I Don't Need a Reason
Chapter 3- Unknowing
Disclaimer: I don't own anything applied to Escaflowne, not the plot, characters, or the whole anime itself. I own this story though. Just this tiny thing in the vast world. (Makes you feel small)
A/N: A thing was brought to my attention via a review (thanks Angel-Fergie especially for the reviews^_^) about Hitomi. Well, it is true in the series that she told her friends at the station that she gave up fortunetelling, but here in this story(and in my opinion) she still does readings and such, but not for others because of what happened on Gaea. For example, what happened with Allen, where she tore open old wounds, and caused pain. See, she can learn! I just had to clarify that, for people who thought that I was making no sense, or just wanted to make a point (that I am glad that they pointed out!) Anyways, back to the story.
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"RING!" Hitomi jumped as far as she could without leaving her skin. The cards she was holding and starting to place jumped with her and flew all around a radius of a few feet. "Damn! I'll have to pick them up," she said obliviously talking to herself. "RING!" "I forgot what started this." She crawled over to her desk and picked up the phone.
"Hello?" she asked the person on the other end. "Hi," answered the other voice, and then silence proceeded. Hitomi usually got calls like this, and she knew how to handle them. "Who's this?" "Guess!" said the other voice again. Hitomi smiled. She knew who it was the whole time, but she still loved messing with her mind.
She answered back trying not to laugh out loud, "My conscience?" "Hey! It is not and you know it!" The voice was mad. "I know it's you Yukari. I was messing with you. Geez, and your the one with a sense of humor. So, what are you doing?" "Calling you. Telling you something when I'm done with this sentence. So, here it is."
A big breath was heard on the phone. 'Here it comes,' Hitomi thought. "There's a track meet on Saturday, and today's Friday, so I think we should go. It would be good for you. So, are you going to go?" This was all said very fast. Hitomi was quiet for a moment. Yukari wanted her to go, maybe she should. Maybe not. "I don't know Yukari. I mean, I may be busy."
"Come on, please? I don't want to go all by myself. Since you took leave of track, you hardly go. Even to watch. Please?" Hitomi gave in to the whiny please. She always did. "Ok, but you have to by treats later."Ok! Hey, I got to go, so see you tomorrow!" And with that, the line when blank. Hitomi set down the receiver.
As she started to pick up the briefly forgotten cards, she let her mind wander to the time a year or so ago when she came home. If she remembered right, she only had one feeling, depression. At that time she did as much as possible to keep her mind off things, and the only ideas that she had was school and track. But then, it wasn't all that easy to deal with people around her giving into rumors, and they got bad after a while. Her family told had told everyone in the beginning that she had been on a personal vacation, but no one believed that since they knew that her family had been worried sick while she was missing.
The rumors went from the range that she was kidnapped, sexually assaulted, a mental hospital survivor, or a brief runaway. The worst was from the track team. Then, feed up, she quit track. The way that her fellow students looked at her in contempt was too much for her. She didn't want to deal with it. She had other things to be unhappy about, that were actually worth her time. And since then, she hadn't gone back to the team. And after a while, everything did get better, and she went back to a normal routine
But Van. She was still connected to him then. They were still able to talk then in the way the way that they did for the year or so that she was home and him on Gaea. Every once in a while, they would talk, just to say "Hi" and ask a few questions. They never really wondered why they were able to do this, but both were happy about it, so asked no questions.
Then, the thought of him made her happy. But still, she didn't know what to make of what happened a month ago. All she remembered is that she was crying, and then she began to feel sleepy, and she heard a voice. She knew whatever the voice said, made her feel better, but for the life of her she couldn't remember. She was a bit worried about Van because they hadn't talked in a long while, but she tried to think positively. There still was one thing though..
She couldn't think about him. It hurt every time. Every single time. She wanted so bad to think of him. His voice, his hair, the way he talked, or how he was always there. Or how much she loved him.
She didn't realize that till she was in that column of light going home, away from him. He told her once to be strong for him, and that thought made it a little better. It helped her go through her life, and helped her become more whole.
But every time she thought of him still, tears came to her eyes. She couldn't help it. It wasn't that she wanted to, they just came. First slowly, then fast.
When she finally snapped out of her thoughts, she saw tears on her hands, the ones holding the cards, now picked up. When the blurring was better, she saw the top card, the Lovers card. The tears, like a fast, swift river hurried down her face. She sat on her bed and cried a little more. Then she started to take deep breaths, trying to stop the pain in her chest, and calmed down soon. She long ago resolved never to let it go too far. It only made her remember, have pain, and make it all worse. Downhill wasn't the way she wanted to go.
