Disclaimer : Mankin? Nope, not mine. Story? Yep! And the lyric's from Somewhere I Belong by L.P
Author's note: Remember what I told ya before!! Not all good people ARE good inside!! SO please be careful when you read this fic!!! Cos I make the good becomes bad and of course the opposite too… (_) Or in the other words, heavy OOC-ness around! Thanks for Unmei-san, CTR-san, Rally-san, Unpredictable.I-san, Sweet Anime Fan-san (sorry, I'm confusing you ^-^;) and Kitsune-san. And…no, I don't know where I should put this fic (_) Please tell me is it PG-13 or R cos, yanno, when I read the rule, it said PG-13 -- Nudity absent…so…help me out…*teary eyes*
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I get lost in the nothingness inside me
I was confusedAnd I let it all out to find that I'm not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
When all that they can see the words within is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
I was confused
Looking everywhere, only to find that it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I?
What do I have, but negativity coz I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me
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=DRIIIIING=
Stupid alarm clock…
"Yoh, you sleepyhead, rise and shine!!" Anna yelled, taking off my blanket that was curling me all night long.
"…Shaddup…today's Sunday and it's only 8 in the morning…" I grabbed my blanket from her and pulled it over my head.
I tried to go back to the land of dreams, but couldn't, for her frame had placed on top of mine, only parted by the blanket, waking me up completely.
"…Err…Anna…don't you think it's too early?" I spoke in a soft voice.
"…Morning, sluggard" she smiled and got up from her position.
I was speechless. Damn man, she's just too hard to be beaten!! It feels like I'm the king of loser in front of her…
((Bad Conscience: Show her!))
((Good Conscience: It's still morning, Yoh))
Oh no, not you two AGAIN!!
((B.C: Don't say it like I'm a devil…))
((G.C: Ahem!))
(B.C: Oh right! I'm the bad side…sorry =P))
"Here goes the dreamy shaman…my God, Yoh, WAKE UP!!!" she hollered, shaking my body.
I switched my gaze from the ceiling to her then seized her by the hand and pulled her onto my chest.
"I am up", I murmured against her mouth, "and watch yer words, missy, I'm a little bit touchy today"
I let go of her and went to the bathroom, not knowing that her heart was full of questions.
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I wanna heal I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
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Walking…walking…walking…without no one besides me…dammit…know what? I just luv that word…dammit…
I was taking a walk in the park alone, trying to get attention from the world. But as usual, nobody hailed me instead of the ghosts. Is this what I suppose to receive after those nearly died battles?? After all the hard work I've done?? Being forgotten?? "Oi" I felt somebody patted my back so I turned my head. He's there, simply smiling. Stood next to him is his girlfriend, the long-blonde haired girl with a cold expression. "What's wrong with you, bro? You look awful…" he anxiously looked at me. "Oh, it's you…I thought it was…" I stopped. "…Someone who 'knows' you?" he grinned. I stared at him for seconds then exhaled noisily. "I hate it when you do that" I continued. "Hao", Marion cut the line, "I think I forgot to buy something". "Well, I'll be waiting here", he bent down a little and kissed her lips, "Don't take so long". "I won't" she bowed her head quickly while passing me and rushed away.
"So", he smiled again, "how've you been?". "Like a shit" I sat down on the bench near us. He walked to the vending machine at the side of the bench. "I see…" he said as he put some coins into it, "What d'ya want?". "No, thanks" I answered. "Alright then" he pushed a button then took the can and opened it. "And Anna? How's she?" he asked, drinking his juice. "Oh, that bitch? She's fine…" I perfunctory replied. He held the can strongly in his fist. The can was crushed and it's contain was spread all over the ground. He goggled at me. "What'chu say?" he uttered. Okay, NOW I think I just said something horrible, but, hey, who IS he, trying to tell that my words were inapt? "I SAID" I raised my voice "THAT BITCH'S FINE!". Out of the blue, he knocked me right on my jaw, causing it to bleed. "WHAT THE FUCK-?!" I roared. He grabbed my shirt and said silently, "Look, buster, if I hear you calling her like that again, I'ma kill you with my own hands!". "Why DON'T you kill me now, huh?!", I glared at him, "I'm sick of this life already!!". He scowled for a moment and threw me back to the bench. "Asshole" he continued. I wiped the blood as he sat down by me.
