9. What is love?
Summary: Rory and Jess go to a reunion and meet Tristan, who brings up some strange feelings. It is a Literati though.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of this, just writing a story and borrowing them for a while
A/N: Here's chapter 9. It's a bit shorter than normal, sorry about that. And this is not the end either.I think I well end it soon though, because otherwise I would be dragging the story out too much.
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Rory and Jess were sitting on the couch in the living room of Lorelai's home. After a medical checkup for Rory, a lot of explanations to the cops and even more to Lorelai, they finally had some time to themselves. After assuring herself that Rory was doing ok, Lorelai had decided it was best to leave her and Jess alone to begin to process the events of the evening, so despite the late hour she had gone to Luke's. Rory was thankful for this, because she really didn't want to talk even more about it.
For a while they were both lost in thoughts. Rory still couldn't believe she had actually been abducted by someone, let alone Gabriela. She also couldn't believe she had seen someone die. She wasn't traumatized yet, because she just couldn't comprehend it had all really happened. In her mind the whole experience since the reunion had just been dream with really great ups and very bad lows.
Jess was also thinking about the events. He had thought himself to be someone with a lot knowledge of people. He had thought he would immediately know if someone was to be trusted or not. He had been so wrong in judging Gabriela. And Tristan.Maybe Tristan wasn't as bad as he had thought at first.
Rory's sudden change in position shook Jess out of his thoughts. She had turned to look him in the eyes. Jess looked back at her. He saw an emotion in them he had never expected from her in a moment like this one. They actually showed desire.
Rory didn't understand why she was suddenly feeling this need to be so close to Jess, to have him hold her and touch her. Maybe it was that she just wanted him to assure her this was all really happening, that it wasn't a dream, so she could start getting over it.
Jess took her face into his hands. He traced her lips with his thumb. She looked so beautiful. He bent his face and inched closer towards her. She licked her lips in anticipation. This was the only encouragement Jess needed. He closed the distance between them and kissed her. Slowly he deepened the kiss. He pulled her closer to him and started stroking her back.
Rory loved the kiss. She felt closer to Jess than she ever had. She felt it was more than the normal emotional bond they had, it was deeper. It was like at that moment she realized he was the only one for her and always was going to be the only one. When Jess started stroking her back she felt the need for more. Without hesitation she started stroking his back as well, but she started stroking him under his shirt.
Jess was startled at first that Rory did this. But he couldn't resist her. He started tugging at her shirt to see how she reacted to it. She moaned a bit. Jess knew she was ready for more, but he was afraid that she would feel embarrassed just like the last time he had been intimate with her. He didn't want that to happen again. He needed to be sure she wasn't going to do that, before he took the next step, so he decided to leave it up to her.
Rory felt Jess was hesitating and realized he wanted her to set the boundaries. She pulled out of the kiss and took Jess his hand in hers. She pulled him of to the couch and into her room. Once in there she took Jess' shirt off. She pulled his face to hers and started kissing him again, all the while rubbing her body against his.
Jess felt like he was going to explode. Rory had no idea how those movements made her feel. He also knew she could feel how exited he was getting, she just didn't realize yet what kind of effects that could have on his behavior. Much to his surprise Rory pulled out of the kiss and knelt in front of him, while starting to unbuckle his pants.
Rory was happy. She was happy seeing the effect she had on Jess. And she wanted to test how far she could go. She wanted to see how much pleasure she could give him. When she had pulled down his pants and saw the bulge in his boxers she didn't feel scared or awkward, it was like she instinctively knew what to do. She started kissing him through his boxers. After a moment she stood up and pushed Jess on his bed. She started moving his hands over his bare chest. She slowly went down and put her hand under his boxers. She was amazed at the feeling of his arousal in her hands. When Jess started to groan she took this as a sign she was doing it right. She pulled down his boxers and took in his sight. It was amazing. Of course she had seen pictures of naked men before. She had even seen some movies in which you could see it all. But seeing Jess like that still amazed her. Especially the fact that she was the one causing him to look like that got her exited.
She moved her face closer to his erection and hesitantly kissed it. She didn't know what to expect, she didn't know how it was going to taste or smell. After the first kiss she realized it was good and nice, so she got more confident. She kissed him again and this time she even dared to take it in his mouth a little bit.
