Passion's Wounds Chapter 2
Author's Note: Thank you all for all your reviews. They have persuaded me to continue writing this story that I, myself, did not think would be all that successful. Domo Arigato! ^-^. Sorry this took so long to update, but i have been very busy! Just for you concern, I have no quarrel with Asuka. For you die-hard fans out there that like to see Asuka as a horrible monster, gomen-ne... hehe. The Asuka in my version of the story will act as a sisterly figure to Shinji. *Not his secret admirer. *Not Rei's enemy although, that will be explained more as you read… ^-^
Passion's Wounds Chapter 2
Author's Note: Thank you all for all your reviews. They have persuaded me to continue writing this story that I, myself, did not think would be all that successful. Domo Arigato! ^-^. Just for you concern, I have no quarrel with Asuka. For you die-hard fans out there that like to see Asuka as a horrible monster, gomen-ne... hehe. The Asuka in my version of the story will act as a sisterly figure to Shinji. *Not his secret admirer. *Not Rei's enemy although, that will be explained more as you read… ^-^
Shinji looked down at her. It was a magical sight. Rei gracefully slept in his arms. She was beautiful. Her lips slightly partly, and a vague smile was on her face. He smiled happily to himself, thinking of how lucky he was to have her here now. He continued to stare down. The glistening sun spilled down on Rei. Her face was covered with a cherry red blush. Her beautiful body, her gentle neck and shoulders. Shinji found no better ecstasy than this sight. He wrapped his arms tighter around Rei's waist; he leaned back to place his back against the tree. He never thought a girl like her would like him; it was utterly to his surprise even now, when Rei had been in his arms. But little did he know that Rei's love for him was inseparable, that degradation of her love was impossible.
Rei opened her eyes slightly, noticing that Shinji was looking down at her. She smiled sweetly with the blush growing more brilliant on her face. Shinji returned that smile. Rei doesn't really smile much, but when she does, it was the most magical of sights. Shinji's heart was filled with warmth as he saw her smile; she was truly beautiful… he thought. Rei caught his smile in return. It enamored her to see it. Shinji's smile was what captivated Rei to him. His kindness, his sincerity, his gentleness all attracted her. Rei felt an outmost emotion of comfort and security around Shinji. So as she became closer, and as their relationship developed, that smile and that face (Shinji's) became more and more inseparable from her mind. For every second they were parted, Rei missed her love more and more. For every moment they were together, Rei cherished it as though it was her last moment alive. It came to the point where she was totally inseparable from Shinji, that the thought of one day not seeing his smile would
cause Rei to have emotional breakdowns. Of course, that didn't happen, because there in front of her was Shinji's brilliant and loving smile.
Rei slowly opened her eyes. Her vision was blurred, her chest heavy. She couldn't see much, for the room was dark. Her eyes didn't work that well either. She closed them again, and sighed heavily, trying to relieve herself of the pain in her chest. For a second, she had forgotten what had happened. It just seemed like one of those dreams she was always having. The dreams where she would picture Shinji smiling, the sight she sought to see for so long. Her heart ached when she thought of him like that. Then she remembered why she was lying down. Her chest pains began to come back. She didn't fight them this time. All she did was let it come; she welcomed it, it was better than having to live with holding it inside. She felt the tears stream down her cheeks. She begins to snivel and turned to her side.
"You're awake…" a soft voice came from the darkness.
Rei tried to hide her face underneath the sheets. The person revealed her face; it was Asuka. Her face was stern with concern, but yet soft with tenderness. Asuka looked at Rei, who was trying to hide her face. She was a terrible mess, her brightly lit crimson eyes as Asuka remembered them now had a gray tone hung in the amidst. Her hands trembled feverously, and she clenched her chest. This wasn't the Rei Asuka remembered. Rei was known to be cold and anti-social, but she had seen the happy days with which Rei was in Shinji's arms. That was three years ago though, and it seemed time didn't heal the wounds… passion's wounds. Rei still retained her physical beauty though. Asuka smiled slightly.
