Snape's Secret Past, a FF
Why is Snape so angry and irritable all the time? I've read the
stories about how maybe he loved Lily Evans, but that only explains why he
hated James Potter and Harry so much. It doesn't really convince me why he
turned to the dark side.
No, there has to be something darker there, something so painful that he had so much anger in him that it was all he could do to join the dark side. I believe it could only be the loss of a loved one. And when everything went down after the defeat of the Dark Lord, only Dumbledore trusted him enough to give him a job. And so now he's been stuck in this dead in job , no where else to go, with a broken heart. And then here comes Harry only to remind him of his 1st love Lily.
So, here's my story. It is my sincere hope that the last 2 books have some element of this story, but if not I'll survive. Besides, I'm not JK and I don't know how she thinks, and as you will see, I like sad endings!! Snape fans, bear with me, this is gonna start with Harry, but it will eventually work into Snape's past.
Chapter 1: back to school: Harry stepped off the Hogwarts Express and looked over the lake to the magestic castle he loved to call home. It had been only a few months since he last saw it, but it felt like way too long. Someone behind him yelled, "Hey, Harry are you coming or what?" Harry responded, "Yeah, hold on a minute Hermione. Where's Ron?" Hermione shrugged her shoulders. Just then, Ron fell out of the train, followed by none other than Draco Malfoy.
"Where's Potter?" Draco demanded. "Harry, I tried to stop him," Ron exclaimed. Harry walked past where Ron had fallen and stared right into Draco's face. "What do you want now, Malfoy."(And yes that's a . not a ?) Harry asked. "Ah, Potter, glad I finally found you. I looked for you for hours on the train, but couldn't seem to find you. I thought maybe you were hiding!" Malfoy laughed. Harry responded, "I'm not afraid of you Malfoy, what is it?"
"Well," said Malfoy, "I was going to ask you if you planned on making a name for yourself again this year?" Harry was filled with rage. "Because if you are, I want to be the first to congratulate you on your stupidity!" he laughed even louder now. Then, Malfoy looked serious at Harry, "This year you won't be as lucky as in years past, Potter." Harry was about to say something back, when Hagrid walked up and directed everyone to where they needed to go. "First years follow me," as he always said. "Harry come on," Hermione said, "Grynifords follow me!" Ron walked up beside Harry, "This is going to be just great! With her as a Prefect, we won't have any fun!" Harry laughed, but he was happy for her.
The first month of school went as normal. Their classes only seemed to get harder, especially Potions. It seemed Snape was even more upset than usual. Other than that, not many exciting things were happening. With Fred and George gone, Ron wasn't up for much. "I feel like this place isn't fun anymore," Ron told Harry one afternoon in early October in the common's room. Harry looked at him dumbfounded, "Well, yeah I guess, with Hermione breathing down our backs all the time." Ron nodded.
Just then, Hermione walked up, "What are you two doing?" "Just our homework, Hermione," Harry answered. Ron added, "I guess you've rubbed off on us." Hermione smiled, "Well, don't get any bright ideas. This year, I'm not going to bail you out." Ron looked annoyed, "Why did you come bother us?" Hermione was taken aback by his attitude, "Well, I was going to tell you that the teacher's have decided to have a Spring dance next semester!" And with that she walked off. Ron and Harry looked at each other. Ron asked, "Did she want one of us to ask her or something?" "I don't know," Harry answered.
One morning, Harry received a letter from Sirius. He wanted Harry to know that he had moved again, but was keeping an eye on things. Sirius's letter warned Harry to be careful, things were too quiet. "He just can't except the fact that maybe you- know-who isn't as powerful as everyone thinks yet!" Ron muttered. Hermione looked at him oddly, "I wouldn't be so confident Ron." Harry looked at both of them, "Yes, but until something serious happens, I don't even want to think about that.that thing." Hermione nodded, "Yes, good idea Harry. You two do not need to be getting yourselves into trouble this year.
Ron jumped in, "US 2!! I do believe that you usually manage to get yourself involved!" Hermione didn't answer. Harry thought about how the school year had been going. It did seem a little quiet. He had noticed that for such a quiet time, Dumbledore was very busy and Snape had been absent from class quite a few times.
