I'm Sorry
IceAngelDarkMoon
~~~~~~~~~This one has been in my mind for a long time and I finally thought I would start it and see if anyone liked it!! This is my very first Card Captor Sakura fic, please make sure to leave a review!~~~~~~~~
******There will be shonen-ai, but there will be nothing too explicit! Just hugs and kisses!********
Toya knew he should feel at least a little upset that only Yuki could come to the weekend get away. But somehow he couldn't convince himself that he really felt that as he and the silver haired boy drove to the family cabin. The windows of the car were rolled down; both Toya and Yuki were enjoying the wind blowing through their hair. The music was loud, to be heard over the wind, Toya was not sure even what station they were listening to but he didn't care. The wind was really wiping around Yuki blowing his hair over his petite face, he looked more relaxed than he had in a long time, and Toya felt relief as he looked at this best friend.
The Kinmoto family with the addition of Yuki was supposed to go to their cabin by the lake for their three day weekend. That was before Sakura had gotten a call from Tomoyo asking her to go to England with her to visit Eriol. And Kaho. That brought back emotions that Toya wished he had buried long ago, he hated the way she still held something on him. Sakura of course chose to go to England. Then at the last minute their father decided he had too many exams to finish grading to go. That left only Toya and Yuki. Toya had asked Yuki if he wanted to just stay home since it would only be them but Yuki had still wanted to go. Toya felt a small tug of some unknown emotion when Yuki had told him he still wanted to go, to spend time with just Toya. Just thinking that brought a smile to Toya's lips; even if it was small it was still there.
Yuki had been watching his best friend out of the corner of his eye. He didn't know why but he was glad that it was just him and Toya. Sure he would miss Sakura and her father, but now it was just him and Toya. Yuki saw the look of pain come over Toya's eyes as he drove. Yuki hated when that happened, there was nothing he could do, Toya was thinking about 'HER'. Yuki hated that haunted and betrayed look that always came to Toya when he was thinking of her. If Yuki questioned Toya, Toya would just say it was nothing and Yuki would be forced to drop it and stare on helplessly as he watched the most important person in his life suffer. That thought struck something deep in Yuki, the most important person to him? He smiled a little, maybe some day he could get Toya to think of him the same way, until then Yuki had to fight with a ghost. Yuki hated how it felt like Toya didn't trust him enough to talk about 'her' with him. Yuki saw a small smile grace Toya's lips. If he hadn't know Toya for so long he might have missed that smile entirely, but he knew that it really meant a lot for Toya! Yuki decided in that moment he would try really hard that weekend to try and help Toya get over 'her'. But if that was impossible at least get Toya to relax, most of the time he took all the worlds trouble on his shoulder, he really cared about so many people, Yuki loved him for that. Toya was not emotionless like some people thought; he felt really strongly about everything, he just didn't let it show. He also really worried about his little sister, especially now that he had given up his powers to Yuki.
Deciding he could do nothing at the present time Yuki stretched in his seat and got comfortable. He would have fallen asleep had a song he recognized come on. He smiled; it was exactly what he wanted to tell Toya but couldn't get past his shyness. He started to sing along with the old song. Even if he didn't have the courage to ever tell Toya he could still sing!
When you're weary, feeling small
When tears are in your eyes,
I will dry them all
I'm on your side
When times get rough
And friends just can't be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
When you're down and out
When you're on the street
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you
I'll take your part
When darkness comes
And pain is all around
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Sail on silver girl
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way
See how they shine
When you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Yuki was surprised that when the song was over he found Toya glancing at him out of the corner of his eye with a really weird look. It was one that Yuki had caught on Toya's face only a couple other times and Yuki was really confused as to what it meant (AWWWWWWWW he is adorably confused!).
"That was amazing Yuki," Toya said in his deep and quiet voice. Yuki blushed rose on his cheeks and smiled happily. Even if Toya had not known that Yuki meant every word, he had still liked it.
"Thank you Toya. I love that song." Yuki said almost timidly. Then his stomach reminded him of something, "How long until we stop for dinner Toya?" Yuki leaned against the window and started to watch the scenery outside while he waited for his friend's reply. Toya grinned at his best friend's predictability.
