Lauren: I don't own the song "The World" by Yuki Kajiura, from the anime series "hack//SIGN". Wow...everything seems to be getting shorter, such as review replies. It might be because there are fewer questions or I'm just too lazy and tired! Ah, very sad!
IsleofSolitude- I'm scared. Everybody is threatening me! Hopefully this will hold you all off for now!
Broken Dreams- Aw...thank you! *glomp*
Tori & cherrymecha- You both will just have to wait to find out! Or read on! ^_^;
Chavi West-Wind- Don't worry, you're not the only one who found the hell joke funny! And don't worry, nothing anyone really says is annoying (except for the threats I've been receiving to castrate Inuyasha! No!!!!!)
Cataluna- No, this doesn't happen in the real series. The entire series isn't even completed yet in Japan!!
Aberuncate- Yeah, there is just something hot about elves! And please don't hurt me! XD! It's so evil, I'm in this RPG my friend started but I swear, EVERYBODY in it is an ELF! I mean, elf's rock and I was one for Halloween, but everyone can't be one. So to make it different I decided to be a cat/human hybrid. ^_^;;
Zel no miko- *cowers* Um...help? Dude! I can't believe it took me this long to discover your wonderful fanfics! You're such a good author, I can't believe you're wasting your time reading my story!
T'laren- I'm not sure if I'm going to have Kouga and Inuyasha go at it- at least not yet. Sorry to disappoint you though!
B-chan- I don't know if there's a difference between ja ne and ja na. Sorry! Inuyasha was able to punch into the wall because he was blinded by rage and has many sexy large muscles even for a human. =)
Fate- Be afraid. Be very afraid. D
Tonia Barone- Hi! Ah, yes, it might be a bit confusing if you haven't seen much. You can read up on a lot of spoilers from web sites though, if you want because there's a lot more to Inuyasha that what Cartoon Network has shown so far. And to answer your question, Kagome was mostly just too panicked, depressed and afraid to try to pretend she was sane. She was questioning her own sanity often and she also wanted some of the protection in her cell because she knew the demon that attacked her & killed her grandfather couldn't find her there or get in there. I hope that explains it for you!
~*~ Where Did You Go? ~*~
~By: Lauren~
-Chapter 14-
"Sweet Insanity"
A quandary look passed on Kagome's face. She had to speak with Inuyasha. Somehow...she had to get to him. She just had to! Lifting up her hand, she brushed a strand of midnight black hair behind her ear. But how? How was she going to speak with him? He wasn't allowed to see her! To even enter her cell! Rapid thoughts raced through her mind as she searched for a way- any way- to contact him. An impassive look graced her face as a single idea formulated slowly.
Kaede. The kind old nurse would surely allow Kagome to see Inuyasha; after all, he was her boyfriend, was he not? Or so Kaede thought but she wasn't very wrong actually. It made perfect sense. If Kagome could somehow get herself down to the infirmary then, without Kouga's or anyone else's knowledge, she could beg Kaede to bring Inuyasha down to see her. She would surely comply with Kagome's wishes.
But how could she get down to the clinic's infirmary?
It wasn't like Kagome could fake being sick. She had no lamp to hold a thermometer against or a hot water bottle to press against her head to give her a high temperature. She had no pepper to smell to make her sneeze or a spray bottle to soak herself with water occasionally. In fact, she had nothing that was of any use to her.
~*~
You are here alone again
In your sweet insanity
All too calm, you hide yourself from reality
Do you call it solitude? Do you call it liberty?
~*~
She sighed, letting her helpless feelings eat away at her. She was all alone in a room, something she was so sick of. Kagome muttered insanely to herself as she chewed madly on her lip in thought about her life. It was so immutable and half of it she went through being callous- after the well was sealed, that is. Kagome was nothing but a pariah and she would sequester from others. She was destined to be alone. Even if the voice told her she had to stop this demon, how could she do so locked up in some asylum? She tried to make herself appear placid but her own confusion kept creeping into her expressions.
Then a thought came to her but it was very absurd. Except...it might just work. Kagome shivered as she tried to find a way to injure herself. If she could do that, then they'd have no choice but to bring her down to the infirmary. But what to do...? Something that wasn't too painful. Kagome's eyes scanned the room but she found nothing sharp. Her eyes fell upon the bathroom door but she shook the idea out of her head. Through the opened doorway, she noticed the metal, round sink. She stood up, her body trembling as she gulped and took in a deep breath. From the distance, she could see herself in the bathroom mirror. Why hadn't she noticed that before? She looked at her reflection. She was squalid and ugly.
She had bags under her eyes and her skin was a ghastly pale from so many days being kept indoors. Her baggy clothing did nothing for her figure and her raven hair hung limply around her head. Her eyes became sullen as the idea of giving up appeared in her mind. She shook it out, refusing to give up when she had come this far. She would not let her grandfather's death be for nothing. Her hands fingered the pinkish-white scar on her side. Walking up to the mirror, a grim expression settled on her face, giving her a vindictive appearance. Growling, she pulled back her arm and clenched her hands into a fist. Biting down on her lip, she slammed her fist as hard as she could into the mirror. Crimson blood and pieces of the mirror shattered and dropped into the sink and on the floor. Pain shot from her bleeding knuckles but she ignored it, putting it out of her mind as a faint feeling overtook her but she ignored it too. Staring into the shattered mirror, there were now a million images of her, all distorted, and her eyes seemed unfocused. Quietly, she murmured to herself, "Please forgive me Inuyasha...but I have to do this..." Her heart was distraught as she backed up to the furthest end of her room. Running forward as fast as she could, she jumped up right before she hit the sink. Her body flew above the sink and smashed into the remaining pieces of the mirror. Her own shrill scream erupted from her throat as she fell to the floor, shards of the mirror now sticking out of her arm and side. Blood stained her ripped clothing as Kouga dashed into her cell, staring at her in shock and alarm.
