Chapter 10.
I made sure Carly was ok before running after Jeff. I didn't need to look very far because Jeff was sitting on a bench outside the hospital.
"Jeff" I whispered
He didn't turn around; I went to sit next to him. "I'm sorry," I whispered
"Is she going to be ok?" He asked
"She'll be fine," I answered
He turned to look at me.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I tried, I honestly tried," I said
"No, you didn't and if you did you didn't try very hard" He answered
" You can't say that, do you honestly think I wanted to go through the pregnancy on my own, go through the birth without you there. You will never know how hard it was for me to be on my own knowing I was carrying your child." I cried
"Then why didn't you say anything"?
"Think back to the day I left. We were in an arena in Texas."
"I know where we were, not a day goes by where I don't relive that day in my head."
"I asked you then about how you would feel if we were to have a baby. Do you remember what you said?"
"Ye I said that I didn't want.." He stopped mid sentence
"Oh my God, You could have left a note or something just to let me know, I would have come after you"
"Jeff your career was just properly getting started, you were young, I didn't want to be the woman who ruined your life by having your baby" I said my tears falling
"Please don't cry Jess He said whipping my tears away with his fingers.
He leaned in and kissed me, for a second I didn't kiss him back but my heart told me to kiss him so I did and it was the best kiss I had ever had. It was so full of love. After a while, I stopped him.
"NO Jeff" I said as I moved away
He grabbed my hand. "But why, I still love you we can make this work, we can be a family"
I took a deep breath and paused.
Jeff I don't love you anymore, I'm so sorry but I've moved on, and so have you. I saw you this morning with Stacy.
"I don't love her, I love you," He cried
"Jeff forget about me," I said
"That will never happen Jess and you know it" He started to shout.
"Jeff this is hard enough for me"
"What about Carly?" He asked
"The ball is in your court," I said
" I want to be her father" he replied
"Well come to my place tomorrow and well sort arrangements out, now Jeff go home. Go back to Stacy" I said
"Jess please I'm begging you don't do this."
"Jeff please just go," I said as I tried to hide my tears.
He left my hand go and started to walk away. As he walked away, I could feel my heart break again. God I did love him but I wanted him to come back to me because of me and not because of Carly. No one will ever know the pain I went through when I had to tell the only man I ever loved to leave my life.
I made sure Carly was ok before running after Jeff. I didn't need to look very far because Jeff was sitting on a bench outside the hospital.
"Jeff" I whispered
He didn't turn around; I went to sit next to him. "I'm sorry," I whispered
"Is she going to be ok?" He asked
"She'll be fine," I answered
He turned to look at me.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I tried, I honestly tried," I said
"No, you didn't and if you did you didn't try very hard" He answered
" You can't say that, do you honestly think I wanted to go through the pregnancy on my own, go through the birth without you there. You will never know how hard it was for me to be on my own knowing I was carrying your child." I cried
"Then why didn't you say anything"?
"Think back to the day I left. We were in an arena in Texas."
"I know where we were, not a day goes by where I don't relive that day in my head."
"I asked you then about how you would feel if we were to have a baby. Do you remember what you said?"
"Ye I said that I didn't want.." He stopped mid sentence
"Oh my God, You could have left a note or something just to let me know, I would have come after you"
"Jeff your career was just properly getting started, you were young, I didn't want to be the woman who ruined your life by having your baby" I said my tears falling
"Please don't cry Jess He said whipping my tears away with his fingers.
He leaned in and kissed me, for a second I didn't kiss him back but my heart told me to kiss him so I did and it was the best kiss I had ever had. It was so full of love. After a while, I stopped him.
"NO Jeff" I said as I moved away
He grabbed my hand. "But why, I still love you we can make this work, we can be a family"
I took a deep breath and paused.
Jeff I don't love you anymore, I'm so sorry but I've moved on, and so have you. I saw you this morning with Stacy.
"I don't love her, I love you," He cried
"Jeff forget about me," I said
"That will never happen Jess and you know it" He started to shout.
"Jeff this is hard enough for me"
"What about Carly?" He asked
"The ball is in your court," I said
" I want to be her father" he replied
"Well come to my place tomorrow and well sort arrangements out, now Jeff go home. Go back to Stacy" I said
"Jess please I'm begging you don't do this."
"Jeff please just go," I said as I tried to hide my tears.
He left my hand go and started to walk away. As he walked away, I could feel my heart break again. God I did love him but I wanted him to come back to me because of me and not because of Carly. No one will ever know the pain I went through when I had to tell the only man I ever loved to leave my life.