3. Introspection
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Perhaps I miscalculated. Over the sand in her face tears freely ran down. And deeply unhappy her green blue eyes fixed on me. Pleating. It reminded me of so many races, people beings I killed. Same looks. Same pleas. Same chaos. Fighting down the old urge to finish her of I picked her up and flew up without a word. This response had been uncalled for. Why did I take her there then?
To make her understand? But why would I want anyone to understand me. I liked being an enigma. The moody one. Unpredictable. Or did I? I carried her inside the farm. During the flight she had fallen asleep in exhaustion. Effortlessly I walked with her in my arms to the bedroom and put her down. Undressed and flopped beside her on the bed. Only two beds in this house. A double here, a child bed in the Squirts room. Well done Vegeta. Your father can be proud of you. You scared the shit out of the onna. And needlessly.
Pissed at myself I rolled on my , now laying only with my underwear in the bed. I wanted to return. Not to the war, but to Chikyuu. That war had brought back a beast I though that died long since. The one created by Freeza.
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I was dreaming. I knew I was dreaming. Walking down a dark hallway. Which seemed endlessly long. And then it suddenly vanished and I floated in a purple sky. I didn't feel anything, no emotion. No nothing. Detached and not judging. I felt supreme. But had no power I just existed.
Before me formed a planet. Light shows shown all over the globe. Curious I willed myself there and found myself in the middle of fights. Grateful for the emotionless detachment I watched the alien race slaughtered by the same energy beams Vegeta had used on the plane and tank earlier. Bloodied a tall dark bald man laughed as a smaller man, whom I recognized as a young Vegeta glanced at his red stained gloves.
Something stirred behind them. Without looking Vegeta reached back and incinerated the building completely. How dark and destructive he was. And like me, he seemed emotionally detached. Standing above all the death around him. No remorse. No emotion. Nothing.
The scene changed to a cabin where he worked on some papers. A man walked in. not one I knew. Purple headed and reminding me of a squid.
'New mission Vegeta. Seems you did well of the other.' A paper was handed. Some nasty remarks on both sides made and the new male left. Vegeta scanned the paper and tore it up.
'Level 4 again.' Everything changed to a dense mist. A lonely voice calling out. 'Who am I!' I followed the outburst, or it's echo. I heard feet on smooth ground and glanced down. My feet. And my arms? Without any bruises. My body felt fine and fit once more, even if I lacked clothes. I felt like.I was the higher me. Not my daily me.
Not shy, or embarrassed in the slightest as those where related to emotions, which I currently lacked I walked on. The fog parted on my will and while still in the white space I found a being crunched up in a ball.
'You are as you were born.' I stated to answer his earlier agonized cry. I unwrapped. And searched my face defensive. 'What are YOU doing here!'
'You called out, I answered.' I sounded like a frigging oracle. But I felt it as a truth. Each word I said seemed passed down from a third party. I was just the intermediate. 'So I am as I was born?' he asked rising. As nude as me. Neither caring.
'Yes, you were born as a prince, you shall die a prince. It is your birth right.' 'But so is being super Saiyan and HE thwarted that!' 'You weren't ready yet, and the universe wasn't ready for you to be one.' 'I was born ready.'
'No.' I shook my head. 'You were filled with anguish and anger. Still some remains. And being a super Saiyan has to do with control.' He glanced at me awkward as I gasped, emotions crashing into me again. Where was my protective shield? Desperate I glanced around. What did I do to make it leave. I wanted it back!
'I'm not the only one with anguish and fear.' Vegeta stated. I glanced with darting eyes to him. Now feeling very much ashamed of being naked. While he seemed unfazed under the situation. 'But he loves me.' I stammered.
'He doesn't.' he walked closer and put his hand on my shoulder as I cried out. Before me scenes as if I were a ghost or viewing them through a camera of myself getting beaten up. Not once, not twice. Numerous occasions. 'Is this love?' I glanced back letting a tear fall down my cheek. 'Do you know what love is?' 'It cannot be this. Not destructive. Or maybe this is love?' I whimpering held on to him. Hiding my eyes as I knew he saw me getting raped on my wedding night.
'I wasn't the only one hurt this way.' I replied suddenly having more and more insight in Vegeta. He backed off from me and shook his head unbelieving. 'NO, I will not allow it!' 'You have no choice. You didn't have one then, neither had i.' I turned to face him as around us the space changed into a cabin. Vegeta a child. Gritting his teeth Vegeta closed his eyes. Flexing his hands furious. A flush over his cheekbones.
'That's why you wished to be stronger.' I turned to see a blue skinned male pull the boy into the bathroom. 'Don't you dare go in there.' he hissed. I walked to the door. He tried to grab my arm but passed through it. Howling in frustration he tried to block my path. I walked through him like a ghost. Grabbing his arm instead and with power well beyond my own pulled him struggling through the door.
'For me to help you, you need to watch.' He glanced cornered like a cat at me. Darting to the playing scene of the male stripping the boy who loudly complained and struggled. 'I can't.' I walked to him and glanced up at him.
'If you don't was to see it or show me, why did you take us here?' speechless he glanced down at me. 'I didn't.' 'You did.' The scene flashed to more cleaned planets, but we ended up in the bathroom numerous times.
'As much as the beatings and rapes are part of me, this is part of you. I live in my beatings, and rapes. You live in this rape.' 'Make it stop.' He glanced pleating at me. The powerful royal warrior clueless. Beside me a male appeared. Same built as Vegeta. Same looks.
'Son.' Vegeta gaped at us and the male. 'This I did not know.' 'F.father?' 'Yes.' The father draped an arm around me. 'No wonder you were so angry, no wonder you cursed the day I died. We died.' Curious I glanced at the male.
'I screamed for you father.' Vegeta whispered hoarse. 'Each time he came, I screamed for you. And I cursed you. Hated you. Wanted to be protected by you as I had always been. But Napa could do nothing, and I forbid him to tell Raditsu. He would kill them.'