To keep her mind and hands busy, she put the cards away hastily and started to pick up her already clean room. Soon after rearranging her room to her liking, only putting books and papers in order and neat piles, she heard her front door open and close. Her parents were home and most likely picked up her brother too. She got up from kneeling in her closet, and walked out her door to the stairs, down the stairs to the living room.
She had to smile while watching her brother reenact a video game, or the best parts in his opinion. He was waving around his arms in an airplane fashion, saying, "Like this mom! I blasted him away so fast, he probably didn't even blink!" Hitomi laughed. She couldn't help but make a comment. "Yea, and then you were gone!"
Her mom turned around to her at the comment, "Hello Hitomi. Had fun with the quiet? Your father and I brought home dessert, ice cream. Would you please go and gather the bowls and spoons?" She hugged her mom first. "Yea, sure. As long as it's good." Her mom smiled. "Ok. Hurry before it melts."
Her brother told some joke, and her parents started to laugh while she walked into the adjoining room, the kitchen. She couldn't help but smile as she walked past the fridge to the cabinets. As she was pulling the things asked for, she felt someone come behind her. "Mamoru, you could have waited another minute. It couldn't have melted that fast."
She waited for her brother to answer. It was silent throughout the house for what seemed like forever. She only heard her breathing, and another's. The breathing sent chills down her spine, a way too familiar feeling of long past.
Then, she heard a deep, male voice laughing low. Very low. She almost didn't hear it. Then, she felt a hand on her right shoulder, gripping it tight enough to hurt, and the breathing was getting closer to her left ear. She could feel the man's breath on her ear. It was so close that the warmth of it felt almost like fire. The fire soon increased as the voice spoke," Just you wait. Not much longer now."
She gasped and nearly dropped the things she was holding, all forgotten, as she spun around to face the voice. No one was there. Just as she started to shake her head to clear it, she heard her dad's voice from far away, but it seemed to far away for him being in the living room. It sounded like she was in a thick, soupy fog, but there was none. Soon it decreased and he was saying clearly, "Hitomi! Is everything alright? Do you need help?"
Hitomi gathered herself and answered. "No dad. I'm coming."
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------ A/N: Hope you liked it! Chapter 4 coming soon. *Star War's theme plays* Music! But, I don't own that. Darn. Love to hear any comments.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything applied to Escaflowne, not the plot, characters, or the whole anime itself. I own this story though. Just this tiny thing in the vast world. (Makes you feel small)
A/N: A thing was brought to my attention via a review (thanks Angel-Fergie especially for the reviews^_^) about Hitomi. Well, it is true in the series that she told her friends at the station that she gave up fortunetelling, but here in this story(and in my opinion) she still does readings and such, but not for others because of what happened on Gaea. For example, what happened with Allen, where she tore open old wounds, and caused pain. See, she can learn! I just had to clarify that, for people who thought that I was making no sense, or just wanted to make a point (that I am glad that they pointed out!) Anyways, back to the story.
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"RING!" Hitomi jumped as far as she could without leaving her skin. The cards she was holding and starting to place jumped with her and flew all around a radius of a few feet. "Damn! I'll have to pick them up," she said obliviously talking to herself. "RING!" "I forgot what started this." She crawled over to her desk and picked up the phone.
"Hello?" she asked the person on the other end. "Hi," answered the other voice, and then silence proceeded. Hitomi usually got calls like this, and she knew how to handle them. "Who's this?" "Guess!" said the other voice again. Hitomi smiled. She knew who it was the whole time, but she still loved messing with her mind.
She answered back trying not to laugh out loud, "My conscience?" "Hey! It is not and you know it!" The voice was mad. "I know it's you Yukari. I was messing with you. Geez, and your the one with a sense of humor. So, what are you doing?" "Calling you. Telling you something when I'm done with this sentence. So, here it is."
A big breath was heard on the phone. 'Here it comes,' Hitomi thought. "There's a track meet on Saturday, and today's Friday, so I think we should go. It would be good for you. So, are you going to go?" This was all said very fast. Hitomi was quiet for a moment. Yukari wanted her to go, maybe she should. Maybe not. "I don't know Yukari. I mean, I may be busy."
"Come on, please? I don't want to go all by myself. Since you took leave of track, you hardly go. Even to watch. Please?" Hitomi gave in to the whiny please. She always did. "Ok, but you have to by treats later."Ok! Hey, I got to go, so see you tomorrow!" And with that, the line when blank. Hitomi set down the receiver.
