Chapter 4.

I never thought seeing him again would be so hard. All the reasons why I loved him and if I'm honest why I still love him hit me like one big slap to the face. Nothing could prepare me for what I saw next. Jeff was kissing another girl, my Jeff kissing another girl. How could He? Then I realised He had every right to be with another girl. It was me that had run out on him nearly a year and a half ago leaving without an explanation without a letter saying why I had left and where I was going. And it was me that was carrying around a secret that could destroy our relationship forever.

I couldn't handle seeing him and her like that, it should have been me there kissing him not her. I opened my locker room door put Carly safely down on the bench still in her car seat, and started to cry, once I started I couldn't stop my heart felt like it had broken into a thousand pieces and I couldn't do anything to stop it. I never thought seeing him again would have this effect on me. I thought I'd buried my feelings for him a long time ago, but like always, I was wrong.

"I still loved him," I whispered through my tears "I always will.