'Even if I had been able to hear you, what can a dead soul do for his living son with living archenemies.' Vegeta sagged and crumbled to the floor. 'WHY DID YOU DIE.'
'I died for you.' 'WHAT?' 'I wasn't killed in the explosion. I died before that. I came to Freeza to reclaim you from his greedy hands. He broke my neck.' 'News flash, he's dead.' 'Indeed. We have parties with him.' The man smirked. 'But now we know this, we have something in mind for his minion. That blue skinned sassy. Zorn can be ever so creative.'
'Why thank you sire.' I turned and gasped. Another Saiyan? Great. I felt a bit too much in this only Saiyan male party. I still was naked.
'Honored to meet you. Such a charming lady.' The new arrival kissed my hand as I flushed deep. Nasty thing of being fair skinned and naked.they could see how much I blushed. Which caused me to flush more.
The space darkened into my basement. NO! stiff I turned my back to the scene. Two hands grabbed my shoulder and whirled me around, the father and new arrival. Sobbing I watched.
I was pregnant with the second. 6 months. And he dragged me down and beat me, I should have aborted it.he didn't want a second child. He had dragged me to the doctor but he said that he wouldn't abort a child of 6 months old. It was murder.
'Oh god no, not this.' curious the men watched how he beat with purpose at my stomach until he beat the baby to a pulp. We saw how I was rushed to the hospital. And bore a still born. Sobbing I fell on my knees. Hugging myself.
'The dishonor.' The father whispered. HAH. Not only that damnit. Kari had been only 2. 'The poor little soul.' The new arrival muttered shaking his head. I told them why he had kicked the child to death in me. The men started to get angry. 'So only because he couldn't keep from spreading his seed?' The father hissed. 'The child is innocent.' Vegeta whispered.
'Just like your child is.' Vegeta backed off startled. 'What?' 'Like your child, on it's way, it's as innocent as that child was. Will you harm it the same way?' 'Never. How dare you ask me.'
'Will you raise it?' 'Why? I never wanted it. SHE wanted it. But when time comes, and it's old enough I will train it. Until then, she can do the diapers as SHE wanted it in the first place!'
'Do you have a relationship with her?' Vegeta groaned. 'Cross-examination. NO I'm not in a relationship. It was a one night stand, she conceived and wanted it.' The father smirked dark. 'Indeed.' 'YES, YES IT WAS, now lay off my case damnit.'
'So nice to see you spunk back.' Vegeta crossed his arms and humped. 'And to answer your earlier question of who you are. You are a Saiyan. Never forget it.'
They vanished. We vanished. And I sat up in my bed shocked. Clothes? My clothes of the day.good enough. sighing I fell back. Beside me a grunt. EEK. Struggling to find the light switch I peered at Vegeta who moody flopped a hand before his eyes.
'Turn it off woman.' 'Your naked!' I squeaked. 'No.' he pulled the sheet aside. Oh.underwear. 'What are you doing in my bed.' 'Turn the light off.' I did. But didn't get back in just yet. A male in my bed, and it wasn't my husband.
'Will you come back already.' 'I don't know just yet.' I admitted. 'I don't bite.' 'I know.but it's not right.' 'What is?'
'You in my bed with me. Adam.' 'As soon as he comes here I'll kill him.' 'Yes but.but.I'm married.' I whined. 'You're a widow. He's a dead man walking.' I snickered a bit awkward. 'Onna.did you dream?'
'Yeah, bit weird, you were in it and two other men.' 'Oh no.' he groaned. Worried I glanced at him. 'Headache?' 'Bit.my father and Zorn.damn so it was real.'
'No it was a dream.' I corrected. Ignoring the fact we had the same. It was too creepy. Then THEY saw it all. I couldn't live it that. I shuffled to the door and stumbled down the stairs. Got a glass of water and some painkillers and made it back up. Panting and hating my poor condition I sat on the bed and handed him the glass and pills.
'It wasn't JUST a dream. Never I hear of him and then he comes prodding in my mind. Feh. Wanna talk about your still born?' I felt like ice water was dumped over me. 'NO.' Managed to the edge as he grabbed my wrist. 'If you talk about.what he did to you.I'll.' he paused. 'I'll tell my side.'
'I'm not sure if I can. it's so weird all.' I stammered. Trying to pry him off. What a grip damnit. 'I want to talk about.it.but I can't either.' I bit my lip.
'Lets sit outside. I don't want Kari to hear.'
'Fine.' He rolled out of the bed as I glanced stunned at my wrist. It didn't throb? Shaking it off I rose as well and made my way down. Fixing some soda and sitting on the swing. A light rain fell. Soon I heard Vegeta come out and sit after some awkwardness beside me. Had he never been seated on a swing? Coy I started swaying as he glanced weary at the bolts at the ceiling. Soon enough he relaxed a bit and seemed to enjoy it a bit.
Pushing us himself. During our hours long confessions he draped his arm around me after several cry fits. And I even had held him during a sparse one himself. We had talked and talked, at one point while he hummed an old Saiyan song he suddenly remembered I slid down his arm against him and snoozed.
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After I stopped my humming. I now knew a way to nag Piccolo. I peered at the sleeping onna against me. Hadn't even noticed. Playful I pushed the swing again. Funny thing. Reminded me of a kid in a cradle. Sort of soothing. And the rain softly falling like a curtain before us, not touching us. I had to get a Veranda on Chikyuu as well. With a swing. That way I could train even if the weather was crap. Being indoors all the time sucked.
I nodded away as well. And woke when the squirt shook me. 'I'm hungry.' 'Just a sec.' I glanced at my sleeper. Carefully moving her off me. Sliding off the swing and letting the squirt fetch some pillows and a blanket. She soon returned. I put the pillows down as she tucked her mother in. 'Peanut butter right?' I asked as she agreed on moving the swing. Rocking her mom. 'Keep moving your mother back and forth, she had a nightmare and needs her sleep.'
