Chapter One-The death.
May 18, 1997. A day like so many others yet so different in every possible way. This day would forever be burned into Severus Snape's memory as "the day of death" for on this day, his wife Cyra Lyn Snape had died of complications of a lifelong illness of which she had been battling since birth. Cyra had been born with Spinal bifida (A congenital defect in which the spinal column is imperfectly closed so that part of the meninges or spinal cord protrudes, often resulting in hydrocephalus and other neurological disorders. Also called schistorrhachis) thus marking her days then and there. The doctors did not believe Cyra would live to be more than sixteen. Amazingly, she lived to be twenty-six. Cyra had died in her sleep after a night of lovemaking with Severus. She had died with a very peaceful smile on her face that told everyone who seen it how happy she had been. Yet had they really looked into her eyes while she was still living, they would have seen the great sarrow buried deep into the debts of them. After they had finished making love. Cyra had looked into Severus's eyes and simply said "let me go Severus, just let me go." Little did he know, those words would soon come to mean more to him than his life. At the time she said them, he did not know what to think of it.
Three days later the obituary was placed in the "witches weekly" It read as fallows.
May 21, 1997
Cyra Lyn Cupalid Snape June 16, 1974 - May 18, 1997
Cyra was a devoted wife to Severus Xander Snape, Potion master at Hogworts School of witchcraft and wizardry. Cyra has died of complications from a lifelong illness that was diagnosed when she was but three months old. Cyra will be sadly missed and remembered by all. Her funeral will be held on Wednesday May 25th at six o'clock P.M. on Hogworts grounds where she will be buried under a tree by the lake. After the funeral, there will be a dinner for all who wish to attend in the great hall.
As Severus read the paper he felt a sudden sense of loss all over again. He had gotten somewhat used to sleeping alone and not waking up to Cyra's beautiful face every morning but since seeing the obituary made it all come back to him. For just a few minutes each day, Severus was able to imagine she was still with him, laughing crying, sleeping, and dreaming. Yet then reality came back to him and it was a blow in the face when he relised he would never again see her smile or tears, only in his dreams would he.
~*One year later May 18,1998*~ (Severus's POV)
Italicized means thinking
Great! Another year to look forward to. Well, at least Harry Potter and his little gang are graduation this year, good riddance. When Cyra was alive I could at least deal with them but since she died, it's been getting harder and harder. And today, oh of all the days to have to put up with the stupid little children.
"Severus? Severus are you listening? We need to discuss some important matters.'
Great, who is it now?
"Oh, hello Albus, what did I do THIS time?"
"Severus, the students have been complaining about you again. Hermione Granger said you started weeping while explaining a potion."
"I know Albus, it's just been a hard day for me"
"Now Severus, I understand how hard this day is for you."
"NO YOU DON'T! No one knows how hard it is for me you pompous ass! Did you love her since the day you saw her? Did you cry when you seen her cry? Did you laugh when she laughed? Did you wake up to her dead body begging her not to leave you yet?! NO! I did.only me. And only I have so many memories burned into my head of her.of her laughing and smiling and dying. I was there for everything Albus, you were not so don't you dare tell me how hard it is for me!"
"Severus! Calm yourself my dear boy. I know I was not there for everything like you yourself were, but you were not the only one who loved her you know. She was very loved by the entire school.
At this point Severus had gone into his own world remember the day he had first seen her.
~*FLASHBACK*~
How much longer will the blasted feast go on?! It has been over an hour already, hurry up you old man!
It was then that I saw her. Walking through the doors to the great hall only eleven years old and already the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I knew then and there that I had to have her. I needed to have her. if only she were older and not my student-to-be. I had been staring at her in class again when she looked up at me with the most amazing look on her face. It was a look of love. Again I knew I had to have her. I knew she would be mine.
~*END FLASHBACK~*
"Severus! You need to listen to me! You have to stop this Severus. If you do not, I'm afraid I will have to call in a substitute to finish your classes for the rest of the year."
God anything but that! I can't loose my job. If I loose my job I will loose my rooms.my rooms are my only remembrance of her!
"I am sorry Albus. Please do not take my job for me. I will try very hard to stay focused! I promise you I will."
"Hmm. Very well Severus, but for the next few days I will be having someone stay to teach classes with you. However, there are no substitutes available at the moment so I am forced to use the next best thing. Hermione Granger."
"Hermione Granger! But Albus, she is a STUDENT I cannot have a student teaching classes with me. People would talk more than they already have been Albus. It would be as if she is baby-sitting me."
"Ah Severus I do understand. And in a way, she WILL be baby-sitting you. At least until you are capable to do so on your own. She will be here to discuss what to do with you in an hour's time. Please be settled and ready to talk by then."
"Yes headmaster. I will be ready."
"Very good Severus, I will talk to you tomorrow and check up on your classes every so often to see how things will be working out."
With that Albus walked out and left Severus to his thoughts once again.
