I Don't Need A Reason
Chapter 2- Thoughts
IMPORTANT A/N(concerning the characters): I have two things about this chapter. Sorry about the shortness, and two, I wanted to say something about the Tarot cards and Hitomi. The main reason that I will stress the whole point of the cards, is because that I have read in a lot of fics (and I am NOT insulting them by saying this) that after she came home, she dropped the cards completely out of fear(or other reasons) and would not use them. I don't believe that she would do this, in my personal opinion. The adventure on Gaea would have made her a stronger person, and have more confidence in her powers. It was a scary experience, no doubt, but she would be less dependent of them, and more cautious. It is just the way that she used them, and the dependency of them to her on Gaea, I don't think that she would hate them, or have a deep fear of them. This is just MY opinion. Remember, MY opinion. This type of idea I will base a lot of my plot and character's development. Like Van's dependence on Escaflowne, Merle's dependency on Van, etc. They did make those points of development in the series, later, but I want to continue the idea that they have grown up, and this would have to do a lot with their decisions. ANYWAYS! I wanted to state this because this is a major point in this fic. Well, on with the show!!! Also, I do not own Escaflowne. No way, no how. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------ It still made no sense. It has been a month since that strange occurrence had happened. Not a day in that month had gone by without Hitomi trying to make sense about what all that had meant.
The connection she had with Van had been severed. But that could have happened for many reasons. Plus, the things that she remembered could have been a dream. But, if it was real, that could mean he was...
"No!" I won't think that," Hitomi told herself out loud. Thankfully no one was around to hear her outburst. She was at home, all alone because her parents were out for dinner, their "togetherness" thing, and her brother was at a friend's house, probably rotting his brain out with video games and such. It was good to be home alone every once in a while. With the house being so quiet, it was almost tranquil.
She usually didn't have that. Ever since she came home, her family kept her close. Too close sometimes. But that was good usually, to be loved like that. She was gone for almost three months and her family only became more worried when she spaced out. The only person she told anything totally truthfully to was her mother. She was the only person that understood, or she thought would understand.
The reason was that her grandmother told her mother about what happened to her on the short time on Gaea. Her mom covered for her telling the rest of the family that there was nothing to worry about, and that Hitomi would tell them everything when she was ready. Not even Hitomi was sure when that was, but her father and brother understood and everything turned normal. She was very glad for that.
Her thoughts jumped again, it was the thing that haunted her thoughts everyday for more than a year. She still wanted to go to Gaea even though she chose to go home in the first place. It wasn't like she did not like her life! It was great.
Her family was safe, her friends close, and school was going fine. It was just that, she felt strange on Earth, her home. Ever since her adventure, she had a different outlook on life. Life wasn't just about getting a high grade on a paper, or getting this guy to like you. It had meaning now. The little things meant almost nothing now. Life was made to live, not worry.
But ever since she saw that light in her room and heard that voice, she felt compelled to go. Every day she felt that more. Besides that, she wanted to know how Van was. How Merle, Allen, Millerna, and everyone else was also. She missed them terribly. "Either way, there is nothing I can do now so I better keep my head on this planet for now," she thought to herself, while sitting down on her bed.
She looked around her room. It was the same as it had been for the past two years. The same bed, desk, door, and most of her things were the same too. The only difference was the recently scattered papers on her desk, some books, and a few recent pictures and little things.
Those little things were results of her shopping and finding something that would remind her of the other, unseen planet. A stuffed cat, a miniature sword and a dragon figurine. All fairly small things, but very important to her. But out of everything, there was one drawer that she kept her most sacred and important things.
She thought for a moment about what was in the drawer. Her Tarot cards were in there, and thinking about it now, she was still slightly shocked that she still used them after her adventure in Gaea. In the back of her mind, she always doubted that she shouldn't really use them, just to put them away and never look at them again. But, after thinking about it for a while after she came home, she decided that she should still use them. They were not an evil thing that caused bad things to happen, but a medium that showed her the future. It wasn't her fault or the cards' fault that negative things would happen, but it was in the future, and of all people she couldn't have helped that. Gaea had taught her this.
Stopping her thought process, she crawled to the left side of her bed, and reached for her desk drawer. She pulled it out all the way, and reached for the box she kept the cards in.
As she pulled it out and set it on her bed, a few memories surfaced. The first time she saw Escaflowne, the first and last time she did a reading on Gaea, and someone... She shook her head. She had to stop and focus.
She pulled the cards out and shuffled them until she felt like stopping. As she pulled the first card off the top, to place it on her bed to start the layout, all of a sudden...
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------ Another A/N: Thank you for reading. Don't you hate endings like that? Personally they drive me nuts, but I am in control!!! Any and all comments are appreciated.
