Day Three
I woke up the next morning feeling like dirt. I had had that dream again where I was in the shopping mall and this woman was holding my hand, only I was smaller this time....She kept looking down at me but I still couldn't see her face. I shook the memory away and rubbed my eyes tiredly yawning. Rocky was already out of bed and taking a shower so I figured I'd just look for what I planned on wearing today.
Grunting slightly, I pulled myself out of bed and took a while to stand up all together. I don't wanna spend my whole day thinking about nothing so I have to distract myself somehow. "Tum Tum don't shake those, they aren't yours." I heard Mom saying from what sounded like the kitchen.
"Aaaw come on Mom, if I can't shake my own presents, I should at least be able to shake other peoples." Tum whined, and I heard 'Lissa's laughter fill the room. I didn't know she got up so early, it must be an instructor thing you're body's too used to it so you keep on getting up early and actually if it weren't for my dream I would have slept clear to nine o'clock myself.
The shower water stopped and I could hear the shuffle of Rock's feet so I figured I might as well shower myself, "Hhhhhh." I sighed heavily standing up then went over to the dresser to get my boxers and things. A few minutes later Rocky was walking out of the bathroom drying his hair that was still a little wet and still a little long for his usual taste, Mom will probably have a cow haha. "Hey Colt." He said casually while leaving the room. "Hey, did you leave me any hot water?" I called after him and he waved a hand over his head.
This was another personal joke of mine because Rocky keeps his water on like breath warm where as I turn the thing on as hot as I can get it. So I would always ask him if he left me any hot water and still I got the same response. A hand over the head as a 'whatever.' You had to be there. "What would you like for breakfast sweety?" I heard Mom asking Rocky and I smiled to myself. I can't wait to see her face on Christmas when she sees that I got her that foot massajer she's always wanted. Well bath time.
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"Good morning, Colt." Mom said as I walked into the kicthen with everyone else, she started making my plate but I walked over and stopped her. "I'll do it Mom you just sit down and have yourself a hot breakfast for once." I stated. "Well aren't you sweet today." She commented giving me a kiss on the cheek then went to sit down with everyone else at the table.
I fixed my plate and went over to the table taking a seat beside 'Lissa who smiled a 'good morning' to me. "Did you all sleep well last night?" Mom asked and we nodded. "You won't believe the dream I had," Tum started saying as Dad walked in kissing Mom on the cheek and going to the cabinet for a plate. "I was a real race car driver and I was going like a million miles an hour I was so fast I nearly passed myself and then..." As Tum tum went on I watched as our Dad sat down and something just struck me to look at them.
I strared so hard I could have made out their skin patterns. My hand absently wondered up to my face again touching my cheek noticing that neither of them have anything there. I looked over Rocky then Tum and saw they had so many similarities that I don't. Like Tum Tum he looks like Mom by far same with Rocky and Dad, but me.....who do I look like the most?
It wasn't until I heard Mom saying something about my hair that I snapped out of it. "It's so long sweety, didn't you ever get around to cutting it?" She asked and I laughed slightly. I hadn't exactly told my parents that I wanted to be a rock star yet so the new ponytail might have come off as a shock to them. "No Mom, I wanna wear it this long, I've been singing at college with a band I got together with and everything is going great we get gigs all the time."
"No son of mine is gonna drop out of school to become some rock star...do you know how risky that business is?" Dad was trying to make a point by waving his butter knife in my direction while smearing the butter across his toast. "Cool your jets Dad, I'm not dropping out of school for this or anything and the gigs are at school, mmmrrrph."
I felt Rocky kick me under the table and I shot a look at him for it; the truth is I really had planned on leaving school to have more free time to start the band out right and it wouldn't be long before we hit big I just know it, and Rocky is the only other person who knows this information so he'd better not spoil it until I can find a better time to tell them about it.
"Colt's hair wasn't always long?" Neilissa asked and Mom shook her head. "I have so many pictures if you'd like to see them?" "I'd love to." Replied 'Lissa with a smile that said 'there's nothing like embarrassing baby pictures'. "Great, let me clean this up and I'll go get them." Mom stood from her seat and grabbed her plate. "I'll help you." 'Lissa said grabbing her own and Rock's.
"Aaaww Mom, don't show them that one of me on the toilet." Tum complained at the thought of a stranger seeing his personals even by a picture that young; get this right, Tum tum is like three years old and sitting on a pottie chair then Mom comes in says she can't believe he's finally using it and takes his picture- embarrassing- thank God it wasn't me though.