'Kay Vegeta.' Patiently she swung the thing as I walked inside. Fixing myself a heap of sandwiches and some for the squirt. The first day I did this, I made too much for her thinking she needed to grow. The mutt had been grateful. I yawned and decided to do something about my slacking training. Ship was on schedule this afternoon. Maybe the onna would be strong enough to lend a hand. I walked out and soon devoured the food, drank some water and finished.
'Come on squirt. Training.' She nodded and skipped over with her plate and stuffed mouth. 'Bwack?' I nodded. 'And eat your mouth empty before talking.' She shrugged and as I lay on the ground ran back into the house, grabbed some rope. Tied it to the swing and walked back to me. Grabbed her plate after shooing the Mutt away from it and sat on my back. Putting her feet on either side of my neck. Each time I pushed up, the swing was pulled along and released again as I lowered. Inventive tike.
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Vegeta and Kari were off to buy food. Vegeta was such a big consumer it was hard to satisfy his needs. In the 3 weeks the ship came together nicely and he also would buy some parts for it. Money was nothing to me. If we could launch and all was well. We'd be gone, and gone from the bills as well. The phone rang. Yawning I walked to it. Feeling much better then ever before. With Vegeta around I felt save for the first time in years. It was very nice as well. Something I could get used to quickly.
The roof leaked at our.well.yeah our bedroom. He fixed it the same night. Not caring if he got soaked. His explanation? I want a dry bed. Humming I walked to the phone and picked it up.
'Sarah Brightman speaking?' -Ma'am, your speaking with the sheriff. Your husband escaped last night. We haven't located him yet. Is the SEAL still living with you?-
'Yes.' I stammered. Familiar fear washing away the good mood I had been in. 'But he's into town to buy some groceries.' -Then I advice you come to town as well.- 'Right.Oh they took the car.'
-Lock the door then. I'll send a deputy.- 'Thank you sheriff.' -Your welcome.-
Shaky I put the phone down..LOCK DOORS. Panicky I raced to the front door. Wodan glanced confused at me. Then started to growl. OH NO.' I raced to the back door and locked it as well.
'The windows!' I ran across the house, slamming window by window down and locking them. A gun shot outside. Shivering I peered through a room. A patrol car went across my chicken coop and slammed into my barn. The driver slumped over the wheel. Crying I ran to my phone. Dialing the Sheriff.
'He shot the deputy, he crashed into my barn.' -Stay calm ma'am I'll send.beep.beep.' AHHHH. I shook the damned thing. Contact lost. Heard again. No tone at all. Weeeh. Wodan suddenly went ballistic. Barking at the kitchen door. Terrified I grabbed the wind bucks and as I didn't know how it worked yanked on the thing until I heard a click. Loaded?
'Where is that man when I need him.' I whined soft. 'OPEN THE DOOR WHORE!' YIPES. He was already there. With a power I didn't know I possessed I slammed some book cases against it. Barricading the door and windows. Locking myself up in the living room. Wodan backed at the barricaded door to the kitchen as I heard breaking glass. What if he had a gun? 'Wodan come here boy.' I whispered the dog to me as I sat in a corner. Behind the fire place which was made of brick.
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I dropped the groceries. Closing my eyes. I had learned to trust my instinct a long time ago and it had saved me on any occasions, I wasn't in danger, but still I felt like I was. But if I wasn't in danger.then.
'Keep the bag save.' I stated to the salesman and grabbed the squirt. Glancing weary around then shoving her back to the shop owner. 'And the kid. Be back later.' I ran out where I almost collided with the Sheriff.
'He broke out.' The elderly man stated. 'Damn. He's with her isn't he?' 'Probably. She called before contact was lost, the bastard shot my deputy.' I shrugged the deputy off. Not caring about him. I ran behind some buildings and flew high paced back to the farm. Leaving the pickup where it was. Before the store.
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'I'll get you, you treacherous lying slut!' I whimpered in Wodan's fur who kept barking. 'SHUT UP DAMNED DOG!' Wodan growled and barked louder. 'Thank the gods that Kari isn't here.' I whispered. Starting to accept my coming fate. It was useless to fight it. Vegeta just wasn't here. The door was broken down and I was dragged out. He knocked the dog out with a blow to the skull. I feared he died. I was pulled into the drive way and kicked on the ground. Sitting on my knees I glanced up as he put a gun at my head.
'I'll execute you damnit. Low life!' If this would be the end. So be it. I closed my eyes and put all trust in the hands or who ever it was that guarded over us.
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I flew as fast as I could as I sensed she suddenly went dead calm. What the hell? Few options. One she gave up, second dying, last blind trust. Last couldn't be it. No one trusted me blindly. No sensible being did.but she was so damned calm? And then that nagging thing.DAMN IT WAS TRUST. Why me. That Kakarotto was used to it, who cares I am NOT. I'm an anti-hero damnit. I'm an ass, I'm an egoistic ass. I always do and take what I want. Not caring about others. Hit the breaks runt, your thinking too much again. It's what made you crash here.
I halted above the farm and started loading without noticing. Damnit, like a low life? She will not be executed on her knees! How fast was I really as a super Saiyan? I flashed super and raced down as I heard the shot. My hand reached in-between deflecting the bullet. Okay, very fast.
'Sarah.you okay?' She opened her eyes and smiled at me. 'I knew you'd come.' AHHHH don't SAY that. 'Do shush.' 'You stinking rotten wife stealing.SON OF A BITCH.' I rose as I grabbed the gun. Squeezing it to a little prop. I smirked dark at him.
'How nice to give me even more reasons to kill you. You see. I'm the son of a king and queen.' I grabbed his throat. Remembering all that I had seen him do to the onna, heard about what he did to her from her own mouth.
'Your too bad to kill at once.first you will suffer. Sarah, go back into the house.' 'NO. I will watch. I know what you can do.' She stood up defiantly. Daring me to order her inside. 'He took Little Mia from me.' Ah her second.
