AUthor's Note: Thanks for all the reviews! I've really enjoyed writing this fic. Gomen-ne this chapter took so long to write, i've been busyh with school work.... ppoohh...
Passion's Wounds Chapter 4
The pain of anguish was washed away from her heart. Her eyes closed with a serene smile on her face. Rei slept next to her lover. The sweet tenderness of his cuddled body next to her chest was pure ecstasy. Her mouth slightly open, with an expression that could only be called peaceful. Shinji looked at Rei, thinking of how magical this moment was. The rain still poured outside of her room. The grand window set behind Rei's caress faced. The droplets hit heavily against the glass. The room was cold, and that was probably the only reason that Rei hung on so tightly to Shinji. Or was it the fact that she had just regained all sense of hope for her love? Shinji looked down on Rei and smiled. It was sad how much the girl had suffered for him. He had felt a extreme amount of guilt when he first saw her face as it appeared in front of his door. The eyes he saw, the faded and worn red seemed so depressing. Shinji had practically forgotten why he had so bitterly rejected her. Not merely was there the fact that Rei had
kept secret something that should have been told to him, but he found her... fearful... he had almost been frightened, afraid that he had fallen in love with a demon. Now, though, as he looked down and saw the angel sleeping next to him, he could feel nothing but happiness, the happiness that he felt when Rei had not yet told him about her attributes. He wanted to look at his girl some more... it was comforting to know that someone would care for you no matter the cost. He felt reassured, and undeserving, but he would have it no other way. Now that their relationship had restarted, the bond was stronger than before, and Shinji's sense of being there for Rei was renewed. His eyes grew weary, and then his eyelids shut close.
"I'll be back soon, Shinji... I have to move things over, and leave my position at NERV Britain."
"You don't have to quit your job for me, Rei," Shinji said, feeling guilty.
"I'm not quitting, Shinji," Rei smiled sweetly. "I'm going to ask for a transfer."
Shinji knew that Rei could get almost any position she wanted within NERV, even replace Misato as the commander. Since Shinji's father had gone away, Misato was appointed as the supreme commander. Although she wasn't the most desirable leader, she was the most qualified. With Rei's history as an Eva pilot, connections with Misato, and her credentials as an outstanding leading officer of NERV Britain, a simple resignation and transfer could easily arranged.
"Plus, I'll be right here with you!" Rei kissed Shinji on the cheek and two blushed. Shinai's heart sang.
"I'll be gone a week at the most..." Rei reassured Shinji.
Shinji still had a worried face, hoping that Rei would not have to leave. He didn't want to risk losing Rei again. But then there was the fact that if she went now, a week later, they would be together forever.
"Be careful... I don't..." Rei stopped Shinji by placing her finger on his lips. She then arched forward and kissed him deeply.
"One week... Tokyo Central Park... First bench in on the East Entrance...8:00 pm... Bring your cello..." Rei smiled and with that she got into a NERV car and the door closed behind her.
It was nearing lunch time, Shinji felt a slight twitch in his stomach. Yes, I guess I should grab a bite to eat... he thought to himself as he examined the paperwork in front of him. It was going to take a while, he thought. The papers piled upwards, seeming endless. When in the world did he get stuck with a desk job for Misato? He knew the woman always ran late on her paperwork, but he just had to be a nice guy and help her finish the job. He took his leave. Swinging out of his chair, he headed down to the cafeteria. After taking a glance at his watch, he calculated about one hour for his lunch and then hurried down to the join the rest of the NERV officials in Tokyo-3.
"Mr. Ikari?" A girly voice rang in Shinji's ears. He turned around to meet a pretty looking girl.
"Hi..." He said in a friendly tone of voice as he grabbed his sandwich and placed it in his plate.
"Hi," The girl blushed. "My name is Fumiko. I don't believe we have met..."
"No, I don't think so, either." Shinji wasn't paying much attention to Fumiko, but rather looking for a space where he could sit down and have his lunch.
"Yes, well I'm new here and I was wondering if you could show me around. I mean it took me about 2 hours to find the cafeteria."
"Yes, the Geofront can be pretty confusing sometimes." Shinji smiled. "Do you mind if I sit down and eat first?" Shinji asked, obviously offering his help.