One day, at breakfast Harry noticed Ron acting strange. He wasn't eating either. "Are you ok?" he asked. "Yeah, I've just had a bad headache since I woke up this morning. And I feel if I eat anything, I'm gonna puck!" Ron answered. "Well, maybe you should go see Madame Pomfrey," Harry said kindly, "There's some weird bug going around you know." "Yeah," Hermione added, "Neville's been out all week." "Let's go see him after Potions," Harry said.
So, after breakfast the three headed to potions, where Snape proceeded to give Ron an especially hard time simply because he was sick. Afterwards, they were heading toward the hospital wing when Ron fell over. Hermione, walking behind him up the stairs, caught him as he fell back. "Are you ok, Ron?" Harry asked. "No, I don't think so anymore!" Ron thanked Hermione as he stood back up. She offered, "Maybe we should carry you." Ron tried to say no, but before he knew it, she had already put one of his arms around her shoulder. Harry took Ron's other arm and together they walked up to the hospital wing where Madame Pomfrey immediately took him and wouldn't let either Harry or Hermione near him. All they got out of her was, "It's better if you let him rest for a few days, now get out!"
So, for the next few days, Harry and Hermione tried to do their studies and not think about their friend, but not even Hermione could concentrate. So, one day, while Hermione was in class and Harry had a break, Harry went to see Ron. He was very pale, but brightened up a little when he saw Harry. "Hey, where have you been?" Ron asked enthusiastically. Harry simply smiled, "How are you feeling?" "Better," Ron replied. "We missed you at the Halloween feast, it wasn't the same." "Yeah," Ron signed, "it wasn't the same for me either."
The two exchanged a little laugh. "Well, Madame P. says I should be good as new in a few weeks. Neville's getting out next week!" Ron exclaimed. "That's great!" Harry answered. Ron asked "So, how's Hermione doing? I hope she isn't worrying about me too much." "Oh, she's worrying as much as she normally does," Harry replied with a laugh. "Yeah, she sure is great, isn't she?" Ron stated. Harry looked at him with suspicion, "What do you mean Ron?" "Well, I. I just." "Spit it out," Harry replied, "Do you like her or something?"
Ron was silent for a minute, "Well, of course I like her, but I think I .really like, like her." Harry stood stunned. "Actually, I was gonna tell you Harry," Ron continued, "but then I got sick and all." "When did this happen??!!" Harry yelled. "I don't know," Ron answered in shame. "You just didn't wake up one day and decide 'Oh I like Hermione now' did you?" Harry continued to shout. "SHH!!" Rom exclaimed, "You don't have to tell the whole world! Look, it just happened, I guess over time, just different things until one day I realized how wonderful she is, and she is wonderful Harry." Harry couldn't say anything, he couldn't even think. He sat down after a minute because he was afraid he'd pass out if he stood any longer. "So why did you tell me this?" Harry finally asked. "Well, I thought, since I'm stuck here, maybe you could, maybe, talk to her for me?" Ron asked softly. "WHAT!?" Harry exclaimed, "Are you crazy? I just can't walk up to her and say 'Hey Hermione, Ron's got this huge crush on you, how do you feel about that?'" "I'm not saying you have to or anything," Ron said in disgust.
Harry thought for a minute while he stared at Ron. What would happen if Hermione didn't feel the same way? "Ok, I'll work on it," Harry finally answered. Ron's face brightened up again. "If it'll make you get better faster, then I'll do it. But I'm not promising anything, this could take some time," Harry replied. "That's fine, maybe you can find out without having to really tell her, just question her a bit," Ron exclaimed. "We'll see," was all Harry could say. And so, he promised Ron, he wouldn't tell anyone their plan and that he'd come by everyday to give him updates.
Harry walked back to the Common Room in distress. How could he possibly pull this off? As he walked in, he was still pondering this, when he saw Hermione sitting in a chair with a book. She looked up at Harry, "Where have you been?" "I went to see Ron," he explained. "Oh," Hermione seemed to excuse his absence. Harry started to walk up the stairs, but then decided to get it over with. "Hermione," he asked, "Do you think we could take a walk around the lake tomorrow morning?" Hermione looked perplexed, "Sure, is their something you need to tell me?" "No," Harry answered, "I just need to take a walk. It'd be nice to have some company." Hermione smiled, "Sure Harry." And with that he turned back up stairs and went to take a nap before dinner.
