Authors notes: Hi Kelly I didn't know your e-mail so this note is for you, I'm basing this fic on Those books they were always my favorite so I added my own things and used the idea. I'm glad you all like it another update will be coming soon if I'm not swamped with work again. Adios!
Day Six
We were all sitting down watching the Moulan Rouge, Rocky was trying to explain it to Tum Tum, Grandpa seemed disinterested altogether, Mom and Dad were watching holding hands like they were the only people in the room and there I sat, pretending to play 21 with Neilissa. She dealt me a hand and tapped my foot with hers and I looked at her. 'What are you going to do?' She mouthed and I just let out a shakey breath and shrugged.
'Lissa rubbed my hand and put on a weak smile. "Oh I just love this part." Mom said as one of the songs picked up, and normally I'd be right along singing with her but I just couldn't. I wasn't feeling family bonding right now it would be too weird for me especially after what I'd seen today. A brief flash ran through my mind and I shook it away. Now wasn't the time to think of that because I didn't know how I was going to react to it.
"Is that John Leguizamo?" Tum asked for the eigth time tonight because apperantly no one had heard him the first times he asked it and I felt my lips moving saying 'Yes.' but nothing had come out, the next thing I knew 'Lissa tapped my shoulder and pointed to the kitchen where Grandpa had gone. I let out a breath and got up. "Now or never." I said lowly and patted her on the shoulder. "Wish me luck." She wrapped an arm around my waist and hugged my side, then I walked into the kitchen for a conversation that could change my life forever.
"....Um, Grandpa...?" I said when I was far enough into the kitchen for no one to hear me. "Oh hey Colt." Grandpa replied then looked at me and furrowed his eye brows. "Is there anything wrong, you look worn out?" I just kind of sat down and looked at him with a weird expression then sighed. How am I gonna say this. I know, the pictures! "Um...Do you remember when we were all babies?" I started hoping this wouldn't sound to obvious.
He seemed as though he were thinking it over then he smiled and said. "Yes I do, you were little brats." He laughed. We were little brats...Does that mean I was around when I was a baby because if it does then that means I wasn't taken after all! "Thanks Grandpa!" I nearly shouted jumping up and wrapping my arms around him. "What for?" He asked but hugged me back. "For, I don't know for remembering." I stammered like an overly excited puppy.
He laughed but let go of me and leaned against the counter as though I had knocked his balance so I slid an arm around his shoulders incase he needed some support. "I'm not that old." He said with a laugh and I smiled shaking my head. "I remember everything," He went on and started to think a little harder about something. "Rocky was such a pest when he was two getting into everything he possibly could, he was almost worse then Tum Tum," He laughed.
"What about me?" I asked and he seemed to think about that a minute. "Ha, believe it or not you were shy up until the age of seven- course I missed when you were born because I had gotten sick and couldn't come by."
A loop hole...."So you mean to tell me you never saw me as a baby?" Grandpa though that over a minute then nodded. "I can't really say." He said instead. "So that's why you took my baby pictures, because you didn't see me as a kid and you thought I looked like you when you finally did see them?"
"What?" He asked me. "What's with all the questions?" "I just wanna know a little bit about from when I was a kid that's all." Smooth Colt, real smooth.
"Well, I don't know who told you but I was never given any pictures of you from when you were a baby." A mirror just cracked in my mind and I tried, God how I tried not to let it show but every one always told me my life is in my eyes and sure enough Grandpa picked up on it. "What's the matter?" He asked and I just shook my head saying, "Nothing." Turning away from the whole situation I walked out of the kitchen and through the living room, to the stairs and into my room and I cried, silently, tearlessly.
It felt as though it were coming all the way from down in my toes but it wouldn't quite come out. My mind was telling me everything was right there- the truth, the whole lie, the whole story, what more could I want?.....To pretend it never happened....To go back to when we were just coming here only we wouldn't stop at that gas station and none of this would be going on- none of it.....But I can't deny that it is....Course, except for Neilissa no one else really knows that I know so things will be the same for the most part if I don't decide to bring it up, but what if things do change because if Grandpa knows he might tell Mom and Dad that I've been asking him questions about it then they'll act weird because they're be wondering if-...God! this is so stupid!
