Yuna- Unprecedented Love
I ran to you as soon as I saw you fall. I do not know why, not really. All I know it that I had to blink back the tears when you gasped "Would you pity me now, Yuna?"
I would pity you. I would cry for you. Dear Seymour, I believed in you, but you betrayed me. You betrayed all of us.
I remember how you proposed to me. You whispered in my ear "You have my heart; may I have your hand?" It was so genteel, so organised… just like you, Seymour. I doubt you have ever been impulsive. That is why I believe I care for Tidus so. He is… a breath of fresh air to me. For all of us.
"You have my heart; may I have your hand?"
I was so shocked. I had admired you, yes, but to even think you would think of me that way… it was too much. I was speechless. But I knew the answer I would give right away. I would say yes, despite of any feeling I might have for Tidus. He was not for me, I knew that. He was from a different world; one where people are not so bogged down in hatred, not so weak from fighting. You were everything I had hoped for as a young woman; kind, genteel, handsome, and devoted, a true follower of Yevon…
Or so I thought.
I cannot deny my shock when Lord Jyscal appeared from the Farplane. As I watched the Sphere he left any affection I felt for you turned to hatred. How could you do it? Kill your own father in cold blood? It made me fear for my own safety; if you could kill your father with such ease, then what of you wife? I cried when I learned of the truth. But I knew what I had to do. I would marry you, and I would kill you.
It sounds so cruel when I say it so bluntly, but I honestly thought I could do it. Or maybe I thought I could reason with you, change you. Make you see the error of your ways…
When I met you at the temple, you could sense I knew something. I told you my answer, and you simply said. "Very well." You accompanied me through the cloister of trials, talking to me of the big day. It saddened me to think that even though you knew of my feelings, even though you could sense that I knew about your father, you still stood by me, acted as if none of it mattered. I believed then that you cared for me. And I believe at that moment I loved you too.
As I prayed for Shiva my thoughts were constant… constantly of you, that is. I had now abandoned my plan of killing you. I thought I could change you, we could be happy together, for eternity… you could be the Zaon to my Yunalesca.
As I emerged from the Fayth, I was shocked to see them standing there with you- Tidus, Lulu, Wakka, Kimahri, Rikku and Auron, all waiting for me. I thought I'd left them… I thought they'd understand. Then you said something… something terrible. When Auron accused you of killing your father you simply said "What of it?"
What of it…
It shocked me to the very core. Any feelings I had had for you vanished into cold, unfeeling hatred… I decided then. I was going to kill you.
You fought valiantly for one so embittered and wrong. I felt nothing until…
Until you fell.
Then my eyes opened, my lips parted, and I finally realised what I'd done. I'd killed you. I'd killed the man I was going to marry.
"Will you pity me now, Yuna?"
I would pity you. I will mourn you.
And Love You.