No, there has to be something darker there, something so painful that he had so much anger in him that it was all he could do to join the dark side. I believe it could only be the loss of a loved one. And when everything went down after the defeat of the Dark Lord, only Dumbledore trusted him enough to give him a job. And so now he's been stuck in this dead in job , no where else to go, with a broken heart. And then here comes Harry only to remind him of his 1st love Lily.
So, here's my story. It is my sincere hope that the last 2 books have some element of this story, but if not I'll survive. Besides, I'm not JK and I don't know how she thinks, and as you will see, I like sad endings!! Snape fans, bear with me, this is gonna start with Harry, but it will eventually work into Snape's past.
Chapter 1: back to school: Harry stepped off the Hogwarts Express and looked over the lake to the magestic castle he loved to call home. It had been only a few months since he last saw it, but it felt like way too long. Someone behind him yelled, "Hey, Harry are you coming or what?" Harry responded, "Yeah, hold on a minute Hermione. Where's Ron?" Hermione shrugged her shoulders. Just then, Ron fell out of the train, followed by none other than Draco Malfoy.
"Where's Potter?" Draco demanded. "Harry, I tried to stop him," Ron exclaimed. Harry walked past where Ron had fallen and stared right into Draco's face. "What do you want now, Malfoy."(And yes that's a . not a ?) Harry asked. "Ah, Potter, glad I finally found you. I looked for you for hours on the train, but couldn't seem to find you. I thought maybe you were hiding!" Malfoy laughed. Harry responded, "I'm not afraid of you Malfoy, what is it?"
"Well," said Malfoy, "I was going to ask you if you planned on making a name for yourself again this year?" Harry was filled with rage. "Because if you are, I want to be the first to congratulate you on your stupidity!" he laughed even louder now. Then, Malfoy looked serious at Harry, "This year you won't be as lucky as in years past, Potter." Harry was about to say something back, when Hagrid walked up and directed everyone to where they needed to go. "First years follow me," as he always said. "Harry come on," Hermione said, "Grynifords follow me!" Ron walked up beside Harry, "This is going to be just great! With her as a Prefect, we won't have any fun!" Harry laughed, but he was happy for her.
The first month of school went as normal. Their classes only seemed to get harder, especially Potions. It seemed Snape was even more upset than usual. Other than that, not many exciting things were happening. With Fred and George gone, Ron wasn't up for much. "I feel like this place isn't fun anymore," Ron told Harry one afternoon in early October in the common's room. Harry looked at him dumbfounded, "Well, yeah I guess, with Hermione breathing down our backs all the time." Ron nodded.
Just then, Hermione walked up, "What are you two doing?" "Just our homework, Hermione," Harry answered. Ron added, "I guess you've rubbed off on us." Hermione smiled, "Well, don't get any bright ideas. This year, I'm not going to bail you out." Ron looked annoyed, "Why did you come bother us?" Hermione was taken aback by his attitude, "Well, I was going to tell you that the teacher's have decided to have a Spring dance next semester!" And with that she walked off. Ron and Harry looked at each other. Ron asked, "Did she want one of us to ask her or something?" "I don't know," Harry answered.
One morning, Harry received a letter from Sirius. He wanted Harry to know that he had moved again, but was keeping an eye on things. Sirius's letter warned Harry to be careful, things were too quiet. "He just can't except the fact that maybe you- know-who isn't as powerful as everyone thinks yet!" Ron muttered. Hermione looked at him oddly, "I wouldn't be so confident Ron." Harry looked at both of them, "Yes, but until something serious happens, I don't even want to think about that.that thing." Hermione nodded, "Yes, good idea Harry. You two do not need to be getting yourselves into trouble this year.
Ron jumped in, "US 2!! I do believe that you usually manage to get yourself involved!" Hermione didn't answer. Harry thought about how the school year had been going. It did seem a little quiet. He had noticed that for such a quiet time, Dumbledore was very busy and Snape had been absent from class quite a few times.