'Very well. I don't mind an audience.' Smirking I with swift blows slammed his bones to pulp and saw him collapse on the ground. Most bones broke. Not the vital ones. 'You see, I'm not even from this planet.' I explained. My morbid side loved to explain to dead people.
'Ass.' 'Yes I have one, point being?' I kicked him to some cow dung. With my boot I rubbed his face in it. 'You piece of shit.You know what we did with your kind on my planet? No off course you don't. We slowly fry them. Only for the child killings, mate molesting and nearly killing mate kind. My father loved to execute those personally.' I aimed my palm at him. Enveloping him in a steady beam. 'You see it's an art. First make sure they can't crawl or walk away.I did so. Then intense concentration to roast them instead of incinerating them on the spot and instantly.' He started crying out in agony and pain as I slowly roasted him. Loving the strain it put on me not to over dosage the concentration of energy on him.
'You know, you might survive this. But at this stage the question is asked to the mate weather to end this, or proceed.' I glanced at Sarah who had a sadistic expression. She did the cutting throat move. 'You lose.' So smirking I proceeded in carefully preparing him for consumption. Not that I would eat him. I had my belly filled already.
'Now you have second degree burns and your going into shock. Hurts doesn't it?' He moaned and whimpered. The screeching dimming a bit. 'And now the mate has the last chance to reclaim you. Sarah?' 'Proceed sire.' She stated cold. Feh. Sire even.
'Okay. I hereby declare you dead, because you killed an unborn, molested your mate, tried to kill her twice and molesting your child. Tell that to Yema.' I increased the density and finished the job. Shish humans reeked. To do Sarah a favor I burned him to ashes.
Curious I saw her push me aside and started stamping and cursing at the remains, stomping on the few teeth remained and spitting. With bare hands she grabbed more dung and threw it over it. Ran away into the barn and retuned with acid and poured it cursing over the visible remains. 'I hope you burn in HELL.'
Panting she fell back on her ass. The mutt walked over, sniffed and peed over it. Wow.did they maybe hate him? I started laughing. This was one stunt I didn't see the other onna repeat. Her nails could break. While I laughed she scurried up and rushed inside to wash her hands with lots of soap I hope. She then returned outside. Pulling some messed up hair behind her ear and made a bee line to me.
'Thank you Vegeta.' And hugged me. Feh. Hugging me? I wasn't a cuddly bear. Pffft. Women. 'It was nothing.really.' She glanced up and.don't know why, but I kissed her. Felt like it. Nice ending of a nice torture. If his ghost lingered should peeve him. And happy day, she eagerly responded.
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'An Adam? Doesn't sound Saiyan.' The god of death peered at Zorn. The old right hand of the last Saiyan king. 'He's not. But I trust he'll come to our shack.' 'Oh? Specify, what do you know about him?' the god thundered as he paged his huge black book.
'Wife abuser, wife killer, unborn child killer. Oh and he beats animals up too.' Zorn sung. 'Ah there he is.' the god peered over his desk at the soul the Saiyan was pointing at. Zorn skipped down and landed before him. Giving him a jaw slam.
'Welcome to hell ass. I'm your new keeper.' 'Now hold on, I haven't placed him yet Zorn. Go by the BOOK.' Zorn patiently dragged the man back. 'I always go by the book.' He smirked. Yema snorted and paged it until he read it. 'Allow me to rephrase. I humbly request him to be placed in our nice district.' 'Nice he says. Humbly even. You must want him badly. AH here he is.' The god muttered to himself. 'You went to Vietnam?' Adam nodded stunned.
'Am I dead?' Zorn dunked his head. 'No ass, this is heaven, you go here alive.' 'Oh, heaven? Well that's good.' Zorn smirked dark. 'It's really a nice place.Many activities organized.parties.'
'Zorn.' the god warned. 'Yes your dead, yes your going to hell. War rapist.' Zorn glanced up interested. Hmm? 'Any more?' Zorn crawled over the page and read with Yema who tried to swat him off like a fly. Just as nagging as one he avoided the huge hand and landed back on the paragraph. 'Officer backstabber even. How nice.lots of officers we have.' Yema slammed the book closed. Winching Zorn popped out. Squished.
'Lord Yema.nasty.' 'Your too damned nosy. He's yours.' 'Well worth it.who ever said it was light literature. HAH.' Laughing Zorn took the dazed Adam and jumped down the desk as Yema opened a portal to hell, Saiyan district to be exact. He past Zarbon who was chased by the king.
'Got him sire! Was a war rapist and officer and cop killer.' 'GOOD CATCH. BE BACK IN 5 YEARS.' 'ZIPPPYYY ZIP BACK HERE AND KEEP YOUR ZIPPER CLOSED!'
'Your highness AHHH my ass.. I ONLY FOLLOWED FREEZA'S ORDERS!!!' 'YOU WALKED AFTER YOUR DICK! MY CHIBI DAMNIT, MY BRAT!'
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Dazed I leaned against Vegeta as sirens came our way. What a kisser. He growled warning at the new arrivals. 'Rain check on this.later.' He purred. Wow.like the purr went THROUGH my body. That low. He took my hand and pulled me to the Sheriff. I wished they'd leave already.
'MOMMY!' I glanced up and let Vegeta go as Kari unknowingly ran over her fathers remains and into my arms. 'Are you okay?' 'I'm fine. Vegeta saved me.' I whispered. Kari peered at Vegeta who winked, acting all moody again.
'Where is your husband Ma'am?' 'He and Vegeta did some hand to hand combat and he fled into the woods.' 'Good. MEN search the forest he's armed and dangerous. An Ambulance drove off with the injured not dead officer.
'It, will be ready in a week.' I nodded. 'I'll help now as well, should take 2 days off.' 'Okay. What about the animals?' 'I'll donate them to the neighbour. Like the farm. They have a son who wants to start his own farm.'