"Jeffrey? Honey what's the matter?" Mom called through the door. "N-nothing Mom, I just have car lag and I'm a little tired." I lied again. I can't keep doing this to myself I have to ask someone else but who else would remember me as a kid except for-...I couldn't ask Rocky because with him every question from you has one from him right behind it. But there's no one else Tum would have been too young to know or care.....Think, think, think.
"Would you like me to make you some soup then?" Mom still obviously standing at the door asked. "No! Just leave me alone okay?" It was right then that I'd wished I hadn'd said that- so much for keeping things quiet. The door opened and with it came Mom with her arms crossed over her chest. "Now what were you saying, young man." She asked sternly. I smiled weakly and gulped. "I'm sorry about that, you know how I am when I'm tired?" She just cocked her head at me and frowned.
"Jeffrey you could stay up til dawn and have a wonderful day so spill it, whats got you on edge?" I hated lying to her but I'd hate telling her the truth even more, what do you do in these kinds of situations? I had no other choice. "Mom, the truth is....I'm in love with 'Lissa and I don't know how to get her attention she just doesn't seem interested." Good save. "Aaaw honey, she was your instructor after all, maybe she just thinks there wouldn't be any chemistry between you two...but," She sat down beside me and placed an arm around my shoulders and suddenly her words were blurred and I saw this weird image infront of me.
I was sitting at a counter with an ice cream infront of me and some woman was there talking to me, asking me these weird questions that I could barely understand all I felt was want for that ice cream. "Oh my God." I muttered and Mom looked at me with question. "What?" She then asked and I just blinked. "It was so obvious the whole time." I was in my own world right then staring at the two people one me and one who I'm pretty sure was Mom and she just took me, right out of the mall without a care in the world.
Turning to look at her I wanted to scream and push her away but I controlled myself and just let out a sigh. "I know what to do now Mom, thanks for the help." I stated and she wrapped her arms around me squeezing me in a hug that I didn't participate in then she got up and walked out closing the door behind her. Right from the mall, with out a care that my real Mother would miss me, all she cared about was her own greedy need for a son.....I hate her- hate them both!
That would explain so many things, why Dad- Sam always gives me such a hard time, why Rocky clearly told me I stole his parents that summer we fought and, why Jessica babies me more than anyone else, she's just trying to prove how much she can love me so I would never miss my real family and hell I was so young I probably wiped the whole thing out of my mind until now....Those jerks. I got up to confront them- this was it but suddenly standing I felt a little sick again so I rushed to the bathroom and let my anxioty out into the toilet.
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I snuck downstairs to 'Lissa's room and hoped she was awake. "'Lissa?" I called down to her and shook her shoulder. "Hey 'Liss' you awake?" I shook her shoulder again then she rolled over and rubbed her eyes.
"Colt?" She said blankly and I nodded knowing it was too dark for her to have seen then I said. "Yeah, it's me, can we talk?" I asked and she opened the blanket sliding over. It was strange seeing that an old girl friend of mine used to do that exact same thing whenever I snuck over to her house at night.
"Is it about the conversation you had with your Grandfather?" She asked me in a voice that sounded as though she had been awake for hours rather than a few seconds. "Yeah, he said he didn't remember me any younger than five because he wasn't around, but I find it so hard to believe no one could be that busy right?" I asked her and she nodded saying, "I suppose."
Licking my lips I went on. "So then I asked about my baby pictures and he said he never got any or had any...doesn't that just sum it up for a person." I turned sideways and wrapped an arm around her then rubbed my face into her shoulder. "I don't understand, why would they take me?"
"I don't know." There was sadness in her voice and my own but something about hers was so sincere that I just nuzzled my face to hers then kissed her.
She seemed as though she were resisting it at first but then she kissed me back. This is what I need, this is exactly what'll get my mind off this whole mess and I was more than willing to go for it. Rolling over on her I pressed her closer into the matress with my weight and nibbled on her ear. "Jeffrey..." She said.
