i don't own the characters or anything really, only the plot and the place with the cliff. i own miranje, in a way, 'cos i am her, so.. :] everything else belongs to j.k. rowling. br
and note this: i don't use capital letters because it's easier to write not having to think about them. i don't mean it to be an expression of dislike for the characters and the places. ok? :] and if there are typos.. english is not my main language, so..
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she jumped out the hogwarts express and, avoiding other peoples glanzes, walked towards the carriages. she really was not the sort of person who would go on and on about something that ment nothing with her friends. who knows maybe it had something to do with the fact that she had just one true friend, and she wasn't in the school. it was a surprize for the whole family that she got the letter six years ago. althought she was always different from other people, they really didn't think her as a witch. brbr
she wasn't a veela, but she looked ok depending on the viewer. she had brown, sholder-lenght hair, blue eyes, glasses and pale skin, and she was rather tall. she was a slytherin, but she didn't like being categorized as bad. or as anything for that matter. she just wanted to be left alone. brbr
the school started the usual way, the corridors and the great hall were filled with unbareble noice that made miranje wanting to explode. in the evenings she walked around the grounds of hogwarts and enjoyed the silence and the sunsets. often she had books with her. the year before she had gotten a special permission from professor dumbledore so that she could stay a bit longer outside than the rest of the students. she felt safe and calm outside, and dumbledore knew that. they had had some long conversations about miranjes problems last year and dumbledore felt best to let that girl go free. you can't capture a phoenix without it dying. brbr
so she walked near the lake, her mind wandering off somewhere when someone tapped her on the shoulder. br
- and what exactly do you think you are doing here at this hour, miss illusion? br
- oh, professor snape, you scared me. i'm.. just.. going around and thinking. br
- you must know, surely, that it is against the school rules to be outside after the sunset. br
- i have the permission from professor dumbledore to stay out longer. you didn't know that? br
- no. well i heard about it last year, but i felt best to ask anyway, said professor snape and smirked.
there was a silence that lasted over five minutes. miranje wondered why he even stayed that long, but didn't look at him to find out what he was doing. thinking, probably, like she did. professor snape stared at the forbitten forest waiting for something to happen, but nothing did, so he was the one to break the silence. br
- well, i think we'd be better to go inside. it's getting late. br miranje glanzed at the lake. she didn't really realize what he said so he repeated: - we should go inside, miss illusion. br
- mm.. ok. br
they walked to the castle and, miranje sharpening up, talked about potions. miranje was interested in potions, not fanaticly, but interested anyway. they said goodnights outside the slytherin common room. brbr
days went by and miranje tried to focus on the learning, although she felt she didn't need to study. mostly because she was a smart girl and knew alot about the things they learned. after all, what could you do in home besides study when all the others thought you were a freak? so she got her hands full with studies in the daytime and in the evenings she went for a walk to think. a couple of times she had company, when professor snape joined her. br
- so why aren't you socializing with other students? professor snape asked. br
- they.. i'm too much for them to handle. sounds really selfish but that's the way it is. they don't like me, it's in their eyes. but i don't care. br
- it's their loss, mumbled the professor and regret almost instantly. they walked in silence to the door of the common room. br
- good night, professor snape. thank you, said miranje and whispered the password to the painting. br
- good night, said the professor and stood there thinking a long time after she had left without even realizing it. and for the first time in ages miranje was smiling.
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they became friends, on some level. they both felt it easy to be with one another and that was the first time for the both of them, to find such a person. no-one seemed to notice their spending time together, maybe that was because no-one really cared about them. the christmas came up, and miranje was one of the few who stayed in the school. with no classes she spent alot of time with the professor. one day they went for a walk. miranje wasn't at her best, 'cos she hadn't got any mail for her family, not even a card. to tell you the truth they didn't think much of her. br
- don't worry, miranje, said the prof. br
- but i got nothing, severus, not even a letter. i didn't expect presents, but it would've been nice to know what was going on. br
- forget about it. come on, i want to show you something, said severus and grabbed miranjes shoulders, pushing her forward. br
- where are we going? asked miranje without getting an answer.
first it seemed like they were going to hogsmeade, but they turned off the road just before and no matter how miranje tried to snoop, he didn't tell. br
when they got near the place, severus asked miranje to close her eyes.