"It's okay…" she said softly, trying to cheer her up. Asuka reached over and held Rei's trembling hand. No matter how much dislike Asuka had toward Rei, it never lasted long. She couldn't be upset with a person so desperately hurt from love, and she couldn't be upset with someone that could make a person like Shinji so happy. She had never seen a more passionate smile on Shinji than the times he was Rei. Asuka never understood why Shinji broke up with Rei. She did see one thing though: Rei truly cared for Shinji. She would never do anything to upset him, or even bother him, for the fact. Rei would never do anything that would hurt Shinji, anyways, and she seemed all the time to be there, protecting him from harm no matter what the situation or the sacrifice. Maybe Shinji didn't share those feelings. But no matter the case, Rei was left broken hearted.
Rei clenched her chest tighter. She seemed to rummage through her pockets of her shirt under the sheets with other hand. Asuka looked on curiously. Rei, in pain, pulled out a small container of medicine. Asuka let go of Rei out of curiosity. However, as Rei's hands trembled and she gasped from her tears and pained chest, she opened the container of the medicine and spilled the pills. She cried even harder now as she saw her pitiful sight. Asuka looked upon her with grief and sadness. She quickly bent over and picked up all the small pills.
"You need take this?"
Rei nodded.
"How many?"
"Two," Rei said softly, her voice coarse.
Asuka handed her two pills. Rei took it in her trembling hand and swallowed it. A few more seconds of gasping and clenching her hands, the heavy chest pain seemed to disappear. Now all that seemed to be left was a quiet and woeful sob that escaped from her mouth. Asuka looked upon Rei with great pain. She must be very sad… Asuka thought, and then berated herself… no shit! Look at her, she's a broken person… Asuka was going to get to the bottom of this. She couldn't stand Rei crying her heart out like this.
"Rei… please stop…"
"…"
"Rei… if you won't tell me what's wrong…"
"Why do you want to know?" Rei asked softly as her sobbing slowed down a bit.
"Rei, I want to help. It's about Shinji, isn't it?"
"Yes…"
"What is it Rei? I can't stand a girl moping around like this, you know it won't do you any good!"
Rei started crying again.
"It doesn't do me any good the opposite way around! I've tried Asuka, for three years… I thought it would be different, that Shin-chan might have forgiven me. But it seems now that he never will…"
"Rei, why are you so stuck to him? If he doesn't want you get over him! He doesn't deserve you!"
"Asuka… you don't understand. I love him and it was my fault that Shin-chan suffers too. If he still hasn't forgiven me then he still suffers. I lied to him, Asuka. I kept my secret from him for too long. When I finally told him… he didn't want to see me again…"
Silence…
"Rei, don't cry like this, it's bad for your eyes…" Asuka said with a frown, as she helped wipe some of Rei's tears.
"I just wish he could forgive me… I'm not an angel anymore… I've spent three years trying to find a way to suppress my angel powers, and even when I found a way… the person I love still doesn't share my feelings."
"Shh… Rei, I'll talk to Shinji."
"No don't do that, as much as I want him… I … I…"
"Rei, what is that medicine?" Asuka said, trying to change the subject in hopes of making Rei forget about her problems and the fact that she got the message of not to talking to Shinji.
"It's my S^2 organ restraint. It's the medicine I take to weaken my heart's condition and since my angel's S^2 organ is linked to my human heart, it weakens both while suppressing my powers… although… it leaves me very weak…" Rei said still sobbing.
What has she done…? Asuka thought. She'd kill herself just to make Shinji care for her again. How sad…
"Rei, go to sleep. You need the rest…"
"Where am I?" Rei asked finally, just noticing that she was on a bed.
"Shinji's room…"
"What!?" Rei was shocked…
"It's okay…"
"But I'm soaking wet…" she sobbed further.
"More the reason for you to be under sheets, now go to sleep… okay… you can talk to Shinji later…"
"I don't want to, I'm afraid he might be even more upset."
