A/N: Some of the quotes I got from weavered.com and some I made up. It wont
say whose saying which because it just fragments of their conversation.
Chapter Four: Memories And Flashbacks
As soon as Sandy realized what she had done she sank to the floor and wept. As she cried memories from the first time she saw Kerry to the fight they just had flooded her mind.
*******MEMORIES******* "I'm an emergency physician from County". "Good for you."
"Hey, I told you not to do that." "Just turn the damn power off."
"Hey I told you to stay away from this damn vehicle." "Shes bleeding out."
"Hey Dr. Weaver, right?" "Sandy Lopez"
"Sandy" "Hey still got time for a wound check?"
"You should have someone remove the stitches in four days." "I know where to find you."
"Listen, Sandy..." "Do you want to do something?" "Scuse me?" "Uh, something, you know, something." "Something?" "You Know, lunch or a movie or ice fishing..." "Like go out?" "Yeah, I mean, unless I'm totally, uh, off base here." "No you're on bass."
"Hey! You know im not good at this." "What follow up?" "Want to have lunch?" "No sushi." "What?" "I don't like sushi." "Ok, any thing you want." "I'm going to remember you said that!"
"Ahhh, I don't like Indian food anyway." "Well... why didn't you say somethin?" "I just did." "Kind of a pain in the ass, you know that?" "Some say."
"Ok, lets just forget about lookin for a descent place here. Why don't we go home and order something in?" "I like a take-charge kind of girl!" "My apartment"
"Hey, hey, what's wrong?" "Uh, nothing."
"Ho, ho, wait a minute. You're not out! Huh! Who are you hiding from?" "I'm NOT hiding!" "Wait a minute; then what the heck was that? You don't want your friends to see us together?" "They're not my friends." "How do you think that makes me feel?"
"YOU came on to me! You're not out!" "I am not out at work."
"Sandy..." "I'm sorry... I don't got time for this!"
"You're gonna keep playing this game," "I'm not playing any game." "You know, forget it." "Come on" "Forget it." "Please wait!" "No. Goodbye." "You know..." "Goodbye Dr. Weaver."
"Who are you?" "We've got a call Kerry." "I mean who the hell are you?" "I live my life without apology" "Yeah, that's right, YOUR life. You make choices for YOUR life. You don't make choices for mine."
"SO YOU DID THIS OUT OF SPITE TO TEACH ME SOME KIND OF LESSON?" "I DID YOU A HUGE FAVOR. YOU JUST DON'T KNOW IT YET!"
"You were right. You did do me a favor."
"I'm pregnant!" "What?" "I'm pregnant" "I love you." "I love you too."
"This is the perfect house Sandy." "Yeah, perfect for a family."
"I lost the baby!"
"You care more about that damned ER!" "That's not true!"
"Damit!"
******* End Memories*******
The memories came so fast that they startled her. She barely had time to concentrate on one particular memory. Sandy wiped her eyes and got up and cleaned up the glass she broke. Once that was done,deciding that the kitchen could wait till tomorrow to be cleaned up, she went up stairs and got ready for bed. Her last thought, before she closed her eyes, was that she might lose Kerry too.
Kerry had heard the sound of something shattering along with Sandy cursing. She thought about going back into the house but decided that she needed time to think. She walked to a nearby park and collapsed on a bench. They had picked this neighborhood because it was nice and clean. The house was nice and big and there was a park nearby that they could take the baby to play. Now they wouldn't be able to, thought Kerry. She couldn't take it any more and she subcomed to tears once more. As she sat there and cried she thought about the relationship she had with Sandy. It had taken her awhile to realize and except who and what she was. Sandy was like no other partner Kerry had ever had. She thought about the day she had meet Sandy. She was a fearless fire fighter who wasn't ashamed of who and what she was . Unlike Kerry who was afraid of who she was and because of that she almost lost her.
***** Flashback*****
"Ho, ho, wait a minute. You're not out! "I am not out at work." "Well, you need to be!" "Sandy..." "I'm sorry... I don't got time for this!"
***** End Flashback*****
But in the end she didn't lose her and it made her realize just how precious love is. She didn't see that with Kim and she lost her. But she vowed not to lose Sandy. She thought about the day she was outed by her coworkers. About the humiliation and fear she felt.
***** Flashback*****
"So that's it?" "What?" "You're gonna keep playing this game," "I'm not playing any game."