"Yes?" I breathed out kissing her again thinking we were going to get into some kind of kinky talk but instead she said. "We can't do this."
"What?" I was dumb founded that's for sure and I didn't wanna believe it.
"But this will make me feel better." I tried explaining. "Or at least make me feel at all....I'm numb ya know, nothing's coming in because of all this. My brain can't function right." I leaned forward and kissed her again. "That doesn't mean we should do it." But she kissed me again anyway. We lay there for a minute or so trying to swallow each others faces then I brushed my hand up her thigh and she sighed into my neck.
The next day I snapped up out of my sleep and looked around me, I was still in 'Lissa's room! And what's worse is I heard someone in the kitchen they couldn't possibly miss me sneaking out of here...But something was different. "'Liss'?" I called but she wasn't in here. Is she in the kitchen. I got off the bed and cracked the door peeking out of the small slit then saw her walk by. "Phew." I walked out of the room and into the kitchen. She was making herself a cup of coffee and she turned to me and smiled. "Good morning, Colt."
Neilissa walked over to the table and sat down taking sips of her drink and paid me no mind as I walked over to the Mr. Coffee and poured a cup myself. "You don't drink coffee." She said as I took a seat across from her and smiled. "I feel like I need to today." She laughed silently and took another sip. "Sooo?" I said grinning sheepishly into my cup. "So? What?" She asked me in return. I shrugged feeling a blush creep up in my cheeks. "So you know, how um....how are you doing?"
"You mean?" She said standing up placing her cup into the sink and turning to me. "Last night?" Her voice was seductive and low.
"Yeah," I replied then added. "You ever notice how you feel like the only people in the world when you do that?" I nodded to the thought. "Great feeling." I said and she walked over to me placing her hands on my shoulders.
"Nothing happened." She breathed into my ear then backed away laughing.
"What?" This was news to me, I mean sure it's been a while but to say nothing happened is a little spirit damaging.
"Colt....you fell asleep." 'Lissa kissed me on the cheek and walked out of the kitchen. "Gotta love her." I said shaking my head.
Day Six
We were all sitting down watching the Moulan Rouge, Rocky was trying to explain it to Tum Tum, Grandpa seemed disinterested altogether, Mom and Dad were watching holding hands like they were the only people in the room and there I sat, pretending to play 21 with Neilissa. She dealt me a hand and tapped my foot with hers and I looked at her. 'What are you going to do?' She mouthed and I just let out a shakey breath and shrugged.
'Lissa rubbed my hand and put on a weak smile. "Oh I just love this part." Mom said as one of the songs picked up, and normally I'd be right along singing with her but I just couldn't. I wasn't feeling family bonding right now it would be too weird for me especially after what I'd seen today. A brief flash ran through my mind and I shook it away. Now wasn't the time to think of that because I didn't know how I was going to react to it.
"Is that John Leguizamo?" Tum asked for the eigth time tonight because apperantly no one had heard him the first times he asked it and I felt my lips moving saying 'Yes.' but nothing had come out, the next thing I knew 'Lissa tapped my shoulder and pointed to the kitchen where Grandpa had gone. I let out a breath and got up. "Now or never." I said lowly and patted her on the shoulder. "Wish me luck." She wrapped an arm around my waist and hugged my side, then I walked into the kitchen for a conversation that could change my life forever.
"....Um, Grandpa...?" I said when I was far enough into the kitchen for no one to hear me. "Oh hey Colt." Grandpa replied then looked at me and furrowed his eye brows. "Is there anything wrong, you look worn out?" I just kind of sat down and looked at him with a weird expression then sighed. How am I gonna say this. I know, the pictures! "Um...Do you remember when we were all babies?" I started hoping this wouldn't sound to obvious.
He seemed as though he were thinking it over then he smiled and said. "Yes I do, you were little brats." He laughed. We were little brats...Does that mean I was around when I was a baby because if it does then that means I wasn't taken after all! "Thanks Grandpa!" I nearly shouted jumping up and wrapping my arms around him. "What for?" He asked but hugged me back. "For, I don't know for remembering." I stammered like an overly excited puppy.