~*~
When all the world turns away to leave you lonely
The fields are filled with desires
All voices crying for freedom
But all in vain they will fade away
~*~
"NO! I refuse to do that!" Kikyo crossed her arms, planting her feet down firmly. "That goes against every rule of this clinic! If anyone found out, we'd be in deep trouble or arrested or something!"
Inuyasha trembled as a strange shiver ran down his spine. Something was wrong. Trying to shake it off, he continued to follow Kikyo down the hallway. "Please Kikyo, you've got to agree! You have to help me! Please! I've never asked anything of you before..."
Kikyo rolled her eyes. "Oh yes you have! Plenty of times you've bummed money off of me, borrowed my car, what else...?"
"Ok, so maybe I have in the past but...please! I'm begging you!" Inuyasha pleaded, putting on large, watery eyes.
"Why is it so important any ways?" Kikyo questioned, eyeing Inuyasha down. "Is she really that important to you?"
Inuyasha nodded yes. "She's the one, I know it." He sighed. "But please Kikyo! You've got to do this one thing for me! I'll never bug you again- ever. I'll be nice to you every single day! I'll be your psychiatrist for free even!"
"Don't say something like that." She snorted. "And no, I'm not going to do it. It'll be lying to Naraku- it's illegal too!"
Inuyasha fought another urge to punch Kikyo or the wall.
Suddenly, a few nurses ran past him, plainly worried about something. Inuyasha reached out, grabbing one by her arm. "What happened? Why the rush? Miroku after you girls again?" He questioned.
The nurse shook her head. "No. It's that Kagome girl again. This time she ran into the mirror- she's got some bad wounds up and down her side and also on her hand." The nurse turned, running down the hallway towards the clinic's infirmary.
"Dammit Kagome!" Inuyasha cursed louder as he followed after the nurses, Kikyo close behind him.
~*~
There's only you to answer you, forever
In blinded mind you are singing
A glorious hallelujah
The distant flutter of angels
~*~
Inuyasha paced in a tiny waiting room, snarling to himself as he thought up various things to yell at Kagome for her idiotic actions. He smiled briefly. At least he would be able to see her once more...he only wished it wasn't under these circumstances.
Kaede emerged from behind a thick metal door. "She's asking for you." The woman nodded politely to Inuyasha, who was instantly by the door. Behind him, he dragged Kikyo into the room. "But be careful. We were unable to strap her down because of the places her wounds are at, so lock the door behind you." Inuyasha ignored the woman's warning.
"Why do I have to come?" Kikyo hissed.
"Because I want you to." Inuyasha retorted before he entered the room, shutting the door behind him.
Kagome was sprawled out on a stark white bed. Her arm was bandaged along with her entire hand and Inuyasha realized she had more bandages on under her shirt. Worry filled his eyes as he ran forward, bringing Kagome into a tight hug.
Tears dripped down Kagome's face as she hugged him back, for once feeling safe and protected. "It hurts..." She gasped as Inuyasha squeezed her wounds while holding her.
"Sorry." He muttered, letting her lay back down in the bed. Kagome didn't notice the other person who was standing in a dark corner of the room.
Kikyo stared at Kagome in shock, taking note of their eerie resemblance as Inuyasha had mentioned. Strangely, for some odd reason, Kikyo had the sudden feeling that she owed this woman something. She felt as if she had to redeem herself somehow to Kagome.
Kagome stared up into Inuyasha's eyes as he began to speak but she quickly silenced him. "I know, you've been taken off of my case, but that's unimportant. Listen- someone talked to me in my dreams. I know it sounds crazy but they told me why the well was sealed and why you're receiving your memories only now. It told me why I still remember when everyone else forgot and it gave me a mission. Something is after the Shikon no Tama- our rings- and it's been messing with everybody's lives slowly. Yours, mine, Sango's, Miroku's, Shippo's- everyone's. We have to stop it."
Inuyasha had a look of disbelief on his face at her words.
Kagome's attention snapped away from him as a figure stepped forward into the room's lighting. She hadn't even seen the person there. Her heart jumped into her throat as she saw whom it was.
Kikyo.
Why was she here? Had Inuyasha left her for Kikyo? No- he wouldn't do that. Kikyo must have been reborn also somehow, even if Kagome was her reincarnation. Maybe she was the reincarnation of the mud and bones Kikyo in the past.
"Inuyasha..." Kikyo tapped him on his shoulder.
"Yeah?" Inuyasha gave her a confused look.
"I'll do it." She whispered.
~*~
They're all too far, too far to reach for you
I am here alone again
In my sweet serenity
Hoping you will ever find me in any place
~*~
Inuyasha embraced Kikyo happily, causing Kagome's heart to fill with jealous and pain. "This is great!!" He exclaimed. "Wonderful! Thank you so much!!!" Again, he hugged her.
"What's going on?" Kagome snapped, wanting an answer.
Inuyasha turned to face Kagome, his face beaming with joy. "Kikyo's going to switch places with you and prove you sane. You're going to be free Kagome, I'm going to get you out of here."
All ominous feelings left Kagome as her eyes opened wide with shock.
"I'll face the corner- you two switch clothing quickly so we can get this done with. Kagome, put your extra bandages on Kikyo." Inuyasha ordered.
Both women nodded their heads and proceeded to do as he ordered.
~*~
I will call it solitude when all my songs fade in vain
In my voice, far away to eternity