Lost Sight
By Dark_T-K
Narrated by: Goku
It happened so quickly. I was fighting with Vegeta when it all started. I was scared out of my mind. That day I lost my sight. I was terrified beyond believe. This is my story.
I woke up in a soft bed. My eyes closed for good reason. I knew where I was. The bed's shape and texture was familiar. I figured that I was knocked out and brought to the hospital. I heard ChiChi running up to my bed encouraging me to open my eyes. When I did I heard her gasp. I couldn't see yet my eyes were wide open. I began to panic.
"ChiChi where are you?" I called out. She grasped my hand and gently squeezed it letting me know she was here.
"I'm here Goku-sa. Relax I'm here." She said soothingly. For some reason it didn't help. I was scared. Something was wrong.
"ChiChi are my eyes open?" I asked her with a hint of fear in my voice. She tensed. I could feel her nervousness and the uneasiness.
"Yes they are Goku. Your eyes are as open and as wide as the sea." She said trying to make me relax. It did nothing of the sort. I finally figured it out. I still wanted proof though.
"What is wrong with me ChiChi? What makes you gasp and fill with uneasiness?" I ask showing my concern. I could feel her body relaxing and I thought I could feel her smile.
"When you opened your eyes Goku, I didn't see the ones I fell in love with. Your eyes are no longer black. They are now gray as if they are clouded over by fog." She touched my forehead and gently caressed me. I was still scared of the pitch, black darkness but ChiChi's gently touching calmed me down considerably.
"Then I'm-" I was cut off by the door opening and ChiChi leaving my hand. I began to panic thinking she left. Loosing my sight made me think of things I knew wouldn't happen.
"You're blind Mr. Son. You are very fortunate that was all you lost." A man said from the door. I knew instantly it was one of my doctors. ChiChi immediately went to my defense.
"Stop making him fell bad doc. What is the situation we are dealing with?" I hear Chichi ask. I'm glad she's here. I look around to where the voices are coming from, trying to pinpoint them exactly.
"Well he has been temporarily blinded from the blow to the head. He was lucky he doesn't have brain damage." The doctor said. I could feel him glaring at me. I sat up and began moving hands around trying to get a sense of where I was. Everything was different from where I sat. ChiChi came to my side and helped me out of bed. I stood shakily and held on to her.
"How long will it be til he regains his vision doctor?" I hear ChiChi ask as her grip tightens on my hand. Her grip tells me she's worried about me.
"It could be days, weeks, months, maybe even years. And if worse comes to worse, he may be blind for the rest of his life." ChiChi feels my arm tense as I began to panic. My future, my fighting, all of it would have to change.
"Isn't there a way to fix it?" I ask. My voice is breaking as I began to tremble. If I can no longer see, I will no longer be able to fight.
"I'm afraid not Mr. Son. We have to wait til your brain heals then we make a move. Naturally it will fix itself and your vision will return. If it doesn't we can try surgery and if that fails, you will remain blind for the rest of your life." My heart seemed to stop then. Time stood still as the doctor's words registered and repeated in my mind.
"Then what should I do til my brain heals?" I ask hesitantly. ChiChi wraps her arms around my waist and gently hugs me for reassurance.
"Until we can figure out what to do with you Mr. Son, you will have to stop doing what ever you were before and take it easy." I nod knowing fighting would only make my problem worse. ChiChi grabs my arm and squeezes it gently. She's worried I'll become scared, that I will panic more. She was right, I was terrified that I would be blind forever. That all I would see would be an eternity of darkness.
"I understand." Is what I say, is what I can say. The doctor nods and I heard him leave. ChiChi pulls me out of my room now dressed in my gi. Now that I'm blind, I have to be more careful. My hands stretched out feeling their way around.
"ChiChi where are you?" I cry out to her. ChiChi giggles at me and puts a hand on my chest. She does this so I know she's there. So I know to stop or I'd run over her. She leans up and places something on my face and over my eyes.
"I'm right here Goku-sa. Now hold still while I see how you look." I stand completely still wondering what she is doing. I hear her making approving noises before she walks up to me.
"If you are wondering, and I know you are. Those are glasses. They will tell everyone that you cannot see and to watch out. And here is your walking stick." ChiChi said as she placed the stick into my hand. I ran my hand over the stick trying to picture what it looked like.