"I was planned ahead for that, we should be able to see the diner when we get over this hill." Toya grinned at his foresight and Yuki grinned from ear to ear. Toya just absolutely loved to see that smile grace his friends face, and even more when it was he that caused that smile to appear.
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After they had finished a very satisfying meal at the towns diner they made the last little bit of the journey to the cabin. It was a beautiful little thing set very far back in the woods. There was a little garden in the front and behind it was a lake. The lake was where they would probably spend most of their time. There was an old tire swing hanging over the lake and a dock to get in and out. There were woods on every side and many paths. Toya remembered fondly all the times he and Yuki had gone for long hikes in the woods. Stepping out of the car they both took deep breaths of the clean forested air. Then they began the long process of unloading the car into the cabin. There were three bedrooms, a family room, a kitchen and a small bathroom. It was really an impressive little thing!
"Which room do you want?" Toya asked like the polite host he was supposes to be. Yuki turned and gave him a blank look; he had no idea what Toya was taking about.
"Huh? What do you mean?" Yuki had in all the times he had come to the cabin only ever shared a room with Toya. That room also only had one bed, which always caused a problem. Neither Toya nor Yuki wanted to make the other sleep on the floor so most of the time they just shared the bed. But it had been a while since they had last been to the cabin too. "We always share a room."
"I know but I didn't know if you wanted to move into my father's room or Sakura's room for more space." Toya was secretly hoping Yuki would still share his room, it was tradition.
"If it's all right with you I'd just as soon stay in your room with you. Besides it gets really cold at night." Yuki said this all with a smile and he really wanted to just stay in Toya's room. Yuki was looking at his feet after he said that and he missed the grateful look Toya gave him.
"Of course that is all right with me," Toya said and picked up Yuki's bags from the ground. Then to himself he said, "I was hoping you would stay in my room." Yuki smiled, he knew he wasn't supposed to hear that.
Night came and the temperature dropped rapidly and it soon became a little chilly. Toya had checked in with his father over the phone as soon as they had settled in. They had unpacked their stuff into the room and changed into their pajamas. Yuki was having a cup of hot chocolate before bed. Yuki glanced at his friend but Toya was writing in a book that Yuki had only seen a few times. A couple times when he had come into Toya's room he had seen it sitting out but as soon as Toya realized he had left it out he hide it in the depths of his closet and would not speak of it. Yuki was curious but he knew better than to press his friend. Yuki finished his hot chocolate and washed his dishes. By the time he looked back at Toya the book was gone again.
"Ready to go to sleep?" Yuki asked in his normal cheery voice. Toya nodded and they trooped into the little room.
"Do you want the bed?" Toya asked, it was just like all the other times they had come with the family to the cabin, Toya always started the debate.
"I'm really tired tonight Toya, lets not get into a whole fight over who gets the bed. It is really cold tonight, I can see you shivering. Let's just share it. No arguments and no frozen friends!" Yuki said in his most commanding voice. Toya laughed at his friend's command. He was cold and the floor was not that soft, besides for some reason he was really hoping it would be Yuki who suggested that. Toya nodded his agreement and Yuki climbed in the bed and held the blankets back for Toya. It took them a little bit to get settled for the night. Toya suddenly realized how long it had been since they had been to the cabin together and shared the bed. They were a little squished but it would work. Yuki was taking full advantage of the situation and snuggled closer to Toya to get warm. Toya took this as a cue and held his little snow bunny closer and started to fall asleep with Yuki in his arms. Yuki stayed awake a little longer listening to Toya's steady breathing and reveling in being so close to his friend. But like it has always done sleep claimed him and his eyes closed for the night. Yuki had pleasant dreams that night snuggled up with Toya.
TBC
Please review. I know not much has happened so far, but I promise good and fluffy stuff to come! I'm sorry that that song snuck in but it was playing as I wrote this and it just called out to go in the fic, besides I love the song. Simon and Garfunkel forever! Please leave any advice or comments! IADM