Title: The Horror of Amusement
Author: Lily -- lilyana_vamp@yahoo.com
Rating: Back to PG for the moment.
Disclaimer: I don't own anybody. ME, Joss Whedon, David Greenwalt, yadda yadda yadda. I think I should own them. I want them for my own. I want the money ME is making off them.
Distribution: If you want it, take it...just let me know where it
went.
Feedback: well duh.
Summary: Angel Investigations decide to take a few days off after their ordeal with the First to spend somewhere fun, but the fun doesn't last long. Sequel to my last fic, formerly titled "Currently Untitled", now titled "When the Face of Evil is the Face You Love." Author's Notes: I hope I didn't scare too many people off with the opening of the last part.okay, so that was purely intentional, as is the confusion, but that's just my weevil little mind at work! You can come back to play now though. I promise not to be scary anymore.for a little while anyways. A/N 2: I know this part is short, but oh well. I promise the next part will be longer.
Part 6 Love, Trust, Forgiveness
Cordelia tried to shake the confusion from her mind, but it wasn't going anywhere. Hadn't she just fallen asleep? How could she be pregnant.noticeably pregnant? "Oh well, maybe I missed the whole sickness stage," she muttered hopefully and peeked out the bedroom door. She in no way wanted to run into Angel. She didn't want to see him, even if she was carrying his second miracle child. "What is it with me always getting the seconds? I get Buffy's leftovers and then I have to take a backseat to Darla giving birth to his first child."
She cautiously walked down the hallway, instinctively rubbing her stomach. "I would ask how this could happen, but when does that get me anywhere?"
As she walked through the lobby, she could see Angel sitting in his office, his face resting in his hands. She knew by the position, he was in full- brood mode and for an instant wanted to run and comfort him. She resisted the urge, reminding herself what he had done to her. She turned away from him and prepared to leave everything that she knew and cared about. She heard Angel move in the office and picked up her pace. She had to get out before he stopped her and did who knows what.
"Cordelia?" he asked, his voice full of pain and fear.
Cordy refused to look back at him. She was determined to get away from him once and for all. She knew if she saw his face, that would never be possible. She didn't say a word as she ran for the door.
Angel ran after her and gently grabbed her arm. "Please Cordy, let me-"
She pulled away from him and he didn't fight her. He hung his head in guilt as she ran out the doorway and turned back for just a second, long enough for Angel to see the telltale bulge in her stomach. "Cordy?" he asked in shock. Why hadn't Fred told him? Panic rose in him as she turned and started running from him once again. "Cordy! No! Please! I want to fix things! Cordy!!" he called and ran out the door behind her.
Cordy's fear gripped at her as she heard him calling after her. He could hear him gaining ground on her as they ran beneath the cover of the trees. Suddenly, a greater fear overcame her and she turned back. "Angel! Stop!" she shrieked, but it was too late. Angel had chased her into the sunlight too far. He couldn't make it back in time. She screamed in horror as she watched him burst into flames and then reduce to ashes. The last thing she saw was the look of sorrow in his eyes, mixed with the hope and joy of seeing that she was pregnant.
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Angel screamed out in agony as he gripped Cordelia's hand. Wesley continued chanting, trying to concentrate despite the obvious pain the vampire was in.
"What's happening?" Fred asked, her voice shaking as she watched Angel writhe on the floor next to Cordelia.
"He's being connected to Princess and that world, so therefore he's experiencing everything that has happened and whatever is happening now; Wes is making him full vamp with soul again so that he's vulnerable." Lorne explained quietly, trying not to disturb Wes.
"Poor Angel. Three months of guilt and pain all at once." the girl whispered and clutched Gunn's arm tightly.
Wesley finished chanting and waited for any response from either Angel or Cordy. He didn't have long to wait.
Cordy bolted upright and started screaming. "Angel!! No!! Please no!!"
"Cordy, it's okay." Fred ran over and held her friend comfortingly, as she had before. She stroked her hair as Cordelia cried into Fred's arms.
"I didn't want him to die," she sobbed. "I hated him for what he did, but I never wanted him to die."
"Cordy," Angel said as he struggled to a sitting position and touched her arm lightly. His heart shattered when he heard her scream and saw the look of terror in her eyes.
"Cordy? You okay?" Connor asked, ready to jump to her defense in a second.
Cordy jumped to her feet and tried to hide in the corner, pressing herself against the wall. As Angel approached her, she began shaking, her tears streaming down her face in rivers. Her eyes were wide with fear. He didn't want to frighten her, but he couldn't leave her like this. He had to explain why he had done what he had. But there was no explanation, not a valid one anyways. He'd broken his precious doll and didn't know if he could ever put her back together again.
