Eternal Thoughts
Raison D'être

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Disclaimer: EVERYONE character so far belongs to JK. Be thankful that I don't own them cause where would all them fantastic hp books be? All I can write is crappy fan fictions and I do own this plot.

1. Fading Hatred

Thump, thump style="font-size:12.0pt; mso-bid My footsteps echoed in the hall.

"I hate you, Harry Potter!" I thought, "I HATE YOU!"

Thump, thump style="font-size:12.0pt; mso-bid I kept going.

I hate you, Harry Potter! I wanted to shout it out loud, but feared that someone might hear me.

Why!? Why did he have to die? I cried out in my mind.

"Oh, Cedric," I whispered, choking back tears. "Why did you have to leave me?"

It's not Cedric's fault! It's that- that little good for nothing brat! Harry Potter the great, Harry Potter the boy who survived the curse! I could no longer stop. My heart beating against me, Harry Potter the boy who defeated Dark Lord!

I hate you, Potter. I HATE YOU! You murdered Cedric. KILLED HIM!

Sorrowfully, I signed, felling pity for myself.

I was determined to clear my mind before reaching the end of the hall. It led into the quidditch corridors where the Gryffindor team sat.

And I saw him waving at me. Smiling.

I would do anything at the moment to wipe that smirk off his face. I faked a smiled and sat down next to Davis, who's already in the Ravenclaw uniform. I walked toward the changing room, bumping right into Harry.

I dared to look right at him. He smiled apologetically and almost shyly when he said sorry. I gazed directly into his innocent green eyes and for some mysterious reason I felt miserable. Oh, stop it! Remember that you hate him. I reminded myself. He should be sorry. Sorry that he murdered Cedric!

Well, he didn't exactly kill him. I thought after I calmed down a bit. He just brought trouble upon him

+ - Was it possible that Cho's heart's changing? - +

After the game, which Ravenclaw unbelievably won, I sneaked out by the underground tunnel that led to a hilltop near the Diggorys. I visited Cedric's grave. Heavy rains stroked my face, but I ignore it.

"Cedric, you were wonderful. It's sad what happened. Everyone else forgave him, that innocent little boy. But, I can't... I never knew why. I had this mind full of hatred for him. I know you would not appreciate it, but I can't ever forgive him. You were my first love. My Only Love I just can't let go. Not yet." I whispered and blew him a kiss.

I dropped the flowers that I brought daily and noticed a tall, dark shadow behind me. I turned to look up for a glanced at the figure. Then paused. Him! My eyebrows shot up instinctively like arrows. I wonder if he heard me.

"Hi." he greeted, and then I noticed he was whispering.

"Hello." I muttered, hardly hearing myself.

"Do you come here everyday?" he questioned.

I hesitated as I wondered whether I should tell him anymore.

Anxiously, I stole a glimpse at him. He stood his ground and waited patiently for my answer.

Harry looked up, observing the sky. Then slowly closed his eyes. Drops fell from the tip of his nose. He looked rather handsome as the rain continues to beat against his face. Unexpectedly, he turned and caught sight of me staring at him. We both looked away, but I'm definite that he blushed.

"Yeah." I murmured bashfully.

"I come here too. It has been a long year for everyone. he uttered. "No one knows when he might strike again."

It took me long before I realize he was talking about Voldemort; I then shuttered at the thought of that name. (I learned to say the name of that murderer after Cedric's death.) I told myself to look at the bigger picture. Not only what he did to Cedric, but what he might do to others. I try to keep my emotions hidden, but I doubt that Potter didn't see me shivering like a manic.

I didn't believe it as he putted his arms around me. I knew I shouldn't, but I could no longer hold the tears. I climbed into his welcoming arms and placed my head against his chest. My hot tears mixed with the cold rain, but I didn't care. He waited for me to calm down.

The rain grew thicker; his arms that held me grew tighter. I loved the warmth of his body around me. With his fingers, he gently tilted my face upward until I came face to face with him. My eyes were still damp from crying. He let go of my chin and whipped the wet tears from my eyes. I turned to look away, but he didn't give up. Again he tilted my chin to face him. This time our eyes locked. He drew closer and surprisingly I did the same. Now, I could feel his warm breath on my face. I could almost taste his lips

As soon as I realized what I was doing, I jerked away from him. "I'm sorry. I got to go." I ran for the opening of the tunnel, leaving him standing alone in the rain.

Darkness swallowed me as I entered the gloomy tunnel. But far, I saw light. Torches. Dark shadows surrounded it. When I came closer, I struck in horror.

+ - Me again! Please review. I've updated this chapter with new editing two years after I first wrote this. I plan to spend the rest of the summer continuing it and starting on new fan fictions. I'd love to hear what you think so please review: P - +