CHAPTER 17
*Liz' POV*
Hello again guys. What's up? For me well. a few books hovering around my head. Yeah life still sucks!
I don't know if you've ever been at a point in your life when there just doesn't seem anything really left that shows some hope. Well I have, I'm there now. I'm a freak, I don't even know who I am any more! On Saturday I was little Lizzie Parker, just your normal girl, but now I have these powers, I can do things that normal people can't. I'm a freak, a scary freak, and no matter how hard Maria and Alex try to hide it, I know they're scared of me too. Why shouldn't they be, for all we know this is contagious, or this is some kind of illness which could kill me tomorrow! I can't even go to a doctor because they would classify me as a freak and start testing on me!
The one person that could have any vague idea what's wrong with me is now somewhere possibly thousands of miles away! And even he might not know what's wrong. Perhaps he didn't heal me, perhaps we all hallucinated the whole thing! Perhaps I was always a freak, I just didn't know it. But then again you'd think I'd notice the flying books a little earlier! It's not really the sort of thing that's easy to miss!
Nothing seems like home any more, nothing rings true. I've had to lie to my parents and to practically everyone around me! Even Maria and Alex don't know the worst of what's going on. They don't know that there's a hand print on my stomach that glows when I touch it, they don't know that things start to crackle like they're in a microwave when I touch them! Mom and Dad just think I'm having teenaged growing pains or having PMS, how much more wrong could they be? Hey maybe I've become a walking talking microwave! I suppose it could have it's up points. and maybe not!
And the worst part of it is how completely alone I feel. I've never felt like this before, I've always had someone there, Grandma Claudia, Maria, Alex, Mom or even Dad! But now there's no one I can turn to.
I don't know what to do. Do I just keep on living my life as well as I can? Just try and pretend that nothing's wrong? Or do I scream from the roof tops that I'm a freak? Do I just give up on all my hopes of my future, a future I always hated, a normal future?
Sorry to weigh all this on you guys, I just don't know what else to think about! I couldn't concentrate when I read more of Grandma's book, it just didn't seem to want to go into my head! All I could think about was the feel of the gun pressed into my stomach, knowing that I'd never see another day and then watching Max run out of the restaurant, leaving my life forever!
In the book, Liara managed to continue with her life even after Zan chose Ava over her. I suppose the situation was different to this one, but I thought it might give me some comfort, that didn't work. Here's the passage;
'Liara sighed as her feet touched the ground of Drasen. She was home again, here there would be no more pretences that she was beautiful enough for that rich planet, and no more heartache. Ava would go back and stay on Antar just like she had planned, her short visit to Drasen would probably never be repeated, she would work her way into the high society of Antar and marry someone rich. Perhaps even Zan, whispered a contemptuous voice at the back of Liara's mind. Liara shivered and began to walk. There was no point in dwelling, Zan had made his decision and she could not blame him, who would choose a Mouse next to a Dove? A dove who would soon be rich, a dove who was more beautiful than the mouse could ever be, a dove who could even, perhaps, one day become one of the Royal Representatives. Something that this poor, bedraggled mouse would never manage!
Liara winced as she looked down at her best shoes, now caked in mud from the long walk home. Well there was no point in being upset, she would never need them again for she would vow never to leave her home again. Not in search of riches, happiness or even love. She would find her only solitude here.
But Liara's heart did not believe these promises, this would not happen. fate would not let it.'
Perhaps that's what I should be doing, not asking questions but making decisions. Max is gone, he will probably never be back, but I am still here and still have to live. So what do I do? Vow to stay at home like Liara and become an old spinster waitress? Not a particularly attractive proposition! Perhaps I could.
'Liz.'
Shit! 'Get away from me!' Who the hell would sneak up onto my balcony in the middle of the night? 'Don't come any closer, I'm warning you!'
'Liz, it's m-' The figure steps forward.
'I warned you!' I squeak.
'Shit! Flippin hell!' Yells the figure as a book flies at him.
Ah, yes forgot about that. Well I suppose this telepathic thingy could come in handy. 'Don't come any closer or I'll do it again!'
'Ow!' There goes another book, I really have to learn how to control this thing! 'Liz it's me Max!'
'Max?!? Oh my God! Am I ever so happy to see you!'
'You are?' he sounds surprised. 'Well I wouldn't have guessed by you throwing books at me.' He says as he steps forwards into the light.
'I ummm. can't help it.'
'Liz. what the heck is that?' He whispers terrified, pointing at my lawn chair, hovering about three feet off the ground.
'I was hoping you could tell me that.'
