Chapter 3: You always belong to me
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Disclaimers: They are not belong to me but I steal them only for my this fiction. But some OOC do belong to me.
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Author's notes: please, please and please don't forget to review for this OOC fiction. This chapter is about what happened in the past or flash back.
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Warnings: Many grammar mistakes! Don't blame me. Because I'm not a perfect human. ^v^
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Erika's POV
My name is Erika, and I'm from athlete club at my girl school. Tezuka was my best friend from childhood, we do know each other because our father are friend and they always help each other for business.
Actually from me, I secretly have a crush at Tezuka and I never thinks of anything else than being his wife. Tezuka knows that I'm a nice girl and he treats me best just like a brother to his sister. But I always wants to have a relationship more than a friend with him. And Tezuka knows that, but he pretend to be a fool man that doesn't know everything. It hurts me a lot.
I always tried to help him but he seem dislike if I sacrifice for him. Everybody knows that love is blind so that's not my fault if I make him felt annoyed. One day, when I reached home, suddenly my father told me something that I can't control myself for not yelling at him.
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"What did you said, dad? I'm only 16 and you want me to marry that damn guy I hates most?!"
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"Not married, my dear. It's only an simple engagement."
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"I don't want! You know that I love Tezuka and I want to show him my loyalty. So don't push me too hard, dad." I know that I'm almost crazy.
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"But my dear, you know that Tezuka has his own life, girl."
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"I know that, But he still belong to me!"
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"How did you know that he loves you?"
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"I KNOW IT! Don't ask me again!" You will make me crazy dad, so please. I know he doesn't love me, NO! He loves me because he always said so and I will believe it forever.
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"Don't hurt yourself again, dear. He maybe never treats you as his lover."
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"Stop it !! I will go to his house and ask him!" I definitely believe he will said I love you just like my sister and that's already enough to me.
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"It's raining Erika!" I can heard my father called me from behind but I don't care anymore, I just want to hear his voice and it can lull me from this situation.
How stupid I'm, I already know that he will always said like before. I know I still can't face this cruel reality, because I already fall deeply in the brink of love and it drives me to death if I lose him.
***Tezuka's house***
Tezuka's POV
"I told you already, I don't want to saw you hang around with him again!" I almost yelled at the phone.
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"I'm not hang around! He is my literature teacher and he only gave me an explanation that time."
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"After class?? And if he was a teacher, he mustn't does something debauchery like holding your hand like that!" It makes me sick, you know?!
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"It's not debauchery attitude, he only dropped his pen and I help him to picked it up, Only at the same time he touched my hand when he got it from me, just touched, Tezuka."
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"I know that, he dropped it deliberately! And if only he can hugs you, he already does it!"
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"How sordid your notion are! I don't understand you! Okay, I don't want to talk to you anymore, sayonara!" From his tone, I can heard that he was angry, but I just can't keep my temper.
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" Fine then!" I throw the phone harshly at the sofa.
God damn it! Why he just can't understands my feeling? Damn!
At the same time I hung up, the door rang and when I opened it with an unpleasant look at my face, suddenly a girl hugged me and I almost push her away if I'm not find out who was it.
Erika's POV
"Tezuka." I know that he already found who I am.
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"Eriko-san? What the matter with you?" He changed his expression when he asked me.
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"Don't ask! Just answer my question!" I said harshly.
"Do you love me?" Quick said you love me, Tezuka, like you always said to me when we were small. I don't mind if you plus as a sister in it, please!
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"What are you talking about? Come on in, it's raining outside."
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"Answer my question first!" Don't make me crazy again, just said you loves me as a sister, that's enough. Quick!
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"....We are friend, Eriko. Of course I care for you."
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"That's not what I mean, Tezuka-kun! I don't want you said you care about me! But loves, Tezuka." Oh God, please! Just gives him a spell so he can said love to me, just that I want and I won't beg more for it. Don't be stingy, Tezuka.
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"Now is different, Eriko. Sorry, I can't. Because I had someone that I want to told him about love."