"What's the stick for ChiChi? I don't need help walking." I said in slight confusion. I heard her laugh at me then tug at my arm.
"It's not to help you walk Goku. That stick will help you walk around and tell if you are coming to a street. It's like your eyes." ChiChi stopped talking when she saw my expression. I hated it when people talked about how I couldn't see, or about my eyes. It was painful enough I couldn't see with my own two eyes, now I need new ones.
"I'm sorry Goku. I forgot you don't like it when I talk about your eyes like that." She hugged my arm gently. I smiled and wrapped one of my arms around her slender waist.
"I know you don't mean too, and I know you mean well. It just saddens me that I can't see your beautiful face anymore." I lean down and kiss her. I can't see her expression due to my condition. But I could feel her emotions running off her slim frame.
"What can I do to make you feel better Goku-sa?" She asks me. I stopped to think about it. It fact all I want is to eat, there is one problem. I can't see my food. I can smell it and hear it cooking, but what good does all that do if I can't see it.
"I want to eat ChiChi." I cried out. My stomach echoed my plea with its own cry of hunger. ChiChi giggled again.
"You'll get food when you learn how to use this stick." She said as she positioned my body. I listen to her words carefully. When she left my side I began to panic.
"Ok Goku. Now all you have to do is walk to me using the stick I gave you." I nodded knowing she was teaching me instead of abandoning me. I began walking to her using my stick to guide me. I managed to avoid running into things thanks to my stick and I finally reached her. She hugged me and I gratefully hugged back.
"Did I do good ChiChi?" I ask hesitantly. She hugged me again and began leading me to the kitchen. She sat me down and walked over to her cabinets.
"Since I'm making you dinner then I guess you did do good." I smiled happily. I'm glad I did it right. But then I began to wonder. ChiChi never treated me like this. I usually got an earful for fighting Vegeta. Now that I'm injured she's acting as if I'm a little boy.
"ChiChi why are you acting different? You seem to be more…gentle, now that I'm…" I couldn't say it. Remembering that I couldn't see only made me extremely sad.
"I'm not acting different Goku. I want you to know that I feel like you're the one that needs protection now." I knew she was right. I was strong and bold when I could see my enemy. With my eyes out of commission I did feel like a helpless child.
"I'm not all that helpless. I may not be able to see what goes around me, but that doesn't mean I don't know its happening ChiChi." I say in my defense. She giggles lightly and kisses my forehead. She returns to cooking when I hear the door knock.
"ChiChi-" she didn't let me finish. She walked over to the door with out even asking me too. I bet she thought I wouldn't be able to find it. I know what my house looks like, even though many people think I don't. I could hear the door open and two voices. It was Gohan.
"Hey mom! I was in the neighborhood and thought I'd stop by to get some of your wonderful food!" I snort. He's such a suck up sometimes. He learned to be that way from me I guess. If ChiChi was a little upset I would usually become a boot licker and flatter her. I hear Chichi laugh, she knew he was boot licking too.
"Sure Gohan just watch out for your father. He's a little…" She couldn't finish. I knew she was thinking of words to put into her sentence. She found one.
"He's a little disabled for now. It's best you don't pester him." Feelings a bit angry at her for saying that Gohan should leave me be I walk into the next room without my stick.
"There's no need to tell Gohan to leave me be Chichi, he has the right to know." I could feel their eyes on me. I stood there waiting for one of them to respond. I heard Gohan walk over next to me, what I'd didn't know was that he held his hand out for me to shake.
"Hey dad! Long time no see! Goten told me that you and Vegeta haven't sparred in a while." Hearing the word spar made me sad. I missed fighting a lot.
"Yeah I know. A few things came up." I said calmly. I knew Chichi would get steamed if I said something stupid and untrue.
"You ever going to shake my hand or are you going to leave me hanging dad?" He asks sarcastically. I blushed a little.
"I didn't know you had your hand out Gohan. " I said. ChiChi walked into the kitchen. This was a good thing. It was a sign saying go ahead and tell him, I know you will want to eat when you're done.
"What?! I had it here for about five minutes! You should have seen it in that time?" He shouted out. I cringed at the word saw.
"Well that's the thing Gohan. I can't see it." I said. I hear him gasp then I feel a slight wind. He's waving his hand in front of my eyes. With the glasses he can't tell. He takes them off while I close my eyes.
"No wonder dad. Your eyes are closed. If you'd open them-" He was cut off when ChiChi shouted back.
