Disclaimer: I do not own the song, it's Girlfriend By N*sync.
*Liz' POV*
Every morning it's the same routine, watch.
5. 4. 3. 2. 1.
'Liz, sweetie, time to get up!'
Cue the groan and roll out of bed. Walk to the cupboard, throw on the clothes I picked out yesterday, run into the bathroom. Oh I forgot, switch on the radio. Throw on some make-up...
II don't know why you care
He doesn't even know you're there
'Cause he don't love your eyes
And he don't love your smile
Girl, you know that ain't fair
The middle of the night, is he gonna be by your side
Or will he run and hide
You don't know, 'cause things ain't clear
And baby when you cry, is he gonna stand by your side
Does the man even know you're alive
I got an idea ...
Why don't you be my girlfriend
I'll treat you good
I know you hear your friends when they say you should
'Cause if you were my girlfriend, I'd be your shining star
The one to show you where you are
Girl you should be my girlfriend
Does he know what you feel
Are you sure that it's real
Does he ease your mind
Or does he break your stride
Did you know that love could be a shield
The middle of the night, is he gonna be by your side
Or will he run and hide
You don't know, 'cause things ain't clear
Any baby when you cry, is he gonna stand by your side
Does the man even know you're alive
I got an idea ...
Why don't you be my girlfriend
I'll treat you good
I know you hear your friends when they say you should
'Cause if you were my girlfriend, I'd be your shining star
The one to show you where you are
Girl you should be my girlfriend
Ever since I saw your face, nothing in my life has been the same
I walk around just saying your name
Without you my world would end
I looked around this whole damn place and everything says you were meant to be
My girlfriend
Why don't you be my girlfriend
I'll treat you good
I know you hear your friends when they say you should
'Cause if you were my girlfriend, I'd be your shining star
The one to show you where you are
Girl you should be my girlfriend i/
I always seem to end up singing along to the radio in the morning, even though my voice sounds like a dying cat at this time of the day. And just out of interest, have you ever tried to put lip gloss on while singing to the radio? Well it's damn hard, let me tell you! But it only really takes a second cos well I don't wanna wear too much make-up now do I? The thing that takes the longest is putting my contact lenses in. Oh, did I forget to tell you that? Well, I wear contacts, I was told I needed glasses about two years ago, I got contacts straight away. Little Geeky Liz Parker did not need glasses to make her look any worse! It would be ridding my lovely eyes, my only good feature, of their freedom! Now they only have to have me prodding them twice a day.
Right, so by now I'm out in the kitchen getting my breakfast, an apple! Wooo yeah! I think I have a right to display fake excitement, this has been the routine for the last, I don't know, seven years?? See my life is just so annoyingly predictable! Nothing exciting ever happens to me! Except for once when I was eating an orange, I swallowed a pip and nearly choked to death. It seems kind of funny looking back on it, but it wasn't at the time! Having to live on nothing but yogurt for days!!!! Believe me when I say that I've never had a yogurt since!
So, after shoveling breakfast down, without choking I might add, I shove my trainers on and run down to the café. Grab my bag from the back room where I dumped it last night and run out the back door. Mom and Dad are probably out the front helping the first few people get their breakfast and setting up for the lunch time rush.
For once this morning I have no reason to hurry. I walk to school, always have done. Catching the bus would just be so, like, un-cool! Yeah, like that would ever be my motive! Actually it's because the first time I tried to catch the bus I missed it completely and ended up walking anyway. It's nice, I don't mind, it wakes me up, gives me a chance to psyche myself up to another day of being normal little Liz Parker!
It's strange how important walking to school has become to me over the years. It helps me to relive the most amazing experience of my life. The only time when I ever felt special!
It was on the first day of fourth grade. Maria and I had both walked to school, getting there quite early. We were standing out in front of the school with all these people milling around us. Alex, of course, was late! Men! OK so he was only 6 years old, but I'm still not letting it go! Any way, Maria was going on and on about these cypress oils things that her mom had let her try. She was babbling on about something to do with the calming effects of the forest and singing mountain streams. What?!? But I was listening, when you've been around Maria for a while you sort of develop a Maria filter and kind of just tune her out. My mind was buzzing along all by itself thank you very much.