Jess couldn't believe Rory was actually playing with him like that. After letting her do what she wanted for a little while he felt he couldn't resist anymore and that if he didn't take any action soon, he was going to mess this up. So he pushed Rory off of him and pulled her face to him, to start to kiss her.
When Jess pulled her away at first Rory thought she was doing something wrong, but when she saw the fire in his eyes, she knew that wasn't true, but that he just wanted to take it a step further. This time she was sure she could deal with it and she wanted it. She let Jess undress her and watched closely as he put on a condom.
Jess motioned for Rory to get on her back. He spread her legs and lay down between them. He felt her body tense up as she felt him seeking entrance. He knew she was afraid of the pain that was supposed to come. He leaned down and kissed her, while he pushed hard.
For Rory the pain came and went quickly. After a couple of seconds she felt like she was in heaven. She felt so close to Jess at that moment, she felt there was such an amazing bond between the two of them, that she could almost cry of happiness.
Jess was also happy. He had waited for this for so long and now he had finally gotten it. He was sure it was worth waiting for. Rory was amazing, it was like they were made for each other. And he was going to make sure this was an experience she wasn't ever going to forget.
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Tristan lay watching at the ceiling of his room. He had finally been allowed to go to bed. He had spent hours talking to the police and after that explaining to his parents. Nobody but him knew the truth however. They all thought Gabriela had taken her own life. Only he knew that wasn't the way it happened.
He had told everyone that Gabriela had decided to take her own because she felt bad about what had happened and because she didn't want to be a shame to her parents name any longer. Knowing her history of attempts to commit suicide nobody really doubted this. And after all she did pull the trigger on the gun the second time it went off and that was the bullet that killed her.
Gabriela had actually tried to take his life. That was how her twisted mind worked. When she said she wanted to make it right again, she had meant that she was going to make sure that they could be together in another life, or that at least no one else could enjoy him. Fortunately for him he had noticed her picking up the gun. He realized she was going to shoot him when he saw her pull the trigger. She was weak however and that had slowed her down. That had given him the time to turn her arm around making her shoot herself, effectively killing her.
Tristan knew it was self defense, but he still couldn't help but feeling guilty. He couldn't help but thinking that maybe if he had turned her arm around in a different way she wouldn't have shot herself through her chest and thus would still have been alive at that moment. Or maybe he could have just thrown away the gun. How could he have been so stupid to take the gun with him to her?
How could she have been so stupid to do this? And why did she want to shoot him? He felt so betrayed. He had just realized he really loved her, but she hadn't given him the chance to act upon that. In fact, she had made sure that he could never love again. After all this was just one more sign that love wasn't meant for him. He apparently didn't deserve to love or to be loved. Maybe love didn't exist, maybe it was just something people wanted to believe existed to make life less empty.
But if that was true, then what was going on between Jess and Rory? They obviously had something special going on. Why couldn't he have that? Why couldn't anyone give that to him? He wanted a bond like that one as well. Maybe what he felt was love wasn't love after all, but just a feeling of mutual compassion, because you fully understood each other. He had to find out. He just didn't know how to.
His thoughts went back to the events of that evening. He had shut Gabriela to save Rory. Rory, a girl he had just wanted in his bed for most of his life. Why had he done that? Maybe his subconscious had told him she was precious and deserved to be saved. He believed all of his action had a reason, although he wasn't sure what the reason behind this one was yet. Did he really save Rory so she could celebrate the rest of her life with Jess?
Tristan didn't want to think anymore. He took another shot of vodka, maybe that would help him sleep. And indeed it did. He fell into an uneasy sleep, dreaming about Gabriela and Rory.
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A couple of months had passed since the incident. Rory and Jess were still together. Jess hair was back to its normal shade again, much to Rory's relief and Lorelai's regret. Lorelai had enjoyed bugging Jess about it a whole lot, so Jess had vowed to never color his hair again.
The morning after the incident reality had downed on Rory. She had realized completely what had happened the day before and had been really traumatized. Jess hadn't taken things too well either. They had gone to counseling together for while and had managed to learn to live with it.
