Right I have never written a Buffy story before and I haven't read many, so
if this storyline is familiar to someone else's, its pure coincidence and
I'm sorry
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of Buffy [and those of Angel who appear later on in this story] the mighty Joss Whedon does. Plus I don't own any of the song lyrics used throughout this story.
Rated: R for swearing and sexual content. M/F
Summary: Set early Season 6 of Buffy and early season 3 Angel (but in no way connected to later events of both the series) A new woman comes to Sunnydale and reluctantly helps the Scooby's out, Spike can't help but feel a connection with her....
Genre: Angst
Feedback: Please review, good or bad, tell me. Email me at musictosellyoursoulfor@yahoo.co.uk
Chapter Two - What Will You Say
'Don't worry about it Lou, it will be fine, we can handle it' He had said yet there she was now wandering the streets at 3am, alone, as always but not scared, never scared. She wished her social skills were better that she wasn't such a stupid cow, who seemed to offend people because of her inability to speak to anyone. It's hard though, to speak to people, start conversations because the usual things are asked like 'Where do you come from?' Answer; don't know 'What's your family like?' Answer no idea 'How old are you?' Twenty something, maybe. 'What do you do?' Answer, anything, money needed anything ' Where do you live?' Answer alone, in some shit apartment you've rented 'Your friends what are they like? Answer I wish I knew if I ever had friends, because I certainty don't now.'
Those would be her replies, she knew nothing other than her name. Can you really wake up one day and forget everything? Wake up in a park in Detroit knowing nothing? She went to the police, asked them to help, they tried but her name was on no databases, no national security number, and no nothing. And she figured she must have been homeless or something, she owned no house, rented no place, had no job. How could she possibly no have a job? And family and friends? If she had gone missing they would had searched surely?
So many questions, so many gaps, many searches for answers, methods to help her remember like hypnotism or therapy but nothing. Not even a bankcard, yet money in her pocket when she had awoken, over $2000, not small change. Yet she wasn't mugged by anyone, how? And Sunnydale, why did she go there? How when she travelled across the states that when she was confronted by vampires, that never fazed her, like that was normal?
"You don't like taking my advice do you" He asked from behind her
"It wasn't advice" She mumbled turning, his skin so pale and perfect "You said you didn't need me but doesn't stop me from walking around myself"
He gave her such a bewildered look; she looked pissed off at him, angry, sadness in her face as well. Dressed in her normal denim jacket, her faded jeans, tight fitting vest top, always the same, yet always amazed him. She was about 5ft 9, and slim, yeah slim. Not sexy though, no way. Spike looked her over again, there was nothing special about her, Buffy was special, Anya, Willow, Tara as well, one day Dawn when she grew up, all naturally good looking, Louise wasn't. Never paid attention to her appearance.
"Mumbling like your style Lou, see you progressing from muttering to mumbles, hey by next week you might actually say something people can hear" He responded
"Thanks a bunch Spike" She turned on him, so he decided to start on her has he? Great, great, great, seeing him usually made her happy, made her feel like maybe she would find a friend, but obviously she misjudged Spike.
"Hey calm down, no offence was meant" Spike called and caught her up grabbing her arm. Shit she was pissed at him, her eyes glowered, he hadn't even seen that amount of menace ever, not even in Buffy's eyes.
"Yeah well, you have offended me" She whispered softly, her eyes lowered their daggers and she stopped walking, standing there staring at the floor.
"It was a joke, sorry" Spike meant it as well, she wasn't having a great time in her life at the moment, he didn't know everything but losing your memory must be pretty hard to deal with.
"Where's Buffy?" She quizzed eyes fixed on her battered trainers
"She went off to tell Giles about our exiting new discovery" Spike mocked. He was pissed that Buffy didn't want him around for the rest of the night, really pissed.
"What was that?" Louise replied, the smell of his cigarettes was strong on his clothes, she could smell them, it made her crave one, but no not really a cigarette but him, his skin, his lips, his everything.
"Some demon coven thing, really boring" Spike laughed "No doubt the watcher will go crazy for it"
"Hmm" Louise responded looking at him, Spike was doing his usual thing of standing like a rockstar, a sex god, a Greek god, just plain God the way he made her feel at times. His tight black t-shirt was showing of his well- muscled chest, this was not doing her any favours.
Spike burst out laughing "Yeah hmm, my feelings exactly Lou, you have a way with words, no offence"
"None taken" She attempted to smile at him in a seductive way, trying to show him he could have her now in this alleyway if he wanted, she would be his in an instant. It failed, she just ended up blushing.
"So what you up to?" He commented, really hanging around in alleyways was his job not for such a naïve girl like her.
"Nothing, I'm bored, thought I walk" She truthfully replied
"Aren't you cold?" It was after all autumn, she should be freezing in her denim jacket.