"Something tells me that you're a different Yoh" he observed me intently. "Don't piss me off", I hissed, "Even if I tell it to you, you won't understand". "Fool", he said with smile, "I was the Shaman King". I blinked, "…Yeah, you're right…how can I forget bout dat…". "Well…the problem is?" he lifted his eyebrows. I glanced at him and decided to tell him the truth. After all, he's my brother.
"I don't like this", I explained, "I fought really hard just to be the king but what do I get now?! No fucking things!! Nobody ever comes and greets me and says 'Hey, you're the king!! What a pleasure to meet you!!' or 'My goodness, you're the savior!!' or at any rate congratulates me!! Hello ~ ~ I almost died back then!! I know it sounds egoistic but I WANT AN ALTERATION!! I'm tired for being a lousy and keeping that I-don't-care attitude in me!! Just who the hell am I?! Angel?! Nu-uh!! I'm a young boy full with emotions inside who's hoping that something will change my entirely boring life and, BAM, I got it!! Being the king is my chance!! H-O-W-E-V-E-R, it seems that NOBODY give a damn!! They're all still treating me as a dork!! They think I'm still the ol' Yoh!! They just don't see my REAL SIDE!! But I guess if I DO show it up, they'll all think that I'm sick and say 'Come, come, Yoh, this is not you, what've happened?' as if they know my TRUE FEELINGS!! AND IT'S WEIRDER COS I'M TELLING ALL THESE SILLY THINGS TO MY OLD ENEMY NOT TO MY FRIENDS OR EVEN ANNA!!!" By the time I finished my line, I panted.
"…O…kay, calm down, start breathin…", he told me, "…err…if I'm not wrong, you want all the people in the world regard you as their leader?". I nodded and went in to a huff. Somehow he started to laugh, breaking the silence that was remained between us. "What's so funny?!" I asked. "Sorry", he said between laughs, "I'm just thinking that this whole things are unbelievable". He laughed even more loudly. "Cut IT out!!" I yelled, "What're ya laughing at?!" He finally soothed. "Listen, Yoh", he said with chuckle, "don't you feel like our inner sides have changed one another??" I fell silent for a while. "What?" I continued. "Yanno…when I heard it, I saw you as you were me from the past. Can't you recognize that?", he smirked, "Find that you are me and I am you now is bitingly funny". After I could manage my shock, I asked, "But how-?". "Piece of cake", he uttered, "I DID thought bout those things too. I wanted to annihilate all humans so shamans could take control of this earth, that's the clicheé. But the truth is I wanted to annihilate them because they'd turned me down. They treated shamans, especially me, badly, as we're evils or something like that. I couldn't afford it so I tried to destroy them all since I was the Shaman King. In your case, you despise BOTH humans and shamans cos they still think that you're as pathetic as you were". "Uh huh…" I mumbled. "Well…what I'm trying to say is…", he clarified, "You are such a selfish dumb who needs to be sorry for". I sighed deeply as my response.
He touched my shoulder and serenely said, "You don't need to go the same route that I went, Yoh. Been there, done that, fuck it".(a/n: okay…maybe some of you realize where this sentence from…yep it's from Guilty Conscience – Eminem). I didn't say anything to him. "Sorry I'm late!" Marion shouted as she ran toward us. Hao welcomed her with a smile. I stood up and walked away from them. "Yoh," he called, "is it okay if I leave you alone? I don't want something unexpected happens if-". "I'm all right", I broke off his words, "See ya". I turned my back on them once more, but before I could go further, he gave me a pat on the head, "Take care". And he left me there.
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I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel, anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, and find myself today
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It's very difficult to show Yoh and Hao's other sides…oh God. Btw, this is, yep, YohxAnna and HaoxMari, yep, yep, yep; I love those couples, oh yep, yep, yep!! (^_-) R+R plizzz!!! Sialan, otak gua stuck nieh!!!