has DEFINITELY been a long time coming!!!!!!!!!! After careful consideration and a wonderful email I received (thanx Jhenya), I decided to continue posting this on FF.net. Even if people don't review as much as they used to, that shouldn't matter. Now after having that little rant off my chest, I just want to say thanx to all of you that have reviewed or emailed. It makes me feel all warm and tingly inside to know that people are actually enjoying this. Before I go on, I just want to apologize for the lateness/crappiness of this chapter, but that will all be explained below.
Disclaimer: Digimon is in no way, shape or form owned by me. If it was, you best believe it wouldn't be aired as a children's program. ^_~ {{ anna-chan*covers mouth childishly*: heeheehee... }}
"blah"-dialogue
~blah~-thoughts
***character***-POV
++blah++-annoucement
Contradictions-Chapter 6
Author: Dream-chan
Rating: R
Editor: ^_^anna-chan^_^
Email:dream_chan@hotmail.com
***Takeru***
I can't believe that it had been almost year already in Miami. I must say that the experience has been truly worth it. My host family, the Wyatts, have been a blessing in disguise, especially their son, Bryan. His constant good mood was just what I needed after all the sadness I left behind in Japan.
One day, I remember that I was looking at the photo album that 'Kari-chan had given me before I left, and he walked into the room. I was so engrossed in the old times that I didn't notice that he was there until he asked me what I was looking at.
Smiling, I told him that it was an album of all my friends back in Japan. As I turned the pages, I came across a whole page dedicated to Daisuke...Instant Smile Remover. Seeing my reaction, Bryan asked me what was wrong. So, I basically told him that the boy on the page was my ex-best friend, which was sort of true. I really didn't want to reveal the true nature of our relationship, because of what his reaction might be. Shortly after, I learned that my fears were unfounded when I was introduced to his boyfriend, Garret. That was a relief since now I seemed that I had someone to confide in.
Even though I got along great with his group of friends, it still pained me every time I would get a letter from home. Yamato and Hikari wrote the most, keeping in contact with daily emails and monthly packages. The hardest part was when I would have to reply, trying to repress the need to ask about a certain maroon-haired gogglehead, but I have a feeling that even if I did ask, they would either ignore it or give me a vague answer.
However, I wouldn't have to worry about that anymore, because I was on my way back home, and I could see how things were for myself...see if anything changed. I know that I have. Not just on the inside, but in physical appearance as well.
Anna, one of the girls I met through Bryan, decided I needed a "drastic" makeover. Now I have a pierced ear, platinum blond streaks, and clothes that made me look like a walking ad for Eddie Bauer.
++Ladies and Gentlemen. We will be landing at Narita International Airport within the next ten minutes. At this time we ask that you secure all trays in their upright positions, turn off all electronic devices, return chairs to their upright positions and buckle your seat belts, and have your passport ready for customs. Thank you for flying Japan Air.++
Looking out the little porthole, I start to see the shape of buildings and the criss-cross of streets that represent Tokyo. Ten minutes later, we touched down and taxied to our gate. Grabbing my carry-on, I jumped out my seat and my way to the exit as quickly as possible, anxious to see
my family.
Going through Customs, I was becoming quite agitated at the slow process of the security officers, as I began to tap my foot impatiently. Didn't they know I had people waiting for me? After what seemed a small eternity, I was cleared to pass. When I walked through those double glass doors, I was not disappointed, when I heard a voice that I had only heard twice during this past year.
"OTOUTO-CHAN!!!!"
Looking around, I immediately spotted what seemed to be an older version of myself. Recognition was instant.
"YAMATO!" I yelled just as loudly, dropping my things in the mad dash to get to my brother.
Soon, I was gripped in a fierce bear hug that threatened to cut of my air supply, but I didn't mind. I had missed him just as much. After few more moments, and took a good look at me. The smile that was on his face disappered in an instant when he looked at my head.
"What the HELL happened to your hair?!?" he practically screamed, looking at me as if I committed the biggest crime on Earth.
"Hello and I missed you too," I said sarcastically, knowing that I was in for a long lecture about the importance of the tampering with the perfection of the 'Ishida mane'.
"And what is that in your ear?" he asked, leaning in to get a closer look.
