Alright every one, I'm back...I think. Am realizing that with the current
job I have no time for anything else in my life (lovely 8hr shift plus
another 8hrs of OT are my usual day). Anyway, here goes the psycosis.
Though the lack of reviews on the updates of "Shinta" have left me
wondering if I should even bother anymore. You have 'Berserker' to thank
for this burst of motivation. Oh and I am doing a fic for the manga MARS,
the people over there need a little psychological trauma. I will be
updating this chapter later, decided I would post this first part before
getting into Kenshin's story (that's going to be long).
The Sum Of Sins Part II -Kenshin-
Kaoru stretched, her mind ignoring the jarring noise that shattered a peaceful night's sleep. With a groan she rolled over, blue eyes glaring pointedly at the phone, then glancing at the clock beside it. 8 a.m. red digital letters looked back at her, ~Four hours sleep, lovely...~ With a second groan she rolled over, ignoring the blaring phone and burying herself back under the heavy blankets.
After the hospital had examined her for any serious damage; then stuck her with multiple needles for her own protection (not that she believed it), they told her should had to wait twelve hours before sleeping. That meant that instead of getting to sleep at a modest ten o'clock, she had to wait until four in the morning to even consider it. Now the world was nothing more than an irritatingly bright place accompanied by the shrilling of the phone. Giving up she rolled back over, ripping the receiver from its cradle she lifted the phone to her ear.
"What-do-you-want?" The words came in clipped syllables through clenched teeth, Kaoru was never at her best in the morning and her currently lack of sleep made her far from friendly.
"Good Morning, Ms Kamiya. The patient Kenshin Himura is awake and asking for you." The obnoxiously chipper voice that resembled 'Nurse Jean' from the day before invaded her sleep deprived world.
"Fucking beautiful," Kaoru would have laughed at the woman's startled gasp, but the pounding of her head sapped away any amusement the world would have held. Not to mention that spending her morning with a killer was not her idea of relaxing. "I'll be there in an hour." With that she hung up, no good-bye. She hadn't said 'good-bye' in years, not since her father had died. Good-bye meant they weren't coming back.
***
"Good morning, Ms. Kaoru."
She was so tempted to mutter 'there's nothing good about it' back at the careful amethyst eyes that watched her. Kenshin Himura lay on white sheets his red hair still a tangled mass around his head, though now it was free of the blood and sweat that matted it earlier. Her eyes were drawn to its splash of color, so unnatural in its sterile white surroundings.
"I'm sorry for what happened yesterday...they told me I attacked you." He paused, amethyst eyes searching her face for some encouragement. Then continued undaunted, the pitch of his voice somewhere between the bright sun-lit tones of a child and the heavier stormy tones of a man. "I don't remember what happened...but Sessha is sorry."
Kaoru nodded, her pencil moving with a mind of its own over the tablet, "I understand, it is all right." Sapphire eyes looked down at the yellow legal pad, as the lie slid easily from between her lips.
"They told me that you were here to evaluate me, to decided if I really am capable of..." Kenshin faltered closing his eyes, his fingers fought nervously with the padded straps that kept his arms captive at his sides. Then sighing defeatedly he looked back up at her, "If I killed Tomoe...If I could have murdered my wife." All the pain and all the weight of the past days was summed up in her name, a whispered prayer that left him desolate.
"I am here to determine if you are able to stand trial...It is the court's job to prove you guilty or innocent."
"Do you believe that I am guilty?" Amethyst eyes met hers, pleading for comfort from her, hoping to find a soul that believed him innocent.
"It doesn't matter what I think," And for that moment she wanted to lie, to tell him that everything would be all right, and that he wasn't the monster she saw him as. But she saw monsters everyday in the newspaper, why should he be so different? Why should she want to spare his feelings, he was a murder like any other...wasn't he? Blue eyes met his, their sapphire depths hardening with the pain that years of loss had left behind. With a deep breath she spoke, shocked at the coldness in her own words. In her mind she wondered if his voice sounded the same as he killed his wife. "Yes, I think you killed her."
Silence stretched between them, and for that time he didn't speak again, didn't even look up at her until she broke it. Somewhere inside Kaoru took a cruel delight in hurting him even as her mind fought against the joy, which she knew made her more like him than she would ever want to believe.
