Pain and Love
Jessica came out of my mom's room. She was hungry again and needed to get some food. When I saw her, her hair was all messed up like she was having some fun with Trever.
"So what were you two doing out here?" Jessica asked when I noticed that Cory's hand was still on my waist. I moved away from him and blushed a little bit.
"Oh nothing. Cory wanted something to eat so I thought that I would make him something." I retorted with a little smile on my lips.
"Well I just wanted to get a bag of chips. Trever and me are getting a little hungry," Jessica said digging through the cabinets. "Well I'll leave you two alone."
I continued to finish making his food, Cory's Mac n' cheese. When I was done I walked into the living room. Cory had his bowl of Mac and sat down next to me. He ate all the Mac n' cheese in like seconds. It was amazing to see how fast he ate his food. By this time I was getting very tired so I laid my head down on Cory's shoulder and the next thing I remember is waking up next to Cory in my bed. He must have picked me up and folded out my bed. Cory's arms were around me and I felt so safe and happy with him there next to me.
"Hey Cory, you want to go to see a movie in a little bit?" I heard Trever ask Cory. I could also hear Jessica in the background and then it was getting closer. Jessica's face was now right in front of me and she woke me up.
"Hey Tristin wake up. We are going to movies. You want to come?" Jessica asked me.
"Yeah sure. Just let me get dressed," I said rubbing the sleep away from my eyes. I looked at Cory and he was just sitting their staring at me again. He got up and began to put on his clothes. His body was so perfect. I knew that he was the one I always wanted.
After that day me and Cory were always hanging out with each other and with each other. He was the guy that I always wanted. Then one day I was in English class when Jessica walks into the room. The look on her face was not a very good look. She looked that she had been crying.
"Jessica, what's wrong, you look like you have been crying," I said to Jessica with a look to concern on my face and in my voice. I went up to her and gave her a hug. Thoughts were running through my mind of why she was crying. Maybe her and Trever broke up or she just had a fight with her mom about something.
"Tristin," Jessica said first stopping and looking down trying not to burst into to tears. Then she looked up, "Last night, m-my dad never came home," Jessica finally got out trying so hard to hold her tears in.
" What do you mean he never came home. What is going on Jessica," I said kind of confused.
"My dad wwwas in a car accident. Another car ran a stop light and crashed into my dad's car. My dad was tttthrown from his car and died instantly," Jessica finished. After she told me that I was stunned I couldn't even speak. Jessica's dad was kind of like my second dad. He watched over me like a dad would do. At that point a tear started to run down my cheek and the tears were bundling up. The hot tears finally came out and me and Jessica cried into each other.
Our teacher saw us and came up to us, "Hey girls, what is going on here?"
I was the first to semi-stop crying, "Jessica's dad was killed in a car accident last night," I said barely getting all my words out before I broke down and couldn't stop crying. Our teacher walked us down tot he counselor's office and told them what had happened. They knew that Jessica's dad and her mom were friends with my mom so they called my mom and told her what happened and so she could come pick us up. They didn't think that we should stay at school.
About 20 minutes later my mom comes running through the door. Her face has tears rolling down her cheeks. "Oh are you girls all right. I got here as soon as I could," my mom said grabbing both of us and holding us for what seemed like a couple of hours but was only a couple of seconds.
We left the school and we drove over to Jessica's house to see how her mom was doing. We pulled into their driveway and Jessica's mom must have seen us because she can running out and she went to my mom and they hugged. I could see that she was really hurting and needed someone by her side.
"Oh Mary I'm so glad to see you. I didn't want to wake you last night and I knew you had to work and I didn't want to bother you with calling you," Mrs. Turner, Jessica's mom said without even taking a breathe. "I just didn't know what to do so I just came home and I still don't know what to do." Mrs. turner had her pajamas on and her hair was in shambles from crying. She didn't look in good shape. Although I think my mom knew what to do since she went though this same thing when my father died.
"Megan I will be here for you. I know how hard it is but I know that you can will get through this. You are the strongest women I know," Mommy said trying to reassure her. Jessica and I were still in the car not talking or even crying now. We were both just to stunned and not wanting to believe anything that was going. I sure didn't want to believe it.
"Come on girls. Lets go inside and talk about things. That is a good way to get through things is talk it out with other people," my mom said trying to be calm one out of all of us. So we did what she said and went inside.
That night mommy and I slept over at their house and we talked. I noticed that all of the talking was making me feel better and like we did when my dad died, is just remember the good times that you had with that person. We all had so many and they all made us laugh and bring him alive in our hearts. Before we went to bed I walked up to Mrs. Turner, "Mrs. Turner, I'm sorry for happened. I know how hard this is and everything and I just wanted to tell you that I will be here for you and for Jessica because I know what you going through. So if you need to talk and mommy is not around I would be glad to talk to you," I said. When I was finished she came closer and wrapped her arms around me and whispered in my ear, "I'll be fine Tristin but thank you for thinking about me. I just want you to look after Jessica for me because I dunno how well she is. Will you do that for me?" Mrs. Turner said and I nodded my head. She went into her room and I went into Jessica's room. We laid there and we fell asleep.