"Thank you, Mr. Ikari!"
"Oh, don't call me that, Shinji will be fine."
"Okay, Shinji..."The girl smiled sweetly.
Shinji found a spot in the vast cafeteria. The mess hall was jammed with NERV personnel.
"Tell me... Fumiko... Do did you manage to find me in this mess? In fact, how do you even know what I look like?" Shinji asked curious as he began eating.
"Oh, I'm here working under Ms. Langley, but she was busy today so I was told to find you."
"I see..." Shinji said still unsure that the desperately attractive girl was telling the truth.
Uncomfortably, Shinji finished his lunch. All Fumiko did was stare at him. It was obvious she was interested, but Shinji didn't like it when people stared at him. Well, at least not in the way Fumiko was. Fumiko kept blushing when Shinji realized he was being stared at. She kept quiet, but always had a tentative smile. To a point, this amount of attention actually made Shinji sweat. Not that he didn't like attention from cute girls, but the fact was that it looked like Fumiko was trying to seduce him. He shook off the thought.
The moist spring air was around him. The night was cool, the stars lit the sky. Even with the city lights, the moon and stars shone as clear as crystals. The green grass around the bench was bent and freshly cut. The tree behind him rustled as the wind blew by. The sakura petals flew with the wind. Tokyo-3 Central park seemed magical. The blossoms covered the floor; pink and emerald were the shades of the surroundings. Shinji tugged closely to his jacket as another breeze blew by, it was a cool night. He looked at his watch... 7:50... he thought methodically. 10 more minutes and Rei would be here. His cello was next to him. He closed his eyes trying to ignore his nervousness. Fumiko didn't turn out to be all that he thought. She turned out to be a very nice person. Or it was what is seemed when Shinji showed her around the NERV grounds. She seemed to be a caring person like Misato, just less of a hopeless character. Fumiko was too very pretty.
"Shinji?" A voice came from behind.
"Rei!" Shinji opened his eyes, and jumped up seeing as Rei had finally come.
There was a soft giggle.
"Not quite..." It was Fumiko.
"It nice to see you, Shinji." She blushed.
Shinji was disappointed and surprised. He blushed as he recalled that he called her Rei.
"It's nice to see you too... what are you doing here?"
"Well, I was out of walk. I don't live too far from here." Fumiko lied, though she hid it well.
"Really," Shinji said with a smile.
"Are you waiting for someone?"
"Yeah... I'm waiting Rei..."
"Ah..." Fumiko seemed disappointed. "Wow! You play the cello..."
"Yes." Fumiko quickly sat down next to him.
"Can I see it?" Fumiko asked gently.
"Sure, I guess..." Shinji handed her his cello.
Fumiko kept her eyes on the cello in her arms. It was interesting to learn that Shinji had musical talent. She liked him more and more. He seemed so innocent and caring.
Shinji however kept his eyes on Fumiko. She was truly pretty. Her thin white neck shone wondrously out of her red sweater, her slender legs seemed to make her khaki shirt. Her wavy, long, black hair caressed over her perfect face. Fumiko reminded Shinji of the first time he saw Rei. The two women had comparative beauty. It was almost enchanting.
Fumiko looked up and blushed as she noticed Shinji was staring at her. She move closer and closer, but Shinji seemed to be in a trance. The two sat there facing each other blushing. Fumiko arched her face forward...
Rei ran as fast as she could. Her legs were tired from moving all her stuff into her new apartment. But she ran just so that she would not be late for her date with Shinji. It would be their first date after they got back together. The smile was bright on her face. She ran toward the East Entrance. As Rei approached the entrance she stopped her running, adjusted her breathing, made sure her violin was in her hand and quickly walked over to where the bench was supposed to be. I hope I'm not late... she thought, as her cheeks were bursting red from the run. She looked down. She had forgotten how pretty Tokyo was in the spring. The sakura blossoms scatter all over the floor as the breezes continue to blow. It would be a magical evening... Rei looked up... She stopped dead in her tracks. The smile suddenly disappeared.