Neither of them had seen Tristan again. They had heard however that he had gone to Europe for a while as soon as the police had cleared him. His parents had wanted him to go away until the scandal had died down, so he had decided to do the rest of the semester at Oxford University in Great Brittan.
Rory still thought about him a couple of times. After all he had saved her, by shooting the woman he had just realized he loved. She had wanted to talk to him. Not only for counseling purposes but also because she felt bad for him. Ever since she had known him everything for him had gone wrong. Well, not everything, but the things that had gone wrong were such major events that the things that did go well seemed like they didn't mean anything. But he was gone, and she couldn't get in touch with him. So she had gotten over that idea.
She was now sitting in her dorm room trying to study for an upcoming exam. She wasn't having much success though. Her mind kept wondering off to Jess, whom she hadn't seen in two weeks, since he had been on a trip for one of his classes. She couldn't wait to see him this weekend.
Suddenly she was shaken out of her thoughts. Her roommate came running in.
Andrea: 'Rory.Why is it that all the cute guys are always here to see you?'
Rory: 'Slow down.What are you talking about?'
Andrea: 'The cute blond guy.Well, cute isn't the right word. The handsome blond guy, the stunning blond guy, the amazing looking.'
Rory: 'Who are you talking about anyway and why do you think he's looking for me?'
Andrea: 'I just saw him downstairs asking directions to this room. And since I don't know him, he must be looking for you.'
Rory: 'If he was asking for directions, why didn't you just bring him up here?'
Andrea: 'I needed to know the scoop on him from you first. And besides, you try getting to him with that mob of guy crazy girls hanging around him. I must say though, his face looked a bit annoyed. He did come over as quite the charmer though.'
Rory: 'Well, I am sure we'll find out who he is soon. And he must have given the wrong number, because I don't know any amazing looking blond guys who would be here especially to see me.'
Andrea: 'Aha.But you have to promises me to tell me everything about him. He looks great.'
Rory: 'Yeah, whatever.'
Before Rory could finish that sentence there was a knock on the door. She turned around and saw Tristan standing in the doorframe.
Summary: Rory and Jess go to a reunion and meet Tristan, who brings up some strange feelings. It is a Literati though.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of this, just writing a story and borrowing them for a while
A/N: Here's chapter 9. It's a bit shorter than normal, sorry about that. And this is not the end either.I think I well end it soon though, because otherwise I would be dragging the story out too much.
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Rory and Jess were sitting on the couch in the living room of Lorelai's home. After a medical checkup for Rory, a lot of explanations to the cops and even more to Lorelai, they finally had some time to themselves. After assuring herself that Rory was doing ok, Lorelai had decided it was best to leave her and Jess alone to begin to process the events of the evening, so despite the late hour she had gone to Luke's. Rory was thankful for this, because she really didn't want to talk even more about it.
For a while they were both lost in thoughts. Rory still couldn't believe she had actually been abducted by someone, let alone Gabriela. She also couldn't believe she had seen someone die. She wasn't traumatized yet, because she just couldn't comprehend it had all really happened. In her mind the whole experience since the reunion had just been dream with really great ups and very bad lows.
Jess was also thinking about the events. He had thought himself to be someone with a lot knowledge of people. He had thought he would immediately know if someone was to be trusted or not. He had been so wrong in judging Gabriela. And Tristan.Maybe Tristan wasn't as bad as he had thought at first.
Rory's sudden change in position shook Jess out of his thoughts. She had turned to look him in the eyes. Jess looked back at her. He saw an emotion in them he had never expected from her in a moment like this one. They actually showed desire.
Rory didn't understand why she was suddenly feeling this need to be so close to Jess, to have him hold her and touch her. Maybe it was that she just wanted him to assure her this was all really happening, that it wasn't a dream, so she could start getting over it.
Jess took her face into his hands. He traced her lips with his thumb. She looked so beautiful. He bent his face and inched closer towards her. She licked her lips in anticipation. This was the only encouragement Jess needed. He closed the distance between them and kissed her. Slowly he deepened the kiss. He pulled her closer to him and started stroking her back.