"Um...an earring?" I replied, a bit worried at the strange expression on his face. If Yamato reacts like this, there is no telling what my mom is going to do.
He stood there and just stared until a small smile broke out on his face, making me feel a little better.
"I can't wait till Mom sees this..." he laughs, slinging an arm across my shoulders. "Let's get your luggage, and we'll be on our way."
"Yama, you didn't tell any of the others that I was coming home early did you?" I asked while we were walking towards the baggage claim area.
"Would I do something like that?" he asked innocently, trying to hide the faint smirk on his face.
"Yama..." I groaned, already knowing the answer to my question. Even though he doesn't act like it, Yamato has a definite sentimental streak.
"Ok Ok, I did but I made them promise not to bother you. Besides, Mom and Dad decided that we should just have a family dinner so you can get some rest." he explained, turning his attention back to the traffic.
"Really?!?" I was kinda shocked to hear this. I think that this will be the first family dinner that we had in years, but I'm not going to complain. "Well, that sounds good. Thanks onii-chan," I replied gratefully, the infamous jet-lag syndrome starting to make itself known as we made our way to his car.
We rode in silence for a few minutes, just enjoying being in each others' presence again. During my stay in the United States I missed times like these. It was just the fact that I was finally back...among family and friends. Something I will never take for granted again.
"It's so good to have you home Takeru," my brother said, as if reading my thoughts.
"It's good to be back." I smile in return. "So, what's new?"
"Hmmm, let's see...Nothing really. The band is doing great. We've go a gig coming up soon...", he begins as we drive up and down the streets of Odaiba. Settling in for a nice catch-up session, I lean back and enjoy the experience of being with my brother again.
"Um, Yamato, where are we going? This isn't the way to Dad's apartment." I interrupted him, taking in the eerily familiar scenery rushing past.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you. I have to stop past Taichi's for a hot minute. You don't mind, do you?" he asked, as he concentrated on the traffic in front of him.
"No, it's alright." I sigh, leaning back into the leather seat.
"Cool," he answers in his trademark nonchalant way. Taking advantage of the comfortable silence that falls between us, I finally get good look at my brother. Even though I can see that he is still content, there is almost an underlying sadness there. I would ask him about it, but it wouldn't make no difference. He'll talk about it when he's ready.
Looking out the window again, I am reminded of all the things that I missed so much during my stay in the States. The stores...the sounds...the crowds...It was so good to be home. As the car sped along the main thoroughfare, I leaned my head back against the seat and sighed as memory upon memory swamped me with each passing site...memories of Daisuke and me.
The arcade where he kicked my ass in Mortal Kombat too many times to count, but always used his prize tickets to get me something at the end of the day.
The ice cream parlor he took me to where we shared our first sundae, feeding each other and getting chocolate sauce and whipped cream all over our faces.
The soccer field where he would try to give me lessons, but we always seemed to end up rolling on the ground in tickle fights and kisses.
The park we used to go just to watch the clouds in the sky.
The bench we sat on, talking all night long so many months ago, which became witness to the beginning of our relationship.
Closing my eyes, I let loose a loud sigh. Shit! I'm supposed to be over this!! Why can't I move on already? Besides, it's his fault that we're not together anymore...him and Ken.
"Hey Teek, are you okay? I don't have to go over to Tai-chan's right now. We can just go home if you want..." Yama said anxiously, sensing my discomfort. I swear he has an 'angst-radar' or something.
"No. It's alright. Besides, I wouldn't mind seeing Tai and Kari right now." I smile, donning the familiar facade I've worn for the past year.
"If you're sure..." he glances over once more, looking for reassurance. It's funny how much Yama is still overprotective of me. I guess that will never change, no matter how old I get.
"I am."
After another ten minutes, we finally arrived at the Yagami's apartment. I hope 'Kari-chan is there as well, cause I don't know if I can take 'niichan and Taichi making out in front of me.
I guess the door is unlocked, because Yamato just walks in without knocking. Walking in behind him, I notice that the blinds are drawn, making the living room a bit dim. So you can imagine the shock I recieved when in the next second, I was blinded by the bright sunshine that flooded the room.