Angel dropped to his knees in front of Cordelia and reached for her hands. She pulled away from him and he felt the tears in his own eyes. "Cordy, I know that saying sorry doesn't even come close to making up for what I did to you, but I am. I'm truly sorry. I never wanted to hurt you." He watched as her lip quivered and her eyes darted from side to side, looking for any means of escape. "I won't hurt you again," he promised and touched her hand. She jumped but didn't pull away this time. Angel took this as a sign of hope. "What I did is unforgivable. I can't expect you to take me back, but I just want you to know that I know what I did was horrible. I'm sorry Cordy, and I love you."
Cordy looked at him, her eyes meeting his for the first time and he thought he might be getting through to her. He wanted nothing more than to make amends for his actions. In an attempt to show her affection, he moved his hands toward her midsection, trying to embrace her while he was still on his knees, but she cried out and pushed him away.
"No! You stay away from my baby!" she warned him and tried to push past him.
Angel held her tight and placed his head against her stomach. "Cordy, I would inever/i hurt iour/i baby."
The gang looked on in disbelief, all of them finally noticing the small bump that had formed in Cordelia's body. "How can this be? How can she be pregnant in this reality?" Fred asked and Wes stood on, dumbfounded.
"Let me take care of you, please. Let me try to make things right. Please don't shut me out of your life, and our baby's," Angel pleaded, his tears wetting her shirt as he nuzzled against the fabric that separated him from her soft skin, the skin that held their child.
Cordelia finally broke down, collapsing to her knees in front of Angel. She cried, falling into his open arms and buried her face into his chest. He held her close, feeling her melt into him.
Fred smiled slightly and pulled on Gunn's arm. She silently told him that they should give Angel and Cordy some time alone. The others caught on and walked to the other end of the large dining room. Connor was reluctant but Lorne didn't give him much choice as the green demon grabbed the back of the boy's shirt and pulled him along.
Angel tilted Cordelia's face up to meet his and pressed his forehead against hers. He held her cheeks in his large hands, locking her eyes with his own. "I love you so much Cor. I'll understand if you never forgive me. I know I never will, but I need you in my life. I need to be with you, and this baby," he whispered, placing a hand on her tummy and massaging it in circles.
Cordy opened her mouth to say something, but she was still so scared. She was scared of the man who was kneeling before her, pouring out his heart, begging her to take him back. How would she ever be able to trust him again? How could she trust him with her life like she once had, and with that of their child? Everything in her mind was telling her to run away as fast as she could, but her legs wouldn't listen. They were only listening to her heart and her heart ached for him so. "I love you too," she whispered almost silently and Angel smiled through his tears. They were the most beautiful words he had ever heard.
"I promise Cordy, I'll never let anything happen to you or the baby. I'll protect you. I just hope some day you can trust me again."
"Me too."
Author: Lily -- lilyana_vamp@yahoo.com
Rating: Back to PG for the moment.
Disclaimer: I don't own anybody. ME, Joss Whedon, David Greenwalt, yadda yadda yadda. I think I should own them. I want them for my own. I want the money ME is making off them.
Distribution: If you want it, take it...just let me know where it
went.
Feedback: well duh.
Summary: Angel Investigations decide to take a few days off after their ordeal with the First to spend somewhere fun, but the fun doesn't last long. Sequel to my last fic, formerly titled "Currently Untitled", now titled "When the Face of Evil is the Face You Love." Author's Notes: I hope I didn't scare too many people off with the opening of the last part.okay, so that was purely intentional, as is the confusion, but that's just my weevil little mind at work! You can come back to play now though. I promise not to be scary anymore.for a little while anyways. A/N 2: I know this part is short, but oh well. I promise the next part will be longer.
Part 6 Love, Trust, Forgiveness
Cordelia tried to shake the confusion from her mind, but it wasn't going anywhere. Hadn't she just fallen asleep? How could she be pregnant.noticeably pregnant? "Oh well, maybe I missed the whole sickness stage," she muttered hopefully and peeked out the bedroom door. She in no way wanted to run into Angel. She didn't want to see him, even if she was carrying his second miracle child. "What is it with me always getting the seconds? I get Buffy's leftovers and then I have to take a backseat to Darla giving birth to his first child."
She cautiously walked down the hallway, instinctively rubbing her stomach. "I would ask how this could happen, but when does that get me anywhere?"
As she walked through the lobby, she could see Angel sitting in his office, his face resting in his hands. She knew by the position, he was in full- brood mode and for an instant wanted to run and comfort him. She resisted the urge, reminding herself what he had done to her. She turned away from him and prepared to leave everything that she knew and cared about. She heard Angel move in the office and picked up her pace. She had to get out before he stopped her and did who knows what.
"Cordelia?" he asked, his voice full of pain and fear.
Cordy refused to look back at him. She was determined to get away from him once and for all. She knew if she saw his face, that would never be possible. She didn't say a word as she ran for the door.
Angel ran after her and gently grabbed her arm. "Please Cordy, let me-"
She pulled away from him and he didn't fight her. He hung his head in guilt as she ran out the doorway and turned back for just a second, long enough for Angel to see the telltale bulge in her stomach. "Cordy?" he asked in shock. Why hadn't Fred told him? Panic rose in him as she turned and started running from him once again. "Cordy! No! Please! I want to fix things! Cordy!!" he called and ran out the door behind her.