Before Rei, Shinji and another girl were kissing. Her body and mind were numb with shock and disbelief. She dropped her violin. The sound of it hitting the floor made Shinji and Fumiko look at Rei. There was horror written across Shinji's face as he saw Rei looking at him, stunned. Rei and Shinji looked at each other in silence. Rei's cool composure slowly faded away, as the tears began to drip from the corners of her eye. Her throat began to run dry. Her vision blurred. Her chest pains revived. Shinji still sat there in shock and Fumiko looked confused. Rei sniveled once and knew that she would not be able to hold the tears back any longer. She ran away. Shinji finally snapped out of it and chased after her. He was stopped briefly by Fumiko.
"Who was that?"
"That was Rei..." Shinji said sadly.
He ran after her as hard as he could.
Rei ran like there was not behind. She was fast. But Shinji's desperate sprinting caught up. He grabbed her arms and held her there.
"Let go, Shinji..." Rei said. As the tears dripped down her face, she looked away from Shinji.
"Rei, let me explain..."
"Let go..." Shinji didn't let go, he was afraid she would run away.
"Let go, Shinji!" Rei's voice cracked, her heart was in pain, the tears streamed down.
"Let me explain..." Rei turned around and faced Shinji. Her face was gloomy. Her lips parted slightly, her breathing heavy, and her tears poured down.
"Let me explain..." Shinji repeated, feeling stabs of guilt upon looking at Rei's face.
"You don't need to explain, Shinji... I understand..."
"No, you don't..."
"Shinji, you never loved me, don't deny it... you never loved me. No matter how much I love you Shinji, no matter how much I care for you Shinji. I know now you will never return it."
"That's not true, Rei!" Shinji argued.
"You didn't have to lie to me before to make me feel better..." Rei said her voice soft.
"I didn't lie to you, Rei..."
"It's enough that you have to reject me, Shinji, it's enough to tell me that you don't like me because I'm an angel! You don't have to insult me and break my heart again!" The tears were uncontrollable now.
"Rei, listen, that's not right!"
"Shinji, I'm sorry I lied to you, or kept the fact that I was an angel a secret... okay... I'm sorry..." Rei chest tighten. "This is the best apology I can give, Shinji. I'm sorry... I don't know what more to do or say..." Rei turned and ran hard.
Shinji did not chase after her. He dropped to his knees and felt the tears come from the corners of his eyes.
Passion's Wounds Chapter 4
The pain of anguish was washed away from her heart. Her eyes closed with a serene smile on her face. Rei slept next to her lover. The sweet tenderness of his cuddled body next to her chest was pure ecstasy. Her mouth slightly open, with an expression that could only be called peaceful. Shinji looked at Rei, thinking of how magical this moment was. The rain still poured outside of her room. The grand window set behind Rei's caress faced. The droplets hit heavily against the glass. The room was cold, and that was probably the only reason that Rei hung on so tightly to Shinji. Or was it the fact that she had just regained all sense of hope for her love? Shinji looked down on Rei and smiled. It was sad how much the girl had suffered for him. He had felt a extreme amount of guilt when he first saw her face as it appeared in front of his door. The eyes he saw, the faded and worn red seemed so depressing. Shinji had practically forgotten why he had so bitterly rejected her. Not merely was there the fact that Rei had
kept secret something that should have been told to him, but he found her... fearful... he had almost been frightened, afraid that he had fallen in love with a demon. Now, though, as he looked down and saw the angel sleeping next to him, he could feel nothing but happiness, the happiness that he felt when Rei had not yet told him about her attributes. He wanted to look at his girl some more... it was comforting to know that someone would care for you no matter the cost. He felt reassured, and undeserving, but he would have it no other way. Now that their relationship had restarted, the bond was stronger than before, and Shinji's sense of being there for Rei was renewed. His eyes grew weary, and then his eyelids shut close.
"I'll be back soon, Shinji... I have to move things over, and leave my position at NERV Britain."
"You don't have to quit your job for me, Rei," Shinji said, feeling guilty.
"I'm not quitting, Shinji," Rei smiled sweetly. "I'm going to ask for a transfer."
Shinji knew that Rei could get almost any position she wanted within NERV, even replace Misato as the commander. Since Shinji's father had gone away, Misato was appointed as the supreme commander. Although she wasn't the most desirable leader, she was the most qualified. With Rei's history as an Eva pilot, connections with Misato, and her credentials as an outstanding leading officer of NERV Britain, a simple resignation and transfer could easily arranged.
