Passion's Wounds Chapter 7
Author's Note: Wow! Over 50 reviews! Gosh, I never thought this fic would work out so well when I first started writing it. Thanks everyone, love ya lots! Of course another mention to my pre-reader, Jessica whose constant persistence of cherry versus cheery has kept my writing spirits alive and working through honors homework and tireless practices of sports. Still though, to the fans of Eva... ENJOY! Note: T.T. (You know who you are) here it is, okay...you too Addy! Bio Junkies!
The cherry blossoms seemed to pour down as did the spirits of Rei. She didn't know how to react; the girl in front of her reminded her of herself. Not really though who she was before, but who she was now.
"Mr. Ikari." Fumiko said walking over and bowing to Shinji.
There was a deathly silence.
"Ms. Ayanami." Fumiko walked over to Rei and bowed too. Although with a show of respect Rei bowed back, it was much to her regret. She hated the fact that she would respect the person who stole Shinji away. There was a tense silence as the two looked at each other. Both with forced smiles.
Shinji's heart was racing. He wanted to say something, but he was afraid of angering on the two beauties. Asuka saved him though.
"Hello, I don't think we've met..." Asuka's line seemed to be returned by Shinji with both graciousness and curiosity. Didn't the two of them know each other... Shinji thought thinking back to the time Fumiko told him that she was instructed to see Shinji by Asuka.
"No Ms. Sohryu, we have not met before. My name is Fumiko." She greeted the girl with a smile and bowed too. "Mr. Ikari here has be kind enough to show me around NERV the other day... I had just transferred." Again the smile. Asuka smiled back, it was almost natural for her, although she had suspicions about the tenseness between Fumiko and Rei.
"Nice to meet you Fumiko."
"The pleasure is all mine," Fumiko replied.
Rei stared into the eyes of Fumiko. She was both confused of what see saw and what it meant. Fumiko walked on avoiding Rei's eyes and Shinji's face. She waved goodbye and strolled on. Asuka stared at the girl and then at Shinji.
"Who is she?" Asuka asked suspiciously as the others (Kensuke, Touji, and Hikari) kept quiet sensing the tenseness.
Shinji sat on his couch looking down at the ground. He could nothing else. He contemplated in his mind of what to say to Rei. The stabs of guilt pierced his heart. Rei peered over from the hallway. She was cooking with Asuka. Finally teaching the Redhead how to cook. She felt as though she was responsible for Shinji's pain. She knew it wasn't her fault, but nonetheless, she felt responsible. As if she was Fumiko, she was one of the causes that he was in such conflict now. Ever since they talked with Fumiko, Shinji didn't speak a word.
Asuka decided for all of them to go back to Shinji's apartment and there would be a party. "A Cherry Blossom Bash!" That's she had called it.
Rei was hesitate to approach Shinji, but she found that Kensuke and Touji too far from the scene, the two of them playing cards in the covered second floor patio with the TV. Rei went into the living room with some ice cream one for her and the other for Shinji.
"Shin-chan..." She said softly.
There was no movement.
"Shin-chan, do you want ice cream?"
Again silence.
Rei walked over and sat down next to Shinji. She looked at him with her eyes in pain.
"Please Shinji, don't be like this, I don't want to see you like this..."
Nothing.
"Shinji!" Rei grabbed his shoulders.
Again nothing.
Rei was taken back by this. She looked down.
"Well, if you want the ice cream here it is..." Rei tried to smile, again trying to cheer Shinji up, but Shinji still wasn't talking.
Rei walked away hopeless. She wasn't really mad at Fumiko, but moreover she was disappointed in herself. She couldn't cheer Shinji up. In addition, her view, both Fumiko and herself were just as guilty for Shinji's depression.
The party went on until around 2:00 in the morning. When finally Asuka left, she wished Rei luck with Shinji. With a bright smile the last guest left the house. Rei looked painfully back at Shinji from the doorway.
She cleaned up and finally gathered up the courage to sit down next to Shinji again.
"Shinji," She tried to smile but in vain, "it time to rest..."