"Now now sweety that picture was very cute," She explained on her way into the living room with Neilissa right behind her. I decided that I should definitly go and see the pictures with them I may find just what I'm looking for aside from that some really embarrassing pictures of my brothers that I can frame them with for years to come haha.
"Aaaww how cuuute." Was the first thing 'Lissa said when the box was opened. I walked into the living room and took a seat near her on the couch. "Even as a kid you had long hair." She said smiling down at what looked like a nine years old me. "Well at least my goofy looking bangs are gone haha." I commented. "Aaand here's one of Rocky." Mom said handing another picture over to my ex-instructor. "Beautiful eyes," She commented.
Every girl thinks Rocky has beautiful eyes some of them call the cut of them Dinosuar and others say it's a cats cut but they just look like eyes to me. Every girl loves my smile and dimples which is kind of embarrassing to know but who am I to complain and everyone loves Tum Tum cause he's a kid and he's adorible but to a kid I guess he'd be someone to concider. "Aand here are their baby pictures." 'Lissa took four pictures and we all gathered around her and looked at them.
"Cool, I was even a gorgeous baby." Tum said taking the picture and staring himself down happily. "I love babies, they're so cute." 'Lissa said flipping a picture over as though she were checking for a name because she couldn't tell us apart. "Where's mine?" I asked and Mom raised an eye brow and pointed to a picture in 'Lissa's hand. "There you are sweety."
"No it's not." I replied casually, "See," I pointed to the bracelet on the arm. "April 17, that's Rocky." She seemed a little shocked by this and looked through the pictures in my ex-instructors hands but came up blank. "Well look at that. You know I have no ide- Oh you know what, you're Grandfather, he has them." She tried to explain. "Grandpa?" I asked rather mildly not believing her answer which sounded more like a cover story.
"You looked so much like him when you were a baby he wanted some copies, that's all." I looked my Mother's face over to see if she were lying. "Why are you staring at me like that?" She asked with a laugh. "I gave him the main copy so that he could have it done, I was too busy raising you to worry about pictures, honey he said he would return it to me and he just never got around to it, that's all." I guess that makes sense. I looked through the box of pictures and saw so many of myself in there, a whole lot but I noticed something about the dates on the back.
'None of these are dated lower than 5 years of age...What could that mean?' I wondered. "Well I don't know if you kids have noticed but I haven't decorated the tree yet, wanna help me? We can go pick up some new bulbs at the store, how's that sound?" Mom asked. "All right, can I get a present for Corey too?" Tum asked. "Sure, honey, but a small toy and from your own money."
"Aw man." Tum tum ran upstairs and to grab his money and Rocky grabbed his jacket from the closet under the stairs.
"You coming Colt, you love shopping, we'll make a day of it." Mom asked and Dad walked in from the kitchen and gave Mom another kiss. "I have to go into the office I'll be back at lunch." Mom nodding and he walked out the door waving saying, "Bye kids."
"Bye Da-..." But I kind of trailed off and looked at Mom. "I can't go Mom, I kinda need to take care of some things first, you know old hang outs I gotta see whose still around." She ran her hand over my cheek with a meak smile and took her coat from Rocky. "Come on Tum tum, Neilissa would you like to come with us." She asked.
"Oh no, I still haven't unpacked and I have to take something to the post office." She then added. "If you don't mind my staying?"
"Not at all, we'll see you guys in a bit- Tum Tum come on!" Mom called into the air and then my little brother came running out of his room pocketing some bills. "Ready."
"Okay," She turned to me saying. "We'll be back in a few hours, don't get into too much trouble all right?" I had to laugh at that one. "Mom I'm older now, I don't get into trouble that's for kids, you can trust me."
She smiled and made a fist at me, then they all walked out of the door. Mom and her family. I looked down a second scolding myself for thinking something like that but I couldn't help it, this picture thing doesn't add up. "What's wrong, Jeffrey?" 'Lissa asked out of nowhere; she's a little too good with reading faces I think, but all I did was turn around and plaster on a fake smile lying. "Nothing, nothing's wrong."
"That's an obvious lie, and believe me I've heard them all, so spit it out." She looked me so deeply in the eyes I couldn't lie, and maybe she could help me I have to tell her the whole truth. "Okay, it's like this have you eveerrr- you know felt like you didn't belong in your family?" She laughed a little at that one and waved a hand to dismiss it. "I have, many times actually."
