a/n: first time I've ever done 1st person pov. wrote this in 25 minutes flat. short. not quite as disgustingly sappy as all my others. honestly I think it's one of my favorites. enjoy:

"you should be sleeping my love. tell me what you're dreaming of

I knew you were mine for the taking when I walked in the room

I knew you were mine for the taking, your eyes light up when I walk in the room"

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Bedroom Eyes

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I wonder…

I wonder as you move above me and our sweat mingles and little bursts of light keep firecracking in my mind because my eyes are shut so tight-

I wonder if it will always be this way. Callused hands over smooth skin and frantic, needy moans but never eye contact, never meeting your silver twilight depths with my own and this is what I said I wanted, what you claimed from me as yours and I let you, because to be possessed is… satisfying.

I'd gotten all the same answers to the same boring timeless questions until you came along and blew me away but answering for yourself-- flashing me glimmers of such a cruel star~jewel. And this way I don't have to deal with the whole demanding world, I can be owned and let you worry about all that, so in a sense it's an escape for me. I'll never tell you that.

It's not as if we talk much, anyway. Dirty words only go so far. Breathy sighs say so much more.

Shivers wrack your body and mine and we tumble about in our milky~black secret, not evil but pure and so unconventional and no one ever thinks of me as kinky except for you. But an unanticipated aspect of this relationship is… you know things about me no one else does. And of course it goes the other way round…

I can feel your body coil and tense and I too spiral into lovely lovely heaven…

Ragged breathing echoing in my ears. Strands of hair, soft and wet, tickle my cheek and I finally realize just how strongly we are holding one another under the thin blanket and I wonder at this, too. Bodies pressed seamlessly and I can't tell where I stop and you begin. Rather frightening, actually, to feel so very close and connected to you in the afterglow.

Will it always be this way?
You shift, and sigh, but do not scramble away as usual and I think our activities have thoroughly worn you out this time. Seconds tick by and amazingly you are still here. I think I like it...

Do I want it to always be this way?

I swallow, then so slowly, I open my eyes to the dim light and...

You are looking straight back, heavy lidded, clouded in satiation, dark as a thunderhead. Stars in the center. Blink. Your hand on my face as we study each other. Suddenly the feel of skin on skin has never been more delicious. I don't even remember falling asleep but I will always remember waking up.

You are still here, draped over me, and now I think I have somehow claimed my own star~jewel tonight.

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"sweat it all out sweat it all out with your bedroom eyes and your baby pout. sweat it all out in our electric storms and our shifting sands and our candy jars and our sticky hands...

and don't forget what I wrote you then and don't forget what I told you then and don't forget that I meant to win..."

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Enjoyed? Despised? Review please! (the fic was inspired by "Hammering in my head" by Garbage, which are the lyrics at the beginning and end)

~RainShadow