Beneath the Waves
~ This is a story form Cecil's point of view about the situation w/ Sai Sici~
That day, when I left for the colonies was bittersweet. I Cecil Holgar, would be happy to return home to my nation but sad to be leaving my one time love. What can I say? I'm a teenager, I fall in love, but somehow this didn't feel like, puppy-love anymore. It felt different it felt real.
I was sad when my brother was defeated, very sad, but I couldn't help but feel that pang of relief when the match was over. Both my brother and my so called boyfriend were alright. After that I don't know what I was feeling, it all seemed to unreal. I didn't want to leave Neo-Hong Kong, but then his words came flooding back to me, those words he said before the match.....
"So you're going to go easy on us because you think we're going to lose." " Cecil, it's not that....." " Well then what is it?" " Mermaid Gundam is in pretty bad shape, if it gets destroyed then you'll have to return to you nation. And, and then, I might never see you again."
He didn't want me to leave, but I had too. I had to leave him behind. I now can only hope that he wins the Gundam Fight so I can see him again. Even if he doesn't love me anymore I would love to have him as my friend. If he didn't love me, I don't think I would be able to get over him. There's just something about him that I just can't explain with words. When I'm around him I'm at ease, like something is telling me that he's the one. It's too early for all that though. After all, I'm only 16.
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I left for the colonies the next day, defeated and in the dumps. The one thing that I didn't want to happen happened. We were leaving. What could I expect Sai Sici was an excellent fighter and member of the Shuffle Alliance, and I was the sister to the defeated fighter of Neo-Denmark. It really helped that he came to say good bye. I guess he really does care. That's a good thing right? Besides, I know that I'll eventually see him again. It isn't the end of the world.
Traveling home to the colonies wasn't easy, especially with my brother breathing down my neck the whole time. He was constantly, making jokes about his baby sister being in love, but I'm not a baby anymore. I'm not sure he realizes that. He just kept asking me questions. He was asking me all about my "boyfriend" and when I was going to see him again. I mostly ignored him but I told him I would see him after the Gundam Fight was over. Hans left me alone after that. I'm glad, no offense to him, but it's not easy to talk about boys with brother. It just feels awkward.
Half the time we were traveling I was thinking of my life and how alone I was in the world. Let's look at the facts, my parents are dead and since I follow my brother around, I don't have a lot of friends. Sai Sici is one of the few I have. I'm glad that I have him at least. I wonder if he knows how important he is too me. I hope I'm important to him. Hey, what can I say? I'm a teenager, I fall in love. But I don't fall in love often, although many people say I'll be a real knockout when I grow older. Personally, I'd like to wait and keep my baby sweet face for a while. I'd like to be innocent for a while longer, just a while though.
We finally reached the colonies. It was the same as I remember, artificial. Earth was so much more beautiful than this piece of astro- turf, but hey, home is home. We reach our house and the first thing I unpack is a picture of Sai Sici. I guess this is what it feels like to be in love. You feel completely alone and separate from the rest of the world. Who knows, someday I'll be reunited with Sai Sici, but until then, this is more then just a crush. This is more than just puppy-love, this is real. It feels real, and I bet it is. I hope it is, because if it's not I think I just might disappear beneath the waves of grief in my heart. But hey, I'm more than just a teenager, I'm a young women, in love with a young man. Oh yeh, I am more than just a teen in love.
~ This is a story form Cecil's point of view about the situation w/ Sai Sici~
That day, when I left for the colonies was bittersweet. I Cecil Holgar, would be happy to return home to my nation but sad to be leaving my one time love. What can I say? I'm a teenager, I fall in love, but somehow this didn't feel like, puppy-love anymore. It felt different it felt real.
I was sad when my brother was defeated, very sad, but I couldn't help but feel that pang of relief when the match was over. Both my brother and my so called boyfriend were alright. After that I don't know what I was feeling, it all seemed to unreal. I didn't want to leave Neo-Hong Kong, but then his words came flooding back to me, those words he said before the match.....
"So you're going to go easy on us because you think we're going to lose." " Cecil, it's not that....." " Well then what is it?" " Mermaid Gundam is in pretty bad shape, if it gets destroyed then you'll have to return to you nation. And, and then, I might never see you again."
He didn't want me to leave, but I had too. I had to leave him behind. I now can only hope that he wins the Gundam Fight so I can see him again. Even if he doesn't love me anymore I would love to have him as my friend. If he didn't love me, I don't think I would be able to get over him. There's just something about him that I just can't explain with words. When I'm around him I'm at ease, like something is telling me that he's the one. It's too early for all that though. After all, I'm only 16.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I left for the colonies the next day, defeated and in the dumps. The one thing that I didn't want to happen happened. We were leaving. What could I expect Sai Sici was an excellent fighter and member of the Shuffle Alliance, and I was the sister to the defeated fighter of Neo-Denmark. It really helped that he came to say good bye. I guess he really does care. That's a good thing right? Besides, I know that I'll eventually see him again. It isn't the end of the world.
Traveling home to the colonies wasn't easy, especially with my brother breathing down my neck the whole time. He was constantly, making jokes about his baby sister being in love, but I'm not a baby anymore. I'm not sure he realizes that. He just kept asking me questions. He was asking me all about my "boyfriend" and when I was going to see him again. I mostly ignored him but I told him I would see him after the Gundam Fight was over. Hans left me alone after that. I'm glad, no offense to him, but it's not easy to talk about boys with brother. It just feels awkward.
Half the time we were traveling I was thinking of my life and how alone I was in the world. Let's look at the facts, my parents are dead and since I follow my brother around, I don't have a lot of friends. Sai Sici is one of the few I have. I'm glad that I have him at least. I wonder if he knows how important he is too me. I hope I'm important to him. Hey, what can I say? I'm a teenager, I fall in love. But I don't fall in love often, although many people say I'll be a real knockout when I grow older. Personally, I'd like to wait and keep my baby sweet face for a while. I'd like to be innocent for a while longer, just a while though.
We finally reached the colonies. It was the same as I remember, artificial. Earth was so much more beautiful than this piece of astro- turf, but hey, home is home. We reach our house and the first thing I unpack is a picture of Sai Sici. I guess this is what it feels like to be in love. You feel completely alone and separate from the rest of the world. Who knows, someday I'll be reunited with Sai Sici, but until then, this is more then just a crush. This is more than just puppy-love, this is real. It feels real, and I bet it is. I hope it is, because if it's not I think I just might disappear beneath the waves of grief in my heart. But hey, I'm more than just a teenager, I'm a young women, in love with a young man. Oh yeh, I am more than just a teen in love.