After what seemed like hours to Kenshin, the sapphire eyed girl spoke. Her voice was calm and business like, as though she were analyzing a specimen through a microscope rather than talking to a human being. "Do you remember what happened that night, Kenshin?" As if programmed, she pressed the record button on a small tape recorder and waited for him to answer.
The Sum Of Sins Part II -Kenshin-
Kaoru stretched, her mind ignoring the jarring noise that shattered a peaceful night's sleep. With a groan she rolled over, blue eyes glaring pointedly at the phone, then glancing at the clock beside it. 8 a.m. red digital letters looked back at her, ~Four hours sleep, lovely...~ With a second groan she rolled over, ignoring the blaring phone and burying herself back under the heavy blankets.
After the hospital had examined her for any serious damage; then stuck her with multiple needles for her own protection (not that she believed it), they told her should had to wait twelve hours before sleeping. That meant that instead of getting to sleep at a modest ten o'clock, she had to wait until four in the morning to even consider it. Now the world was nothing more than an irritatingly bright place accompanied by the shrilling of the phone. Giving up she rolled back over, ripping the receiver from its cradle she lifted the phone to her ear.
"What-do-you-want?" The words came in clipped syllables through clenched teeth, Kaoru was never at her best in the morning and her currently lack of sleep made her far from friendly.
"Good Morning, Ms Kamiya. The patient Kenshin Himura is awake and asking for you." The obnoxiously chipper voice that resembled 'Nurse Jean' from the day before invaded her sleep deprived world.
"Fucking beautiful," Kaoru would have laughed at the woman's startled gasp, but the pounding of her head sapped away any amusement the world would have held. Not to mention that spending her morning with a killer was not her idea of relaxing. "I'll be there in an hour." With that she hung up, no good-bye. She hadn't said 'good-bye' in years, not since her father had died. Good-bye meant they weren't coming back.
***
"Good morning, Ms. Kaoru."
She was so tempted to mutter 'there's nothing good about it' back at the careful amethyst eyes that watched her. Kenshin Himura lay on white sheets his red hair still a tangled mass around his head, though now it was free of the blood and sweat that matted it earlier. Her eyes were drawn to its splash of color, so unnatural in its sterile white surroundings.
"I'm sorry for what happened yesterday...they told me I attacked you." He paused, amethyst eyes searching her face for some encouragement. Then continued undaunted, the pitch of his voice somewhere between the bright sun-lit tones of a child and the heavier stormy tones of a man. "I don't remember what happened...but Sessha is sorry."
Kaoru nodded, her pencil moving with a mind of its own over the tablet, "I understand, it is all right." Sapphire eyes looked down at the yellow legal pad, as the lie slid easily from between her lips.
"They told me that you were here to evaluate me, to decided if I really am capable of..." Kenshin faltered closing his eyes, his fingers fought nervously with the padded straps that kept his arms captive at his sides. Then sighing defeatedly he looked back up at her, "If I killed Tomoe...If I could have murdered my wife." All the pain and all the weight of the past days was summed up in her name, a whispered prayer that left him desolate.
"I am here to determine if you are able to stand trial...It is the court's job to prove you guilty or innocent."
"Do you believe that I am guilty?" Amethyst eyes met hers, pleading for comfort from her, hoping to find a soul that believed him innocent.
"It doesn't matter what I think," And for that moment she wanted to lie, to tell him that everything would be all right, and that he wasn't the monster she saw him as. But she saw monsters everyday in the newspaper, why should he be so different? Why should she want to spare his feelings, he was a murder like any other...wasn't he? Blue eyes met his, their sapphire depths hardening with the pain that years of loss had left behind. With a deep breath she spoke, shocked at the coldness in her own words. In her mind she wondered if his voice sounded the same as he killed his wife. "Yes, I think you killed her."
Silence stretched between them, and for that time he didn't speak again, didn't even look up at her until she broke it. Somewhere inside Kaoru took a cruel delight in hurting him even as her mind fought against the joy, which she knew made her more like him than she would ever want to believe.
After what seemed like hours to Kenshin, the sapphire eyed girl spoke. Her voice was calm and business like, as though she were analyzing a specimen through a microscope rather than talking to a human being. "Do you remember what happened that night, Kenshin?" As if programmed, she pressed the record button on a small tape recorder and waited for him to answer.