- just close them, ok? it won't be far anymore. br
- but.. but.. what if i fall? br
- you won't. i'll see to that. now close them. br
with a little resistence miranje closed her eyes and severus escorted her forward. after a little while they stopped. br
- ok. you can open. miranje opened her eyes and lost her breath. they were standing on the edge of a cliff, and far down was a valley that was covered with snow, just like the the huge tree on the cliff. the sky was a pale shade of blue. br
- this is the most beautiful thing i've ever seen, miranje gasped and without realizing it jumped and hugged severus. severus was a little confused, for just a second, but then put his arms around her. the time stopped. they felt this whole new feeling, that wasn't there before. when they parted they couldn't look eatch other in the eye. miranje sat on the edge and severus leaned to the tree, confused. they both felt angry with theirselves, but on the same time somehow..happy. they didn't exept that feeling, the warmth all over their bodies. br
- listen.. they both said at the same time. they stared eachother and then ran, like something would have told them to, to eachothers arms. br
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they went on like nothing had happened. or so it seemed for the others, if they would've payed attention. they met every evening, but no-one had the slightest idea, not even dumbledore, atleast they thought so. one day severus was in dumbledores office, when dumbledore suddenly said to him: br
- severus, i know something is going on. now, i'm saying this as a friend, not as the headmaster: you have to end it. i won't say this again, so do it for your own sake. or hers. br
severus nodded his head and rushed off. br
when they met in the evening near the forbitten forest, miranje rushed to him, kissed him and smiled. severus had a war inside of him but he forced himself to a smile. they walked and miranjetold about how important severus was to her. he couldn't stand it anymore and so he told her, that they had to end it all. miranje couldn't handle it without any warning and collapsed in the snow. br
- you can't do this to me, severus.. she said sobbing. br
- but i must, he said kneeling beside her. - dumbledore is on to us. br miranje couldn't hold her cry any longer. br
- oh don't cry, please don't, severus said and put his arms around her. br
- don't leave me, whispered miranje and buried her face into his robes. he felt angry with himself and sad because of her. he loved, for the first time in ages, but all the chance they got was washed away. he stood up and left miranje there, crying, 'cos he couldn't be near her any longer. he rushed to his chamber and stared at the fire for ages with miranjes voice still in his head. br
miranje cried in the snow for quite some time then stood up and started running away from the castle.
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in the middle of the night there was a loud bang on severus' door. he woke up and realized he'd falled asleep and opened the door. br
- albus, what are you doing here at this hour? br
- you have to come with me, said the headmaster. - miranje illusion has gone missing. brbrbrbr
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so, should i quit now and never ever come back or do you want to know what happens next? there's still a lot of despair, and big feelings ahead, i can tell you.. :]
and note this: i don't use capital letters because it's easier to write not having to think about them. i don't mean it to be an expression of dislike for the characters and the places. ok? :] and if there are typos.. english is not my main language, so..
########################## br
br
she jumped out the hogwarts express and, avoiding other peoples glanzes, walked towards the carriages. she really was not the sort of person who would go on and on about something that ment nothing with her friends. who knows maybe it had something to do with the fact that she had just one true friend, and she wasn't in the school. it was a surprize for the whole family that she got the letter six years ago. althought she was always different from other people, they really didn't think her as a witch. brbr
she wasn't a veela, but she looked ok depending on the viewer. she had brown, sholder-lenght hair, blue eyes, glasses and pale skin, and she was rather tall. she was a slytherin, but she didn't like being categorized as bad. or as anything for that matter. she just wanted to be left alone. brbr
the school started the usual way, the corridors and the great hall were filled with unbareble noice that made miranje wanting to explode. in the evenings she walked around the grounds of hogwarts and enjoyed the silence and the sunsets. often she had books with her. the year before she had gotten a special permission from professor dumbledore so that she could stay a bit longer outside than the rest of the students. she felt safe and calm outside, and dumbledore knew that. they had had some long conversations about miranjes problems last year and dumbledore felt best to let that girl go free. you can't capture a phoenix without it dying. brbr
so she walked near the lake, her mind wandering off somewhere when someone tapped her on the shoulder. br
- and what exactly do you think you are doing here at this hour, miss illusion? br
- oh, professor snape, you scared me. i'm.. just.. going around and thinking. br
- you must know, surely, that it is against the school rules to be outside after the sunset. br
- i have the permission from professor dumbledore to stay out longer. you didn't know that? br
- no. well i heard about it last year, but i felt best to ask anyway, said professor snape and smirked.