"Than you know what I'm talking about." I sat down beside her and picked up my pictures. "You see this?" I asked and she looked at it nodding.
"What about it?" She asked.
"Look at the back." I pointed out and she flipped it over. "None of these are dated before 1984." She looked blank on that one. "Think 'Liss'...Why aren't any of my pictures dated before I was five years old?" Neilissa looked as though she were thinking it over but she just shrugged handing the pictures back. "I really don't know."
"Maybe this will help you understand...." Reaching into my back pocket I handed her the flyer from the store. "Five year old missing at Arizona- Oh Colt, you don't honestly think this is you?" She asked.
"Well make me feel stupid already," Saying in offense and she shook her head.
"I'm sorry, but I just don't know where you'd get such a crazy idea..." My shoulders sagged in defeat and I just looked away wondering what I could possibly say to explain things. "'Lissa....please listen to this." I could tell I already had her attention so I went on explaining my situation. "Okay listen, when we stopped at that gas station the other day I went back in to get Rock's milk and that's when I saw this flyer with the kid, and I think this kid is me......."
She just shook her head not wanting to believe me, but why? "I've been having these re-occuring dreams every night now. I've been trying not to but they keep coming back and it's getting to me, the first night was right before we left to come here and that's when I saw this the next dream was a little different but they all keep pointing to the same thing....I'm not Mom and Dad's kid."
"Say you are right, what then?" She asked me and I froze metally.
"I hadn't thought of that yet...I just keep hoping its not true."
"Then why push the subject?" 'Lissa asked logically.
"Because, don't I deserve to at least know the truth about myself?" I was beginning to shout now and I didn't want to. "Calm down please, you don't need to work up a head ache." 'Lissa said to me and I frowned in defeat shrinking back onto the couch. "I need your help." I said quietly.
"What do you need me to do?" She asked.
"I don't know, I guess-...I guess I need you to help me solve this thing, help me find my real parents or give me proof that these parents really are mine."
She was quietly thinking it over then she turned to me looking very serious before saying. "If I help you and you find the truth, no matter which one it may be, please don't hurt your family...they love you Colt this is just between the two of us for right now okay?" I had to agree to her terms because I needed her help I needed her to give me a ride...to Arizona.
I woke up the next morning feeling like dirt. I had had that dream again where I was in the shopping mall and this woman was holding my hand, only I was smaller this time....She kept looking down at me but I still couldn't see her face. I shook the memory away and rubbed my eyes tiredly yawning. Rocky was already out of bed and taking a shower so I figured I'd just look for what I planned on wearing today.
Grunting slightly, I pulled myself out of bed and took a while to stand up all together. I don't wanna spend my whole day thinking about nothing so I have to distract myself somehow. "Tum Tum don't shake those, they aren't yours." I heard Mom saying from what sounded like the kitchen.
"Aaaw come on Mom, if I can't shake my own presents, I should at least be able to shake other peoples." Tum whined, and I heard 'Lissa's laughter fill the room. I didn't know she got up so early, it must be an instructor thing you're body's too used to it so you keep on getting up early and actually if it weren't for my dream I would have slept clear to nine o'clock myself.
The shower water stopped and I could hear the shuffle of Rock's feet so I figured I might as well shower myself, "Hhhhhh." I sighed heavily standing up then went over to the dresser to get my boxers and things. A few minutes later Rocky was walking out of the bathroom drying his hair that was still a little wet and still a little long for his usual taste, Mom will probably have a cow haha. "Hey Colt." He said casually while leaving the room. "Hey, did you leave me any hot water?" I called after him and he waved a hand over his head.
This was another personal joke of mine because Rocky keeps his water on like breath warm where as I turn the thing on as hot as I can get it. So I would always ask him if he left me any hot water and still I got the same response. A hand over the head as a 'whatever.' You had to be there. "What would you like for breakfast sweety?" I heard Mom asking Rocky and I smiled to myself. I can't wait to see her face on Christmas when she sees that I got her that foot massajer she's always wanted. Well bath time.
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"Good morning, Colt." Mom said as I walked into the kicthen with everyone else, she started making my plate but I walked over and stopped her. "I'll do it Mom you just sit down and have yourself a hot breakfast for once." I stated. "Well aren't you sweet today." She commented giving me a kiss on the cheek then went to sit down with everyone else at the table.