He doesn't know does he? Great, this just keeps getting better. Now I've got yet another unwitting person, scared of me. It's like Halloween with an oddly hilarious twist! Here I am in this alien suit just waiting for him to show me his matching one and he suddenly tells me that he came as a bunny rabbit. Yes I do realise that's a very odd metaphor!
'Me?' he squeaks. Nope he knows nothing about it. I'm royally screwed!
'You did this to me. you healed me.'
'Oh my God,' and that's all he says before he sits down, with his head in his hands. This could be a long night!
***
'Max,' he hasn't spoken since the lawn chair thing. he'd better not have fallen asleep.
'Liz.. I-I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you..'
He looks almost close to tears. 'You didn't! You saved my life.. but I have to know how! I have to know what's wrong with me!'
Where did that come from? Just the other day I was cursing everything he's ever loved for doing this to me!
'I'll figure it out Liz.. I promise.'
I hope he does, I can't live like this for long!
'I ought to go,' he mumbles.
Something tells me that he came for something else. 'No..'
He looks surprised by this. 'I want to know how. You know that! I want to know what happened to start this. What are you?'
'Well, I- I'm not from around here.'
Is this some kind of joke. 'Where are you from?'
He's pointing his finger upwards.. he can't mean- no, no he just means, 'Like from Canada, right?'
He's pointing his finger higher.
'Oh, no, you are so not saying that! You're kidding me right? You're not an- an alien? Are you?'
'I-'
'Oh God! This is SO not happening! I had a normal life, everything thing was fine and now I'm what some kind of Mutant? Like you?'
'I prefer the term not of this earth.'
He's joking? At a time like this? Everything I ever believed in has just been ripped down around my ears, I find out I'm not human and he's joking?
'Sorry.. It's a bad time to joke.' Hey no Kidding! 'I've just well, never admitted this to someone before. none of us have.'
'Us?' So there's more! Oh joy!
'Oh.'
'It's Michael and Isabel isn't it?'
'How did you know?' He looks really surprised.
'Who else could it be? Michael was there that day! Isabel's your sister! It's just got to be them!'
'I-'
'Look Max, I have to go inside. '
'Liz I never meant to hurt you!'
'Yeah well you succeeded! Look. I have to go to bed.. good night Max..'
And I turn my back on him and walk inside. It may seem mean but it's not every day that you find out three people you've known almost all your life aren't quite as human as you thought they were! And put it this way, if I get anymore worked off Max just may find himself taking a rather unexpected flying lesson!
*Liz' POV*
Hello again guys. What's up? For me well. a few books hovering around my head. Yeah life still sucks!
I don't know if you've ever been at a point in your life when there just doesn't seem anything really left that shows some hope. Well I have, I'm there now. I'm a freak, I don't even know who I am any more! On Saturday I was little Lizzie Parker, just your normal girl, but now I have these powers, I can do things that normal people can't. I'm a freak, a scary freak, and no matter how hard Maria and Alex try to hide it, I know they're scared of me too. Why shouldn't they be, for all we know this is contagious, or this is some kind of illness which could kill me tomorrow! I can't even go to a doctor because they would classify me as a freak and start testing on me!
The one person that could have any vague idea what's wrong with me is now somewhere possibly thousands of miles away! And even he might not know what's wrong. Perhaps he didn't heal me, perhaps we all hallucinated the whole thing! Perhaps I was always a freak, I just didn't know it. But then again you'd think I'd notice the flying books a little earlier! It's not really the sort of thing that's easy to miss!
Nothing seems like home any more, nothing rings true. I've had to lie to my parents and to practically everyone around me! Even Maria and Alex don't know the worst of what's going on. They don't know that there's a hand print on my stomach that glows when I touch it, they don't know that things start to crackle like they're in a microwave when I touch them! Mom and Dad just think I'm having teenaged growing pains or having PMS, how much more wrong could they be? Hey maybe I've become a walking talking microwave! I suppose it could have it's up points. and maybe not!
And the worst part of it is how completely alone I feel. I've never felt like this before, I've always had someone there, Grandma Claudia, Maria, Alex, Mom or even Dad! But now there's no one I can turn to.
I don't know what to do. Do I just keep on living my life as well as I can? Just try and pretend that nothing's wrong? Or do I scream from the roof tops that I'm a freak? Do I just give up on all my hopes of my future, a future I always hated, a normal future?
Sorry to weigh all this on you guys, I just don't know what else to think about! I couldn't concentrate when I read more of Grandma's book, it just didn't seem to want to go into my head! All I could think about was the feel of the gun pressed into my stomach, knowing that I'd never see another day and then watching Max run out of the restaurant, leaving my life forever!