"Plus, I'll be right here with you!" Rei kissed Shinji on the cheek and two blushed. Shinai's heart sang.
"I'll be gone a week at the most..." Rei reassured Shinji.
Shinji still had a worried face, hoping that Rei would not have to leave. He didn't want to risk losing Rei again. But then there was the fact that if she went now, a week later, they would be together forever.
"Be careful... I don't..." Rei stopped Shinji by placing her finger on his lips. She then arched forward and kissed him deeply.
"One week... Tokyo Central Park... First bench in on the East Entrance...8:00 pm... Bring your cello..." Rei smiled and with that she got into a NERV car and the door closed behind her.
It was nearing lunch time, Shinji felt a slight twitch in his stomach. Yes, I guess I should grab a bite to eat... he thought to himself as he examined the paperwork in front of him. It was going to take a while, he thought. The papers piled upwards, seeming endless. When in the world did he get stuck with a desk job for Misato? He knew the woman always ran late on her paperwork, but he just had to be a nice guy and help her finish the job. He took his leave. Swinging out of his chair, he headed down to the cafeteria. After taking a glance at his watch, he calculated about one hour for his lunch and then hurried down to the join the rest of the NERV officials in Tokyo-3.
"Mr. Ikari?" A girly voice rang in Shinji's ears. He turned around to meet a pretty looking girl.
"Hi..." He said in a friendly tone of voice as he grabbed his sandwich and placed it in his plate.
"Hi," The girl blushed. "My name is Fumiko. I don't believe we have met..."
"No, I don't think so, either." Shinji wasn't paying much attention to Fumiko, but rather looking for a space where he could sit down and have his lunch.
"Yes, well I'm new here and I was wondering if you could show me around. I mean it took me about 2 hours to find the cafeteria."
"Yes, the Geofront can be pretty confusing sometimes." Shinji smiled. "Do you mind if I sit down and eat first?" Shinji asked, obviously offering his help.
"Thank you, Mr. Ikari!"
"Oh, don't call me that, Shinji will be fine."
"Okay, Shinji..."The girl smiled sweetly.
Shinji found a spot in the vast cafeteria. The mess hall was jammed with NERV personnel.
"Tell me... Fumiko... Do did you manage to find me in this mess? In fact, how do you even know what I look like?" Shinji asked curious as he began eating.
"Oh, I'm here working under Ms. Langley, but she was busy today so I was told to find you."
"I see..." Shinji said still unsure that the desperately attractive girl was telling the truth.
Uncomfortably, Shinji finished his lunch. All Fumiko did was stare at him. It was obvious she was interested, but Shinji didn't like it when people stared at him. Well, at least not in the way Fumiko was. Fumiko kept blushing when Shinji realized he was being stared at. She kept quiet, but always had a tentative smile. To a point, this amount of attention actually made Shinji sweat. Not that he didn't like attention from cute girls, but the fact was that it looked like Fumiko was trying to seduce him. He shook off the thought.
The moist spring air was around him. The night was cool, the stars lit the sky. Even with the city lights, the moon and stars shone as clear as crystals. The green grass around the bench was bent and freshly cut. The tree behind him rustled as the wind blew by. The sakura petals flew with the wind. Tokyo-3 Central park seemed magical. The blossoms covered the floor; pink and emerald were the shades of the surroundings. Shinji tugged closely to his jacket as another breeze blew by, it was a cool night. He looked at his watch... 7:50... he thought methodically. 10 more minutes and Rei would be here. His cello was next to him. He closed his eyes trying to ignore his nervousness. Fumiko didn't turn out to be all that he thought. She turned out to be a very nice person. Or it was what is seemed when Shinji showed her around the NERV grounds. She seemed to be a caring person like Misato, just less of a hopeless character. Fumiko was too very pretty.
"Shinji?" A voice came from behind.
"Rei!" Shinji opened his eyes, and jumped up seeing as Rei had finally come.
There was a soft giggle.
"Not quite..." It was Fumiko.
"It nice to see you, Shinji." She blushed.
Shinji was disappointed and surprised. He blushed as he recalled that he called her Rei.
