A New Beginning!
Note: This takes place after Super Sailor Moon comes out of the battle holding baby Hotaru. Call me stupid but I forgot what season that is. But anyway this is a couple of days later. Oh and they are older in this fic. Usagi is going on 18 while Mamoru is 23. Just letting you know shrugs This first part is angsty but it gets better and it WILL have a happy ending R&R!
Prologue: Tortured Soul
It was all she could do to keep her sanity. She would forget. Forget about the hard times, the scary times, and the horrifying times. She would forget it all. Mamoru would forgive her, right? He would understand. The only problem with her solution was that with forgetting the bad things...she had to forget the good. She would do it. She could not go on like this and not become insane. She would not make her friends worry over her. And she certainly would not put herself in danger if ever there was to be another episode like last night.
Last night she had tried to slit her wrist. She wanted to end it all and in a bout of depression and half drugged from lack of sleep she attempted suicide. Mamoru had found her the next morning, lying in her own blood. He had come to her house to surprise her since her parents were gone and found her on the cold tile of the bathroom floor covered in the warm crimson liquid. In his shock he didn't notice the razor blade on the sink, or the broken glass about the sink and floor. He didn't see the slits across her wrist... at first. All his mind had registered was her unconscious body lying in blood sprawled across the floor. He had gone hysterical after he called an ambulance. The doctors feared for his sanity and tried to reassure him everything would be okay. He laughed at them and hit his fist to the wall only serving to make a huge dent and bloody knuckles to be taken care of.
The scouts were worried to death over her and all of them were in tears. Nobody had expected it. She was always so full of life and cared so much about others. And if she had no self respect she would have at least considered what would have happened to the people who loved her. How they would react. But she was too caught up in her own depression to realize what exactly she was doing. She hadn't slept in three days prior to the event which didn't help her reasoning side at all.
But now was different. Now she wasn't going to kill herself. That would hurt the ones that loved her too much. She would just forget. They have all done it before. What would be so bad about it now? She would meet the scouts all over again and fall in love with Mamoru all over again. She would even discover Sailor Moon all over again. And after all that she had been through Amnesia wouldn't be that hard. She would have Mamoru by her side the whole time. He knows what its like to not have your memory, never mind that she didn't want it anyway.
Her mind was made up. She had gotten away from Rei at the temple and was headed to Mamoru's house. She would tell him of what she was doing and then run like hell. By the time he would find her she would be unconscious from the effect of the silver imperium crystal after it had taken her memory. Her plan was perfect and already being put into action. As she walked down the street she took a detour to her house to leave a note for Luna to find. She would explain everything to her old feline friend and beg for her to never give her back her full memory.
She ran up to the tree outside of her window and climbed up until she was able to see over her balcony. She peered inside to make sure Luna wasn't there yet and jumped onto the balcony. No problem. She grabbed a hold of the handle to the sliding door and pulled. Locked. What was she going to do now? She couldn't go through with the plan without letting Luna know. She had to get this note to Luna. No ifs, ands, or buts about it!
She looked to her right, and then to her left. She saw a potted plant and grabbed it fully intending to break the window. Right when she was about to throw it she saw Luna standing at the door looking at her wide eyed. The cat ran up to the door franticly trying to open it. She smiled and sat the pot down. She took out her note and placed it under the pot and made sure Luna could see it. Luna had huge eyes as she realized her friend was leaving again.
After jumping back over the balcony and landing with an 'oof' she got up and dusted herself off as she was once again on her way to Mamoru's.
She looked up in the distance and saw his apartment building. She counted how many windows he was up then across and noticed his light on. She frowned in confusion of why he wasn't asleep like the other sane people. It was three in the morning. She walked up to the building and to the elevator. Once she got to his floor and at his door she hesitated. What if she couldn't get away from him after she told him? What if he didn't understand? Before she had time to contemplate this she was pulled inside by a strong pair of arms. She gasped in surprise.
"How did you know I was there?"
He laughed and answered "I know everything about you, Tsukino Usagi. I could feel you there. Our soul bond is very strong and since I was thinking about you it was easier for me to feel where you were, Love." He held her close to him. His arms wrapped around her shoulders with his hands resting on his arms. She leaned her back up against him and shivered when he kissed her temple. Wait! This wasn't what she came here for. She straightened up quickly and turned around only to be met with Mamoru's charming smile. "Sit" Was the only word he said as he motioned for the couch. He led her over and sat down. She was still standing. He sighed and rubbed his hand through his hair. "Usako... I know."
She frowned at him. What did he know? "Know what?"
"Sit down, Usako, Please?" She sat down and he continued, "I know why you came here. I had a nightmare and was worried about you so I searched your mind to make sure you were alright. You weren't." He paused to find her reaction but the last couple of weeks she had been just a shell. Not even Mamoru could read her expressions anymore. But he could read her heart still. "I understand Usako and I'll be right here with you, if you'll let me. Let me help. I know you want to forget this ...and I know that if you do you'll forget me too, but... Usako I don't want you to run off. I'll always be there for you." She was in tears now and reached over to wrap her arms around his neck. She leaned over and they kissed. It was long and passionate and she cried her soul into the kiss.
"I love you." She whispered as she pulled away. She touched her brooch and concentrated on nothing at all. A few seconds later she fell unconscious in the arms of her true love.
Author NotesI wrote the prologue a long time ago and had it as its own little story but then I FINALLY got together enough courage to tackle it as a multi chapter story. lol. I am actually very proud of this fic so far. I hope you enjoy it.