How I fell
AN: tis short and new and sad and stuff _ hope you all like it! plz RnR and u know I don't own YGO lol. I'm always doing Fluffy Ryou X Joey but now it's time for the dark stuff! Tis AU. Joey's POV.
How I Fell
I knew you had no feelings for me other then that of a friend but I still continued to love you. I guess this was more then a crush eh? Normally my undying 'love' for someone is just a foolish phase in which I need to feel like I love someone. But not this one, this is real love.
I can't do any thing any more without it making me think of you. The way you talk the way you act and think and even move they all fascinate me beyond any thing. I haven't told any one not even you, I know I should have told you sooner but the fact is I'm scared.
Me scared? Bet you'd never hear me say those words right? Well yeah. I'm scared. Scared of failing, fading, falling, hurting, losing and being rejected by the heart I most seek to be loved by and that's yours. I bet your reading this going 'What the hell?' but I don't care.
I need to say my lines as if my life was always some big dubbed script where in a past life my charter rocked and now it's just a joke. Something and someone to laugh at. You didn't think so did you? No you didn't think I was one big useless joke.
You had faith and trust in me. And sure I was a goofball but so what? We got on didn't we? Ok so I was nasty to you at first but we turned out to be great friends right? I guess I wanted to be more then friends. I'm sorry about this and please tell the others I'm sorry but I just.. I can't take the pain in my heart any more that and my father being drunk and beating the hell out of me all the time.
Life has its ups and downs. You made my life better with your innocents and friendship and oh my god I'm sounding like Tea. But some things have to be said like 'I love you' and 'I need you' and since I can't have what I need to live then why should I live?
I'm tired of the abuse and hatred I get at home and I'm tired of trying to act like I'm not head over heels in love with you. I know you're with your yami and that's cool I congratulate you and I'm happy for you. I just wish you were mine to love and hold.
I want you to tell the others I'm sorry and I loved them all as friends, and tell Kaiba he's a jerk from me ok? You don't have to show this to any one not even the cops. I want to have some dignity after I die, knowing my luck I'll end up being the laughing stalk of heaven! Or where ever I'm going.
I hope to see you one day up there. Not now but later. Maybe we can be together then? I don't know maybe this is all too much to hope for? Fate's an evil bitch when it comes to my life and every thing I do but I guess I had fun. I only had fun when I was with you guys, mostly you.
I had fun beating many duellists to but now it all feels so empty. I want you and Yugi to spilt my deck between you so at least in death my deck can help you outta some jams when in a battle. I'm sorry I had to do this. I hope you understand.
This is good luck and goodbye Ryou.
I love you
~ Joey~
~ End ~
AN: tis short and new and sad and stuff _ hope you all like it! plz RnR and u know I don't own YGO lol. I'm always doing Fluffy Ryou X Joey but now it's time for the dark stuff! Tis AU. Joey's POV.
How I Fell
I knew you had no feelings for me other then that of a friend but I still continued to love you. I guess this was more then a crush eh? Normally my undying 'love' for someone is just a foolish phase in which I need to feel like I love someone. But not this one, this is real love.
I can't do any thing any more without it making me think of you. The way you talk the way you act and think and even move they all fascinate me beyond any thing. I haven't told any one not even you, I know I should have told you sooner but the fact is I'm scared.
Me scared? Bet you'd never hear me say those words right? Well yeah. I'm scared. Scared of failing, fading, falling, hurting, losing and being rejected by the heart I most seek to be loved by and that's yours. I bet your reading this going 'What the hell?' but I don't care.
I need to say my lines as if my life was always some big dubbed script where in a past life my charter rocked and now it's just a joke. Something and someone to laugh at. You didn't think so did you? No you didn't think I was one big useless joke.
You had faith and trust in me. And sure I was a goofball but so what? We got on didn't we? Ok so I was nasty to you at first but we turned out to be great friends right? I guess I wanted to be more then friends. I'm sorry about this and please tell the others I'm sorry but I just.. I can't take the pain in my heart any more that and my father being drunk and beating the hell out of me all the time.
Life has its ups and downs. You made my life better with your innocents and friendship and oh my god I'm sounding like Tea. But some things have to be said like 'I love you' and 'I need you' and since I can't have what I need to live then why should I live?
I'm tired of the abuse and hatred I get at home and I'm tired of trying to act like I'm not head over heels in love with you. I know you're with your yami and that's cool I congratulate you and I'm happy for you. I just wish you were mine to love and hold.
I want you to tell the others I'm sorry and I loved them all as friends, and tell Kaiba he's a jerk from me ok? You don't have to show this to any one not even the cops. I want to have some dignity after I die, knowing my luck I'll end up being the laughing stalk of heaven! Or where ever I'm going.
I hope to see you one day up there. Not now but later. Maybe we can be together then? I don't know maybe this is all too much to hope for? Fate's an evil bitch when it comes to my life and every thing I do but I guess I had fun. I only had fun when I was with you guys, mostly you.
I had fun beating many duellists to but now it all feels so empty. I want you and Yugi to spilt my deck between you so at least in death my deck can help you outta some jams when in a battle. I'm sorry I had to do this. I hope you understand.
This is good luck and goodbye Ryou.
I love you
~ Joey~
~ End ~