As she started to pick up the briefly forgotten cards, she let her mind wander to the time a year or so ago when she came home. If she remembered right, she only had one feeling, depression. At that time she did as much as possible to keep her mind off things, and the only ideas that she had was school and track. But then, it wasn't all that easy to deal with people around her giving into rumors, and they got bad after a while. Her family told had told everyone in the beginning that she had been on a personal vacation, but no one believed that since they knew that her family had been worried sick while she was missing.
The rumors went from the range that she was kidnapped, sexually assaulted, a mental hospital survivor, or a brief runaway. The worst was from the track team. Then, feed up, she quit track. The way that her fellow students looked at her in contempt was too much for her. She didn't want to deal with it. She had other things to be unhappy about, that were actually worth her time. And since then, she hadn't gone back to the team. And after a while, everything did get better, and she went back to a normal routine
But Van. She was still connected to him then. They were still able to talk then in the way the way that they did for the year or so that she was home and him on Gaea. Every once in a while, they would talk, just to say "Hi" and ask a few questions. They never really wondered why they were able to do this, but both were happy about it, so asked no questions.
Then, the thought of him made her happy. But still, she didn't know what to make of what happened a month ago. All she remembered is that she was crying, and then she began to feel sleepy, and she heard a voice. She knew whatever the voice said, made her feel better, but for the life of her she couldn't remember. She was a bit worried about Van because they hadn't talked in a long while, but she tried to think positively. There still was one thing though..
She couldn't think about him. It hurt every time. Every single time. She wanted so bad to think of him. His voice, his hair, the way he talked, or how he was always there. Or how much she loved him.
She didn't realize that till she was in that column of light going home, away from him. He told her once to be strong for him, and that thought made it a little better. It helped her go through her life, and helped her become more whole.
But every time she thought of him still, tears came to her eyes. She couldn't help it. It wasn't that she wanted to, they just came. First slowly, then fast.
When she finally snapped out of her thoughts, she saw tears on her hands, the ones holding the cards, now picked up. When the blurring was better, she saw the top card, the Lovers card. The tears, like a fast, swift river hurried down her face. She sat on her bed and cried a little more. Then she started to take deep breaths, trying to stop the pain in her chest, and calmed down soon. She long ago resolved never to let it go too far. It only made her remember, have pain, and make it all worse. Downhill wasn't the way she wanted to go.
To keep her mind and hands busy, she put the cards away hastily and started to pick up her already clean room. Soon after rearranging her room to her liking, only putting books and papers in order and neat piles, she heard her front door open and close. Her parents were home and most likely picked up her brother too. She got up from kneeling in her closet, and walked out her door to the stairs, down the stairs to the living room.
She had to smile while watching her brother reenact a video game, or the best parts in his opinion. He was waving around his arms in an airplane fashion, saying, "Like this mom! I blasted him away so fast, he probably didn't even blink!" Hitomi laughed. She couldn't help but make a comment. "Yea, and then you were gone!"
Her mom turned around to her at the comment, "Hello Hitomi. Had fun with the quiet? Your father and I brought home dessert, ice cream. Would you please go and gather the bowls and spoons?" She hugged her mom first. "Yea, sure. As long as it's good." Her mom smiled. "Ok. Hurry before it melts."
Her brother told some joke, and her parents started to laugh while she walked into the adjoining room, the kitchen. She couldn't help but smile as she walked past the fridge to the cabinets. As she was pulling the things asked for, she felt someone come behind her. "Mamoru, you could have waited another minute. It couldn't have melted that fast."
She waited for her brother to answer. It was silent throughout the house for what seemed like forever. She only heard her breathing, and another's. The breathing sent chills down her spine, a way too familiar feeling of long past.
Then, she heard a deep, male voice laughing low. Very low. She almost didn't hear it. Then, she felt a hand on her right shoulder, gripping it tight enough to hurt, and the breathing was getting closer to her left ear. She could feel the man's breath on her ear. It was so close that the warmth of it felt almost like fire. The fire soon increased as the voice spoke," Just you wait. Not much longer now."
She gasped and nearly dropped the things she was holding, all forgotten, as she spun around to face the voice. No one was there. Just as she started to shake her head to clear it, she heard her dad's voice from far away, but it seemed to far away for him being in the living room. It sounded like she was in a thick, soupy fog, but there was none. Soon it decreased and he was saying clearly, "Hitomi! Is everything alright? Do you need help?"
Hitomi gathered herself and answered. "No dad. I'm coming."
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------ A/N: Hope you liked it! Chapter 4 coming soon. *Star War's theme plays* Music! But, I don't own that. Darn. Love to hear any comments.