"Maybe you should let him finish Gohan. He has something to tell you or better yet, Goku just show him." I nod and turn back to Gohan. I keep my eyes closed to hold him in suspense.
"Gohan, the thing that came up is very serious. The last time Vegeta and I sparred, he injured me. I woke up in the hospital like this." I say as I open my eyes. Even when I do I can't see him, but I hear him gasp. He again waves his hand in front of my face. I don't see it yet I feel it.
"DAD! You're blind!" He shouted out. I nod in silence. It was painful to be reminded. At least now my son understood.
"Yes Gohan, I am. Vegeta hit a spot on my head that damaged my sight. I won't be able to see for sometime." I say in total misery. He hugs me to show his pity and sympathy. I'm glad he did, it made me feel better he cared.
"How long did they say you will be blind dad?" He asks me. I cringe slightly. He let go and step back.
"I don't know Gohan. It could go from days to weeks, weeks to months, months to years. And worse comes to worse, I'll be blind for the rest of my life." I said as I hung my head in shame. I can feel his sadness and I wish I could see his expression.
"Does anyone else know?" I shook my head no. He rubs my back, a gesture of sympathy. "When do you plan on telling them dad?" He asks. I shrug my shoulders.
"ChiChi is taking me to Capsule Corps tomorrow to tell everyone. She's going to ask Bulma if she can help me." Gohan nodded and continued rubbing my back. ChiChi then calls us for dinner. My stomach roars in glee. I then get a scared look on my face. I don't have my stick! Without it I will certainly run into something and trip. Luckily Gohan stayed by my side.
"Do you want help getting to the table?" He asks. I nod as he takes my arm and leads me into the kitchen. He helps me to my seat and pushes me in. I sit there not knowing what to do next. I suddenly feel a sense of fear. It's coming from Gohan.
"What's wrong son?" I knew he was shocked that I could sense something was wrong. He slid my glasses back to me. I felt them hit my arm.
"I'm just not used to looking at your new eyes. They used to be black. They used to hold joy, light, and happiness in them. Now they are gray and show pain, suffering, and sadness." He hit the nail on the head. He said everything I wanted to know. I put the glasses on, over my eyes, the eyes that make everyone so nervous.
"If you think looking at them is scary, then you should see what it's like to own them." I say a little hard in defense. Gohan and ChiChi think they know about what I'm going through. But in reality, they don't have a clue. My world is now off balance. Instead of seeing what makes me happy, I see what makes me scared. I always feared I would be left alone, that I would die alone. Being blind only makes me feel like I am alone.
"I'm sorry dad. I didn't realize you were protective about the subject." He says in guilt. I began getting angry.
"No one knows what I'm going through! You guys can give me your sympathy, your pity, and guilt. But what good does it do? I'm as blind as a bat and no one can help me. I'm protective of my condition because I'm scared this is how my life will end up Gohan! I huge black void! I can hear your voices! I can feel your touch! But I certainly can't see any of it happening!" I spat at them both. I know they feeling guilty, but I continue.
"You both no nothing of what I'm going through. All this scares me beyond belief and all you can do is say 'I know what you're going through'. You don't and probably never will." I stood up and stormed out of the room. I knew where I was going. It was to my room. Not the one ChiChi and I shared. It was the one outside. I walked into it and sat down on my old bed. I began thinking. Maybe I was too harsh. I knew I would have to say it, but maybe that was more then necessary. I soon fell asleep on the small bed.
The next morning I found myself in the same place. ChiChi and Gohan had left me alone the entire night. I was glad I got time to think, and time to be alone. I walked outside. It felt good to feel the cool morning air. I knew Chichi would be angry when I came back in so I went for a walk. It was nice. The path was different now that I was blind. It was a small adventure. I finally wound up at the lake. I sat down at its edge. I began to picture what it looked like from memory. True to say it was probably the same, but to me it was different. I laid back and relaxed. I soon found myself sound asleep at the lake's side.
I awoke later on by Gohan. He was worried and from the looks of it, he was scarred. I was at the side of the lake, eyes closed, and not moving. He apparently thought I was hurt. I growled slightly thinking of how he thought I was so helpless. I wasn't if I was able to make it here unharmed.
"DAD! Wake up please dad!" I heard him call. I woke up a bit groggily. I opened my eyes, though it didn't help. I sat up and didn't bother to look at him.