"Why are you avoiding?" "I'm.I'm not .look...hey can't you tell I'm just a little swamped?" "You know, forget it." "Come on" "Forget it." "Please wait!" "No. Goodbye." "You know..." "Goodbye Dr. Weaver." "What do you need, Malik?" "Nothing."
"Who are you?" "We've got a call Kerry." "I mean who the hell are you?" "I live my life without apology" "Yeah, that's right, YOUR life. You make choices for YOUR life. You don't make choices for mine."
"SO YOU DID THIS OUT OF SPITE TO TEACH ME SOME KIND OF LESSON?" "I DID YOU A HUGE FAVOR. YOU JUST DON'T KNOW IT YET!"
*****End Flashback*****
And she did, Kerry thought. She had stopped crying altogether by now. She thought about the day she told Sandy she was pregnant. Sandy had been very happy which had only made her more happy and excited. She also thought about the day they had bought there house. .
*****Flashback*****
"Sandy, im pregnant!" "What?" "Im pregnant!" "OMG! Kerry im so happy!" "Me too!" "I love you so much Kerry" "I love you too, Sandy"
"OMG, Sandy this house is perfect!" "Yeah, it's amassing!" "Its in a good neighborhood and has a park around the corner were we the baby to play." "It's perfect to build a family in."
***** End Flashback*****
She thought about her first ultrasound and haw happy she was.
***** Flashback*****
"There it is" "I can see his heartbeat." "You can tell it's a boy?" "Because I can't." "No, it's just a... figure of speech." "Are you hoping for a boy?" "Not particularly. I mean, a boy would be nice, but I... don't care."
*****End Flashback*****
Those were such good memories. It saddened Kerry to think that she may never have good memories like that with Sandy ever again. She thought about her miscarriage but quickly pushed it out of her mind. It was to painful of a memory. She thought about the fight that she and Sandy just had.
*****Flashback*****
"You know sometimes I think you care more dammed ER more than about me"
"That's not true I care about you more than anything in my life" "its just..."
"Just what?" "Hun, is it just that you're still ashamed for you colleagues to see us together"
"I was afraid you would blame me for working to hard,OK"
"Kerry" "DAMMIT"
*****End Flashback*****
Those words had stung her just as much as she knew that her words had stung Sandy. She knew in her heart that they weren't true. But she had to figure out away to convince Sandy that they weren't true too. She was exhausted so she headed home not knowing what she would find.
Chapter Four: Memories And Flashbacks
As soon as Sandy realized what she had done she sank to the floor and wept. As she cried memories from the first time she saw Kerry to the fight they just had flooded her mind.
*******MEMORIES******* "I'm an emergency physician from County". "Good for you."
"Hey, I told you not to do that." "Just turn the damn power off."
"Hey I told you to stay away from this damn vehicle." "Shes bleeding out."
"Hey Dr. Weaver, right?" "Sandy Lopez"
"Sandy" "Hey still got time for a wound check?"
"You should have someone remove the stitches in four days." "I know where to find you."
"Listen, Sandy..." "Do you want to do something?" "Scuse me?" "Uh, something, you know, something." "Something?" "You Know, lunch or a movie or ice fishing..." "Like go out?" "Yeah, I mean, unless I'm totally, uh, off base here." "No you're on bass."
"Hey! You know im not good at this." "What follow up?" "Want to have lunch?" "No sushi." "What?" "I don't like sushi." "Ok, any thing you want." "I'm going to remember you said that!"
"Ahhh, I don't like Indian food anyway." "Well... why didn't you say somethin?" "I just did." "Kind of a pain in the ass, you know that?" "Some say."
"Ok, lets just forget about lookin for a descent place here. Why don't we go home and order something in?" "I like a take-charge kind of girl!" "My apartment"
"Hey, hey, what's wrong?" "Uh, nothing."
"Ho, ho, wait a minute. You're not out! Huh! Who are you hiding from?" "I'm NOT hiding!" "Wait a minute; then what the heck was that? You don't want your friends to see us together?" "They're not my friends." "How do you think that makes me feel?"
"YOU came on to me! You're not out!" "I am not out at work."
"Sandy..." "I'm sorry... I don't got time for this!"
"You're gonna keep playing this game," "I'm not playing any game." "You know, forget it." "Come on" "Forget it." "Please wait!" "No. Goodbye." "You know..." "Goodbye Dr. Weaver."
"Who are you?" "We've got a call Kerry." "I mean who the hell are you?" "I live my life without apology" "Yeah, that's right, YOUR life. You make choices for YOUR life. You don't make choices for mine."