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Perhaps I miscalculated. Over the sand in her face tears freely ran down. And deeply unhappy her green blue eyes fixed on me. Pleating. It reminded me of so many races, people beings I killed. Same looks. Same pleas. Same chaos. Fighting down the old urge to finish her of I picked her up and flew up without a word. This response had been uncalled for. Why did I take her there then?
To make her understand? But why would I want anyone to understand me. I liked being an enigma. The moody one. Unpredictable. Or did I? I carried her inside the farm. During the flight she had fallen asleep in exhaustion. Effortlessly I walked with her in my arms to the bedroom and put her down. Undressed and flopped beside her on the bed. Only two beds in this house. A double here, a child bed in the Squirts room. Well done Vegeta. Your father can be proud of you. You scared the shit out of the onna. And needlessly.
Pissed at myself I rolled on my , now laying only with my underwear in the bed. I wanted to return. Not to the war, but to Chikyuu. That war had brought back a beast I though that died long since. The one created by Freeza.
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I was dreaming. I knew I was dreaming. Walking down a dark hallway. Which seemed endlessly long. And then it suddenly vanished and I floated in a purple sky. I didn't feel anything, no emotion. No nothing. Detached and not judging. I felt supreme. But had no power I just existed.
Before me formed a planet. Light shows shown all over the globe. Curious I willed myself there and found myself in the middle of fights. Grateful for the emotionless detachment I watched the alien race slaughtered by the same energy beams Vegeta had used on the plane and tank earlier. Bloodied a tall dark bald man laughed as a smaller man, whom I recognized as a young Vegeta glanced at his red stained gloves.
Something stirred behind them. Without looking Vegeta reached back and incinerated the building completely. How dark and destructive he was. And like me, he seemed emotionally detached. Standing above all the death around him. No remorse. No emotion. Nothing.
The scene changed to a cabin where he worked on some papers. A man walked in. not one I knew. Purple headed and reminding me of a squid.
'New mission Vegeta. Seems you did well of the other.' A paper was handed. Some nasty remarks on both sides made and the new male left. Vegeta scanned the paper and tore it up.
'Level 4 again.' Everything changed to a dense mist. A lonely voice calling out. 'Who am I!' I followed the outburst, or it's echo. I heard feet on smooth ground and glanced down. My feet. And my arms? Without any bruises. My body felt fine and fit once more, even if I lacked clothes. I felt like.I was the higher me. Not my daily me.
Not shy, or embarrassed in the slightest as those where related to emotions, which I currently lacked I walked on. The fog parted on my will and while still in the white space I found a being crunched up in a ball.
'You are as you were born.' I stated to answer his earlier agonized cry. I unwrapped. And searched my face defensive. 'What are YOU doing here!'
'You called out, I answered.' I sounded like a frigging oracle. But I felt it as a truth. Each word I said seemed passed down from a third party. I was just the intermediate. 'So I am as I was born?' he asked rising. As nude as me. Neither caring.
'Yes, you were born as a prince, you shall die a prince. It is your birth right.' 'But so is being super Saiyan and HE thwarted that!' 'You weren't ready yet, and the universe wasn't ready for you to be one.' 'I was born ready.'
'No.' I shook my head. 'You were filled with anguish and anger. Still some remains. And being a super Saiyan has to do with control.' He glanced at me awkward as I gasped, emotions crashing into me again. Where was my protective shield? Desperate I glanced around. What did I do to make it leave. I wanted it back!
'I'm not the only one with anguish and fear.' Vegeta stated. I glanced with darting eyes to him. Now feeling very much ashamed of being naked. While he seemed unfazed under the situation. 'But he loves me.' I stammered.
'He doesn't.' he walked closer and put his hand on my shoulder as I cried out. Before me scenes as if I were a ghost or viewing them through a camera of myself getting beaten up. Not once, not twice. Numerous occasions. 'Is this love?' I glanced back letting a tear fall down my cheek. 'Do you know what love is?' 'It cannot be this. Not destructive. Or maybe this is love?' I whimpering held on to him. Hiding my eyes as I knew he saw me getting raped on my wedding night.
'I wasn't the only one hurt this way.' I replied suddenly having more and more insight in Vegeta. He backed off from me and shook his head unbelieving. 'NO, I will not allow it!' 'You have no choice. You didn't have one then, neither had i.' I turned to face him as around us the space changed into a cabin. Vegeta a child. Gritting his teeth Vegeta closed his eyes. Flexing his hands furious. A flush over his cheekbones.
'That's why you wished to be stronger.' I turned to see a blue skinned male pull the boy into the bathroom. 'Don't you dare go in there.' he hissed. I walked to the door. He tried to grab my arm but passed through it. Howling in frustration he tried to block my path. I walked through him like a ghost. Grabbing his arm instead and with power well beyond my own pulled him struggling through the door.
'For me to help you, you need to watch.' He glanced cornered like a cat at me. Darting to the playing scene of the male stripping the boy who loudly complained and struggled. 'I can't.' I walked to him and glanced up at him.
'If you don't was to see it or show me, why did you take us here?' speechless he glanced down at me. 'I didn't.' 'You did.' The scene flashed to more cleaned planets, but we ended up in the bathroom numerous times.
'As much as the beatings and rapes are part of me, this is part of you. I live in my beatings, and rapes. You live in this rape.' 'Make it stop.' He glanced pleating at me. The powerful royal warrior clueless. Beside me a male appeared. Same built as Vegeta. Same looks.
'Son.' Vegeta gaped at us and the male. 'This I did not know.' 'F.father?' 'Yes.' The father draped an arm around me. 'No wonder you were so angry, no wonder you cursed the day I died. We died.' Curious I glanced at the male.
'I screamed for you father.' Vegeta whispered hoarse. 'Each time he came, I screamed for you. And I cursed you. Hated you. Wanted to be protected by you as I had always been. But Napa could do nothing, and I forbid him to tell Raditsu. He would kill them.'