Rory loved the kiss. She felt closer to Jess than she ever had. She felt it was more than the normal emotional bond they had, it was deeper. It was like at that moment she realized he was the only one for her and always was going to be the only one. When Jess started stroking her back she felt the need for more. Without hesitation she started stroking his back as well, but she started stroking him under his shirt.
Jess was startled at first that Rory did this. But he couldn't resist her. He started tugging at her shirt to see how she reacted to it. She moaned a bit. Jess knew she was ready for more, but he was afraid that she would feel embarrassed just like the last time he had been intimate with her. He didn't want that to happen again. He needed to be sure she wasn't going to do that, before he took the next step, so he decided to leave it up to her.
Rory felt Jess was hesitating and realized he wanted her to set the boundaries. She pulled out of the kiss and took Jess his hand in hers. She pulled him of to the couch and into her room. Once in there she took Jess' shirt off. She pulled his face to hers and started kissing him again, all the while rubbing her body against his.
Jess felt like he was going to explode. Rory had no idea how those movements made her feel. He also knew she could feel how exited he was getting, she just didn't realize yet what kind of effects that could have on his behavior. Much to his surprise Rory pulled out of the kiss and knelt in front of him, while starting to unbuckle his pants.
Rory was happy. She was happy seeing the effect she had on Jess. And she wanted to test how far she could go. She wanted to see how much pleasure she could give him. When she had pulled down his pants and saw the bulge in his boxers she didn't feel scared or awkward, it was like she instinctively knew what to do. She started kissing him through his boxers. After a moment she stood up and pushed Jess on his bed. She started moving his hands over his bare chest. She slowly went down and put her hand under his boxers. She was amazed at the feeling of his arousal in her hands. When Jess started to groan she took this as a sign she was doing it right. She pulled down his boxers and took in his sight. It was amazing. Of course she had seen pictures of naked men before. She had even seen some movies in which you could see it all. But seeing Jess like that still amazed her. Especially the fact that she was the one causing him to look like that got her exited.
She moved her face closer to his erection and hesitantly kissed it. She didn't know what to expect, she didn't know how it was going to taste or smell. After the first kiss she realized it was good and nice, so she got more confident. She kissed him again and this time she even dared to take it in his mouth a little bit.
Jess couldn't believe Rory was actually playing with him like that. After letting her do what she wanted for a little while he felt he couldn't resist anymore and that if he didn't take any action soon, he was going to mess this up. So he pushed Rory off of him and pulled her face to him, to start to kiss her.
When Jess pulled her away at first Rory thought she was doing something wrong, but when she saw the fire in his eyes, she knew that wasn't true, but that he just wanted to take it a step further. This time she was sure she could deal with it and she wanted it. She let Jess undress her and watched closely as he put on a condom.
Jess motioned for Rory to get on her back. He spread her legs and lay down between them. He felt her body tense up as she felt him seeking entrance. He knew she was afraid of the pain that was supposed to come. He leaned down and kissed her, while he pushed hard.
For Rory the pain came and went quickly. After a couple of seconds she felt like she was in heaven. She felt so close to Jess at that moment, she felt there was such an amazing bond between the two of them, that she could almost cry of happiness.
Jess was also happy. He had waited for this for so long and now he had finally gotten it. He was sure it was worth waiting for. Rory was amazing, it was like they were made for each other. And he was going to make sure this was an experience she wasn't ever going to forget.
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Tristan lay watching at the ceiling of his room. He had finally been allowed to go to bed. He had spent hours talking to the police and after that explaining to his parents. Nobody but him knew the truth however. They all thought Gabriela had taken her own life. Only he knew that wasn't the way it happened.
He had told everyone that Gabriela had decided to take her own because she felt bad about what had happened and because she didn't want to be a shame to her parents name any longer. Knowing her history of attempts to commit suicide nobody really doubted this. And after all she did pull the trigger on the gun the second time it went off and that was the bullet that killed her.
Gabriela had actually tried to take his life. That was how her twisted mind worked. When she said she wanted to make it right again, she had meant that she was going to make sure that they could be together in another life, or that at least no one else could enjoy him. Fortunately for him he had noticed her picking up the gun. He realized she was going to shoot him when he saw her pull the trigger. She was weak however and that had slowed her down. That had given him the time to turn her arm around making her shoot herself, effectively killing her.
