Okay, second chapter. Longer than the other one, this is from Hyde's point of view. There will be more thoughts on Jackie's end soon.
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Chapter 2 - Forced to Hide
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Hyde pulled open the door of the Camino and jammed his keys into the ignition. He could see his breath as he turned on the heat.
Man, it's cold, he thought.
He switched it off and waited for the car's engine to warm up. Leaning his head back he caught sight of the rearview mirror. Jackie's coat was in the backseat. He reached back and held it up. He pictured her little body engulfed in this furry designer coat. His lips turned up slightly thinking of her, but he quickly pushed the image out of his mind and threw the coat into the backseat.
Why does one person need so much fur on a coat anyway?
He let out an exasperated sigh and backed out of the parking lot. This was the first time he had stayed after school. The teachers had watched him the whole time he was in the library. He didn't want to be there of course, but it was better than having to deal with Forman always implying things and of course Donna putting more of a guilt trip on him. Fez was... well he would just babble about needs, but he was really sick of Kelso's incessant remarks about Hyde being no better than him.
He drove along the wet road, his windshield wipers on. The sky was dark and gray, but he preferred that. It was just the way he felt.
I am no better than Kelso, he thought.
He glanced back at the coat lying there, isolated in the corner of the seat.
"I'm such an ass..."
He hit his forehead in disgust with himself and pulled over.
How could he have hurt someone he loved so much? And quite possibly, the only person to have truly loved him? To be apart from her for so long hurt him to no end. But it was his own fault and he knew it.
He didn't know how to put aside his insecurities and just believe that something could be real, that someone could care about him. He knew now that what he and Jackie had was real. She had changed him in a way that not even he himself could explain. The missing piece to the puzzle had been right there in front of his eyes, and she had made him feel whole. Now he'd lost her. And a part of his heart was missing.
Memories began to flood over him as he tried desperately to get them out of his head, but to no avail.
He remembered meeting her for the first time in grade school, annoyed by her selfishness and cheerleader persona. When her and Kelso began to date and even when they broke up she'd become a part of their group, and of course he had kept his image up around her. But somehow she managed to see right through him. So he would just put up his wall and claim he hated her.
But he didn't hated her...he could never hate her.
His head was hanging on the steering wheel as he heard the cars zoom by. He wiped his hands across his face and tried to regain his composure. Restarting the car, he continued on to Forman's. He'd have to face the guys again today and he needed to come off as the regular Hyde. Thoughts of Jackie would just have to be pushed aside, and his don't-give-a-shit exterior would have to be put up again.
He turned onto Forman's street and slowly pulled to a stop a few feet away from Donna's house.
Sitting on the porch was Jackie. This was the first time he'd seen her since their break up. He stared intently at her for a long time. She had no makeup on, her hair was a mess, and she was chewing on her nails.
God, she's beautiful, he thought.
He looked down and hesitated. Should he risk her seeing him now? Maybe he should come home later...
He sat in the car for what seemed like hours before he finally decided to drive by. Putting that cool and composed look back on his face, he pushed on the gas pedal.
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Chapter 2 - Forced to Hide
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Hyde pulled open the door of the Camino and jammed his keys into the ignition. He could see his breath as he turned on the heat.
Man, it's cold, he thought.
He switched it off and waited for the car's engine to warm up. Leaning his head back he caught sight of the rearview mirror. Jackie's coat was in the backseat. He reached back and held it up. He pictured her little body engulfed in this furry designer coat. His lips turned up slightly thinking of her, but he quickly pushed the image out of his mind and threw the coat into the backseat.
Why does one person need so much fur on a coat anyway?
He let out an exasperated sigh and backed out of the parking lot. This was the first time he had stayed after school. The teachers had watched him the whole time he was in the library. He didn't want to be there of course, but it was better than having to deal with Forman always implying things and of course Donna putting more of a guilt trip on him. Fez was... well he would just babble about needs, but he was really sick of Kelso's incessant remarks about Hyde being no better than him.
He drove along the wet road, his windshield wipers on. The sky was dark and gray, but he preferred that. It was just the way he felt.
I am no better than Kelso, he thought.
He glanced back at the coat lying there, isolated in the corner of the seat.
"I'm such an ass..."
He hit his forehead in disgust with himself and pulled over.
How could he have hurt someone he loved so much? And quite possibly, the only person to have truly loved him? To be apart from her for so long hurt him to no end. But it was his own fault and he knew it.
He didn't know how to put aside his insecurities and just believe that something could be real, that someone could care about him. He knew now that what he and Jackie had was real. She had changed him in a way that not even he himself could explain. The missing piece to the puzzle had been right there in front of his eyes, and she had made him feel whole. Now he'd lost her. And a part of his heart was missing.
Memories began to flood over him as he tried desperately to get them out of his head, but to no avail.
He remembered meeting her for the first time in grade school, annoyed by her selfishness and cheerleader persona. When her and Kelso began to date and even when they broke up she'd become a part of their group, and of course he had kept his image up around her. But somehow she managed to see right through him. So he would just put up his wall and claim he hated her.
But he didn't hated her...he could never hate her.
His head was hanging on the steering wheel as he heard the cars zoom by. He wiped his hands across his face and tried to regain his composure. Restarting the car, he continued on to Forman's. He'd have to face the guys again today and he needed to come off as the regular Hyde. Thoughts of Jackie would just have to be pushed aside, and his don't-give-a-shit exterior would have to be put up again.
He turned onto Forman's street and slowly pulled to a stop a few feet away from Donna's house.
Sitting on the porch was Jackie. This was the first time he'd seen her since their break up. He stared intently at her for a long time. She had no makeup on, her hair was a mess, and she was chewing on her nails.
God, she's beautiful, he thought.
He looked down and hesitated. Should he risk her seeing him now? Maybe he should come home later...
He sat in the car for what seemed like hours before he finally decided to drive by. Putting that cool and composed look back on his face, he pushed on the gas pedal.