'Even if I had been able to hear you, what can a dead soul do for his living son with living archenemies.' Vegeta sagged and crumbled to the floor. 'WHY DID YOU DIE.'
'I died for you.' 'WHAT?' 'I wasn't killed in the explosion. I died before that. I came to Freeza to reclaim you from his greedy hands. He broke my neck.' 'News flash, he's dead.' 'Indeed. We have parties with him.' The man smirked. 'But now we know this, we have something in mind for his minion. That blue skinned sassy. Zorn can be ever so creative.'
'Why thank you sire.' I turned and gasped. Another Saiyan? Great. I felt a bit too much in this only Saiyan male party. I still was naked.
'Honored to meet you. Such a charming lady.' The new arrival kissed my hand as I flushed deep. Nasty thing of being fair skinned and naked.they could see how much I blushed. Which caused me to flush more.
The space darkened into my basement. NO! stiff I turned my back to the scene. Two hands grabbed my shoulder and whirled me around, the father and new arrival. Sobbing I watched.
I was pregnant with the second. 6 months. And he dragged me down and beat me, I should have aborted it.he didn't want a second child. He had dragged me to the doctor but he said that he wouldn't abort a child of 6 months old. It was murder.
'Oh god no, not this.' curious the men watched how he beat with purpose at my stomach until he beat the baby to a pulp. We saw how I was rushed to the hospital. And bore a still born. Sobbing I fell on my knees. Hugging myself.
'The dishonor.' The father whispered. HAH. Not only that damnit. Kari had been only 2. 'The poor little soul.' The new arrival muttered shaking his head. I told them why he had kicked the child to death in me. The men started to get angry. 'So only because he couldn't keep from spreading his seed?' The father hissed. 'The child is innocent.' Vegeta whispered.
'Just like your child is.' Vegeta backed off startled. 'What?' 'Like your child, on it's way, it's as innocent as that child was. Will you harm it the same way?' 'Never. How dare you ask me.'
'Will you raise it?' 'Why? I never wanted it. SHE wanted it. But when time comes, and it's old enough I will train it. Until then, she can do the diapers as SHE wanted it in the first place!'
'Do you have a relationship with her?' Vegeta groaned. 'Cross-examination. NO I'm not in a relationship. It was a one night stand, she conceived and wanted it.' The father smirked dark. 'Indeed.' 'YES, YES IT WAS, now lay off my case damnit.'
'So nice to see you spunk back.' Vegeta crossed his arms and humped. 'And to answer your earlier question of who you are. You are a Saiyan. Never forget it.'
They vanished. We vanished. And I sat up in my bed shocked. Clothes? My clothes of the day.good enough. sighing I fell back. Beside me a grunt. EEK. Struggling to find the light switch I peered at Vegeta who moody flopped a hand before his eyes.
'Turn it off woman.' 'Your naked!' I squeaked. 'No.' he pulled the sheet aside. Oh.underwear. 'What are you doing in my bed.' 'Turn the light off.' I did. But didn't get back in just yet. A male in my bed, and it wasn't my husband.
'Will you come back already.' 'I don't know just yet.' I admitted. 'I don't bite.' 'I know.but it's not right.' 'What is?'
'You in my bed with me. Adam.' 'As soon as he comes here I'll kill him.' 'Yes but.but.I'm married.' I whined. 'You're a widow. He's a dead man walking.' I snickered a bit awkward. 'Onna.did you dream?'
'Yeah, bit weird, you were in it and two other men.' 'Oh no.' he groaned. Worried I glanced at him. 'Headache?' 'Bit.my father and Zorn.damn so it was real.'
'No it was a dream.' I corrected. Ignoring the fact we had the same. It was too creepy. Then THEY saw it all. I couldn't live it that. I shuffled to the door and stumbled down the stairs. Got a glass of water and some painkillers and made it back up. Panting and hating my poor condition I sat on the bed and handed him the glass and pills.
'It wasn't JUST a dream. Never I hear of him and then he comes prodding in my mind. Feh. Wanna talk about your still born?' I felt like ice water was dumped over me. 'NO.' Managed to the edge as he grabbed my wrist. 'If you talk about.what he did to you.I'll.' he paused. 'I'll tell my side.'
'I'm not sure if I can. it's so weird all.' I stammered. Trying to pry him off. What a grip damnit. 'I want to talk about.it.but I can't either.' I bit my lip.
'Lets sit outside. I don't want Kari to hear.'
'Fine.' He rolled out of the bed as I glanced stunned at my wrist. It didn't throb? Shaking it off I rose as well and made my way down. Fixing some soda and sitting on the swing. A light rain fell. Soon I heard Vegeta come out and sit after some awkwardness beside me. Had he never been seated on a swing? Coy I started swaying as he glanced weary at the bolts at the ceiling. Soon enough he relaxed a bit and seemed to enjoy it a bit.
Pushing us himself. During our hours long confessions he draped his arm around me after several cry fits. And I even had held him during a sparse one himself. We had talked and talked, at one point while he hummed an old Saiyan song he suddenly remembered I slid down his arm against him and snoozed.
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After I stopped my humming. I now knew a way to nag Piccolo. I peered at the sleeping onna against me. Hadn't even noticed. Playful I pushed the swing again. Funny thing. Reminded me of a kid in a cradle. Sort of soothing. And the rain softly falling like a curtain before us, not touching us. I had to get a Veranda on Chikyuu as well. With a swing. That way I could train even if the weather was crap. Being indoors all the time sucked.
I nodded away as well. And woke when the squirt shook me. 'I'm hungry.' 'Just a sec.' I glanced at my sleeper. Carefully moving her off me. Sliding off the swing and letting the squirt fetch some pillows and a blanket. She soon returned. I put the pillows down as she tucked her mother in. 'Peanut butter right?' I asked as she agreed on moving the swing. Rocking her mom. 'Keep moving your mother back and forth, she had a nightmare and needs her sleep.'