IMPORTANT A/N(concerning the characters): I have two things about this chapter. Sorry about the shortness, and two, I wanted to say something about the Tarot cards and Hitomi. The main reason that I will stress the whole point of the cards, is because that I have read in a lot of fics (and I am NOT insulting them by saying this) that after she came home, she dropped the cards completely out of fear(or other reasons) and would not use them. I don't believe that she would do this, in my personal opinion. The adventure on Gaea would have made her a stronger person, and have more confidence in her powers. It was a scary experience, no doubt, but she would be less dependent of them, and more cautious. It is just the way that she used them, and the dependency of them to her on Gaea, I don't think that she would hate them, or have a deep fear of them. This is just MY opinion. Remember, MY opinion. This type of idea I will base a lot of my plot and character's development. Like Van's dependence on Escaflowne, Merle's dependency on Van, etc. They did make those points of development in the series, later, but I want to continue the idea that they have grown up, and this would have to do a lot with their decisions. ANYWAYS! I wanted to state this because this is a major point in this fic. Well, on with the show!!! Also, I do not own Escaflowne. No way, no how. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------ It still made no sense. It has been a month since that strange occurrence had happened. Not a day in that month had gone by without Hitomi trying to make sense about what all that had meant.
The connection she had with Van had been severed. But that could have happened for many reasons. Plus, the things that she remembered could have been a dream. But, if it was real, that could mean he was...
"No!" I won't think that," Hitomi told herself out loud. Thankfully no one was around to hear her outburst. She was at home, all alone because her parents were out for dinner, their "togetherness" thing, and her brother was at a friend's house, probably rotting his brain out with video games and such. It was good to be home alone every once in a while. With the house being so quiet, it was almost tranquil.
She usually didn't have that. Ever since she came home, her family kept her close. Too close sometimes. But that was good usually, to be loved like that. She was gone for almost three months and her family only became more worried when she spaced out. The only person she told anything totally truthfully to was her mother. She was the only person that understood, or she thought would understand.
The reason was that her grandmother told her mother about what happened to her on the short time on Gaea. Her mom covered for her telling the rest of the family that there was nothing to worry about, and that Hitomi would tell them everything when she was ready. Not even Hitomi was sure when that was, but her father and brother understood and everything turned normal. She was very glad for that.
Her thoughts jumped again, it was the thing that haunted her thoughts everyday for more than a year. She still wanted to go to Gaea even though she chose to go home in the first place. It wasn't like she did not like her life! It was great.
Her family was safe, her friends close, and school was going fine. It was just that, she felt strange on Earth, her home. Ever since her adventure, she had a different outlook on life. Life wasn't just about getting a high grade on a paper, or getting this guy to like you. It had meaning now. The little things meant almost nothing now. Life was made to live, not worry.
But ever since she saw that light in her room and heard that voice, she felt compelled to go. Every day she felt that more. Besides that, she wanted to know how Van was. How Merle, Allen, Millerna, and everyone else was also. She missed them terribly. "Either way, there is nothing I can do now so I better keep my head on this planet for now," she thought to herself, while sitting down on her bed.
She looked around her room. It was the same as it had been for the past two years. The same bed, desk, door, and most of her things were the same too. The only difference was the recently scattered papers on her desk, some books, and a few recent pictures and little things.
Those little things were results of her shopping and finding something that would remind her of the other, unseen planet. A stuffed cat, a miniature sword and a dragon figurine. All fairly small things, but very important to her. But out of everything, there was one drawer that she kept her most sacred and important things.
She thought for a moment about what was in the drawer. Her Tarot cards were in there, and thinking about it now, she was still slightly shocked that she still used them after her adventure in Gaea. In the back of her mind, she always doubted that she shouldn't really use them, just to put them away and never look at them again. But, after thinking about it for a while after she came home, she decided that she should still use them. They were not an evil thing that caused bad things to happen, but a medium that showed her the future. It wasn't her fault or the cards' fault that negative things would happen, but it was in the future, and of all people she couldn't have helped that. Gaea had taught her this.
Stopping her thought process, she crawled to the left side of her bed, and reached for her desk drawer. She pulled it out all the way, and reached for the box she kept the cards in.
As she pulled it out and set it on her bed, a few memories surfaced. The first time she saw Escaflowne, the first and last time she did a reading on Gaea, and someone... She shook her head. She had to stop and focus.
She pulled the cards out and shuffled them until she felt like stopping. As she pulled the first card off the top, to place it on her bed to start the layout, all of a sudden...
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------ Another A/N: Thank you for reading. Don't you hate endings like that? Personally they drive me nuts, but I am in control!!! Any and all comments are appreciated.