"SURPRISE!!!" was all I heard before I was glomped by several people. To say that I was stunned was an understatement. I thought my heart litterally stopped when they yelled. It took awhile but eventually everyone let go and able to take a solid breath.
"It's great seeing you guys too!" I said happily, meanwhile trying to take a discreet look around to see who else was there.
Once the girls let go, I found myself in another strong hug with the smell of lavendar surrounding me, which could only mean one thing.
"Oh my baby! I missed you so much!" my mom cried, pulling away a little bit, before hugging me tighter. I never knew my mom was so strong.
"Natsuko, you gonna strangle the boy...", my dad said laughingly before coming over to ruffle my hair.
Looking over to my father, my mother replied tearily, "Oh hush Masaharu! It's a mother's perogative to do those type of things...." and then she hugs me tighter. Trying to get out of her grip, I begin to look around a little to see who else is there...or more likely who wasn't.
"Teek, who are you looking for?" Yamato asked me, his tone already telling me what I needed to know.
"No one," I replied with a sigh, both of us knowing that I was lying through my teeth. Besides, I would bitch him out later for lying to me.
However, I was not allowed to brood for too long, since I was dragged over to the middle of the living room, pushed on the couch, and ordered to tell my friends about everything that happened during my stay in the States. Even though I didn't expect this, I was glad to be surrounded by friends and family.
Like I said, it was great to be home.
***Daisuke***
Looking back, this has been the longest year in my life. Being 'ostracized' from the Digidestined really hurt me. I knew that when Takeru and I broke up that there would be tension for the whole group, but I didn't expect them to just turn their backs on me. When I tried to approach them, all I would get was the cold shoulder and evil looks, so eventually I just gave up my attempts at friendship with the others. I still remember Ishida banging on my door the day after the breakup. I was barely even awake when upon opening the door, I was hauled off my feet and threatened to never come within sight range of Takeru ever again. Then, after that little episode the others started to distance themselves from me...one by one.
Miyako and Iori barely talked to me unless absolutely necessary and Kari gave me the cold shoulder completely. Sora and Mimi just gave me disapproving glances, while Koushiro and Jyou kept their distance.
Even Taichi, who I thought would be there for me no matter what, turned his back on me. But I guess being friends with the ex-boyfriend of your lover's brother was putting too much pressure on him...especially when I seemed to be Yamato's ' Public Enemy Number One', but I don't really care anymore. It was like I was a criminal that was found guilty without even having a trial. Does that mean they were even my friends in the the first place?
Now for someone who holds the Digimental of Friendship, having friends reject and ignore you really blows, but it was nothing compared to the pain I felt after breaking up with Take-chan. Funny, how I still call him that. After all the heartache that he put me through, there is still something inside that says that he is mine and always will be.
The only thing that really bothers me is his reasons for doing this to me...to us. I mean, I know that we are both young and everything, but it seemed that we really had something special, ya know? The way he just dismissed it like that ripped my fucking heart out.
Stupid selfish bastard.
I still remember those first few weeks. God, I was a walking wreck! I remember that after I cried my eyes out, I began to fill up with anger. Anger at Takeru for his dumb reasons for dumping me, and myself for running out of there like a dog with it's tail between it's legs.
Then to make matters worse, everywhere I turned there was something that reminded me of my Sunshine. That was my secret little name that I had for him. He never knew this, but to me Takeru was sunshine personified, always keeping me warm.
I swear if it wasn't for Chibimon, Ken and Jun, I don't know how I could have made it.
Chibimon. If my soul was taken and created into data, he would be it. He may not know the particulars about what really happened, but his constant happy presence what I needed. He will never really know how he has helped me.
Jun. A lot of people think that Jun and I can't stand to be in the same room with each other, when in fact, that is so far from the truth to be hilarious. Granted, we don't show our affection in the normal ways as siblings do such as the Ishidas and Yagamis, but we will always protect one another. This was proven when Jun pummeled Ishida for even blaming me for the breakup. Never knew my sis had such a powerful right hook. The irony of it is she used to be former president of the local Teenage Wolves fan club.