"Gohan stop yelling. I'm just fine!" I said in a venom voice. He got offended easily by my words. He was hurt from last night and now was angry.
"Fine dad! Now can you get up or do I have to get spat at again for my concern!" He said back with venom. Growling I stood but my empty gaze stayed on the lake.
"I don't need your help or your pity Gohan. I was fine before you found me and I am fine now!" He punches me and I fall to the ground. I was unable to block it since I didn't know what he would do. I held my cheek is total disbelief. He hit me! He hit me when he knew I couldn't defend myself! I was so shocked all I could do was listen.
"Dad…I'm sorry." Was all Gohan could say. I stood up a bit shakily and backed away from Gohan. In my condition Gohan could easily hit me again without me defending. I was afraid he would.
"Just stay back!" I shouted out. I knew he was upset but he didn't have to hit me! I know what I said was wrong, but he had no right to treat me like I was weak and helpless. He walks closer while I continue to back away slowly. Being blind I had no idea what was behind me, I had to feel what was there. I finally backed into a tree.
"Dad please! Just stand still!" My saiyan instincts screamed to fight back. They wanted to fight but my heart and mind knew better. All I wanted to do was get away from a person who could hurt me in my time of need. Gohan then pinned me against the tree. I had no way out.
"Dad I'm sorry! Please just talk to me!" He shouted out. I shook my head. I knew he wouldn't, his anger always managed to get the best of him.
"If I only do, you'll hit me! Gohan I can't fight back! I can't defend myself! I know what I said angered you, and I knew I shouldn't have. Hitting me was not the answer." I said shakily. I pushed him off. I may not be able to fight but I still had my strength.
"I know dad. Just please!" I hit him in return. I glare at him with my gray eyes. He's shocked beyond belief.
"If you think my words were mean, then you have no clue what will hurt. I'm sick and tired of you and ChiChi thinking I'm helpless just because I can't see. Well guess what? I'm not as helpless as you think!" I spat as I begin walking away. I headed for the house leaving Gohan behind in total shock.
Two hours later I made it back to my house. I was way beyond angry. I knew that when I got inside ChiChi would definitely yell at me. Maybe if I was lucky, I would become deaf too. Then I would be able to block out all the hurtful words. I entered the house. It was quiet, too quiet. I sat on the couch when ChiChi walked in.
"Goku!" She growled at me. I knew she would be mad, but then I heard a second pair or feet. Gohan got here faster than I did and he told ChiChi.
"What do you two want?" I spat out angrily. ChiChi walked up to me and slapped me. I let her knowing this was only the beginning of what was to come.
"Gohan told me what happened and where he found you! He was lucky to find you at all! With you being blind you could have easily lost your way!" She screamed out. I let out a grunt of annoyance.
"The he should have told you what I said to him too?" I said. ChiChi made an agreeing noise and probably shook her head.
"He said it all. I was glad he found you, and I was hurt by what you thought!" She snapped. I laid back hoping she would finish up soon with her put downs.
"Then you know why I'm angry?" I ask calmly. She made another agreeing noise. I sat up angrily. She sat next to me while Gohan sat at my feet.
"I knew it was hard for you Goku. Everything you said was true. Gohan and I don't know how things are like for you. We don't know how you feel or what you feel. We could only guess that this entire situation made you scarred." She said as she placed a hand on my own. I tensed for a moment before relaxing.
"Then why do you constantly treat me as if I can't handle anything?" I ask now resting my head on her shoulder. She pauses trying to think of an answer.
"Because we are worried you might hurt yourself dad. We don't want anything to happen to you in this time." Gohan said. ChiChi nodded and wrapped her arms around my waist. She began stroking my hair causing me to relax more and purr. Gohan stood up and sat next to me.
"I called Videl and Goten. They are on their way here. They will be here soon." Just as Gohan finished there was a knock on the door. Gohan stood up and answered it, opening the door Videl, Pan, and Goten entered. My glasses still hid my eyes. The rest of my family sat down in front of me.
"Thanks for coming Videl. Same for you too bro." Gohan said. They both nodded while Gohan took a seat next to me. ChiChi stood up while I nudged her. Getting the hint to skip the long story and get straight to the point.
"I'm glad you guys. I don't want to make this long so I will just make this easy and cut straight to the point." ChiChi took a deep breath while I took her hand. She squeezed gently while I nodded.