I fixed my plate and went over to the table taking a seat beside 'Lissa who smiled a 'good morning' to me. "Did you all sleep well last night?" Mom asked and we nodded. "You won't believe the dream I had," Tum started saying as Dad walked in kissing Mom on the cheek and going to the cabinet for a plate. "I was a real race car driver and I was going like a million miles an hour I was so fast I nearly passed myself and then..." As Tum tum went on I watched as our Dad sat down and something just struck me to look at them.
I strared so hard I could have made out their skin patterns. My hand absently wondered up to my face again touching my cheek noticing that neither of them have anything there. I looked over Rocky then Tum and saw they had so many similarities that I don't. Like Tum Tum he looks like Mom by far same with Rocky and Dad, but me.....who do I look like the most?
It wasn't until I heard Mom saying something about my hair that I snapped out of it. "It's so long sweety, didn't you ever get around to cutting it?" She asked and I laughed slightly. I hadn't exactly told my parents that I wanted to be a rock star yet so the new ponytail might have come off as a shock to them. "No Mom, I wanna wear it this long, I've been singing at college with a band I got together with and everything is going great we get gigs all the time."
"No son of mine is gonna drop out of school to become some rock star...do you know how risky that business is?" Dad was trying to make a point by waving his butter knife in my direction while smearing the butter across his toast. "Cool your jets Dad, I'm not dropping out of school for this or anything and the gigs are at school, mmmrrrph."
I felt Rocky kick me under the table and I shot a look at him for it; the truth is I really had planned on leaving school to have more free time to start the band out right and it wouldn't be long before we hit big I just know it, and Rocky is the only other person who knows this information so he'd better not spoil it until I can find a better time to tell them about it.
"Colt's hair wasn't always long?" Neilissa asked and Mom shook her head. "I have so many pictures if you'd like to see them?" "I'd love to." Replied 'Lissa with a smile that said 'there's nothing like embarrassing baby pictures'. "Great, let me clean this up and I'll go get them." Mom stood from her seat and grabbed her plate. "I'll help you." 'Lissa said grabbing her own and Rock's.
"Aaaww Mom, don't show them that one of me on the toilet." Tum complained at the thought of a stranger seeing his personals even by a picture that young; get this right, Tum tum is like three years old and sitting on a pottie chair then Mom comes in says she can't believe he's finally using it and takes his picture- embarrassing- thank God it wasn't me though.
"Now now sweety that picture was very cute," She explained on her way into the living room with Neilissa right behind her. I decided that I should definitly go and see the pictures with them I may find just what I'm looking for aside from that some really embarrassing pictures of my brothers that I can frame them with for years to come haha.
"Aaaww how cuuute." Was the first thing 'Lissa said when the box was opened. I walked into the living room and took a seat near her on the couch. "Even as a kid you had long hair." She said smiling down at what looked like a nine years old me. "Well at least my goofy looking bangs are gone haha." I commented. "Aaand here's one of Rocky." Mom said handing another picture over to my ex-instructor. "Beautiful eyes," She commented.
Every girl thinks Rocky has beautiful eyes some of them call the cut of them Dinosuar and others say it's a cats cut but they just look like eyes to me. Every girl loves my smile and dimples which is kind of embarrassing to know but who am I to complain and everyone loves Tum Tum cause he's a kid and he's adorible but to a kid I guess he'd be someone to concider. "Aand here are their baby pictures." 'Lissa took four pictures and we all gathered around her and looked at them.
"Cool, I was even a gorgeous baby." Tum said taking the picture and staring himself down happily. "I love babies, they're so cute." 'Lissa said flipping a picture over as though she were checking for a name because she couldn't tell us apart. "Where's mine?" I asked and Mom raised an eye brow and pointed to a picture in 'Lissa's hand. "There you are sweety."
"No it's not." I replied casually, "See," I pointed to the bracelet on the arm. "April 17, that's Rocky." She seemed a little shocked by this and looked through the pictures in my ex-instructors hands but came up blank. "Well look at that. You know I have no ide- Oh you know what, you're Grandfather, he has them." She tried to explain. "Grandpa?" I asked rather mildly not believing her answer which sounded more like a cover story.
"You looked so much like him when you were a baby he wanted some copies, that's all." I looked my Mother's face over to see if she were lying. "Why are you staring at me like that?" She asked with a laugh. "I gave him the main copy so that he could have it done, I was too busy raising you to worry about pictures, honey he said he would return it to me and he just never got around to it, that's all." I guess that makes sense. I looked through the box of pictures and saw so many of myself in there, a whole lot but I noticed something about the dates on the back.
