Right I have never written a Buffy story before and I haven't read many, so
if this storyline is familiar to someone else's, its pure coincidence and
I'm sorry
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of Buffy [and those of Angel who appear later on in this story] the mighty Joss Whedon does. Plus I don't own any of the song lyrics used throughout this story.
Rated: R for swearing and sexual content. M/F
Summary: Set early Season 6 of Buffy and early season 3 Angel (but in no way connected to later events of both the series) A new woman comes to Sunnydale and reluctantly helps the Scooby's out, Spike can't help but feel a connection with her....
Genre: Angst
Feedback: Please review, good or bad, tell me. Email me at musictosellyoursoulfor@yahoo.co.uk
Chapter One - Cruel
Things were not going well for him, not at all. He had no fucking desire to be sitting in the Magic Shop, attempting to research mind-numbingly boring demons, when he knew she would defeat the latest evil lurking round Sunnydale. She always did, she had survived death three times, not many people do that. He knew she was disconnected from the world at late, he knew, unlike her friends, that she had been in heaven or a form of it and that her Wicca friend had dragged her out of a blissful state. It a way it pained him more that she was back and upset, than when she was gone, devoid of the world, of his life. Truth was he knew he would never have her, it at times drove him insane, seeing her, talking to her, did she feel the same? He convinced himself yes on several occasions but never would he touch her how he dreamed, never would she caress his skin like that impostor robot had and Spike had conceded that it was for the best. If she ever needed a friend, and he knew she had plenty already but if she wanted to talk he would always be there for her. A Slayer and a Vampire as best friends may seem like a strange, perverse notion but stranger things had happened on the Hellmouth before.
So Spike, as he sat watching Dawn and Anya look over Wedding magazines and Xander put yet more shelves up for Giles 'How many books could that ponce want?' he mused, Spike he didn't want to be there, he should be out with Buffy, helping her out, helping her get back on her feet but he couldn't because of the minor issue of it still being daytime, almost sunset but not yet. He looked up from his book and eyed her, not Buffy but another one, a new one. Not Willow or Tara but an almost stranger sitting engrossed in her book. She was an outsider, 'A reluctant one' Spike considered but she still didn't fit well. Only in their presence for a fortnight but soon dragged into the underworld of fighting vamps and demons. He couldn't understand why she hadn't said no to Buffy's request to stay and help. After all it was obvious none of the Scoobs even liked her, they weren't bitchy towards her but really they used her and Spike was bewildered why she would want to hang around with people who couldn't give a shit about her fate unless it involved them directly.
"Research going well?" She quizzed not looking up from her book. Her brown medium length hair fell into her face. 'Hiding from us' he thought.
"Fine pet fine" Spike smiled, he had no issues with the girl. She did help him out on several occasions, she was strong, no slayer-strength but then not your average twenty something strength either. Not like he would know how old she was, she didn't even know that.
"You haven't turned a page for the last half hour" She remarked. 'How the hell did she know that?' he thought.
Spike placed his book down "Guess reading isn't my thing" he was trying to get a reaction from her, he didn't know why but he wanted her to look at him with her deep brown eyes.
"You mean you can't read" Xander joked.
Spike growled 'Shut it Harris" he hated Xander, hated him, didn't understand why Anya was going to marry him, she had looks and was spunky, Xander was nothing but a donut boy.
"Don't start" Giles and Dawn warned together.
"Whatever" Spike brushed the impending conflict off and went back to her "So you found anything?"
"Maybe, I'm not sure" She replied looking at him. 'Oh those eyes'. "What do you think." her question was cut by the arrival of Buffy, Willow and Tara entering the shop.
"What did you find?" Giles quizzed walking towards the three girls. Spike got up and immediately withdrew any attention he had been giving her for Buffy.
"Not much, checked out all the usual places, zero" Buffy sighed leaning against the counter, she looked withdrawn, bored, Spike could tell that, he gave her a small smile, she replied with a 'thank you' in her eyes.
"How did you lot met up?" Anya asked.