Ken. The one person who has been there for me through it all. He is also probably the only one that knows the whole truth, since no one else even bothered to listen to what I had to say, which made me feel worse seeing how they were supposed to be my friends. I guess that could only go so far. The funny thing is, at the same time it seemed that Ken was shunned by the group as well. When I realized this, I felt that it was my fault for hanging around me, but he assured me that wasn't the case. The only thing that has changed is Ken and I have begun dating.
I was very hesitant about this, reminded the disaterous result with Takeru, but Jun is the one that pushed me saying that I needed to recover what she calls the 'Ishida Prick Syndrome'.
I love her sense of humor.
{{RING!!!!! RING!!!!!}}
Damn! I really don't feel like talking to anyone right now. Can't a person mope in peace!?
"Moshi Moshi," I answered testily, not in the mood to exchange phone pleasantries.
"Suke-chan?" a warm voice asked, causing my mood to brighten a little.
"Oi! Ken-chan! What's up?" I said, lying back down on my bed.
"Nothing really. I just wanted to know if you felt like going to the soccer field and out to grab something to eat. Sound good?" he asked, sounding a bit hyper.
Ichijouji Ken and hyper should never be in the same sentence.
"What is the real reason that you called?" I asked, knowing that there was a something behind his 'overly' cheerful mood...or rather someone.
He paused momentarily. "I don't know. I just felt that you needed me or something. I guess it has something to do with being Jogress partners and all, ne?" he answered, hoping that the excuse would work but I saw right through it.
"Or you know that Takeru is back from the States..." I said a bit peevishly, a little upset that he would tell me such a flimsy excuse.
It was silent for a couple of moments, before he replied. "Well...I guess that is part of it, but seriously I just felt that you would be having a bad time and it would good for you to get out the house anyway. Jun's told me how you've been moping around lately." he says a bit accusingly, making me wince. I guess he does have the right ot be a bit upset. It's not very flattering to know that your boyfriend is angsting over the ex that broke his heart.
~She would~ I thought, irritated that my sister was running to Ken about me. Sometimes I wish she would just keep her big nose out of my business.
"Don't go all quiet on me Dais. You know that she was just worried about you, so don't snap her head off the next time you see her, alright?" Ken asked...well, more like demanded.
"Fine, but you and Jun don't need to treat me like glass like I'll break at any time. I'll be fine," I said firmly, wanting to let him know that I meant business. I am not the same dopey kid I was a year ago. I've grown up. Takeru had seen to that.
"You might be, but then again you might not, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you ok?"
"I know that Ken. So, what time do you want to meet up?" I asked, knowing that he wouldn't leave me alone until he was assured that I was okay for himself.
"How about in two hours? Usual place?" he asked with a bit of relief evident in his voice.
"Sounds good. See you then, Ken-chan.", I say, knowing that I was in for a long day. He will do just about anything to keep me occupied whether I liked it or not.
"Bye koibito. Aishiteru," he whispers, hanging up before I could reply.
Hearing the dial tone, I hang up the phone on my end. I know that it bothers Ken that I still won't speak the endearments that other couples say to each other. It's just that as much as I hate to admit it, I still can't see myself saying them to anyone other than Takeru...even if he is the biggest asshole in the world.
I'm sorry Ken, but the one thing that I learned, is that in a relationship you have to look out for yourself.
And I refuse to be hurt again.
***Takeru***
This past week has been a roller-coaster ride. It seemed that everyone has made it a point to spend at least a day with me. Sora, Yolei, and Mimi dragged me shopping with them, wanting my advice since I had been exposed to all the latest fashions in America. Koushiro gave me an in-depth update about the Digital World. Joe told me the ins and outs of med school, while Tai and 'niichan dragged me to soccer games and band rehearsals. I thought that I would drop with all the things that they were making me do, but I could sense that all these outings were one big distraction for something...someone else.
Today, I was with Hikari and I can't remember the last time I had such so much fun. We went to the park and just sat on a bench and caught up on each others' lives from the past year. Even though we had kept in close contact with one another, it seemed that we had still missed out on so much with each other. She laughed as I told her stories about Bryan and my friends in the States...It almost made me forget all my troubles.
Especially the most important one.
For the past week, I have been terrified of running into Daisuke. Even though I've been gone for nearly a year, I still feel horrible about what happened between us. The sad thing is we used to be the best of friends. Truthfully, that is what I miss the most. Sure the kissing and intimacy was great, but our friendship was the best part of all. That is what made it so good between us.