'None of these are dated lower than 5 years of age...What could that mean?' I wondered. "Well I don't know if you kids have noticed but I haven't decorated the tree yet, wanna help me? We can go pick up some new bulbs at the store, how's that sound?" Mom asked. "All right, can I get a present for Corey too?" Tum asked. "Sure, honey, but a small toy and from your own money."
"Aw man." Tum tum ran upstairs and to grab his money and Rocky grabbed his jacket from the closet under the stairs.
"You coming Colt, you love shopping, we'll make a day of it." Mom asked and Dad walked in from the kitchen and gave Mom another kiss. "I have to go into the office I'll be back at lunch." Mom nodding and he walked out the door waving saying, "Bye kids."
"Bye Da-..." But I kind of trailed off and looked at Mom. "I can't go Mom, I kinda need to take care of some things first, you know old hang outs I gotta see whose still around." She ran her hand over my cheek with a meak smile and took her coat from Rocky. "Come on Tum tum, Neilissa would you like to come with us." She asked.
"Oh no, I still haven't unpacked and I have to take something to the post office." She then added. "If you don't mind my staying?"
"Not at all, we'll see you guys in a bit- Tum Tum come on!" Mom called into the air and then my little brother came running out of his room pocketing some bills. "Ready."
"Okay," She turned to me saying. "We'll be back in a few hours, don't get into too much trouble all right?" I had to laugh at that one. "Mom I'm older now, I don't get into trouble that's for kids, you can trust me."
She smiled and made a fist at me, then they all walked out of the door. Mom and her family. I looked down a second scolding myself for thinking something like that but I couldn't help it, this picture thing doesn't add up. "What's wrong, Jeffrey?" 'Lissa asked out of nowhere; she's a little too good with reading faces I think, but all I did was turn around and plaster on a fake smile lying. "Nothing, nothing's wrong."
"That's an obvious lie, and believe me I've heard them all, so spit it out." She looked me so deeply in the eyes I couldn't lie, and maybe she could help me I have to tell her the whole truth. "Okay, it's like this have you eveerrr- you know felt like you didn't belong in your family?" She laughed a little at that one and waved a hand to dismiss it. "I have, many times actually."
"Than you know what I'm talking about." I sat down beside her and picked up my pictures. "You see this?" I asked and she looked at it nodding.
"What about it?" She asked.
"Look at the back." I pointed out and she flipped it over. "None of these are dated before 1984." She looked blank on that one. "Think 'Liss'...Why aren't any of my pictures dated before I was five years old?" Neilissa looked as though she were thinking it over but she just shrugged handing the pictures back. "I really don't know."
"Maybe this will help you understand...." Reaching into my back pocket I handed her the flyer from the store. "Five year old missing at Arizona- Oh Colt, you don't honestly think this is you?" She asked.
"Well make me feel stupid already," Saying in offense and she shook her head.
"I'm sorry, but I just don't know where you'd get such a crazy idea..." My shoulders sagged in defeat and I just looked away wondering what I could possibly say to explain things. "'Lissa....please listen to this." I could tell I already had her attention so I went on explaining my situation. "Okay listen, when we stopped at that gas station the other day I went back in to get Rock's milk and that's when I saw this flyer with the kid, and I think this kid is me......."
She just shook her head not wanting to believe me, but why? "I've been having these re-occuring dreams every night now. I've been trying not to but they keep coming back and it's getting to me, the first night was right before we left to come here and that's when I saw this the next dream was a little different but they all keep pointing to the same thing....I'm not Mom and Dad's kid."
"Say you are right, what then?" She asked me and I froze metally.
"I hadn't thought of that yet...I just keep hoping its not true."
"Then why push the subject?" 'Lissa asked logically.
"Because, don't I deserve to at least know the truth about myself?" I was beginning to shout now and I didn't want to. "Calm down please, you don't need to work up a head ache." 'Lissa said to me and I frowned in defeat shrinking back onto the couch. "I need your help." I said quietly.
"What do you need me to do?" She asked.
"I don't know, I guess-...I guess I need you to help me solve this thing, help me find my real parents or give me proof that these parents really are mine."
She was quietly thinking it over then she turned to me looking very serious before saying. "If I help you and you find the truth, no matter which one it may be, please don't hurt your family...they love you Colt this is just between the two of us for right now okay?" I had to agree to her terms because I needed her help I needed her to give me a ride...to Arizona.