May 18, 1997. A day like so many others yet so different in every possible way. This day would forever be burned into Severus Snape's memory as "the day of death" for on this day, his wife Cyra Lyn Snape had died of complications of a lifelong illness of which she had been battling since birth. Cyra had been born with Spinal bifida (A congenital defect in which the spinal column is imperfectly closed so that part of the meninges or spinal cord protrudes, often resulting in hydrocephalus and other neurological disorders. Also called schistorrhachis) thus marking her days then and there. The doctors did not believe Cyra would live to be more than sixteen. Amazingly, she lived to be twenty-six. Cyra had died in her sleep after a night of lovemaking with Severus. She had died with a very peaceful smile on her face that told everyone who seen it how happy she had been. Yet had they really looked into her eyes while she was still living, they would have seen the great sarrow buried deep into the debts of them. After they had finished making love. Cyra had looked into Severus's eyes and simply said "let me go Severus, just let me go." Little did he know, those words would soon come to mean more to him than his life. At the time she said them, he did not know what to think of it.
Three days later the obituary was placed in the "witches weekly" It read as fallows.
May 21, 1997
Cyra Lyn Cupalid Snape June 16, 1974 - May 18, 1997
Cyra was a devoted wife to Severus Xander Snape, Potion master at Hogworts School of witchcraft and wizardry. Cyra has died of complications from a lifelong illness that was diagnosed when she was but three months old. Cyra will be sadly missed and remembered by all. Her funeral will be held on Wednesday May 25th at six o'clock P.M. on Hogworts grounds where she will be buried under a tree by the lake. After the funeral, there will be a dinner for all who wish to attend in the great hall.
As Severus read the paper he felt a sudden sense of loss all over again. He had gotten somewhat used to sleeping alone and not waking up to Cyra's beautiful face every morning but since seeing the obituary made it all come back to him. For just a few minutes each day, Severus was able to imagine she was still with him, laughing crying, sleeping, and dreaming. Yet then reality came back to him and it was a blow in the face when he relised he would never again see her smile or tears, only in his dreams would he.
~*One year later May 18,1998*~ (Severus's POV)
Italicized means thinking
Great! Another year to look forward to. Well, at least Harry Potter and his little gang are graduation this year, good riddance. When Cyra was alive I could at least deal with them but since she died, it's been getting harder and harder. And today, oh of all the days to have to put up with the stupid little children.
"Severus? Severus are you listening? We need to discuss some important matters.'
Great, who is it now?
"Oh, hello Albus, what did I do THIS time?"
"Severus, the students have been complaining about you again. Hermione Granger said you started weeping while explaining a potion."
"I know Albus, it's just been a hard day for me"
"Now Severus, I understand how hard this day is for you."
"NO YOU DON'T! No one knows how hard it is for me you pompous ass! Did you love her since the day you saw her? Did you cry when you seen her cry? Did you laugh when she laughed? Did you wake up to her dead body begging her not to leave you yet?! NO! I did.only me. And only I have so many memories burned into my head of her.of her laughing and smiling and dying. I was there for everything Albus, you were not so don't you dare tell me how hard it is for me!"
"Severus! Calm yourself my dear boy. I know I was not there for everything like you yourself were, but you were not the only one who loved her you know. She was very loved by the entire school.
At this point Severus had gone into his own world remember the day he had first seen her.
~*FLASHBACK*~
How much longer will the blasted feast go on?! It has been over an hour already, hurry up you old man!
It was then that I saw her. Walking through the doors to the great hall only eleven years old and already the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I knew then and there that I had to have her. I needed to have her. if only she were older and not my student-to-be. I had been staring at her in class again when she looked up at me with the most amazing look on her face. It was a look of love. Again I knew I had to have her. I knew she would be mine.
~*END FLASHBACK~*
"Severus! You need to listen to me! You have to stop this Severus. If you do not, I'm afraid I will have to call in a substitute to finish your classes for the rest of the year."
God anything but that! I can't loose my job. If I loose my job I will loose my rooms.my rooms are my only remembrance of her!
"I am sorry Albus. Please do not take my job for me. I will try very hard to stay focused! I promise you I will."
"Hmm. Very well Severus, but for the next few days I will be having someone stay to teach classes with you. However, there are no substitutes available at the moment so I am forced to use the next best thing. Hermione Granger."
"Hermione Granger! But Albus, she is a STUDENT I cannot have a student teaching classes with me. People would talk more than they already have been Albus. It would be as if she is baby-sitting me."
"Ah Severus I do understand. And in a way, she WILL be baby-sitting you. At least until you are capable to do so on your own. She will be here to discuss what to do with you in an hour's time. Please be settled and ready to talk by then."
"Yes headmaster. I will be ready."
"Very good Severus, I will talk to you tomorrow and check up on your classes every so often to see how things will be working out."
With that Albus walked out and left Severus to his thoughts once again.