In the book, Liara managed to continue with her life even after Zan chose Ava over her. I suppose the situation was different to this one, but I thought it might give me some comfort, that didn't work. Here's the passage;
'Liara sighed as her feet touched the ground of Drasen. She was home again, here there would be no more pretences that she was beautiful enough for that rich planet, and no more heartache. Ava would go back and stay on Antar just like she had planned, her short visit to Drasen would probably never be repeated, she would work her way into the high society of Antar and marry someone rich. Perhaps even Zan, whispered a contemptuous voice at the back of Liara's mind. Liara shivered and began to walk. There was no point in dwelling, Zan had made his decision and she could not blame him, who would choose a Mouse next to a Dove? A dove who would soon be rich, a dove who was more beautiful than the mouse could ever be, a dove who could even, perhaps, one day become one of the Royal Representatives. Something that this poor, bedraggled mouse would never manage!
Liara winced as she looked down at her best shoes, now caked in mud from the long walk home. Well there was no point in being upset, she would never need them again for she would vow never to leave her home again. Not in search of riches, happiness or even love. She would find her only solitude here.
But Liara's heart did not believe these promises, this would not happen. fate would not let it.'
Perhaps that's what I should be doing, not asking questions but making decisions. Max is gone, he will probably never be back, but I am still here and still have to live. So what do I do? Vow to stay at home like Liara and become an old spinster waitress? Not a particularly attractive proposition! Perhaps I could.
'Liz.'
Shit! 'Get away from me!' Who the hell would sneak up onto my balcony in the middle of the night? 'Don't come any closer, I'm warning you!'
'Liz, it's m-' The figure steps forward.
'I warned you!' I squeak.
'Shit! Flippin hell!' Yells the figure as a book flies at him.
Ah, yes forgot about that. Well I suppose this telepathic thingy could come in handy. 'Don't come any closer or I'll do it again!'
'Ow!' There goes another book, I really have to learn how to control this thing! 'Liz it's me Max!'
'Max?!? Oh my God! Am I ever so happy to see you!'
'You are?' he sounds surprised. 'Well I wouldn't have guessed by you throwing books at me.' He says as he steps forwards into the light.
'I ummm. can't help it.'
'Liz. what the heck is that?' He whispers terrified, pointing at my lawn chair, hovering about three feet off the ground.
'I was hoping you could tell me that.'
He doesn't know does he? Great, this just keeps getting better. Now I've got yet another unwitting person, scared of me. It's like Halloween with an oddly hilarious twist! Here I am in this alien suit just waiting for him to show me his matching one and he suddenly tells me that he came as a bunny rabbit. Yes I do realise that's a very odd metaphor!
'Me?' he squeaks. Nope he knows nothing about it. I'm royally screwed!
'You did this to me. you healed me.'
'Oh my God,' and that's all he says before he sits down, with his head in his hands. This could be a long night!
***
'Max,' he hasn't spoken since the lawn chair thing. he'd better not have fallen asleep.
'Liz.. I-I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you..'
He looks almost close to tears. 'You didn't! You saved my life.. but I have to know how! I have to know what's wrong with me!'
Where did that come from? Just the other day I was cursing everything he's ever loved for doing this to me!
'I'll figure it out Liz.. I promise.'
I hope he does, I can't live like this for long!
'I ought to go,' he mumbles.
Something tells me that he came for something else. 'No..'
He looks surprised by this. 'I want to know how. You know that! I want to know what happened to start this. What are you?'
'Well, I- I'm not from around here.'
Is this some kind of joke. 'Where are you from?'
He's pointing his finger upwards.. he can't mean- no, no he just means, 'Like from Canada, right?'
He's pointing his finger higher.
'Oh, no, you are so not saying that! You're kidding me right? You're not an- an alien? Are you?'
'I-'
'Oh God! This is SO not happening! I had a normal life, everything thing was fine and now I'm what some kind of Mutant? Like you?'
'I prefer the term not of this earth.'
He's joking? At a time like this? Everything I ever believed in has just been ripped down around my ears, I find out I'm not human and he's joking?
'Sorry.. It's a bad time to joke.' Hey no Kidding! 'I've just well, never admitted this to someone before. none of us have.'
'Us?' So there's more! Oh joy!
'Oh.'
'It's Michael and Isabel isn't it?'
'How did you know?' He looks really surprised.
'Who else could it be? Michael was there that day! Isabel's your sister! It's just got to be them!'
'I-'
'Look Max, I have to go inside. '
'Liz I never meant to hurt you!'
'Yeah well you succeeded! Look. I have to go to bed.. good night Max..'
And I turn my back on him and walk inside. It may seem mean but it's not every day that you find out three people you've known almost all your life aren't quite as human as you thought they were! And put it this way, if I get anymore worked off Max just may find himself taking a rather unexpected flying lesson!