'Kay Vegeta.' Patiently she swung the thing as I walked inside. Fixing myself a heap of sandwiches and some for the squirt. The first day I did this, I made too much for her thinking she needed to grow. The mutt had been grateful. I yawned and decided to do something about my slacking training. Ship was on schedule this afternoon. Maybe the onna would be strong enough to lend a hand. I walked out and soon devoured the food, drank some water and finished.
'Come on squirt. Training.' She nodded and skipped over with her plate and stuffed mouth. 'Bwack?' I nodded. 'And eat your mouth empty before talking.' She shrugged and as I lay on the ground ran back into the house, grabbed some rope. Tied it to the swing and walked back to me. Grabbed her plate after shooing the Mutt away from it and sat on my back. Putting her feet on either side of my neck. Each time I pushed up, the swing was pulled along and released again as I lowered. Inventive tike.
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Vegeta and Kari were off to buy food. Vegeta was such a big consumer it was hard to satisfy his needs. In the 3 weeks the ship came together nicely and he also would buy some parts for it. Money was nothing to me. If we could launch and all was well. We'd be gone, and gone from the bills as well. The phone rang. Yawning I walked to it. Feeling much better then ever before. With Vegeta around I felt save for the first time in years. It was very nice as well. Something I could get used to quickly.
The roof leaked at our.well.yeah our bedroom. He fixed it the same night. Not caring if he got soaked. His explanation? I want a dry bed. Humming I walked to the phone and picked it up.
'Sarah Brightman speaking?' -Ma'am, your speaking with the sheriff. Your husband escaped last night. We haven't located him yet. Is the SEAL still living with you?-
'Yes.' I stammered. Familiar fear washing away the good mood I had been in. 'But he's into town to buy some groceries.' -Then I advice you come to town as well.- 'Right.Oh they took the car.'
-Lock the door then. I'll send a deputy.- 'Thank you sheriff.' -Your welcome.-
Shaky I put the phone down..LOCK DOORS. Panicky I raced to the front door. Wodan glanced confused at me. Then started to growl. OH NO.' I raced to the back door and locked it as well.
'The windows!' I ran across the house, slamming window by window down and locking them. A gun shot outside. Shivering I peered through a room. A patrol car went across my chicken coop and slammed into my barn. The driver slumped over the wheel. Crying I ran to my phone. Dialing the Sheriff.
'He shot the deputy, he crashed into my barn.' -Stay calm ma'am I'll send.beep.beep.' AHHHH. I shook the damned thing. Contact lost. Heard again. No tone at all. Weeeh. Wodan suddenly went ballistic. Barking at the kitchen door. Terrified I grabbed the wind bucks and as I didn't know how it worked yanked on the thing until I heard a click. Loaded?
'Where is that man when I need him.' I whined soft. 'OPEN THE DOOR WHORE!' YIPES. He was already there. With a power I didn't know I possessed I slammed some book cases against it. Barricading the door and windows. Locking myself up in the living room. Wodan backed at the barricaded door to the kitchen as I heard breaking glass. What if he had a gun? 'Wodan come here boy.' I whispered the dog to me as I sat in a corner. Behind the fire place which was made of brick.
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I dropped the groceries. Closing my eyes. I had learned to trust my instinct a long time ago and it had saved me on any occasions, I wasn't in danger, but still I felt like I was. But if I wasn't in danger.then.
'Keep the bag save.' I stated to the salesman and grabbed the squirt. Glancing weary around then shoving her back to the shop owner. 'And the kid. Be back later.' I ran out where I almost collided with the Sheriff.
'He broke out.' The elderly man stated. 'Damn. He's with her isn't he?' 'Probably. She called before contact was lost, the bastard shot my deputy.' I shrugged the deputy off. Not caring about him. I ran behind some buildings and flew high paced back to the farm. Leaving the pickup where it was. Before the store.
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'I'll get you, you treacherous lying slut!' I whimpered in Wodan's fur who kept barking. 'SHUT UP DAMNED DOG!' Wodan growled and barked louder. 'Thank the gods that Kari isn't here.' I whispered. Starting to accept my coming fate. It was useless to fight it. Vegeta just wasn't here. The door was broken down and I was dragged out. He knocked the dog out with a blow to the skull. I feared he died. I was pulled into the drive way and kicked on the ground. Sitting on my knees I glanced up as he put a gun at my head.
'I'll execute you damnit. Low life!' If this would be the end. So be it. I closed my eyes and put all trust in the hands or who ever it was that guarded over us.
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I flew as fast as I could as I sensed she suddenly went dead calm. What the hell? Few options. One she gave up, second dying, last blind trust. Last couldn't be it. No one trusted me blindly. No sensible being did.but she was so damned calm? And then that nagging thing.DAMN IT WAS TRUST. Why me. That Kakarotto was used to it, who cares I am NOT. I'm an anti-hero damnit. I'm an ass, I'm an egoistic ass. I always do and take what I want. Not caring about others. Hit the breaks runt, your thinking too much again. It's what made you crash here.
I halted above the farm and started loading without noticing. Damnit, like a low life? She will not be executed on her knees! How fast was I really as a super Saiyan? I flashed super and raced down as I heard the shot. My hand reached in-between deflecting the bullet. Okay, very fast.
'Sarah.you okay?' She opened her eyes and smiled at me. 'I knew you'd come.' AHHHH don't SAY that. 'Do shush.' 'You stinking rotten wife stealing.SON OF A BITCH.' I rose as I grabbed the gun. Squeezing it to a little prop. I smirked dark at him.
'How nice to give me even more reasons to kill you. You see. I'm the son of a king and queen.' I grabbed his throat. Remembering all that I had seen him do to the onna, heard about what he did to her from her own mouth.
'Your too bad to kill at once.first you will suffer. Sarah, go back into the house.' 'NO. I will watch. I know what you can do.' She stood up defiantly. Daring me to order her inside. 'He took Little Mia from me.' Ah her second.