There was no reply. Rei looked away and sat next to him. She felt horrible.
Shinji began to hear sobs coming from next to him, it hurt, he knew it was Rei.
"Shinji, you don't have to reply, you don't have to say anything, but at least listen to me. I don't care who you choose. Fumiko or me. As long as you're happy, that's all I need to know everyday I wake up. I've learned this from our love. I know it will hurt me if you don't choose me, but it's nothing compared to you being happy." Rei tears trickled down her cheek. She stood up as Shinji didn't answer. Rei grabbed a coat and went out for walk. She needed a walk to calm herself down and clear her mind.
Shinji found Rei in Tokyo Central Park all alone. It was very early in the morning. The sun hadn't even come up yet. She bore a grim expression on her face. She was asleep although her unconscious body shivered from the bitter coldness of the morning air. Shinji took off his jacket and wrapped it around Rei. This woke her up.
"You didn't have to sleep in the park..." Shinji said with pain in his voice.
All Rei could do is look up and smile at him. He finally said a word. Her heart sang. It seemed like an eternity since Shinji had said something. Rei wrapped her arms around Shinji's warm neck and embraced him with a kiss. Shinji pulled away though, he needed to say something.
"Rei, you needn't worry, I will always choose you..."
"Shh..." Rei silenced Shinji placing a finger over his mouth. She kissed him again missing his lips dearly.
"No wait..." Shinji pulled again.
Rei seemed worried and disappointed.
"I have to say this Rei..." There was a moment of silence.
"I am a stupid fool."
"No you're not, Shinji."
"Yes I am, Rei your love for me has blinded you from seeing who I really am. For three years I've tormented you, for the past week, I've broken your heart twice, and still I haven't formally apologized for what happened with Fumiko. I feel like an idiot, no guy would ever treat their girlfriend like this... you deserve much better than me Rei..." Rei eyes became moist.
"Shinji, there are reason why I love you, for one its not pity. Shinji I love you because you are the only one who can comfort me. I am the only one who can truly say otherwise. I don't care how you treat me Shinji, I will always love you. If you think I deserve better, Shinji... your love for me has blinded you too then. I was the reason you joined NERV. I stole your father away from you. I am solely responsible for your hatred of the Angels." Rei looked down. "You deserve a better girl..."
Shinji was stunned. He didn't expect an answer.
"Rei..." Shinji looked at the sobbing girl. "Don't cry..."
"I'm sorry about Fumiko."
"You needn't be, it wasn't your fault." Rei said between the tears.
"I can't to blame myself though, so I need your forgiveness..."
"I forgive you Shinji." Rei said hastily.
Shinji smiled acutely.
"You are and always will be my one and only... I promise." Shinji said softly. Brushing back the stray strands of Rei's hair. She smiled a bit and dove forward to kiss him. This next she didn't let go until minutes later. Rei laid in Shinji's arm for a while as the two lay together on the bench. There was a moment of peaceful serenity.
"Rei..."
"Yes?"
"I want to show you something." Shinji got up and held Rei's hand.
The morning sun sparkled through the clouds. The two lovers stood there. Rei in Shinji's arms.
"This reminds me of the first time we kissed."
"We were here the first time."
"I know..." Rei whispered in Shinji's ears.
Shinji nibbled at Rei's ears.
"Its beautiful Shinji."
"Not nearly as beautiful as you are." Rei blushed a little. She was a little more used to the teasing, but still there was no change of how hopelessly in love she was with Shinji's innocent flirting.
"Don't tease me," Rei said giggling a bit.
The radiant sun showed the outline of the tall skyscrapers of Tokyo-3. The shining iridescence of the morning fog grew around the two lovers. The sight of the sun renewed their strength and their love.
A.N. Gomen-ne this is taking so long for me to publish these chapters. That goes double for Kokoro e Kokoro which will not be updated for at least another day or two! My life! IT SUCKS! IT GETS IN THE WAY TOO MUCH!
That's a bad excuse, but... i don't have another one, and it's honest too! Of course though, thank you for all the reviews! I will try to post more quickly (hopefully Spring Break will help...)