"Rei, don't give up, okay… now rest…"
Rei calmed herself from her sobs and closed her eyes.
She fell asleep and awoke to the sounds of a girl yelling.
"BAKA!" Asuka was furious.
"What?!" Shinji retaliated.
"You idiot! Do you have any idea how much that girl cares about you!"
"And what if I do!?"
"You jackass!"
"Stop yelling at me!"
"I don't care! Rei has been crying her heart out for three years for you! Don't you feel any sense of sorrow or pity?"
"Of course I do!"
"Then why don't you forgive her?"
"Because that wouldn't be right!"
Rei painfully got out bed
"Shinji! What you are doing to her is not right!"
"Look! Rei betrayed my trust!"
"I never knew you were so cold, Shinji!"
"Well, now you know!"
"You are a cruel person, Shinji!"
"No, I'm not… I just don't think Rei has earned her forgiveness!"
"What!?" Asuka was burning with rage. She raised a hand to hit Shinji.
"That's enough…" A broken voice came through; it was Rei in the doorway. Shinji and Asuka were in shock. Shinji finally did have a good look at Rei. She still looked like the way she was three years ago, but her eyes changed. They are not as bright as before. They showed a sense of great anguish.
"Asuka, I don't appreciate, as I said before, you talking to Shinji about me… please don't hit him…" Rei said, looking at Shinji and making him feel uncomfortable. Rei tried to keep a straight face, but when she couldn't hold it much longer, she decided to take her leave.
Rei left… holding her tears as far as she could, slamming the door behind her. Both Asuka and Shinji were still in shock.
Silence…
"Do you see now?" Asuka said choking, holding her tears back. "Did you look at her eyes?" she looked Shinji.
"Shinji, no one blames you for this, but Rei needs comfort… from no one else but you… and I think you're about 3 years overdue on the comfort…"
Shinji slowly nodded… maybe… maybe… Rei deserves it now…he thought back to her eyes… Shinji felt his own tears stream down the sides of his face… Rei was hurt… and it was his fault.
Author's Note: Thank you all for all your reviews. They have persuaded me to continue writing this story that I, myself, did not think would be all that successful. Domo Arigato! ^-^. Sorry this took so long to update, but i have been very busy! Just for you concern, I have no quarrel with Asuka. For you die-hard fans out there that like to see Asuka as a horrible monster, gomen-ne... hehe. The Asuka in my version of the story will act as a sisterly figure to Shinji. *Not his secret admirer. *Not Rei's enemy although, that will be explained more as you read… ^-^
Passion's Wounds Chapter 2
Author's Note: Thank you all for all your reviews. They have persuaded me to continue writing this story that I, myself, did not think would be all that successful. Domo Arigato! ^-^. Just for you concern, I have no quarrel with Asuka. For you die-hard fans out there that like to see Asuka as a horrible monster, gomen-ne... hehe. The Asuka in my version of the story will act as a sisterly figure to Shinji. *Not his secret admirer. *Not Rei's enemy although, that will be explained more as you read… ^-^
Shinji looked down at her. It was a magical sight. Rei gracefully slept in his arms. She was beautiful. Her lips slightly partly, and a vague smile was on her face. He smiled happily to himself, thinking of how lucky he was to have her here now. He continued to stare down. The glistening sun spilled down on Rei. Her face was covered with a cherry red blush. Her beautiful body, her gentle neck and shoulders. Shinji found no better ecstasy than this sight. He wrapped his arms tighter around Rei's waist; he leaned back to place his back against the tree. He never thought a girl like her would like him; it was utterly to his surprise even now, when Rei had been in his arms. But little did he know that Rei's love for him was inseparable, that degradation of her love was impossible.