Tristan knew it was self defense, but he still couldn't help but feeling guilty. He couldn't help but thinking that maybe if he had turned her arm around in a different way she wouldn't have shot herself through her chest and thus would still have been alive at that moment. Or maybe he could have just thrown away the gun. How could he have been so stupid to take the gun with him to her?
How could she have been so stupid to do this? And why did she want to shoot him? He felt so betrayed. He had just realized he really loved her, but she hadn't given him the chance to act upon that. In fact, she had made sure that he could never love again. After all this was just one more sign that love wasn't meant for him. He apparently didn't deserve to love or to be loved. Maybe love didn't exist, maybe it was just something people wanted to believe existed to make life less empty.
But if that was true, then what was going on between Jess and Rory? They obviously had something special going on. Why couldn't he have that? Why couldn't anyone give that to him? He wanted a bond like that one as well. Maybe what he felt was love wasn't love after all, but just a feeling of mutual compassion, because you fully understood each other. He had to find out. He just didn't know how to.
His thoughts went back to the events of that evening. He had shut Gabriela to save Rory. Rory, a girl he had just wanted in his bed for most of his life. Why had he done that? Maybe his subconscious had told him she was precious and deserved to be saved. He believed all of his action had a reason, although he wasn't sure what the reason behind this one was yet. Did he really save Rory so she could celebrate the rest of her life with Jess?
Tristan didn't want to think anymore. He took another shot of vodka, maybe that would help him sleep. And indeed it did. He fell into an uneasy sleep, dreaming about Gabriela and Rory.
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A couple of months had passed since the incident. Rory and Jess were still together. Jess hair was back to its normal shade again, much to Rory's relief and Lorelai's regret. Lorelai had enjoyed bugging Jess about it a whole lot, so Jess had vowed to never color his hair again.
The morning after the incident reality had downed on Rory. She had realized completely what had happened the day before and had been really traumatized. Jess hadn't taken things too well either. They had gone to counseling together for while and had managed to learn to live with it.
Neither of them had seen Tristan again. They had heard however that he had gone to Europe for a while as soon as the police had cleared him. His parents had wanted him to go away until the scandal had died down, so he had decided to do the rest of the semester at Oxford University in Great Brittan.
Rory still thought about him a couple of times. After all he had saved her, by shooting the woman he had just realized he loved. She had wanted to talk to him. Not only for counseling purposes but also because she felt bad for him. Ever since she had known him everything for him had gone wrong. Well, not everything, but the things that had gone wrong were such major events that the things that did go well seemed like they didn't mean anything. But he was gone, and she couldn't get in touch with him. So she had gotten over that idea.
She was now sitting in her dorm room trying to study for an upcoming exam. She wasn't having much success though. Her mind kept wondering off to Jess, whom she hadn't seen in two weeks, since he had been on a trip for one of his classes. She couldn't wait to see him this weekend.
Suddenly she was shaken out of her thoughts. Her roommate came running in.
Andrea: 'Rory.Why is it that all the cute guys are always here to see you?'
Rory: 'Slow down.What are you talking about?'
Andrea: 'The cute blond guy.Well, cute isn't the right word. The handsome blond guy, the stunning blond guy, the amazing looking.'
Rory: 'Who are you talking about anyway and why do you think he's looking for me?'
Andrea: 'I just saw him downstairs asking directions to this room. And since I don't know him, he must be looking for you.'
Rory: 'If he was asking for directions, why didn't you just bring him up here?'
Andrea: 'I needed to know the scoop on him from you first. And besides, you try getting to him with that mob of guy crazy girls hanging around him. I must say though, his face looked a bit annoyed. He did come over as quite the charmer though.'
Rory: 'Well, I am sure we'll find out who he is soon. And he must have given the wrong number, because I don't know any amazing looking blond guys who would be here especially to see me.'
Andrea: 'Aha.But you have to promises me to tell me everything about him. He looks great.'
Rory: 'Yeah, whatever.'
Before Rory could finish that sentence there was a knock on the door. She turned around and saw Tristan standing in the doorframe.