"No, I don't feel the cold" She explained
"Fair enough, look Lou about the spell" He began, Buffy had asked him to talk to Louise about how Tara and Willow were reluctant to find a spell for Louise
"Yeah?" Louise perked up, had he heard anything that could help her?
"Its not safe, you know, what you want them to find. Spells which control, alter the mind can do serious damage." Spike wished it wasn't him telling her the bad news; really the others had got away with this one.
"I know but I've tried everything else" She admitted "Its my only hope" her eyes were pleading to him, such pain in them.
"It won't work, the Wicca's they found a few spells but, its only for short term memory lost, yours well you can't remember anything, it won't work, I'm sorry" He was trying his best to comfort her but she looked devastated
"And they made you tell me, didn't they?" She accused "What have I done to offend them? Piss them off!" she shouted, Spike had never heard her shout before, it scared him somewhat.
"Nothing, Lou don't take it personally you know" Spike took her arm again she was shaking with rage "I don't think magic is your answer to your problems, neither is Sunnydale"
"You think I should leave?" She was getting close to tears, he didn't want her to stay, didn't even like her, why was his holding her arm if he was just like the others, a user?
"Maybe, they do appreciate your help. It was good timing you coming here, helping out when Buffy was still getting over her issues of coming back, your strong and clever and your help will always be needed but Louise if your looking for friends in these people you won't find them, their a close knit group, been though so much you couldn't possibly understand" Spike explained, he didn't mean any of what he said in an evil way which was ironic consider his nature but he thought she needed to be told some home truths for her own benefit
"I know Spike, I'm not naïve, dumb, I know they use me but being here, it's the only time I've ever done anything good in the past 6 months. I'm scared to leave, the outside world it's scarier than the Hellmouth" She revealed, still he touched her arm, she wasn't scared to leave she was scared of never seeing him again. He may be eternal but she wasn't, just a human "Anyway you still stay, and your not their friends"
Spike let go of her hand, she had calmed "Yeah but you know I'm in love with Buffy, its no big secret"
Louise's face fell, she knew he liked Buffy but in love with her? What fucking chance now, he could have her, she didn't mind if he was a vampire, she needed him so much. In the space of fourteen days she had fallen in love with him, completely in love with him, a vampire named Spike, a creature without a soul, she loved him like she known him for a lot longer.
"I know" She conceded looking at his face, why couldn't she have him? "I think I still stay you know"
"If you want" Spike turned away
"Where you off too?" she asked
"Find Buffy" He called as he swaggered off leaving her to allow tears to roll down her face.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of Buffy [and those of Angel who appear later on in this story] the mighty Joss Whedon does. Plus I don't own any of the song lyrics used throughout this story.
Rated: R for swearing and sexual content. M/F
Summary: Set early Season 6 of Buffy and early season 3 Angel (but in no way connected to later events of both the series) A new woman comes to Sunnydale and reluctantly helps the Scooby's out, Spike can't help but feel a connection with her....
Genre: Angst
Feedback: Please review, good or bad, tell me. Email me at musictosellyoursoulfor@yahoo.co.uk
Chapter Two - What Will You Say
'Don't worry about it Lou, it will be fine, we can handle it' He had said yet there she was now wandering the streets at 3am, alone, as always but not scared, never scared. She wished her social skills were better that she wasn't such a stupid cow, who seemed to offend people because of her inability to speak to anyone. It's hard though, to speak to people, start conversations because the usual things are asked like 'Where do you come from?' Answer; don't know 'What's your family like?' Answer no idea 'How old are you?' Twenty something, maybe. 'What do you do?' Answer, anything, money needed anything ' Where do you live?' Answer alone, in some shit apartment you've rented 'Your friends what are they like? Answer I wish I knew if I ever had friends, because I certainty don't now.'
Those would be her replies, she knew nothing other than her name. Can you really wake up one day and forget everything? Wake up in a park in Detroit knowing nothing? She went to the police, asked them to help, they tried but her name was on no databases, no national security number, and no nothing. And she figured she must have been homeless or something, she owned no house, rented no place, had no job. How could she possibly no have a job? And family and friends? If she had gone missing they would had searched surely?
So many questions, so many gaps, many searches for answers, methods to help her remember like hypnotism or therapy but nothing. Not even a bankcard, yet money in her pocket when she had awoken, over $2000, not small change. Yet she wasn't mugged by anyone, how? And Sunnydale, why did she go there? How when she travelled across the states that when she was confronted by vampires, that never fazed her, like that was normal?
"You don't like taking my advice do you" He asked from behind her
"It wasn't advice" She mumbled turning, his skin so pale and perfect "You said you didn't need me but doesn't stop me from walking around myself"
He gave her such a bewildered look; she looked pissed off at him, angry, sadness in her face as well. Dressed in her normal denim jacket, her faded jeans, tight fitting vest top, always the same, yet always amazed him. She was about 5ft 9, and slim, yeah slim. Not sexy though, no way. Spike looked her over again, there was nothing special about her, Buffy was special, Anya, Willow, Tara as well, one day Dawn when she grew up, all naturally good looking, Louise wasn't. Never paid attention to her appearance.