"SO YOU DID THIS OUT OF SPITE TO TEACH ME SOME KIND OF LESSON?" "I DID YOU A HUGE FAVOR. YOU JUST DON'T KNOW IT YET!"
"You were right. You did do me a favor."
"I'm pregnant!" "What?" "I'm pregnant" "I love you." "I love you too."
"This is the perfect house Sandy." "Yeah, perfect for a family."
"I lost the baby!"
"You care more about that damned ER!" "That's not true!"
"Damit!"
******* End Memories*******
The memories came so fast that they startled her. She barely had time to concentrate on one particular memory. Sandy wiped her eyes and got up and cleaned up the glass she broke. Once that was done,deciding that the kitchen could wait till tomorrow to be cleaned up, she went up stairs and got ready for bed. Her last thought, before she closed her eyes, was that she might lose Kerry too.
Kerry had heard the sound of something shattering along with Sandy cursing. She thought about going back into the house but decided that she needed time to think. She walked to a nearby park and collapsed on a bench. They had picked this neighborhood because it was nice and clean. The house was nice and big and there was a park nearby that they could take the baby to play. Now they wouldn't be able to, thought Kerry. She couldn't take it any more and she subcomed to tears once more. As she sat there and cried she thought about the relationship she had with Sandy. It had taken her awhile to realize and except who and what she was. Sandy was like no other partner Kerry had ever had. She thought about the day she had meet Sandy. She was a fearless fire fighter who wasn't ashamed of who and what she was . Unlike Kerry who was afraid of who she was and because of that she almost lost her.
***** Flashback*****
"Ho, ho, wait a minute. You're not out! "I am not out at work." "Well, you need to be!" "Sandy..." "I'm sorry... I don't got time for this!"
***** End Flashback*****
But in the end she didn't lose her and it made her realize just how precious love is. She didn't see that with Kim and she lost her. But she vowed not to lose Sandy. She thought about the day she was outed by her coworkers. About the humiliation and fear she felt.
***** Flashback*****
"So that's it?" "What?" "You're gonna keep playing this game," "I'm not playing any game."
"Why are you avoiding?" "I'm.I'm not .look...hey can't you tell I'm just a little swamped?" "You know, forget it." "Come on" "Forget it." "Please wait!" "No. Goodbye." "You know..." "Goodbye Dr. Weaver." "What do you need, Malik?" "Nothing."
"Who are you?" "We've got a call Kerry." "I mean who the hell are you?" "I live my life without apology" "Yeah, that's right, YOUR life. You make choices for YOUR life. You don't make choices for mine."
"SO YOU DID THIS OUT OF SPITE TO TEACH ME SOME KIND OF LESSON?" "I DID YOU A HUGE FAVOR. YOU JUST DON'T KNOW IT YET!"
*****End Flashback*****
And she did, Kerry thought. She had stopped crying altogether by now. She thought about the day she told Sandy she was pregnant. Sandy had been very happy which had only made her more happy and excited. She also thought about the day they had bought there house. .
*****Flashback*****
"Sandy, im pregnant!" "What?" "Im pregnant!" "OMG! Kerry im so happy!" "Me too!" "I love you so much Kerry" "I love you too, Sandy"
"OMG, Sandy this house is perfect!" "Yeah, it's amassing!" "Its in a good neighborhood and has a park around the corner were we the baby to play." "It's perfect to build a family in."
***** End Flashback*****
She thought about her first ultrasound and haw happy she was.
***** Flashback*****
"There it is" "I can see his heartbeat." "You can tell it's a boy?" "Because I can't." "No, it's just a... figure of speech." "Are you hoping for a boy?" "Not particularly. I mean, a boy would be nice, but I... don't care."
*****End Flashback*****
Those were such good memories. It saddened Kerry to think that she may never have good memories like that with Sandy ever again. She thought about her miscarriage but quickly pushed it out of her mind. It was to painful of a memory. She thought about the fight that she and Sandy just had.
*****Flashback*****
"You know sometimes I think you care more dammed ER more than about me"
"That's not true I care about you more than anything in my life" "its just..."
"Just what?" "Hun, is it just that you're still ashamed for you colleagues to see us together"
"I was afraid you would blame me for working to hard,OK"
"Kerry" "DAMMIT"
*****End Flashback*****
Those words had stung her just as much as she knew that her words had stung Sandy. She knew in her heart that they weren't true. But she had to figure out away to convince Sandy that they weren't true too. She was exhausted so she headed home not knowing what she would find.