Cordy's fear gripped at her as she heard him calling after her. He could hear him gaining ground on her as they ran beneath the cover of the trees. Suddenly, a greater fear overcame her and she turned back. "Angel! Stop!" she shrieked, but it was too late. Angel had chased her into the sunlight too far. He couldn't make it back in time. She screamed in horror as she watched him burst into flames and then reduce to ashes. The last thing she saw was the look of sorrow in his eyes, mixed with the hope and joy of seeing that she was pregnant.
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Angel screamed out in agony as he gripped Cordelia's hand. Wesley continued chanting, trying to concentrate despite the obvious pain the vampire was in.
"What's happening?" Fred asked, her voice shaking as she watched Angel writhe on the floor next to Cordelia.
"He's being connected to Princess and that world, so therefore he's experiencing everything that has happened and whatever is happening now; Wes is making him full vamp with soul again so that he's vulnerable." Lorne explained quietly, trying not to disturb Wes.
"Poor Angel. Three months of guilt and pain all at once." the girl whispered and clutched Gunn's arm tightly.
Wesley finished chanting and waited for any response from either Angel or Cordy. He didn't have long to wait.
Cordy bolted upright and started screaming. "Angel!! No!! Please no!!"
"Cordy, it's okay." Fred ran over and held her friend comfortingly, as she had before. She stroked her hair as Cordelia cried into Fred's arms.
"I didn't want him to die," she sobbed. "I hated him for what he did, but I never wanted him to die."
"Cordy," Angel said as he struggled to a sitting position and touched her arm lightly. His heart shattered when he heard her scream and saw the look of terror in her eyes.
"Cordy? You okay?" Connor asked, ready to jump to her defense in a second.
Cordy jumped to her feet and tried to hide in the corner, pressing herself against the wall. As Angel approached her, she began shaking, her tears streaming down her face in rivers. Her eyes were wide with fear. He didn't want to frighten her, but he couldn't leave her like this. He had to explain why he had done what he had. But there was no explanation, not a valid one anyways. He'd broken his precious doll and didn't know if he could ever put her back together again.
Angel dropped to his knees in front of Cordelia and reached for her hands. She pulled away from him and he felt the tears in his own eyes. "Cordy, I know that saying sorry doesn't even come close to making up for what I did to you, but I am. I'm truly sorry. I never wanted to hurt you." He watched as her lip quivered and her eyes darted from side to side, looking for any means of escape. "I won't hurt you again," he promised and touched her hand. She jumped but didn't pull away this time. Angel took this as a sign of hope. "What I did is unforgivable. I can't expect you to take me back, but I just want you to know that I know what I did was horrible. I'm sorry Cordy, and I love you."
Cordy looked at him, her eyes meeting his for the first time and he thought he might be getting through to her. He wanted nothing more than to make amends for his actions. In an attempt to show her affection, he moved his hands toward her midsection, trying to embrace her while he was still on his knees, but she cried out and pushed him away.
"No! You stay away from my baby!" she warned him and tried to push past him.
Angel held her tight and placed his head against her stomach. "Cordy, I would inever/i hurt iour/i baby."
The gang looked on in disbelief, all of them finally noticing the small bump that had formed in Cordelia's body. "How can this be? How can she be pregnant in this reality?" Fred asked and Wes stood on, dumbfounded.
"Let me take care of you, please. Let me try to make things right. Please don't shut me out of your life, and our baby's," Angel pleaded, his tears wetting her shirt as he nuzzled against the fabric that separated him from her soft skin, the skin that held their child.
Cordelia finally broke down, collapsing to her knees in front of Angel. She cried, falling into his open arms and buried her face into his chest. He held her close, feeling her melt into him.
Fred smiled slightly and pulled on Gunn's arm. She silently told him that they should give Angel and Cordy some time alone. The others caught on and walked to the other end of the large dining room. Connor was reluctant but Lorne didn't give him much choice as the green demon grabbed the back of the boy's shirt and pulled him along.
Angel tilted Cordelia's face up to meet his and pressed his forehead against hers. He held her cheeks in his large hands, locking her eyes with his own. "I love you so much Cor. I'll understand if you never forgive me. I know I never will, but I need you in my life. I need to be with you, and this baby," he whispered, placing a hand on her tummy and massaging it in circles.
Cordy opened her mouth to say something, but she was still so scared. She was scared of the man who was kneeling before her, pouring out his heart, begging her to take him back. How would she ever be able to trust him again? How could she trust him with her life like she once had, and with that of their child? Everything in her mind was telling her to run away as fast as she could, but her legs wouldn't listen. They were only listening to her heart and her heart ached for him so. "I love you too," she whispered almost silently and Angel smiled through his tears. They were the most beautiful words he had ever heard.
"I promise Cordy, I'll never let anything happen to you or the baby. I'll protect you. I just hope some day you can trust me again."
"Me too."