"Tara and I were having coffee we saw Buffy and helped her out" Willow walked over to the table, hand in hand with her love.
"Oh" A voice muttered "Have you two found anything yet, to help me?" it asked
Tara looked at Willow for help in answering the question, they hadn't done any research into a spell for their new 'colleague' none at all, Buffy intervened
"Lou I have, we all have really important things to do" Buffy said it calmly not in a malicious hurtful way but Spike turned to Louise and saw hurt in her eyes.
"Sorry, its not that important" She conceded reading her book again. Spike could tell it was important to her and why not, if you couldn't remember the past 20 odd years of your life wouldn't you want a spell to help you?
"We will look, promise" Tara appeased kindly.
"It doesn't matter, really, Buffy's right you all have more pressing dangers." Louise declared. She was putting a brave face on that was for sure.
"So more patrolling tonight then pet?" Spike enquired, he needed a good fight with some demon vermin.
"I guess so" Buffy frowned turning to Dawn "I'm sorry Dawnie"
"I get it, duty calls" Dawn smiled slightly
"We look after her, don't worry" Xander offered
"Do you want me to go?" Louise asked Buffy and Spike
"Don't worry about it Lou, it will be fine, we can handle it" Spike conceded. Sunlight had finally given way to the darkness in the sky. As he led the way to the entrance with Buffy.
Xander went back to discussing carpentry with an obviously displeased Giles. Willow and Tara picked up the books Spike had managed not to get through and Dawn and Anya discussed wedding dresses. Louise picked her book up and went into the back, where Buffy usually trained, she sat down quietly and began reading again. No one would notice her absence, they never did, she could stay there all day and no one would say a word, no one would come to ask her if she was all right. Louise expected nothing more, she was no friend of any of them, why did she bother staying when they made no effort to help her out? She knew why, it was the knowing that somehow Sunnydale was the answer to everything, that she belonged there, that if she was strong she should help them fight vampires and then there was him. He may be infatuated by Buffy, by the leader but she could still admire him, want him, desire him. It was better than nothing, even if in the end all she felt was heartache swelling in her chest.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of Buffy [and those of Angel who appear later on in this story] the mighty Joss Whedon does. Plus I don't own any of the song lyrics used throughout this story.
Rated: R for swearing and sexual content. M/F
Summary: Set early Season 6 of Buffy and early season 3 Angel (but in no way connected to later events of both the series) A new woman comes to Sunnydale and reluctantly helps the Scooby's out, Spike can't help but feel a connection with her....
Genre: Angst
Feedback: Please review, good or bad, tell me. Email me at musictosellyoursoulfor@yahoo.co.uk
Chapter One - Cruel
Things were not going well for him, not at all. He had no fucking desire to be sitting in the Magic Shop, attempting to research mind-numbingly boring demons, when he knew she would defeat the latest evil lurking round Sunnydale. She always did, she had survived death three times, not many people do that. He knew she was disconnected from the world at late, he knew, unlike her friends, that she had been in heaven or a form of it and that her Wicca friend had dragged her out of a blissful state. It a way it pained him more that she was back and upset, than when she was gone, devoid of the world, of his life. Truth was he knew he would never have her, it at times drove him insane, seeing her, talking to her, did she feel the same? He convinced himself yes on several occasions but never would he touch her how he dreamed, never would she caress his skin like that impostor robot had and Spike had conceded that it was for the best. If she ever needed a friend, and he knew she had plenty already but if she wanted to talk he would always be there for her. A Slayer and a Vampire as best friends may seem like a strange, perverse notion but stranger things had happened on the Hellmouth before.