The next couple of days at school were very hard to get through. Everyone was giving there I'm sorries and if you need anything I'll be here for you. Jessica and me really hated that people had to do that just because they felt bad for us. Two days after it happened, mommy and Mrs. Turner went out. Mommy left my little sister Alyssa with a baby-sitter and me and Jessica sat at her house watching some television. Just then the doorbell rang. I got up and went to the door and opened it.
"Well there is my beautiful." It was Cory and Trever was with him too. "We thought we would drop by and see what was going on. I also wanted to see how you were doing. I heard about what happened. I'm sorry to hear that sweeite," Cory said giving me and hug and a kiss on the forehead.
"Oh I'm better. I'm just glad to see you," I said with a smile on my face. Trever walked passed us and went to see Jessica. I really wanted to be alone with Cory so he afforded to take me home and maybe talk for a little bit.
"Hey Jessica, Cory is going to take me home. Is that okay," I asked her.
"Yeah go ahead. I'll tell your mom that your home when they get back," Jessica responded back.
"Okay thanx Jessica. See you later."
So Cory opened the door and we walked out to his car. We drove over to my house and walked up to my apartment. He held my hand all the way up. Our apartment was not that clean because we have not had anytime to clean it.
"Sorry for mess Cory. Haven't had any time to clean it," I said.
"It's okay babe. Doesn't matter to me. All that matters is that you are here," Cory said taking his hands around my waist and pulling me close to him.
"God your so beautiful. I could look at you forever Tristin." Cory said kissing my lips. It felt so good when he kissed me and it turned me on every time he did it.
"So babe, are you going to be all right? I don't want to see you like this and sad Tristin, "Cory said holding my hand and running his other hand through my hair. Kissing the top of it and then running his hand down my arm. " Tristin I love you so much. You are really the only girl that I have felt this way before."
Cory walked around me and sat me on my bed and he sat next to me. We started to kiss and we kissed for a long time. He started to move his hand all over my body. I really loved that. I needed him to just love me now.
Cory laid me down on my bed and laid next to me. He ran his finger down the middle of my stomach. He laid there looking into my eyes. He leaned toward me kissed me on the tip of my nose. He brought his hand up to my breast and held it in his hand for a second. Cory I knew really wanted to make love with me. We had talked about it and I just needed time but I thought the time is right now. I leaned by him and started to kiss his lips that tasted so good. I could kiss him forever. Cory took his shirt off and he took mine off too. Cory was really in shape and you could see all his muscles and curves. That turned me on so much.
Cory started to undo my pants and pulled them down. I reached down and undid his belt and pants. We kissed each other more and more and then I could feel him. I felt so connected with him. After we were done we laid next to each other. Cory had his arms around me holding me.
"Babe I never want to see you hurt again. I want to be their for you with anything to you do," Cory said looking to my eyes and then we kissed again. Cory turned and sat on top of me and just kissed me and held me. He started to kiss my neck again and I could feel that Cory was getting excited. I thought that was really funny. He kissed all the way down my body. His hands it seemed floated over my chest and his finger circling my breast. I felt him again and it was better this time. That night was the most magical night that I have ever experienced. From then on I was looking through I new life and a new spirit. It was so wonderful. Cory was the most caring person and I could not ask for anything better then him.
My mom and me were getting along with life and so was Jessica and her mom. I noticed that my mom started to date some guys. I would now have to stay home some nights to watch my little sister Alyssa. I always loved to watch her because she just had so much life and she doesn't have to worry about anything that is going on in this crappy world.
One night my mom came home from work and she came up to me. It had been a long time from Mr. Turners death and I knew that my mother was involved with someone.
"Tristin I want to talk to you about something," my mother said starting out. "You know that I have been involved with Mr. Wilson for a while now and last night he proposed to me." After I heard that I didn't know what to say. "Now I said that I would have to wait and talk to you and see what you think about it," my mom said hoping that I would say you go ahead.
"Well mom I don't know what to say," I said. I knew Mr. Wilson and he was very cool. He was only 3 years older then my mom and he was pretty cute. I know that he would treat my mother with respect and treat like she should be treated like a queen. I also thought that Alyssa needs to have a dad to grow up with. Something that I didn't really have when I was growing up.
"Mom I think you should marry him," I told her finally concluding my thinking.
" Are you sure Trist? I don't want to do it if you think that it would ruin what we have," she said to me holding my hand.
"Mom, Mr. Wilson is very good guy and I do like him and he would be a really cool person to have around. You marry him if he makes you happy."
"Oh Trist, you are to wise beyond your years," my mom said giving me a hug.
After I finished talking with her she and Mr. Wilson went out and she told him. So now my mom is going to get married. I started to think and wonder if maybe my mom forgot about my dad and wants to not have to think about him so she is going to get married. I am going to get a new daddy. Will he be better then my dad. Will mommy` love him more then she loved my daddy. These questions went through my mind. I knew that I would find out soon enough.