"It's nice to see you too... what are you doing here?"
"Well, I was out of walk. I don't live too far from here." Fumiko lied, though she hid it well.
"Really," Shinji said with a smile.
"Are you waiting for someone?"
"Yeah... I'm waiting Rei..."
"Ah..." Fumiko seemed disappointed. "Wow! You play the cello..."
"Yes." Fumiko quickly sat down next to him.
"Can I see it?" Fumiko asked gently.
"Sure, I guess..." Shinji handed her his cello.
Fumiko kept her eyes on the cello in her arms. It was interesting to learn that Shinji had musical talent. She liked him more and more. He seemed so innocent and caring.
Shinji however kept his eyes on Fumiko. She was truly pretty. Her thin white neck shone wondrously out of her red sweater, her slender legs seemed to make her khaki shirt. Her wavy, long, black hair caressed over her perfect face. Fumiko reminded Shinji of the first time he saw Rei. The two women had comparative beauty. It was almost enchanting.
Fumiko looked up and blushed as she noticed Shinji was staring at her. She move closer and closer, but Shinji seemed to be in a trance. The two sat there facing each other blushing. Fumiko arched her face forward...
Rei ran as fast as she could. Her legs were tired from moving all her stuff into her new apartment. But she ran just so that she would not be late for her date with Shinji. It would be their first date after they got back together. The smile was bright on her face. She ran toward the East Entrance. As Rei approached the entrance she stopped her running, adjusted her breathing, made sure her violin was in her hand and quickly walked over to where the bench was supposed to be. I hope I'm not late... she thought, as her cheeks were bursting red from the run. She looked down. She had forgotten how pretty Tokyo was in the spring. The sakura blossoms scatter all over the floor as the breezes continue to blow. It would be a magical evening... Rei looked up... She stopped dead in her tracks. The smile suddenly disappeared.
Before Rei, Shinji and another girl were kissing. Her body and mind were numb with shock and disbelief. She dropped her violin. The sound of it hitting the floor made Shinji and Fumiko look at Rei. There was horror written across Shinji's face as he saw Rei looking at him, stunned. Rei and Shinji looked at each other in silence. Rei's cool composure slowly faded away, as the tears began to drip from the corners of her eye. Her throat began to run dry. Her vision blurred. Her chest pains revived. Shinji still sat there in shock and Fumiko looked confused. Rei sniveled once and knew that she would not be able to hold the tears back any longer. She ran away. Shinji finally snapped out of it and chased after her. He was stopped briefly by Fumiko.
"Who was that?"
"That was Rei..." Shinji said sadly.
He ran after her as hard as he could.
Rei ran like there was not behind. She was fast. But Shinji's desperate sprinting caught up. He grabbed her arms and held her there.
"Let go, Shinji..." Rei said. As the tears dripped down her face, she looked away from Shinji.
"Rei, let me explain..."
"Let go..." Shinji didn't let go, he was afraid she would run away.
"Let go, Shinji!" Rei's voice cracked, her heart was in pain, the tears streamed down.
"Let me explain..." Rei turned around and faced Shinji. Her face was gloomy. Her lips parted slightly, her breathing heavy, and her tears poured down.
"Let me explain..." Shinji repeated, feeling stabs of guilt upon looking at Rei's face.
"You don't need to explain, Shinji... I understand..."
"No, you don't..."
"Shinji, you never loved me, don't deny it... you never loved me. No matter how much I love you Shinji, no matter how much I care for you Shinji. I know now you will never return it."
"That's not true, Rei!" Shinji argued.
"You didn't have to lie to me before to make me feel better..." Rei said her voice soft.
"I didn't lie to you, Rei..."
"It's enough that you have to reject me, Shinji, it's enough to tell me that you don't like me because I'm an angel! You don't have to insult me and break my heart again!" The tears were uncontrollable now.
"Rei, listen, that's not right!"
"Shinji, I'm sorry I lied to you, or kept the fact that I was an angel a secret... okay... I'm sorry..." Rei chest tighten. "This is the best apology I can give, Shinji. I'm sorry... I don't know what more to do or say..." Rei turned and ran hard.
Shinji did not chase after her. He dropped to his knees and felt the tears come from the corners of his eyes.