there was a silence that lasted over five minutes. miranje wondered why he even stayed that long, but didn't look at him to find out what he was doing. thinking, probably, like she did. professor snape stared at the forbitten forest waiting for something to happen, but nothing did, so he was the one to break the silence. br
- well, i think we'd be better to go inside. it's getting late. br miranje glanzed at the lake. she didn't really realize what he said so he repeated: - we should go inside, miss illusion. br
- mm.. ok. br
they walked to the castle and, miranje sharpening up, talked about potions. miranje was interested in potions, not fanaticly, but interested anyway. they said goodnights outside the slytherin common room. brbr
days went by and miranje tried to focus on the learning, although she felt she didn't need to study. mostly because she was a smart girl and knew alot about the things they learned. after all, what could you do in home besides study when all the others thought you were a freak? so she got her hands full with studies in the daytime and in the evenings she went for a walk to think. a couple of times she had company, when professor snape joined her. br
- so why aren't you socializing with other students? professor snape asked. br
- they.. i'm too much for them to handle. sounds really selfish but that's the way it is. they don't like me, it's in their eyes. but i don't care. br
- it's their loss, mumbled the professor and regret almost instantly. they walked in silence to the door of the common room. br
- good night, professor snape. thank you, said miranje and whispered the password to the painting. br
- good night, said the professor and stood there thinking a long time after she had left without even realizing it. and for the first time in ages miranje was smiling.
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they became friends, on some level. they both felt it easy to be with one another and that was the first time for the both of them, to find such a person. no-one seemed to notice their spending time together, maybe that was because no-one really cared about them. the christmas came up, and miranje was one of the few who stayed in the school. with no classes she spent alot of time with the professor. one day they went for a walk. miranje wasn't at her best, 'cos she hadn't got any mail for her family, not even a card. to tell you the truth they didn't think much of her. br
- don't worry, miranje, said the prof. br
- but i got nothing, severus, not even a letter. i didn't expect presents, but it would've been nice to know what was going on. br
- forget about it. come on, i want to show you something, said severus and grabbed miranjes shoulders, pushing her forward. br
- where are we going? asked miranje without getting an answer.
first it seemed like they were going to hogsmeade, but they turned off the road just before and no matter how miranje tried to snoop, he didn't tell. br
when they got near the place, severus asked miranje to close her eyes.
- just close them, ok? it won't be far anymore. br
- but.. but.. what if i fall? br
- you won't. i'll see to that. now close them. br
with a little resistence miranje closed her eyes and severus escorted her forward. after a little while they stopped. br
- ok. you can open. miranje opened her eyes and lost her breath. they were standing on the edge of a cliff, and far down was a valley that was covered with snow, just like the the huge tree on the cliff. the sky was a pale shade of blue. br
- this is the most beautiful thing i've ever seen, miranje gasped and without realizing it jumped and hugged severus. severus was a little confused, for just a second, but then put his arms around her. the time stopped. they felt this whole new feeling, that wasn't there before. when they parted they couldn't look eatch other in the eye. miranje sat on the edge and severus leaned to the tree, confused. they both felt angry with theirselves, but on the same time somehow..happy. they didn't exept that feeling, the warmth all over their bodies. br
- listen.. they both said at the same time. they stared eachother and then ran, like something would have told them to, to eachothers arms. br
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they went on like nothing had happened. or so it seemed for the others, if they would've payed attention. they met every evening, but no-one had the slightest idea, not even dumbledore, atleast they thought so. one day severus was in dumbledores office, when dumbledore suddenly said to him: br
- severus, i know something is going on. now, i'm saying this as a friend, not as the headmaster: you have to end it. i won't say this again, so do it for your own sake. or hers. br
severus nodded his head and rushed off. br
when they met in the evening near the forbitten forest, miranje rushed to him, kissed him and smiled. severus had a war inside of him but he forced himself to a smile. they walked and miranjetold about how important severus was to her. he couldn't stand it anymore and so he told her, that they had to end it all. miranje couldn't handle it without any warning and collapsed in the snow. br
- you can't do this to me, severus.. she said sobbing. br
- but i must, he said kneeling beside her. - dumbledore is on to us. br miranje couldn't hold her cry any longer. br
- oh don't cry, please don't, severus said and put his arms around her. br
- don't leave me, whispered miranje and buried her face into his robes. he felt angry with himself and sad because of her. he loved, for the first time in ages, but all the chance they got was washed away. he stood up and left miranje there, crying, 'cos he couldn't be near her any longer. he rushed to his chamber and stared at the fire for ages with miranjes voice still in his head. br
miranje cried in the snow for quite some time then stood up and started running away from the castle.
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in the middle of the night there was a loud bang on severus' door. he woke up and realized he'd falled asleep and opened the door. br
- albus, what are you doing here at this hour? br
- you have to come with me, said the headmaster. - miranje illusion has gone missing. brbrbrbr
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so, should i quit now and never ever come back or do you want to know what happens next? there's still a lot of despair, and big feelings ahead, i can tell you.. :]