"Mumbling like your style Lou, see you progressing from muttering to mumbles, hey by next week you might actually say something people can hear" He responded
"Thanks a bunch Spike" She turned on him, so he decided to start on her has he? Great, great, great, seeing him usually made her happy, made her feel like maybe she would find a friend, but obviously she misjudged Spike.
"Hey calm down, no offence was meant" Spike called and caught her up grabbing her arm. Shit she was pissed at him, her eyes glowered, he hadn't even seen that amount of menace ever, not even in Buffy's eyes.
"Yeah well, you have offended me" She whispered softly, her eyes lowered their daggers and she stopped walking, standing there staring at the floor.
"It was a joke, sorry" Spike meant it as well, she wasn't having a great time in her life at the moment, he didn't know everything but losing your memory must be pretty hard to deal with.
"Where's Buffy?" She quizzed eyes fixed on her battered trainers
"She went off to tell Giles about our exiting new discovery" Spike mocked. He was pissed that Buffy didn't want him around for the rest of the night, really pissed.
"What was that?" Louise replied, the smell of his cigarettes was strong on his clothes, she could smell them, it made her crave one, but no not really a cigarette but him, his skin, his lips, his everything.
"Some demon coven thing, really boring" Spike laughed "No doubt the watcher will go crazy for it"
"Hmm" Louise responded looking at him, Spike was doing his usual thing of standing like a rockstar, a sex god, a Greek god, just plain God the way he made her feel at times. His tight black t-shirt was showing of his well- muscled chest, this was not doing her any favours.
Spike burst out laughing "Yeah hmm, my feelings exactly Lou, you have a way with words, no offence"
"None taken" She attempted to smile at him in a seductive way, trying to show him he could have her now in this alleyway if he wanted, she would be his in an instant. It failed, she just ended up blushing.
"So what you up to?" He commented, really hanging around in alleyways was his job not for such a naïve girl like her.
"Nothing, I'm bored, thought I walk" She truthfully replied
"Aren't you cold?" It was after all autumn, she should be freezing in her denim jacket.
"No, I don't feel the cold" She explained
"Fair enough, look Lou about the spell" He began, Buffy had asked him to talk to Louise about how Tara and Willow were reluctant to find a spell for Louise
"Yeah?" Louise perked up, had he heard anything that could help her?
"Its not safe, you know, what you want them to find. Spells which control, alter the mind can do serious damage." Spike wished it wasn't him telling her the bad news; really the others had got away with this one.
"I know but I've tried everything else" She admitted "Its my only hope" her eyes were pleading to him, such pain in them.
"It won't work, the Wicca's they found a few spells but, its only for short term memory lost, yours well you can't remember anything, it won't work, I'm sorry" He was trying his best to comfort her but she looked devastated
"And they made you tell me, didn't they?" She accused "What have I done to offend them? Piss them off!" she shouted, Spike had never heard her shout before, it scared him somewhat.
"Nothing, Lou don't take it personally you know" Spike took her arm again she was shaking with rage "I don't think magic is your answer to your problems, neither is Sunnydale"
"You think I should leave?" She was getting close to tears, he didn't want her to stay, didn't even like her, why was his holding her arm if he was just like the others, a user?
"Maybe, they do appreciate your help. It was good timing you coming here, helping out when Buffy was still getting over her issues of coming back, your strong and clever and your help will always be needed but Louise if your looking for friends in these people you won't find them, their a close knit group, been though so much you couldn't possibly understand" Spike explained, he didn't mean any of what he said in an evil way which was ironic consider his nature but he thought she needed to be told some home truths for her own benefit
"I know Spike, I'm not naïve, dumb, I know they use me but being here, it's the only time I've ever done anything good in the past 6 months. I'm scared to leave, the outside world it's scarier than the Hellmouth" She revealed, still he touched her arm, she wasn't scared to leave she was scared of never seeing him again. He may be eternal but she wasn't, just a human "Anyway you still stay, and your not their friends"
Spike let go of her hand, she had calmed "Yeah but you know I'm in love with Buffy, its no big secret"
Louise's face fell, she knew he liked Buffy but in love with her? What fucking chance now, he could have her, she didn't mind if he was a vampire, she needed him so much. In the space of fourteen days she had fallen in love with him, completely in love with him, a vampire named Spike, a creature without a soul, she loved him like she known him for a lot longer.
"I know" She conceded looking at his face, why couldn't she have him? "I think I still stay you know"
"If you want" Spike turned away
"Where you off too?" she asked
"Find Buffy" He called as he swaggered off leaving her to allow tears to roll down her face.