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What was he said just now? I can't understand it. He said he loves someone? And he wasn't belong to me anymore? NO! NO! NO!
"No, Tezuka! You are mine, and you mustn't love anyone else expect me! I love you!"
Don't break me into pieces, you know it hurts a lot! I do love you, Tezuka! I want you be mine! I can't accept it! When I realized it, I already hug him tightly and I think he would tried to resist but he doesn't because he knows this will hurt me so he just stands still. But he doesn't know that hurt me more deeply. And I don't want its just end up like that! So I kissed him on his lip. I know he felt uneasy for it and he pushed me away strongly. I found myself end up at the floor. It's really hurt, not at my physic but in my mental.
"AAAGH!" I yelled in fretful.
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"Gomenasai, Eriko-san. Daijobu-ka?" he said in a worry.
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"Don't come near me!!" I know my eyes filled with tears and hatred because I love him too much.
"You know, Tezuka. You will run out your tears and break your heart if you do this to me! You had better wipe it out earlier than later!" Suddenly those words just escaped from my mouth.
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"Don't try to threat me, Eriko!" He looked at me with an unpleasant look.
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"I don't threat you! I will do everything to own you!"
"Doushite? Doushite konnani namida afureteru?" (why? why my tears overflow this much? ) I asked him.
He doesn't give me an answer, he just looked at me with the expression that I still can't forget if I die. I hate it! So I run away. I know he worried about me so he followed me from behind, I like this feeling, because when he searched for me, he only looked at me. Only me! He must not looked at someone else! But he lost me when we reached at school, of course because I'm from athletic.
Tezuka's POV
I know she loved me from we were very small and I always said I love her as a sister when she asked me. I said so because I want to comfort her, because she doesn't have any relative to shares her a love. When I said the answer, she seem okay with it, so I think maybe she doesn't mean anything else with it. But today everything had changed, because I had someone special in my heart and I can't said love to her anymore. I shocked when she said she loved me, and I pretend didn't hear anything. But I became more shocked when she kissed me. I found it different when I kissed Fuji secretly when he was asleep. So I pushed her harshly, I became more confused and execrated when she said something I can't understand. And I didn't answer her.
When I searched for her at school, suddenly I saw a figure falling down from roof at our school and it landed beside me. I can see the bloods covered the school's range and my shoes. For a few minute I just stunned but suddenly I run.
I run and run but at last, I found myself in the public phone. Suddenly my finger dialed Ooishi's number.
"Moshi moshi." I hear someone speaks behind the line. It was OOISHI.
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"O...Ooishi, please come here. A..at school, quick! She just jumped from there! WHAT SHOULD I DO?!"
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"Tezuka? What are you talking about? Who jumped from where? I don't seem to understand. Calm down, now I would call the ambulance. And I want you to stay where you are, okay? I will come there and..." Ooishi heard the line already cut down from there.
Ooishi POV
When I reached there, the ambulance already came and I can found out where Tezuka is because from the blood's stain on Tezuka's shoes. I saw Tezuka squatted in the public phone with hands covered his face.
When I tapped his shoulder and I can felt Tezuka's body was trembling. I became declare when I realized that our captain was afraid. I know he was never afraid of anything include Inui's juices. But maybe this time something more scary thing happened to him, more than the event when he drunk Inui's juice.
I sent him back to his own house after knows Eriko was alright from the hospital because she was lucky when she landed on the wet grass because of rain.
After a few month, I realized that Tezuka forgot everything include my present at that moment when I asked him about his engagement. The engagement disturb me a lot. Because I knew that he felt guilty for her but that didn't mean he help her from injured inside her heart. Maybe not in Eriko's heart but in Tezuka own heart. And I know that Tezuka becomes ruthless to Fuji recently. But Fuji doesn't know anything. How tragic. What a melancholic.
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Doushite konnani suki nan darou
Kantan sugite kotaeru naradai
( Why do I love you so much? )
( It's so easy I just can't answer. )
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TBC
How was it? I felt very embarrass. But please review ^v^. *blush blush* Okay then bye! *hid her redden face*