Both- Believe

You are more beautiful than ever. You take my breath away as you walk down those steps. Hair up in Mythril clip, legs exposed as that dress sweeps over your perfect form… I almost want to cry. Why, you ask? Because I know you are here against your will. You don't love me and probably never will. I see the contempt and hatred in your eyes when you look at me and I want to cry. But I wont. I shan't. I have to be to be strong. I am doing this not for love, but to avenge my dearest mother, my dearest Behelkhia, the beautiful Belgemine, the brave Averus, the gentle Touka… maybe in a way myself. You cannot understand Yuna. The Guados all detested me; so few even looked on me as a person. The ones that did soon changed their minds…

I can feel nothing but hatred now, Seymour. I look at you and I see the man who ordered an attack on my ancestral Home, who destroyed the Al Bhed race, my race, and who killed thousands of innocent children... and why? What did they ever do to you? We are walking down the steps now. I do not need to kill you, just to send you. It is my sacred duty, is it not? Sending the dead? Then as a Maester of Yevon you will not object. All of a sudden, I hear a noise; I look up to see-

-They're here. Damn it, how did they get past Evrae? It doesn't matter any more. I grab your hand and take you away from the crossfire- for some reason though I am dead my natural instinct is to protect your life. I think about it afterwards… if you were dead, we could be together for eternity…

The feeling of your spiny fingers entwining themselves round my wrist is enough to make me wretch… you only want to save me so you can take me to Zanarkand. But they're here now. They're going to save me, and you can't do anything about it. If you try to stop them they'll stop you, no doubt about it. I can hear Tidus scream my name, and it feels good. You hear that? it feels good. I'm going to end this once and for all…

I smile to hide the tears when you raise your staff. "You would play at marriage just for a chance to send me?" I manage to choke, looking deep into your hate-filled eyes. "Your resolve is admirable. All the more fitting to be my lovely wife."

I can't believe you just said that. We are not yet married, and won't be either. Everything you do enrages me further until I cannot bear it anymore. What happened to that genteel handsome maester I was so willing to embrace those months ago? I twirl the staff above my head, ready to send you, but I stop at Mika's voice-

I know you, Yuna. You would never risk the lives of your cohorts. Kinoc aims his gun right at the legendary Auron's head, and I see you pine. Oh, it hurts me to see you so sad Yuna… I wish you could understand. I only want you to fufil your destiny… don't you see? You… Yuna… Yunalesca. I would aid you in every way possible, believe me…

I drop my staff. By Yevon it was a difficult thing to do… but I did it. There. Your eyes look slightly strange as you evaluate my action. Yes, I love my friends enough to stop, Seymour. Does that surprise you? Have you ever cared for anyone but yourself before? "you are wise" you tell me, as you place your hands on my shoulders. I hear the frantic sounds of my friends as you place your lips on mine.

Sweet ecstasy… your lips are softer than I ever could have imagined. I ache for you… all I want to do is drag you further into my embrace. Finally I can feel the love which I have seen flourish around me, finally I am experiencing pure emotion… The sweet taste of you fills every part of me. I hear a soft moan escape your lips; could it be you are savouring this as much as me?

I let a small moan exit my mouth. I had not expected you to… my thoughts are a cacophony inside my head. Memories of your sweet smile, before it happened… I tense at the thought of it. No, I cannot do this. My feeling dissolve in a second. I love Tidus.

I feel you tense. It is as I feared… breaking away from the kiss, I let my rage take over me. Still in a calm voice, I utter "kill them". You look at me with utter distain, my dear Lady. What is it? didn't you believe me when I told you I would kill them? You have a nasty habit of not believing me, dear Lady Wife. With them out of the way, you will be able to accompany me to Zanarkand. After all, that is what I need you for, or so I believe…

Believe. I believe I can fly. Watch me as I back away Seymour. I know I am watching you. Your eyes… there is something in them… is that fear I see? I look at Tidus. He looks as if he is about to cry. I love him, and he loves me. Despite what we are, despite our differences. I cannot deny it anymore. Silently he nods at me. He knows what I must do…

I know what I must so. I must not cry, I cannot. Not again. Too many tears have been shed from my eyes… I try to reason with you, to make you see… "If you fall, you'll die" I say, calmly as I can as you back further away from me. I cannot bear it. I feel gall in my throat; you wouldn't, you couldn't…

Don't think I wont do it Seymour. A slight smile plays upon my lips as you signal for them to lower their weapons. Maybe you do care for me in some way at least… but it is too late, dear husband… venomously I wipe my mouth, trying to cleanse the flesh you befouled. It is over, and I back away into eternity… "I can fly. Believe".

"Yuna!" I hear the boy scream from behind me. My own throat is clenched, preventing me from crying the same. I look down and see as you start to summmon… you have a link with your aeons unlike any I have ever seen. Valefor rushes to your aid, and I know for now at least you are safe…

A soft thud is heard as I fall onto the breast of the beast. It is comforting to feel her under me… she is a true friend, but you could not understand companionship. I look up at you, knowing the brief exchange will be the last we share in this way.

I feel pure.

O.K, that was the last chapter, I swear! I had been toying with it for a while. And the last sentence, "I feel pure"- do you think it was Yuna or Seymour? Why not tell me in A REVIEW! Lol thanx and why not read Candle on the Water too? Lol xxx