So Spike, as he sat watching Dawn and Anya look over Wedding magazines and Xander put yet more shelves up for Giles 'How many books could that ponce want?' he mused, Spike he didn't want to be there, he should be out with Buffy, helping her out, helping her get back on her feet but he couldn't because of the minor issue of it still being daytime, almost sunset but not yet. He looked up from his book and eyed her, not Buffy but another one, a new one. Not Willow or Tara but an almost stranger sitting engrossed in her book. She was an outsider, 'A reluctant one' Spike considered but she still didn't fit well. Only in their presence for a fortnight but soon dragged into the underworld of fighting vamps and demons. He couldn't understand why she hadn't said no to Buffy's request to stay and help. After all it was obvious none of the Scoobs even liked her, they weren't bitchy towards her but really they used her and Spike was bewildered why she would want to hang around with people who couldn't give a shit about her fate unless it involved them directly.
"Research going well?" She quizzed not looking up from her book. Her brown medium length hair fell into her face. 'Hiding from us' he thought.
"Fine pet fine" Spike smiled, he had no issues with the girl. She did help him out on several occasions, she was strong, no slayer-strength but then not your average twenty something strength either. Not like he would know how old she was, she didn't even know that.
"You haven't turned a page for the last half hour" She remarked. 'How the hell did she know that?' he thought.
Spike placed his book down "Guess reading isn't my thing" he was trying to get a reaction from her, he didn't know why but he wanted her to look at him with her deep brown eyes.
"You mean you can't read" Xander joked.
Spike growled 'Shut it Harris" he hated Xander, hated him, didn't understand why Anya was going to marry him, she had looks and was spunky, Xander was nothing but a donut boy.
"Don't start" Giles and Dawn warned together.
"Whatever" Spike brushed the impending conflict off and went back to her "So you found anything?"
"Maybe, I'm not sure" She replied looking at him. 'Oh those eyes'. "What do you think." her question was cut by the arrival of Buffy, Willow and Tara entering the shop.
"What did you find?" Giles quizzed walking towards the three girls. Spike got up and immediately withdrew any attention he had been giving her for Buffy.
"Not much, checked out all the usual places, zero" Buffy sighed leaning against the counter, she looked withdrawn, bored, Spike could tell that, he gave her a small smile, she replied with a 'thank you' in her eyes.
"How did you lot met up?" Anya asked.
"Tara and I were having coffee we saw Buffy and helped her out" Willow walked over to the table, hand in hand with her love.
"Oh" A voice muttered "Have you two found anything yet, to help me?" it asked
Tara looked at Willow for help in answering the question, they hadn't done any research into a spell for their new 'colleague' none at all, Buffy intervened
"Lou I have, we all have really important things to do" Buffy said it calmly not in a malicious hurtful way but Spike turned to Louise and saw hurt in her eyes.
"Sorry, its not that important" She conceded reading her book again. Spike could tell it was important to her and why not, if you couldn't remember the past 20 odd years of your life wouldn't you want a spell to help you?
"We will look, promise" Tara appeased kindly.
"It doesn't matter, really, Buffy's right you all have more pressing dangers." Louise declared. She was putting a brave face on that was for sure.
"So more patrolling tonight then pet?" Spike enquired, he needed a good fight with some demon vermin.
"I guess so" Buffy frowned turning to Dawn "I'm sorry Dawnie"
"I get it, duty calls" Dawn smiled slightly
"We look after her, don't worry" Xander offered
"Do you want me to go?" Louise asked Buffy and Spike
"Don't worry about it Lou, it will be fine, we can handle it" Spike conceded. Sunlight had finally given way to the darkness in the sky. As he led the way to the entrance with Buffy.
Xander went back to discussing carpentry with an obviously displeased Giles. Willow and Tara picked up the books Spike had managed not to get through and Dawn and Anya discussed wedding dresses. Louise picked her book up and went into the back, where Buffy usually trained, she sat down quietly and began reading again. No one would notice her absence, they never did, she could stay there all day and no one would say a word, no one would come to ask her if she was all right. Louise expected nothing more, she was no friend of any of them, why did she bother staying when they made no effort to help her out? She knew why, it was the knowing that somehow Sunnydale was the answer to everything, that she belonged there, that if she was strong she should help them fight vampires and then there was him. He may be infatuated by Buffy, by the leader but she could still admire him, want him, desire him. It was better than nothing, even if in the end all she felt was heartache swelling in her chest.