He laughed but let go of me and leaned against the counter as though I had knocked his balance so I slid an arm around his shoulders incase he needed some support. "I'm not that old." He said with a laugh and I smiled shaking my head. "I remember everything," He went on and started to think a little harder about something. "Rocky was such a pest when he was two getting into everything he possibly could, he was almost worse then Tum Tum," He laughed.
"What about me?" I asked and he seemed to think about that a minute. "Ha, believe it or not you were shy up until the age of seven- course I missed when you were born because I had gotten sick and couldn't come by."
A loop hole...."So you mean to tell me you never saw me as a baby?" Grandpa though that over a minute then nodded. "I can't really say." He said instead. "So that's why you took my baby pictures, because you didn't see me as a kid and you thought I looked like you when you finally did see them?"
"What?" He asked me. "What's with all the questions?" "I just wanna know a little bit about from when I was a kid that's all." Smooth Colt, real smooth.
"Well, I don't know who told you but I was never given any pictures of you from when you were a baby." A mirror just cracked in my mind and I tried, God how I tried not to let it show but every one always told me my life is in my eyes and sure enough Grandpa picked up on it. "What's the matter?" He asked and I just shook my head saying, "Nothing." Turning away from the whole situation I walked out of the kitchen and through the living room, to the stairs and into my room and I cried, silently, tearlessly.
It felt as though it were coming all the way from down in my toes but it wouldn't quite come out. My mind was telling me everything was right there- the truth, the whole lie, the whole story, what more could I want?.....To pretend it never happened....To go back to when we were just coming here only we wouldn't stop at that gas station and none of this would be going on- none of it.....But I can't deny that it is....Course, except for Neilissa no one else really knows that I know so things will be the same for the most part if I don't decide to bring it up, but what if things do change because if Grandpa knows he might tell Mom and Dad that I've been asking him questions about it then they'll act weird because they're be wondering if-...God! this is so stupid!
"Jeffrey? Honey what's the matter?" Mom called through the door. "N-nothing Mom, I just have car lag and I'm a little tired." I lied again. I can't keep doing this to myself I have to ask someone else but who else would remember me as a kid except for-...I couldn't ask Rocky because with him every question from you has one from him right behind it. But there's no one else Tum would have been too young to know or care.....Think, think, think.
"Would you like me to make you some soup then?" Mom still obviously standing at the door asked. "No! Just leave me alone okay?" It was right then that I'd wished I hadn'd said that- so much for keeping things quiet. The door opened and with it came Mom with her arms crossed over her chest. "Now what were you saying, young man." She asked sternly. I smiled weakly and gulped. "I'm sorry about that, you know how I am when I'm tired?" She just cocked her head at me and frowned.
"Jeffrey you could stay up til dawn and have a wonderful day so spill it, whats got you on edge?" I hated lying to her but I'd hate telling her the truth even more, what do you do in these kinds of situations? I had no other choice. "Mom, the truth is....I'm in love with 'Lissa and I don't know how to get her attention she just doesn't seem interested." Good save. "Aaaw honey, she was your instructor after all, maybe she just thinks there wouldn't be any chemistry between you two...but," She sat down beside me and placed an arm around my shoulders and suddenly her words were blurred and I saw this weird image infront of me.
I was sitting at a counter with an ice cream infront of me and some woman was there talking to me, asking me these weird questions that I could barely understand all I felt was want for that ice cream. "Oh my God." I muttered and Mom looked at me with question. "What?" She then asked and I just blinked. "It was so obvious the whole time." I was in my own world right then staring at the two people one me and one who I'm pretty sure was Mom and she just took me, right out of the mall without a care in the world.
Turning to look at her I wanted to scream and push her away but I controlled myself and just let out a sigh. "I know what to do now Mom, thanks for the help." I stated and she wrapped her arms around me squeezing me in a hug that I didn't participate in then she got up and walked out closing the door behind her. Right from the mall, with out a care that my real Mother would miss me, all she cared about was her own greedy need for a son.....I hate her- hate them both!