I was jittery and nervous. Here we were at the beginning of a new school year, just another year of trying to be perfect, attempting to make my parents happy. Don't get me wrong my parents were great, they never really asked anything of me, I just couldn't see that at the time. All I could see were these wonderful people who had cared for me through absolutely everything and I didn't want to lose them, so I tried to be perfect. I did everything, I got overworked, a ten minute homework took me two hours! I used to creep back up after my parents had put me to bed, go onto my balcony and keep going with my homework. Then I began to skip lunches etc, until one day I collapsed in the middle of PE. My parents gave me a talk to find out what was wrong. I still try to be perfect but maybe just not so much.
So all the time Maria was talking I was thinking about being perfect, until a noise jolted me out of my stupor. I thought at first that it was Maria, but no, she was still going like a hurricane with out any clue as to what I was doing. So I turned round looking for the noise that had so rudely awakened me. It was the arrival of the school bus, not that interesting, but just as I was about to turn round someone got off the bus.
The feeling I got was. astounding. No word can describe it! For a second it felt like I was floating, everyone else was gone, all my cares of the moment had disappeared. He was looking at me as though I was beautiful, as though he loved me. My heart was crying out to him but all I could do was smile. It was amazing, but the next second my eye contact was broken with him and Alex dragged me off into school.
You must think I'm crazy, I know we were only nine years old and only just in fourth grade but it really felt real! When I looked into his eyes I really saw love! If there's anything in this world that I've ever been sure of it's that on that day I saw love for the first time. It's been a long time since then though, perhaps what I saw was love, just not MY love. The one I'm searching for, the soul-mate love that I've never found.
In that first week of that year I did everything to try and find out my mysterious boy's name but I had no success until Friday. I just walked into my Biology class and there he was, sitting there with the only free seat in the room, right next to him! We ended up as lab partners after that, but for some reason he never really tried to talk to me after that, he never mentioned that morning. He became more and more distant as time went on, it hurt, yes, it hurt a lot, I couldn't believe what I had felt was one sided, that's why now I don't believe that what I felt was my soul-mate love. It must have been something different, though what I'm not sure.
I'll never forget him though, he'll always have that space in my heart that's saved for the first second you experience love.
*Liz' POV*
Every morning it's the same routine, watch.
5. 4. 3. 2. 1.
'Liz, sweetie, time to get up!'
Cue the groan and roll out of bed. Walk to the cupboard, throw on the clothes I picked out yesterday, run into the bathroom. Oh I forgot, switch on the radio. Throw on some make-up...
II don't know why you care
He doesn't even know you're there
'Cause he don't love your eyes
And he don't love your smile
Girl, you know that ain't fair
The middle of the night, is he gonna be by your side
Or will he run and hide
You don't know, 'cause things ain't clear
And baby when you cry, is he gonna stand by your side
Does the man even know you're alive
I got an idea ...
Why don't you be my girlfriend
I'll treat you good
I know you hear your friends when they say you should
'Cause if you were my girlfriend, I'd be your shining star
The one to show you where you are
Girl you should be my girlfriend
Does he know what you feel
Are you sure that it's real
Does he ease your mind
Or does he break your stride
Did you know that love could be a shield
The middle of the night, is he gonna be by your side
Or will he run and hide
You don't know, 'cause things ain't clear
Any baby when you cry, is he gonna stand by your side
Does the man even know you're alive
I got an idea ...
Why don't you be my girlfriend
I'll treat you good
I know you hear your friends when they say you should
'Cause if you were my girlfriend, I'd be your shining star
The one to show you where you are
Girl you should be my girlfriend
Ever since I saw your face, nothing in my life has been the same
I walk around just saying your name
Without you my world would end
I looked around this whole damn place and everything says you were meant to be
My girlfriend
Why don't you be my girlfriend
I'll treat you good
I know you hear your friends when they say you should
'Cause if you were my girlfriend, I'd be your shining star
The one to show you where you are
Girl you should be my girlfriend i/
I always seem to end up singing along to the radio in the morning, even though my voice sounds like a dying cat at this time of the day. And just out of interest, have you ever tried to put lip gloss on while singing to the radio? Well it's damn hard, let me tell you! But it only really takes a second cos well I don't wanna wear too much make-up now do I? The thing that takes the longest is putting my contact lenses in. Oh, did I forget to tell you that? Well, I wear contacts, I was told I needed glasses about two years ago, I got contacts straight away. Little Geeky Liz Parker did not need glasses to make her look any worse! It would be ridding my lovely eyes, my only good feature, of their freedom! Now they only have to have me prodding them twice a day.