"Goku is blind." Those three words were enough to silence the entire house. Goten was the first to break the silence.
"How did this happen dad?!" he shouted out. I winced slightly. I felt Chichi hug me for reassurance as I removed the glasses and showed them my eyes. All three gasped in shock.
"Vegeta and I sparred. He hit me in the head too hard and it caused me to loose my sight." I said in complete guilt. Pan walked up to me and sat in my lap. She hugged me in sorrow.
"I'm sorry Grandpa." is what she says to me. I hug her a little harder. Videl walked up to me and put a hand on my shoulder. Goten sat at my feet and out a hand on my knee. They all gave me their sympathy.
"Goku what can we do to help you?" Videl asks gently. I lean my head back and sigh.
"Changing the past might help. I know you can't but it would help." Pan hopped of my lap as I stand up. I put the glasses back on while ChiChi stands up.
"I'm taking Goku to Capsule Corp. We are going to tell everyone about Goku's condition." ChiChi said as she latched on to my arm.
"Then we are all going. Dad needs all of us there." Gohan said proudly. ChiChi scowled at him.
"It's ok ChiChi. Gohan is right. I'll need all the support I can get." I said knowing it would make the rest of the family happy. Chichi sighed and lead me outside. We hopped into the family air car and drove off to Capsule Corp.
We arrived at Capsule Corps in less than two hours. ChiChi was very upset at the traffic. She pulled me into the house after Bulma lead us in.
"No one is here yet ChiChi. Give them another half an hour." Chichi nodded and walked off with Bulma. Pan went to go find Trunks. Poor kid, she was probably going to annoy him. Gohan ran off to catch up with Chichi as well Goten. I was left alone.
I sensed Vegeta training so I headed his way. I walked along the corridors carefully, making sure not to run into anything. I finally came to the gravity room. I could feel Vegeta training hard and hear his blasts. I wish I could see him moving. I bet he was graceful and showed much strength. I walked in and put my stick away. He must have heard me because the next moment I was hit by a blast. I hit the wall hard and slide down. I grunted in pain as I hung my head. Vegeta flew to my side wondering what the heck happened.
"I caught you off-guard didn't I Kakarott?" He said mocking me. I lifted up my head and nodded. He didn't make another sound, I could only guess he was inspecting me.
"Kakarott why are you wearing sunglasses?" He said as he pulled them off. I threw an arm over my eyes to block Vegeta's view of my eyes. He growled as he pulled the arm away and forced me to stand.
"I like to wear sun glasses." I said cheerfully as I snatched them back and put them back on. He grunted in reply.
"Well prepare for defeat Kakarott because today you're going down." He said. I tried to tell him not to fight but it was too late. He punched me sending my flying back into another wall. I stood up but he charged once again.
"Vegeta please stop-" I shouted out. He didn't and he punched me again. He continued to punch me until I absolutely refused to stand. He walked over to my sitting form and grabbed my throat. He lifted me up til I was eye level with him. I was totally scared. Vegeta could kill me unless I told him about what happened.
"Why aren't you fighting back Kakarott? Am I too much for the third class baka?" He boasted. I reached up with my hands trying to get him to release me throat. He did and I fell to the floor. My glasses fell off my head as I struggled to find them. Vegeta watched me in confusion.
"I can't fight you Vegeta. Not until I restore my sight." I said as I continued to look around with my hands for my glasses. Vegeta looked on then grabbed my glasses.
"Are these what you're looking for?" He said taunting me. He began teasing me by letting me touch the glasses but not letting me have them. I became very angry and struck him. My fist made contact with his jaw sending him flying. He hit a wall with a graceless thud. I walked over to him looking for my glasses. He growled and then jumped me. He pinned me to the ground. My eyes were closed but I still struggled to get him off.
"Open your eyes Kakarott!" He spat in my face I shook my head and glared at him. I tried to force him off but it didn't work. "Open your eyes or I will break those glasses!" I froze immediately. I stop squirming, but I refused to open my eyes.
"Even if I open my eyes Vegeta, I still wouldn't be able to see anything!" I snapped at Vegeta. He paused then got off me. Pulling my up he began.
"What do you mean Kakarott?" He asked in utter confusion. He handed me my glasses but I didn't put them on. Instead I opened my eyes.
"Because Vegeta! I am Blind!"