That would explain so many things, why Dad- Sam always gives me such a hard time, why Rocky clearly told me I stole his parents that summer we fought and, why Jessica babies me more than anyone else, she's just trying to prove how much she can love me so I would never miss my real family and hell I was so young I probably wiped the whole thing out of my mind until now....Those jerks. I got up to confront them- this was it but suddenly standing I felt a little sick again so I rushed to the bathroom and let my anxioty out into the toilet.
.......................
I snuck downstairs to 'Lissa's room and hoped she was awake. "'Lissa?" I called down to her and shook her shoulder. "Hey 'Liss' you awake?" I shook her shoulder again then she rolled over and rubbed her eyes.
"Colt?" She said blankly and I nodded knowing it was too dark for her to have seen then I said. "Yeah, it's me, can we talk?" I asked and she opened the blanket sliding over. It was strange seeing that an old girl friend of mine used to do that exact same thing whenever I snuck over to her house at night.
"Is it about the conversation you had with your Grandfather?" She asked me in a voice that sounded as though she had been awake for hours rather than a few seconds. "Yeah, he said he didn't remember me any younger than five because he wasn't around, but I find it so hard to believe no one could be that busy right?" I asked her and she nodded saying, "I suppose."
Licking my lips I went on. "So then I asked about my baby pictures and he said he never got any or had any...doesn't that just sum it up for a person." I turned sideways and wrapped an arm around her then rubbed my face into her shoulder. "I don't understand, why would they take me?"
"I don't know." There was sadness in her voice and my own but something about hers was so sincere that I just nuzzled my face to hers then kissed her.
She seemed as though she were resisting it at first but then she kissed me back. This is what I need, this is exactly what'll get my mind off this whole mess and I was more than willing to go for it. Rolling over on her I pressed her closer into the matress with my weight and nibbled on her ear. "Jeffrey..." She said.
"Yes?" I breathed out kissing her again thinking we were going to get into some kind of kinky talk but instead she said. "We can't do this."
"What?" I was dumb founded that's for sure and I didn't wanna believe it.
"But this will make me feel better." I tried explaining. "Or at least make me feel at all....I'm numb ya know, nothing's coming in because of all this. My brain can't function right." I leaned forward and kissed her again. "That doesn't mean we should do it." But she kissed me again anyway. We lay there for a minute or so trying to swallow each others faces then I brushed my hand up her thigh and she sighed into my neck.
The next day I snapped up out of my sleep and looked around me, I was still in 'Lissa's room! And what's worse is I heard someone in the kitchen they couldn't possibly miss me sneaking out of here...But something was different. "'Liss'?" I called but she wasn't in here. Is she in the kitchen. I got off the bed and cracked the door peeking out of the small slit then saw her walk by. "Phew." I walked out of the room and into the kitchen. She was making herself a cup of coffee and she turned to me and smiled. "Good morning, Colt."
Neilissa walked over to the table and sat down taking sips of her drink and paid me no mind as I walked over to the Mr. Coffee and poured a cup myself. "You don't drink coffee." She said as I took a seat across from her and smiled. "I feel like I need to today." She laughed silently and took another sip. "Sooo?" I said grinning sheepishly into my cup. "So? What?" She asked me in return. I shrugged feeling a blush creep up in my cheeks. "So you know, how um....how are you doing?"
"You mean?" She said standing up placing her cup into the sink and turning to me. "Last night?" Her voice was seductive and low.
"Yeah," I replied then added. "You ever notice how you feel like the only people in the world when you do that?" I nodded to the thought. "Great feeling." I said and she walked over to me placing her hands on my shoulders.
"Nothing happened." She breathed into my ear then backed away laughing.
"What?" This was news to me, I mean sure it's been a while but to say nothing happened is a little spirit damaging.
"Colt....you fell asleep." 'Lissa kissed me on the cheek and walked out of the kitchen. "Gotta love her." I said shaking my head.