One day, at breakfast Harry noticed Ron acting strange. He wasn't eating either. "Are you ok?" he asked. "Yeah, I've just had a bad headache since I woke up this morning. And I feel if I eat anything, I'm gonna puck!" Ron answered. "Well, maybe you should go see Madame Pomfrey," Harry said kindly, "There's some weird bug going around you know." "Yeah," Hermione added, "Neville's been out all week." "Let's go see him after Potions," Harry said.
So, after breakfast the three headed to potions, where Snape proceeded to give Ron an especially hard time simply because he was sick. Afterwards, they were heading toward the hospital wing when Ron fell over. Hermione, walking behind him up the stairs, caught him as he fell back. "Are you ok, Ron?" Harry asked. "No, I don't think so anymore!" Ron thanked Hermione as he stood back up. She offered, "Maybe we should carry you." Ron tried to say no, but before he knew it, she had already put one of his arms around her shoulder. Harry took Ron's other arm and together they walked up to the hospital wing where Madame Pomfrey immediately took him and wouldn't let either Harry or Hermione near him. All they got out of her was, "It's better if you let him rest for a few days, now get out!"
So, for the next few days, Harry and Hermione tried to do their studies and not think about their friend, but not even Hermione could concentrate. So, one day, while Hermione was in class and Harry had a break, Harry went to see Ron. He was very pale, but brightened up a little when he saw Harry. "Hey, where have you been?" Ron asked enthusiastically. Harry simply smiled, "How are you feeling?" "Better," Ron replied. "We missed you at the Halloween feast, it wasn't the same." "Yeah," Ron signed, "it wasn't the same for me either."
The two exchanged a little laugh. "Well, Madame P. says I should be good as new in a few weeks. Neville's getting out next week!" Ron exclaimed. "That's great!" Harry answered. Ron asked "So, how's Hermione doing? I hope she isn't worrying about me too much." "Oh, she's worrying as much as she normally does," Harry replied with a laugh. "Yeah, she sure is great, isn't she?" Ron stated. Harry looked at him with suspicion, "What do you mean Ron?" "Well, I. I just." "Spit it out," Harry replied, "Do you like her or something?"
Ron was silent for a minute, "Well, of course I like her, but I think I .really like, like her." Harry stood stunned. "Actually, I was gonna tell you Harry," Ron continued, "but then I got sick and all." "When did this happen??!!" Harry yelled. "I don't know," Ron answered in shame. "You just didn't wake up one day and decide 'Oh I like Hermione now' did you?" Harry continued to shout. "SHH!!" Rom exclaimed, "You don't have to tell the whole world! Look, it just happened, I guess over time, just different things until one day I realized how wonderful she is, and she is wonderful Harry." Harry couldn't say anything, he couldn't even think. He sat down after a minute because he was afraid he'd pass out if he stood any longer. "So why did you tell me this?" Harry finally asked. "Well, I thought, since I'm stuck here, maybe you could, maybe, talk to her for me?" Ron asked softly. "WHAT!?" Harry exclaimed, "Are you crazy? I just can't walk up to her and say 'Hey Hermione, Ron's got this huge crush on you, how do you feel about that?'" "I'm not saying you have to or anything," Ron said in disgust.
Harry thought for a minute while he stared at Ron. What would happen if Hermione didn't feel the same way? "Ok, I'll work on it," Harry finally answered. Ron's face brightened up again. "If it'll make you get better faster, then I'll do it. But I'm not promising anything, this could take some time," Harry replied. "That's fine, maybe you can find out without having to really tell her, just question her a bit," Ron exclaimed. "We'll see," was all Harry could say. And so, he promised Ron, he wouldn't tell anyone their plan and that he'd come by everyday to give him updates.
Harry walked back to the Common Room in distress. How could he possibly pull this off? As he walked in, he was still pondering this, when he saw Hermione sitting in a chair with a book. She looked up at Harry, "Where have you been?" "I went to see Ron," he explained. "Oh," Hermione seemed to excuse his absence. Harry started to walk up the stairs, but then decided to get it over with. "Hermione," he asked, "Do you think we could take a walk around the lake tomorrow morning?" Hermione looked perplexed, "Sure, is their something you need to tell me?" "No," Harry answered, "I just need to take a walk. It'd be nice to have some company." Hermione smiled, "Sure Harry." And with that he turned back up stairs and went to take a nap before dinner.