Author's Note: Wow! Over 50 reviews! Gosh, I never thought this fic would work out so well when I first started writing it. Thanks everyone, love ya lots! Of course another mention to my pre-reader, Jessica whose constant persistence of cherry versus cheery has kept my writing spirits alive and working through honors homework and tireless practices of sports. Still though, to the fans of Eva... ENJOY! Note: T.T. (You know who you are) here it is, okay...you too Addy! Bio Junkies!
The cherry blossoms seemed to pour down as did the spirits of Rei. She didn't know how to react; the girl in front of her reminded her of herself. Not really though who she was before, but who she was now.
"Mr. Ikari." Fumiko said walking over and bowing to Shinji.
There was a deathly silence.
"Ms. Ayanami." Fumiko walked over to Rei and bowed too. Although with a show of respect Rei bowed back, it was much to her regret. She hated the fact that she would respect the person who stole Shinji away. There was a tense silence as the two looked at each other. Both with forced smiles.
Shinji's heart was racing. He wanted to say something, but he was afraid of angering on the two beauties. Asuka saved him though.
"Hello, I don't think we've met..." Asuka's line seemed to be returned by Shinji with both graciousness and curiosity. Didn't the two of them know each other... Shinji thought thinking back to the time Fumiko told him that she was instructed to see Shinji by Asuka.
"No Ms. Sohryu, we have not met before. My name is Fumiko." She greeted the girl with a smile and bowed too. "Mr. Ikari here has be kind enough to show me around NERV the other day... I had just transferred." Again the smile. Asuka smiled back, it was almost natural for her, although she had suspicions about the tenseness between Fumiko and Rei.
"Nice to meet you Fumiko."
"The pleasure is all mine," Fumiko replied.
Rei stared into the eyes of Fumiko. She was both confused of what see saw and what it meant. Fumiko walked on avoiding Rei's eyes and Shinji's face. She waved goodbye and strolled on. Asuka stared at the girl and then at Shinji.
"Who is she?" Asuka asked suspiciously as the others (Kensuke, Touji, and Hikari) kept quiet sensing the tenseness.
Shinji sat on his couch looking down at the ground. He could nothing else. He contemplated in his mind of what to say to Rei. The stabs of guilt pierced his heart. Rei peered over from the hallway. She was cooking with Asuka. Finally teaching the Redhead how to cook. She felt as though she was responsible for Shinji's pain. She knew it wasn't her fault, but nonetheless, she felt responsible. As if she was Fumiko, she was one of the causes that he was in such conflict now. Ever since they talked with Fumiko, Shinji didn't speak a word.
Asuka decided for all of them to go back to Shinji's apartment and there would be a party. "A Cherry Blossom Bash!" That's she had called it.
Rei was hesitate to approach Shinji, but she found that Kensuke and Touji too far from the scene, the two of them playing cards in the covered second floor patio with the TV. Rei went into the living room with some ice cream one for her and the other for Shinji.
"Shin-chan..." She said softly.
There was no movement.
"Shin-chan, do you want ice cream?"
Again silence.
Rei walked over and sat down next to Shinji. She looked at him with her eyes in pain.
"Please Shinji, don't be like this, I don't want to see you like this..."
Nothing.
"Shinji!" Rei grabbed his shoulders.
Again nothing.
Rei was taken back by this. She looked down.
"Well, if you want the ice cream here it is..." Rei tried to smile, again trying to cheer Shinji up, but Shinji still wasn't talking.
Rei walked away hopeless. She wasn't really mad at Fumiko, but moreover she was disappointed in herself. She couldn't cheer Shinji up. In addition, her view, both Fumiko and herself were just as guilty for Shinji's depression.
The party went on until around 2:00 in the morning. When finally Asuka left, she wished Rei luck with Shinji. With a bright smile the last guest left the house. Rei looked painfully back at Shinji from the doorway.
She cleaned up and finally gathered up the courage to sit down next to Shinji again.
"Shinji," She tried to smile but in vain, "it time to rest..."
There was no reply. Rei looked away and sat next to him. She felt horrible.