'Very well. I don't mind an audience.' Smirking I with swift blows slammed his bones to pulp and saw him collapse on the ground. Most bones broke. Not the vital ones. 'You see, I'm not even from this planet.' I explained. My morbid side loved to explain to dead people.
'Ass.' 'Yes I have one, point being?' I kicked him to some cow dung. With my boot I rubbed his face in it. 'You piece of shit.You know what we did with your kind on my planet? No off course you don't. We slowly fry them. Only for the child killings, mate molesting and nearly killing mate kind. My father loved to execute those personally.' I aimed my palm at him. Enveloping him in a steady beam. 'You see it's an art. First make sure they can't crawl or walk away.I did so. Then intense concentration to roast them instead of incinerating them on the spot and instantly.' He started crying out in agony and pain as I slowly roasted him. Loving the strain it put on me not to over dosage the concentration of energy on him.
'You know, you might survive this. But at this stage the question is asked to the mate weather to end this, or proceed.' I glanced at Sarah who had a sadistic expression. She did the cutting throat move. 'You lose.' So smirking I proceeded in carefully preparing him for consumption. Not that I would eat him. I had my belly filled already.
'Now you have second degree burns and your going into shock. Hurts doesn't it?' He moaned and whimpered. The screeching dimming a bit. 'And now the mate has the last chance to reclaim you. Sarah?' 'Proceed sire.' She stated cold. Feh. Sire even.
'Okay. I hereby declare you dead, because you killed an unborn, molested your mate, tried to kill her twice and molesting your child. Tell that to Yema.' I increased the density and finished the job. Shish humans reeked. To do Sarah a favor I burned him to ashes.
Curious I saw her push me aside and started stamping and cursing at the remains, stomping on the few teeth remained and spitting. With bare hands she grabbed more dung and threw it over it. Ran away into the barn and retuned with acid and poured it cursing over the visible remains. 'I hope you burn in HELL.'
Panting she fell back on her ass. The mutt walked over, sniffed and peed over it. Wow.did they maybe hate him? I started laughing. This was one stunt I didn't see the other onna repeat. Her nails could break. While I laughed she scurried up and rushed inside to wash her hands with lots of soap I hope. She then returned outside. Pulling some messed up hair behind her ear and made a bee line to me.
'Thank you Vegeta.' And hugged me. Feh. Hugging me? I wasn't a cuddly bear. Pffft. Women. 'It was nothing.really.' She glanced up and.don't know why, but I kissed her. Felt like it. Nice ending of a nice torture. If his ghost lingered should peeve him. And happy day, she eagerly responded.
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'An Adam? Doesn't sound Saiyan.' The god of death peered at Zorn. The old right hand of the last Saiyan king. 'He's not. But I trust he'll come to our shack.' 'Oh? Specify, what do you know about him?' the god thundered as he paged his huge black book.
'Wife abuser, wife killer, unborn child killer. Oh and he beats animals up too.' Zorn sung. 'Ah there he is.' the god peered over his desk at the soul the Saiyan was pointing at. Zorn skipped down and landed before him. Giving him a jaw slam.
'Welcome to hell ass. I'm your new keeper.' 'Now hold on, I haven't placed him yet Zorn. Go by the BOOK.' Zorn patiently dragged the man back. 'I always go by the book.' He smirked. Yema snorted and paged it until he read it. 'Allow me to rephrase. I humbly request him to be placed in our nice district.' 'Nice he says. Humbly even. You must want him badly. AH here he is.' The god muttered to himself. 'You went to Vietnam?' Adam nodded stunned.
'Am I dead?' Zorn dunked his head. 'No ass, this is heaven, you go here alive.' 'Oh, heaven? Well that's good.' Zorn smirked dark. 'It's really a nice place.Many activities organized.parties.'
'Zorn.' the god warned. 'Yes your dead, yes your going to hell. War rapist.' Zorn glanced up interested. Hmm? 'Any more?' Zorn crawled over the page and read with Yema who tried to swat him off like a fly. Just as nagging as one he avoided the huge hand and landed back on the paragraph. 'Officer backstabber even. How nice.lots of officers we have.' Yema slammed the book closed. Winching Zorn popped out. Squished.
'Lord Yema.nasty.' 'Your too damned nosy. He's yours.' 'Well worth it.who ever said it was light literature. HAH.' Laughing Zorn took the dazed Adam and jumped down the desk as Yema opened a portal to hell, Saiyan district to be exact. He past Zarbon who was chased by the king.
'Got him sire! Was a war rapist and officer and cop killer.' 'GOOD CATCH. BE BACK IN 5 YEARS.' 'ZIPPPYYY ZIP BACK HERE AND KEEP YOUR ZIPPER CLOSED!'
'Your highness AHHH my ass.. I ONLY FOLLOWED FREEZA'S ORDERS!!!' 'YOU WALKED AFTER YOUR DICK! MY CHIBI DAMNIT, MY BRAT!'
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Dazed I leaned against Vegeta as sirens came our way. What a kisser. He growled warning at the new arrivals. 'Rain check on this.later.' He purred. Wow.like the purr went THROUGH my body. That low. He took my hand and pulled me to the Sheriff. I wished they'd leave already.
'MOMMY!' I glanced up and let Vegeta go as Kari unknowingly ran over her fathers remains and into my arms. 'Are you okay?' 'I'm fine. Vegeta saved me.' I whispered. Kari peered at Vegeta who winked, acting all moody again.
'Where is your husband Ma'am?' 'He and Vegeta did some hand to hand combat and he fled into the woods.' 'Good. MEN search the forest he's armed and dangerous. An Ambulance drove off with the injured not dead officer.
'It, will be ready in a week.' I nodded. 'I'll help now as well, should take 2 days off.' 'Okay. What about the animals?' 'I'll donate them to the neighbour. Like the farm. They have a son who wants to start his own farm.'
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