Hollow Laughter
Laugh and the world laughs with you.
Familiar, right?
Well, whoever said that wasn't lying. Even if you are screaming inside, you give someone an award winning smile, or a cheerful laugh and they couldn't be more blind to what's below the surface.
You learn that lesson with practiced grace. No matter if you're talking to a friend or someone hated you know purely because who and what you are forces you to become their means to an end…
I can't tell you how many times I've been called pretty. Adorable. And yes, even the ever hated but rare beautiful.
Well, pardon, but screw them. I don't need little compliments… They won't help me.
I'm telling you; once you loose your parents… you know what it means to be alone. Sure, there are others, but you feel lost anyway. Always searching for a purpose. They, who should still be there to guide you, have left you. From then on, you are the only one who you can trust.
I know it sounds kinda sad… So different from my outward appearance. Like I said, I work hard on my façade. In what I do, it's always good to have a mask… But, you don't need to hear about that. I hate to burden someone with my pains. The pains of being lonely even though people are always around you… They can't help it if their not always alive… It's not their fault… In fact, it's probably mine…
I miss my parents…
You probably wouldn't think you'd hear that from me, considering the circumstances, right? Well, I do. My life is full of other things that have demanded my attention…no time to greave… not even after such a long time… I'm sorry, but damn it, they should still be here! Did they think of me when they died?
Did they?
Did they…?
Review, minna-san? I wanna know who you think it was! Pocky for all!