Right, so by now I'm out in the kitchen getting my breakfast, an apple! Wooo yeah! I think I have a right to display fake excitement, this has been the routine for the last, I don't know, seven years?? See my life is just so annoyingly predictable! Nothing exciting ever happens to me! Except for once when I was eating an orange, I swallowed a pip and nearly choked to death. It seems kind of funny looking back on it, but it wasn't at the time! Having to live on nothing but yogurt for days!!!! Believe me when I say that I've never had a yogurt since!
So, after shoveling breakfast down, without choking I might add, I shove my trainers on and run down to the café. Grab my bag from the back room where I dumped it last night and run out the back door. Mom and Dad are probably out the front helping the first few people get their breakfast and setting up for the lunch time rush.
For once this morning I have no reason to hurry. I walk to school, always have done. Catching the bus would just be so, like, un-cool! Yeah, like that would ever be my motive! Actually it's because the first time I tried to catch the bus I missed it completely and ended up walking anyway. It's nice, I don't mind, it wakes me up, gives me a chance to psyche myself up to another day of being normal little Liz Parker!
It's strange how important walking to school has become to me over the years. It helps me to relive the most amazing experience of my life. The only time when I ever felt special!
It was on the first day of fourth grade. Maria and I had both walked to school, getting there quite early. We were standing out in front of the school with all these people milling around us. Alex, of course, was late! Men! OK so he was only 6 years old, but I'm still not letting it go! Any way, Maria was going on and on about these cypress oils things that her mom had let her try. She was babbling on about something to do with the calming effects of the forest and singing mountain streams. What?!? But I was listening, when you've been around Maria for a while you sort of develop a Maria filter and kind of just tune her out. My mind was buzzing along all by itself thank you very much.
I was jittery and nervous. Here we were at the beginning of a new school year, just another year of trying to be perfect, attempting to make my parents happy. Don't get me wrong my parents were great, they never really asked anything of me, I just couldn't see that at the time. All I could see were these wonderful people who had cared for me through absolutely everything and I didn't want to lose them, so I tried to be perfect. I did everything, I got overworked, a ten minute homework took me two hours! I used to creep back up after my parents had put me to bed, go onto my balcony and keep going with my homework. Then I began to skip lunches etc, until one day I collapsed in the middle of PE. My parents gave me a talk to find out what was wrong. I still try to be perfect but maybe just not so much.
So all the time Maria was talking I was thinking about being perfect, until a noise jolted me out of my stupor. I thought at first that it was Maria, but no, she was still going like a hurricane with out any clue as to what I was doing. So I turned round looking for the noise that had so rudely awakened me. It was the arrival of the school bus, not that interesting, but just as I was about to turn round someone got off the bus.
The feeling I got was. astounding. No word can describe it! For a second it felt like I was floating, everyone else was gone, all my cares of the moment had disappeared. He was looking at me as though I was beautiful, as though he loved me. My heart was crying out to him but all I could do was smile. It was amazing, but the next second my eye contact was broken with him and Alex dragged me off into school.
You must think I'm crazy, I know we were only nine years old and only just in fourth grade but it really felt real! When I looked into his eyes I really saw love! If there's anything in this world that I've ever been sure of it's that on that day I saw love for the first time. It's been a long time since then though, perhaps what I saw was love, just not MY love. The one I'm searching for, the soul-mate love that I've never found.
In that first week of that year I did everything to try and find out my mysterious boy's name but I had no success until Friday. I just walked into my Biology class and there he was, sitting there with the only free seat in the room, right next to him! We ended up as lab partners after that, but for some reason he never really tried to talk to me after that, he never mentioned that morning. He became more and more distant as time went on, it hurt, yes, it hurt a lot, I couldn't believe what I had felt was one sided, that's why now I don't believe that what I felt was my soul-mate love. It must have been something different, though what I'm not sure.
I'll never forget him though, he'll always have that space in my heart that's saved for the first second you experience love.