Rei opened her eyes slightly, noticing that Shinji was looking down at her. She smiled sweetly with the blush growing more brilliant on her face. Shinji returned that smile. Rei doesn't really smile much, but when she does, it was the most magical of sights. Shinji's heart was filled with warmth as he saw her smile; she was truly beautiful… he thought. Rei caught his smile in return. It enamored her to see it. Shinji's smile was what captivated Rei to him. His kindness, his sincerity, his gentleness all attracted her. Rei felt an outmost emotion of comfort and security around Shinji. So as she became closer, and as their relationship developed, that smile and that face (Shinji's) became more and more inseparable from her mind. For every second they were parted, Rei missed her love more and more. For every moment they were together, Rei cherished it as though it was her last moment alive. It came to the point where she was totally inseparable from Shinji, that the thought of one day not seeing his smile would
cause Rei to have emotional breakdowns. Of course, that didn't happen, because there in front of her was Shinji's brilliant and loving smile.
Rei slowly opened her eyes. Her vision was blurred, her chest heavy. She couldn't see much, for the room was dark. Her eyes didn't work that well either. She closed them again, and sighed heavily, trying to relieve herself of the pain in her chest. For a second, she had forgotten what had happened. It just seemed like one of those dreams she was always having. The dreams where she would picture Shinji smiling, the sight she sought to see for so long. Her heart ached when she thought of him like that. Then she remembered why she was lying down. Her chest pains began to come back. She didn't fight them this time. All she did was let it come; she welcomed it, it was better than having to live with holding it inside. She felt the tears stream down her cheeks. She begins to snivel and turned to her side.
"You're awake…" a soft voice came from the darkness.
Rei tried to hide her face underneath the sheets. The person revealed her face; it was Asuka. Her face was stern with concern, but yet soft with tenderness. Asuka looked at Rei, who was trying to hide her face. She was a terrible mess, her brightly lit crimson eyes as Asuka remembered them now had a gray tone hung in the amidst. Her hands trembled feverously, and she clenched her chest. This wasn't the Rei Asuka remembered. Rei was known to be cold and anti-social, but she had seen the happy days with which Rei was in Shinji's arms. That was three years ago though, and it seemed time didn't heal the wounds… passion's wounds. Rei still retained her physical beauty though. Asuka smiled slightly.
"It's okay…" she said softly, trying to cheer her up. Asuka reached over and held Rei's trembling hand. No matter how much dislike Asuka had toward Rei, it never lasted long. She couldn't be upset with a person so desperately hurt from love, and she couldn't be upset with someone that could make a person like Shinji so happy. She had never seen a more passionate smile on Shinji than the times he was Rei. Asuka never understood why Shinji broke up with Rei. She did see one thing though: Rei truly cared for Shinji. She would never do anything to upset him, or even bother him, for the fact. Rei would never do anything that would hurt Shinji, anyways, and she seemed all the time to be there, protecting him from harm no matter what the situation or the sacrifice. Maybe Shinji didn't share those feelings. But no matter the case, Rei was left broken hearted.
Rei clenched her chest tighter. She seemed to rummage through her pockets of her shirt under the sheets with other hand. Asuka looked on curiously. Rei, in pain, pulled out a small container of medicine. Asuka let go of Rei out of curiosity. However, as Rei's hands trembled and she gasped from her tears and pained chest, she opened the container of the medicine and spilled the pills. She cried even harder now as she saw her pitiful sight. Asuka looked upon her with grief and sadness. She quickly bent over and picked up all the small pills.
"You need take this?"
Rei nodded.
"How many?"
"Two," Rei said softly, her voice coarse.
Asuka handed her two pills. Rei took it in her trembling hand and swallowed it. A few more seconds of gasping and clenching her hands, the heavy chest pain seemed to disappear. Now all that seemed to be left was a quiet and woeful sob that escaped from her mouth. Asuka looked upon Rei with great pain. She must be very sad… Asuka thought, and then berated herself… no shit! Look at her, she's a broken person… Asuka was going to get to the bottom of this. She couldn't stand Rei crying her heart out like this.
"Rei… please stop…"
"…"
"Rei… if you won't tell me what's wrong…"
"Why do you want to know?" Rei asked softly as her sobbing slowed down a bit.