Shinji began to hear sobs coming from next to him, it hurt, he knew it was Rei.
"Shinji, you don't have to reply, you don't have to say anything, but at least listen to me. I don't care who you choose. Fumiko or me. As long as you're happy, that's all I need to know everyday I wake up. I've learned this from our love. I know it will hurt me if you don't choose me, but it's nothing compared to you being happy." Rei tears trickled down her cheek. She stood up as Shinji didn't answer. Rei grabbed a coat and went out for walk. She needed a walk to calm herself down and clear her mind.
Shinji found Rei in Tokyo Central Park all alone. It was very early in the morning. The sun hadn't even come up yet. She bore a grim expression on her face. She was asleep although her unconscious body shivered from the bitter coldness of the morning air. Shinji took off his jacket and wrapped it around Rei. This woke her up.
"You didn't have to sleep in the park..." Shinji said with pain in his voice.
All Rei could do is look up and smile at him. He finally said a word. Her heart sang. It seemed like an eternity since Shinji had said something. Rei wrapped her arms around Shinji's warm neck and embraced him with a kiss. Shinji pulled away though, he needed to say something.
"Rei, you needn't worry, I will always choose you..."
"Shh..." Rei silenced Shinji placing a finger over his mouth. She kissed him again missing his lips dearly.
"No wait..." Shinji pulled again.
Rei seemed worried and disappointed.
"I have to say this Rei..." There was a moment of silence.
"I am a stupid fool."
"No you're not, Shinji."
"Yes I am, Rei your love for me has blinded you from seeing who I really am. For three years I've tormented you, for the past week, I've broken your heart twice, and still I haven't formally apologized for what happened with Fumiko. I feel like an idiot, no guy would ever treat their girlfriend like this... you deserve much better than me Rei..." Rei eyes became moist.
"Shinji, there are reason why I love you, for one its not pity. Shinji I love you because you are the only one who can comfort me. I am the only one who can truly say otherwise. I don't care how you treat me Shinji, I will always love you. If you think I deserve better, Shinji... your love for me has blinded you too then. I was the reason you joined NERV. I stole your father away from you. I am solely responsible for your hatred of the Angels." Rei looked down. "You deserve a better girl..."
Shinji was stunned. He didn't expect an answer.
"Rei..." Shinji looked at the sobbing girl. "Don't cry..."
"I'm sorry about Fumiko."
"You needn't be, it wasn't your fault." Rei said between the tears.
"I can't to blame myself though, so I need your forgiveness..."
"I forgive you Shinji." Rei said hastily.
Shinji smiled acutely.
"You are and always will be my one and only... I promise." Shinji said softly. Brushing back the stray strands of Rei's hair. She smiled a bit and dove forward to kiss him. This next she didn't let go until minutes later. Rei laid in Shinji's arm for a while as the two lay together on the bench. There was a moment of peaceful serenity.
"Rei..."
"Yes?"
"I want to show you something." Shinji got up and held Rei's hand.
The morning sun sparkled through the clouds. The two lovers stood there. Rei in Shinji's arms.
"This reminds me of the first time we kissed."
"We were here the first time."
"I know..." Rei whispered in Shinji's ears.
Shinji nibbled at Rei's ears.
"Its beautiful Shinji."
"Not nearly as beautiful as you are." Rei blushed a little. She was a little more used to the teasing, but still there was no change of how hopelessly in love she was with Shinji's innocent flirting.
"Don't tease me," Rei said giggling a bit.
The radiant sun showed the outline of the tall skyscrapers of Tokyo-3. The shining iridescence of the morning fog grew around the two lovers. The sight of the sun renewed their strength and their love.
A.N. Gomen-ne this is taking so long for me to publish these chapters. That goes double for Kokoro e Kokoro which will not be updated for at least another day or two! My life! IT SUCKS! IT GETS IN THE WAY TOO MUCH!
That's a bad excuse, but... i don't have another one, and it's honest too! Of course though, thank you for all the reviews! I will try to post more quickly (hopefully Spring Break will help...)