Shaking my head a bit, I look at the brunette sitting beside me and feel somewhat better. Even though I've lost one best friend doesn't mean that I will have to lose another.
"So, what's going on with you now?" I ask her, tilting my face up to catch the warmth of the sun.
"Not much that you already don't know. Just waiting to start University and strike out on my own. Now the real question is how have you been?" she asks, looking at me intently.
"I've been just grea-" I began, before felt a finger on my lips, effectively stopping the fib that had fooled everyone so far.
"Don't lie to me," Hikari told me evenly, with that knowing look that she seems to wear all the time.
~I should have known better.~ It's scary how she can get into my head like that.
I sighed, as I continued to look forward, my body on automatic. Making our way deeper into the park, we sat down on a bench, watching the sakura blossoms swirl about us.
Giving me a small smile, she grabbed my hand and held on to it. We didn't say anything for the next few minutes, just sat there among the serenity of the place. Knowing that this was my best opportunity, I began to talk about everything that I've been holding since I returned home.
"Don't get me wrong. I truly enjoyed myself while in the States, but..."
"But you missed him...?" she finished softly, seeing that I was having a hard time saying the words myself.
"Dammit Hikari! Besides you, he was one of my closest friends. Now, I'm petrified of even seeing him. It's not like I was the one that threw away what we had...", I whimpered, the anger and pain coming back at full speed.
"Take-kun," she said gently, pulling me into a hug. "I know that it hurts, but believe me when I say that things will get better. You still have us behind you and besides, maybe there was a reason this all happened."
I just sighed, not having the heart to tell her that she was wrong.
"Look, I don't know about you, but after this emotionally draining experience, I am famished. How about we get some lunch and take it from there?" she suggested cheerfully, as she stood up and held out her hand to help me up off the bench.
"Great idea." I agreed heartily, feeling somewhat starved myself. After walking for about ten minutes, we stopped at a diner, ready to just kick back and relax. Walking in, we were laughing at a funny story about 'niichan and Taichi, when I looked around the place and found my gaze glued to one spot.
Daisuke and Ken.
Sitting in a booth.
Close together...extremely close. It was by force of will that I didn't rush over there and punch their lights out.
Hikari tugged on my sleeve, trying to get my attention, but I just stood there with wide eyes, my mouth wide open. "We don't have to be here, you know?" she whispered, squeezing my hand. That woke me out of my trance and I narrowed my eyes in determination while trying to keep my stomach calm.
"No," I said glaring at the two people that made my life hell a year ago. Turning to look back at her I replied steadily,"I refuse to leave. We have just as much right to be here as they do, so let's go and order an ice cream, okay?"
"If you're sure..." she peered up at me worriedly, trying to make sure that I was telling the truth.
"I'm sure. Now go snag us a table and I'll be right back," I said evenly trying my best to reassure her and myself at the same time. With a weak smile, she nodded and went to sit in one of the booths that overlooked the sidewalk.
Inside my head, I continued the mantra that I knew from heart.
I can be strong..I can be strong...I can be strong.
Looking back , I see Ken place a kiss on Daisuke's cheek.
I can be strong...I...can't!
Walking quickly, I make it into the bathroom, praying that I would at least be able to be alone while I cried my eyes out. Leaning against the counter, I finally let the first round of tears sneak past my lashes, knowing that this was far from over. Turning on the cold tap, I splash my face, hoping to get rid of the red, puffy eyes I know I have now. I guess that's why I didn't hear the door open and open and close, but after a few moments, I could feel that I wasn't alone anymore. Whipping my head around to see who had interrupted my little break-down, I could do nothing but stare and whisper the one name that I love and hate so much.
"Daisuke..."
tbc....
This was a very difficult chapter to write, because the plot would keep changing, but hopefully the next chapter will be better, since I already have half of that done!! ::dances a little jig of excitement:: All I'm going to say is that Ken finally gets what's coming to him. So if you want to see what happens, stay tuned!! ^_^
{{ anna-chan: now, be good boys and girls and review for d-chan so she'll write us another chapter!!! ^_~ }}