"Rei, I want to help. It's about Shinji, isn't it?"
"Yes…"
"What is it Rei? I can't stand a girl moping around like this, you know it won't do you any good!"
Rei started crying again.
"It doesn't do me any good the opposite way around! I've tried Asuka, for three years… I thought it would be different, that Shin-chan might have forgiven me. But it seems now that he never will…"
"Rei, why are you so stuck to him? If he doesn't want you get over him! He doesn't deserve you!"
"Asuka… you don't understand. I love him and it was my fault that Shin-chan suffers too. If he still hasn't forgiven me then he still suffers. I lied to him, Asuka. I kept my secret from him for too long. When I finally told him… he didn't want to see me again…"
Silence…
"Rei, don't cry like this, it's bad for your eyes…" Asuka said with a frown, as she helped wipe some of Rei's tears.
"I just wish he could forgive me… I'm not an angel anymore… I've spent three years trying to find a way to suppress my angel powers, and even when I found a way… the person I love still doesn't share my feelings."
"Shh… Rei, I'll talk to Shinji."
"No don't do that, as much as I want him… I … I…"
"Rei, what is that medicine?" Asuka said, trying to change the subject in hopes of making Rei forget about her problems and the fact that she got the message of not to talking to Shinji.
"It's my S^2 organ restraint. It's the medicine I take to weaken my heart's condition and since my angel's S^2 organ is linked to my human heart, it weakens both while suppressing my powers… although… it leaves me very weak…" Rei said still sobbing.
What has she done…? Asuka thought. She'd kill herself just to make Shinji care for her again. How sad…
"Rei, go to sleep. You need the rest…"
"Where am I?" Rei asked finally, just noticing that she was on a bed.
"Shinji's room…"
"What!?" Rei was shocked…
"It's okay…"
"But I'm soaking wet…" she sobbed further.
"More the reason for you to be under sheets, now go to sleep… okay… you can talk to Shinji later…"
"I don't want to, I'm afraid he might be even more upset."
"Rei, don't give up, okay… now rest…"
Rei calmed herself from her sobs and closed her eyes.
She fell asleep and awoke to the sounds of a girl yelling.
"BAKA!" Asuka was furious.
"What?!" Shinji retaliated.
"You idiot! Do you have any idea how much that girl cares about you!"
"And what if I do!?"
"You jackass!"
"Stop yelling at me!"
"I don't care! Rei has been crying her heart out for three years for you! Don't you feel any sense of sorrow or pity?"
"Of course I do!"
"Then why don't you forgive her?"
"Because that wouldn't be right!"
Rei painfully got out bed
"Shinji! What you are doing to her is not right!"
"Look! Rei betrayed my trust!"
"I never knew you were so cold, Shinji!"
"Well, now you know!"
"You are a cruel person, Shinji!"
"No, I'm not… I just don't think Rei has earned her forgiveness!"
"What!?" Asuka was burning with rage. She raised a hand to hit Shinji.
"That's enough…" A broken voice came through; it was Rei in the doorway. Shinji and Asuka were in shock. Shinji finally did have a good look at Rei. She still looked like the way she was three years ago, but her eyes changed. They are not as bright as before. They showed a sense of great anguish.
"Asuka, I don't appreciate, as I said before, you talking to Shinji about me… please don't hit him…" Rei said, looking at Shinji and making him feel uncomfortable. Rei tried to keep a straight face, but when she couldn't hold it much longer, she decided to take her leave.
Rei left… holding her tears as far as she could, slamming the door behind her. Both Asuka and Shinji were still in shock.
Silence…
"Do you see now?" Asuka said choking, holding her tears back. "Did you look at her eyes?" she looked Shinji.
"Shinji, no one blames you for this, but Rei needs comfort… from no one else but you… and I think you're about 3 years overdue on the comfort…"
Shinji slowly nodded… maybe… maybe… Rei deserves it now…he thought back to her eyes… Shinji felt his own tears stream down the sides of his face… Rei was hurt… and it was his fault.